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without really meaning it

The Way You Said “I Love You” Prompts
@stileslydiah requested “24. Without really meaning it”

Watching Derek dote on someone is hard – harder than Stiles thought it would ever be, despite the fact he knows it’s insincere; despite the fact it’s the job and nothing more.

 It’s hard because Stiles hasn’t had those arms around him in months, hasn’t had opportunity to arrange a chance meeting on a crowded street in weeks, hasn’t had Derek’s eyes meet his and watched his mouth curl into a smile for him.

 Derek’s team have been fairly indulgent, letting Stiles tag along on the assignment to observe and allowing him to blend with various crowds just to be close to Derek. Early on, before Derek insinuated himself into their mark’s life, they even allowed them to talk on the phone, but that might as well have been in another lifetime.

 Sometimes, Stiles hates his job, hates Derek’s job, hates the fact they’d never have met if it wasn’t for their jobs because then he can’t hate it as much.

 Stiles is across the restaurant and he can’t tear his eyes away from the back of Derek’s head for more than a few seconds at a time, usually at the prompting of the agent he’s sitting across from.

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So these Keith and Lance moments make me sad

Does anyone ever think about that Taking Flight episode where Lance is in the healing pod and everyone is waiting outside it impatiently for him to get better? And so Keith is there, and he’s so anxious for Lance to be okay that he goes so far as to tap on the pod, get yelled at, and then pout about it (after getting some funny looks). Like, this is after he and Lance shared their bonding moment when Lance shot at Sendak and was all “we do make a good team” to Keith, who had that cute, little smile in response. 

And, like, this makes me sad because Keith was probably “Omg, Lance and I had a bonding moment, he doesn’t hate me anymore, maybe we can be friends!” Because Keith has no idea why Lance picks fights with him all the time and is so socially awkward that he would assume one moment of civility means so much more than it did, and so that moment means so much to him

Only for Lance to wake up and completely deny the whole thing. 

But I also understand Lance’s pettiness, even if I don’t agree, because he’d been competing with Keith for so long, but Keith didn’t even remember him and so it was the perfect time for revenge (because I suspect Lance was lying about not remembering). But, like, how devastated was Keith? After being so worried and so excited for Lance to come out of the pod? And how devastated was Lance when Keith didn’t even know who he was in the first episode? 

And, like, did this make Keith very cautious about trusting Lance? Kind of like how Lance is so careful to keep Keith at a distance? And, to be honest, their relationship–though they’ve had some good moments on a professional level–hasn’t gotten a whole lot better, which makes sense with the festering of bad feelings, no matter the few times they get along. And, like, how upset Lance was in the Marmora episode when Keith was getting all of Shiro’s favs (be it rational or not) and, like, how much resentment is building in both of them toward the other? Even though they both clearly care about each other a lot too? Like, how conflicting is that?

It just- it makes me so emotional

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mystic messenger  jaehee/mc

“will you create a space of our own with me? will you be my partner?”

Have you ever thought about how it should be unlikely that something as trivial as measurements are the same everywhere in the Star Wars universe? We don’t even manage to do that on one planet.
Like Rey, not remembering anything but Jakku- she measures wealth in food portions. She probably measures water in canteens- and distance? Time? Her sense of time would be completely off as soon as she gets on a planet that is considerably smaller/larger than Jakku.
Finn is very precise, he learned it in the First Order, everything had to be excact. But they may also have come up with ways of measuring things that are different than those employed by the Republic, just out of spite.
So a conversation I can imagine happening all too often would be

Poe: Hey, can you pour me some of the stew?
Finn: Sure, how much?
Poe: Maybe 2 parcan.
Finn: … what?
Poe: 2 parcan!
Rey: You mean 2 portions?
Finn: WTF is a parcan?
Poe: How do
you measure stew, then? How much would that be?
*points to Finn’s bowl*
Finn: Maybe around 10.
Rey: 10 what?
Finn: Just… 10!
Poe: … okay. Rey?
Rey: Don’t ask me, I never even HAD stew.
Poe: … then what would you call this?
Rey: Food.
Finn: I think he means the amount.
Rey: A day’s worth?
Poe: No, like, if you measured it? What is it?
Rey: A lot!
Poe:  -.-

anonymous asked:

Headcanon of the bros s/o as a super shy person that is kinda a crybaby? btw love your blog keep up the amazing work! ^^

sure thing! and thank you so much for your compliment, it really means so much ;u;


  • He might have initially thought that their shyness would be an annoying trait that would get in the way of their personal growth, but eventually he’d come to learn that he has his own shy sides that he feels he can show around this person. 
  • Since he is the more assertive one out of the pair (being heir to the throne doesn’t exactly allow for any shyness), he feels the need to stick by his partner often if he ever needs to save them from situations they feel uncomfortable in. But he honestly doesn’t mind it; he likes being needed, a lot more than others might think.
  • He would try to gently nudge his partner to do things they might think are scary but end up not being so bad. Like when talking to someone new, he’ll give them a little pat on the back and say, “Go on.” At the end of the day, he really does want his partner to feel okay with themselves and try to improve upon their crippling shyness.
  • Once he finds out that they cry easily, he has to take differing procedures whenever they start to tear up. If it’s just because a movie didn’t give the protagonists a happy ending, he’ll sigh (fondly) and pull them to him to kiss their hair. If it’s because someone crossed a line, he will definitely find who did it and make them regret it. 


  • His mother hen tendencies practically double in regards to his partner; he often has a “they’re hopeless without me” mindset whenever they’re in a pinch and thus isn’t very surprised when problems arise from their shyness. If it weren’t already obvious, he is very good at saving people and pretty much considers it his job.
  • He might become confused at some points. Though their quiet demeanor and gentle heart are undeniably endearing, he sometimes wonders if their extreme shyness is something they’ll have trouble with in the future, then worry he’s not doing enough to get them to open up and grow as a person. 
  • Ignis probably comes off as more of a babysitter than a romantic partner when in public with them. The way he fawns over them and makes sure they’re comfortable at all times may even seem saccharine at some point, but it’s because he genuinely adores them and the last thing he wants is to see them cry. 
  • When he’s especially torn over how he takes care of his partner, he’ll hold them gently and sigh. “What am I to do with you? Everything you do somehow makes me want to spoil you rotten.”


  • Oftentimes he’s unable to relate to moments that make his partner uncomfortable, since Gladio’s idea of an awkward situation is vastly different from normal standards. He usually doesn’t see a reason for his s/o to get flustered when a seemingly obvious solution to the problem exists, but they’re just too nervous to see it. 
  • Thus, he’s not the best at helping them out in uncomfortable situations, since most of the time he sits back and consciously leaves his partner to try to figure out the best way out of it themselves. He’s the opposite of Ignis, who spoils his partner by letting them depend on him all the time. It may seem too harsh, but the bottom line is that he also wants to see his partner grow and come out of their shell.
  • At the same time, he likes their shy nature because getting them flustered is easy (and therefore fun for him). He’ll often say it’s not that he hates their shyness, but just that they can’t stay that way forever or else they might miss out on a lot of opportunities in the future.
  • If they end up crying over something trivial, even he can’t get frustrated. “You’re adorable,” he’ll laugh while petting their head.


  • He probably thinks that his partner’s shyness is the cutest thing in the world. His favorite thing to do is shower them in compliments, then watch them go red. Having such an effect on someone is something he can’t seem to get over. It’s too fun and too cute to watch. 
  • Prompto also insists on sticking by his partner’s side as much as he can, because the thought of them wandering off somewhere or being approached by scary people is enough to scare him. He’ll always remind them to call him if they’re ever in trouble, because “your hero Prompto is always at your beck and call!”
  • He doesn’t see their shyness as a problem. If they aren’t comfortable doing things, then he’s more than happy to help them or do it for them. The idea of pushing them out of their comfort zone makes him worry his partner might have a meltdown at some point. In general, he’s very sensitive to how they might feel in certain situations, and says he’s just fine with the way they are. 
  • Usually if his partner’s in trouble, he’ll just grab their hand and run away from the situation if possible, or try to puff up his chest and look aggressive to possible predators. (It usually doesn’t work.)

(whgwbhgbhhw THIS ENDED UP BEING SO LONG oops,)


(Yeah, John and Sherlock are just as surprised and excited as I am.)

Surprise!!! Guess who reached 500 followers? It’s me! 😊

What a wonderful thing to wake up to! Honestly, how did this happen? When I made this blog last summer I never thought I would ever have more than 20 (which was what I had for like the first year) and now look at this?! This is incredible and means a lot, I love you all!

In the time I spent here I have been able to meet so many lovely, kind, brilliant, talented people, and I really don’t know what my life would be now without you guys. I’m so glad I started watching this weird show called BBC Sherlock and fell in love with those two idiots who are in love with each other, because that’s what brought me here in the first place. And really, you all make every minute I waste on this blue hellsite worth it. 😘

I’m not doing a “proper” follow forever (with all the categories and stuff) but more like a little shoutout to all my amazing friends and mutuals on here, I love you all so so very much! 💗💗💗

So, here you are…

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New Paper Mario on Dolphin

As you might have guessed, I have decided to port my New Paper Mario texture pack onto the Dolphin emulator. (Paper Mario on a dolphin, get it?)
I have thought about this for quite a long time but now I have decided that Dolphin is better suited for the task than N64 emulators. Dolphin still does have some problems, but at least it is still actively being developed.

So, what does this mean?
-Well, unfortunately it means a lot of work since I have to rename practically every texture for it to work with Dolphin.
-However, it also means that once I’m again at the same state of texturing, it will go much faster.
-And it also means that I now have more motivation than ever, now that it’s actually possible for me to finish the pack.

Now… it would be great if some people would like to help me. This time, it’s mainly about playing through the game on Dolphin and dumping and sorting all the textures so I can just focus on retexturing. 
So, if you have any experience with Dolphin and how it handles high-res texture packs and would like to help me, send me an email at: npm at nelde dot ch (preferably with the email address that is connected to Dropbox) and I will add you to a Dropbox folder where you can contribute.
I appreciate your help, but please only write if you have some experience

Rainy Days: Josh Dun imagine part 8

A/N: All the love and support I’ve received in the past week has blown me away completely. Thank you so much guys, it means more than you will ever know. You’re all so kind and amazing and I want you all to know that you’re so important to me and I’m really grateful for you all. Sorry that sounded cheesy and weird haha. Anyways, here’s what you’re actually waiting for… :)

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The rest of the time you spent at the arcade was you, Josh, and Tyler trying to battle it out on ski ball. Although you did spend a little bit more time than you would’ve thought Josh preferred trying to teach Tyler how to use the pinball machine, you thought you were managing your time equally with each boy. It was sort of ridiculous, but then you had to remind yourself, even though Josh might be older than you, he still had feelings like everyone else. Much less, it was about time he got a little annoyed with you. He definitely had the most tolerance. You laughed to yourself thinking this as Tyler put his arm around your shoulder, facing you and grinning. “There’s my ski ball champion!” he announced. “I’m proud of you, y/n.”

“It was just ski ball,” you rolled your eyes. “But thanks anyways, Tyler.”

“I think I’m going to go get an Uber head back to my hotel,” he sighed. “I’m only a couple rooms down the hall from Josh, so feel free to stop by if you want. I’m a little sleepy so I’ll probably take a nap and then catch up with you two tomorrow. Sound good?”

“Yeah,” you nodded.

“We’re fine to give you a ride if you need it,” Josh offered. “I don’t think we’ll be sticking around here much longer.”

“Nah, I don’t want to infringe any more than I already have on your time together,” Tyler teased. “Just make sure you two lovers behave. Keep your clothes on.”

“Oh stop it!” you giggled, playfully shoving him away.

“Tyler Joseph,” Josh rolled his eyes.

“I was kidding,” he sighed. “Anyways, see you later. It was very nice meeting you, y/n.”

“You too,” you waved him goodbye and watched as he walked out the door of the arcade, then turned to Josh, looking up into his brown eyes. “Just us now, right?”

“Yeah,” he gave a sly smile.

“You said you had some surprise for me or something?” you raised an eyebrow. “Remember?”

“How could I forget?” he chuckled. “But first um, can I play a game or two of Frogger?”

“They have a Frogger machine in here?” your eyes lit up.

“Yeah, it’s one of Tyler and my favorite games,” he admitted. “I think Tyler didn’t notice it either. It’s towards the back. Come on.” You assumed you’d just follow Josh, but you noticed his outstretched hand, and you glanced at him for a second and then smiled, grabbing it and holding his hand as he led you to the back of the arcade, where a vintage Frogger machine awaited you guys.

“Here, I’ve only got two coins left,” you told him, reaching into your pocket and handing him all you had left. He grinned a thank you and then squeezed your hand before letting go, sliding the coin into the machine and beginning to play. He wasn’t that bad, I mean, you’ve never actually seen anyone in your life truly excel at playing Frogger, but he made it through several tries and you laughed when he died by hopping into the water.

“I suck at this game,” he mumbled. “You should try.”

“Nah, I bet I’m worse,” you insisted.

“Come on,” he pleaded.

“Nope,” you shook your head. “Let’s just-”

“Too late I already put the coin in,” he sighed. “Looks like you’ll have to play now, huh?” A mischievous grin crept onto his face.

“Gosh dammit Josh,” you laughed, quickly racing to put your hands on the buttons and focus your attention on the screen. It didn’t take but a couple seconds before you died, and you both laughed it off. “Now come on, enough with the games, let’s go find out what my surprise is.”

“Someone’s eager,” Josh raised his eyebrows.

“Just curious,” you shrugged.

“But look there’s a Pac-Man machine over there…” he began but you rolled your eyes and giggled, dragging him out the door.

“We’re never going to leave anytime soon if you keep getting attracted to the shiny objects,” you reminded as you walked to his car.

“I’m not distracted by shiny objects,” he protested. “I just like looking at pretty things.” His eyes rested on you and he grinned. “They’re nice to look at, you know?”

“Shut up,” you teased, getting in the car.

As soon as you hit the road, Josh didn’t waste any time before handing you the aux cord and letting you choose one of your favorite playlists to blast. You grinned as the first notes to one of your favorite Pierce the Veil songs started playing and leaned back in your seat, belting out the lyrics and watching Josh laugh at the silly faces you made as you sang. You rolled down the windows when you hit the highway, wind blowing on your face and whistling in your ears, turning the music up and feeling the refreshing breeze hit you. Josh grinned at the fresh air, going a couple miles above the speed limit, and you glared at him before he laughed it off and then slowed down. It took a couple minutes before he found the exit he wanted, and then he turned down the music, rolled up the windows, and drove into a parking lot of an old abandoned Guitar Center. “Come on,” he beckoned once again, getting out and you followed, unsure why you might be in such an open, deserted, weird location.

“What crazy shit do you have planned now?” you wondered aloud, following him to where he was popping open the trunk of his car. “Are we going to break into the building?”

“What? No!” Josh shook his head. “I’m not that insane, y/n.”

“I don’t know, you pulled the fire alarm that one time,” you joked.

“One time,” he reminded.

“Whatever,” you giggled.

“You ever skateboard before?” he raised an eyebrow, pulling out his skateboard from his trunk and setting it on the pavement. He closed the trunk and then turned towards you.

“Nope,” you answered. “I’m terrified to try.”

“Come on, it’s fun,” Josh insisted. “I’ll teach you.” He stepped on it, kicking up momentum before speeding off, the skidding sound of wheels on the asphalt of the parking lot making you smile, watching as he maneuvered around the parking lot, making it look effortless, before zooming back to you, halting to a stop and flawlessly picking up the skateboard and laughing, a little bit of sweat forming on his brow. “See? Doesn’t it look exciting?”

“Yeah maybe if falling on my face counts as exciting,” you responded, voice oozing with sarcasm. “Come on Josh, I’ll probably suck at this. I’m just going to make a fool of myself!”

“No you’re not,” he rolled his eyes. “Come on, I’m sure you’ll be fine. And don’t worry. I’ll be right here to help you. You can go as slow or as fast as you want. I promise it’s going to be fine.”

“I don’t know…” you stared at the skateboard he was holding and sighed.

“We can go slow,” he repeated. “Just trust me.”

“Okay,” you took a deep breath, him giving you both of his hands as you steadied yourself onto the skateboard and tried to find your balance.

“See?” he smiled. “Kind of like a weird form of surfing.”

“This is nothing like surfing,” you narrowed your eyes.

“Come on, have a little fun,” he tried cheering up your grumpy mood. He let go of your hands, slowly moving them to your hips. You tensed up and tried to keep breathing normal. Geez he was so close to you, and his smile and his eyes were distracting. You almost didn’t even notice the skateboard was moving until you heard the familiar noise of the wheels skidding with the asphalt of the parking lot. “Not that bad huh?”

“I think I’m kind of getting the hang of it,” you gave a half smile when he released his hold on you and let you go on your own. All you needed to do was gain momentum with your foot, stay steady and keep your balance, and keep increasing your speed. It didn’t take that long before you passed Josh jogging beside you, zooming past the parking lot and laughing. This was fun.

“You’re doing great!” Josh praised happily. “You’re a natural!”

“Really?” you turned your head around, searching for his eyes, when you lost balance and took a headfirst dive into the parking lot, skateboard sliding out from under your feet and instinctively putting your arms out to stop you, getting your palms scraped and receiving a brief face plant with the ground.

“Oh shit!” Josh exclaimed, racing towards you. That was probably the first time you had ever heard Josh Dun cuss, and this only made you widen your eyes. “Damn it, are you okay?”

“I’m fine,” you tried to laugh it off as he helped steady you to standing again, although your bloody hands and scraped cheek proved your words otherwise.

“My goodness, that scared me so bad,” he closed his eyes tight. He gave you a quick hug and then his eyes grew soft and concerned, full of fright when he brought his hand closer to your face for examination. “You’re bleeding. Geez y/n, we got to get you a bandage or something. And your face too, shit, this is my fault-”

“It’s not your fault,” you shook your head.

“Yes it is!” he argued.

“I was the idiot on the skateboard,” you reminded. “I was going way too fast and I’m unexperienced anyways. I should’ve known better. Besides, it’s just a couple scrapes. I’m just a little broken, that’s all. It’s fine.”

“But don’t you hurt? Aren’t you in pain?” he persisted.

“Don’t baby me,” you rolled your eyes. “I’m okay, I promise.”

“Did you just make a song reference?” he raised an eyebrow and stifled a laugh.

“Maybe,” you grinned shyly, still embarrassed how stupid you probably looked falling off the skateboard. Oh yeah, the skateboard. You spotted it not too far off and jogged over to get it, your wrists feeling sort of sore, but you shook off the feeling and handed Josh his skateboard. “Um, I think I’m going to take a little break from this for a while.”

“Yeah no kidding,” he cringed. “Look I’m sorry I kind of forced you to try. I should’ve known-”

“It’s fine,” you sighed. “Don’t worry, Josh.”

The ride home you ended up laughing about it, and as soon as you got to Josh’s hotel room, he made sure to put bandages on your hands and wash up your face, giving you painkillers and wrapping you up in a fluffy blanket, sitting beside you on the couch as he turned on one of your favorite shows on Netflix. “You comfy?” he wondered.

“Absolutely,” you smiled, cuddling up in the blanket even more. “Thanks for taking such good care of me.”

“I let your face collide with a parking lot,” he sighed. “I don’t know how the heck that counts as taking good care of you.”

“I meant the bandages and the pills and the coziness,” you corrected. “You’re really sweet.”

“You know what else I am?” Josh asked. “Really cold.”

“Then come here, you dork,” you chuckled, opening up your arms and watching as he scooted closer to you and you enveloped him in the fluffy blanket, laying your head on his shoulder and wrapping your arms around him.

“I could get used to this,” he giggled.

“Me too,” you agreed, feeling his fingers start to sift through your hair. “And to think my parents are convinced I’m over at a friend’s house right now having a sleepover and studying for a quiz.”

“So you’re going to spend the night?” he asked eagerly. “You’re not going to go home?”

“Uh, if that’s alright with you, yeah,” you responded. “I mean, it’s my turn now, right? Since you spent the night at my place already.”

“Yeah,” he laughed. “Geez, what is Tyler going to think?”

“What do mean?” you asked, confused.

“He’ll probably be the jealous one,” Josh rolled his eyes. “With us having sleepovers and hanging out all the time, stealing you from school and helping you escape home, going to get tacos and pancakes, texting you and talking to you… he’s probably going to think I got a new best friend.”

“It doesn’t have to be best friend,” you shrugged innocently, your eyes meeting his. You stared at each other, not saying a word, just getting lost in each other’s eyes. And you don’t know what crazy emotion got into you, but you did it. Maybe it was the aftershock of the plummet into the pavement or the adrenaline from the arcade, maybe it was the bass still beating in your heart from blasting the music on the highway or the laughter ringing in your ears from the ride home, perhaps it was the careful tenderness of the way he had hugged you or the soft press of his lips to your forehead, but whatever it was, it took ahold of you all of a sudden, and without thinking, you leaned in and kissed him. You kissed Josh on the lips, and he felt so sweet, so warm, so lovely. You felt his fingers tangled in your hair pulling you closer, the blanket wrapped around you both keeping you warm, the way your hands guided his body even more towards yours, but it was magical. It was the most magical feeling in the world. You never wanted it to end.


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  • expresses his love more through actions than words
  • a v gentle boyfriend
  • he’d always put you first and would be constantly looking out for you
  • he’s the type that takes time to open up but he’d be totally transparent with you
  • the type to still act a bit shy when actually showing affection (aka hugging, kisses, etc)
  • having him as a boyfriend means the occasional super deep and emotional talks
  • he’d never get mad at you and if he did it’d pass within seconds
  • he’d love playing video games with you
  • and if you guys shared the same love for manga he’d find you hella attractive
  • the sweetest eye smiles ever they’d radiate so much warmth and love
  • he’d constantly remind you about how pretty you are
  • the type to drape his jacket over you if it was cold
  • i feel as if he’d plan a lot surprise dates
  • very thoughtful and sweet gifts
  • he’s very observant so i think he’d be really good at reading your moods and would know how to act accordingly
  • he’d have a lot of pictures of you in his phone but you’d be completely oblivious about it 
  • he’d love watching you sleep 
  • the type to tuck hair strands behind your ears
  • quiet protective type
  • he’d like to rest his chin on your shoulder a lot as he hugged you from behind
  • he’d love to play with your hair a lot (he’d ruffle it and make it messy thinking you looked adorable af)
  • he’d like lifting you up a lot despite your protests


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so, i have always loved 7.22 of gilmore girls – i think it’s my favorite series finale of anything ever – but after getting official confirmation of how ASP’s 7.22 would have ended in the new tvline interview, i now love the actual 7.22 so much that, were it a person and not an episode of television, i would fall on my knees before it sobbing “THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU FOR SAVING US. THANK YOU FOR BUYING US 9 YEARS OF HOPE AND DREAMS.”

i kinda wonder if david rosenthal and the s7 gang knew about the final four words, and were like, “hell nah, we’re not doing that to rory” and decided to end the series on the exact opposite note.

I like how the first two episodes of supergirl season 2 were all about superman and they promoted him so much ( he even went to comic con with them) I literally thought he was gonna be there the whole season or at least more than 2 frickin episodes and then the episode right after he left were all about mon El.

At the start I thought people were just overreacting about the whole “oh it’s gonna be all about superman” thing so I was like you know what I’m gonna give cw a chance. But ever since they moved it has been all about the men. I mean I thought this was supposed to be about supergirl. Sure we get a few Kara scenes (about her story line) here and there but if it wasn’t for the title I would think that this was a show about mon El.

I literally do not even care how I look. This is raw, unfiltered, unedited, and yet the most beautiful picture I’ve ever taken, personally. To me that is.. I can rarely get the girls to take a picture together much less one of me with them and so this picture means more to me than any picture possible because it shows my two beautiful and smart little girls and a mom who doesn’t care what she looks like because at the end of the day, my girls will love me just as I am…
Motherhood has taught me so much about self love, that I never thought would be possible.. But it has. Sure, I’ve got a little extra weight that I could definitely lose. Sure my hair is a complete fried mess and absolutely sure that I have dark circles and a few splotches on my face but at the end of the day, I love this me. I love the mom I have become. I’m still learning, they’re still teaching me, I’m teaching them, were learning together but no matter what… This mama knows she’s doing right by her girls because I will NEVER make them feel anything less of smart and beautiful for who they are.

(Excuse my jumble-ness, lol)

this is just how beautiful steroline is

she actually felt neglected by everyone when she met him, she was very insecure about herself and she met this guy and she liked him

she liked him so much she was already thinking about their june wedding

and he turned her down for someone else

he felt alone most of his immortal life

for parts of his life he met women he loved for a long time

but they were not for him, they broke his heart

suddenly this shallow insecure girl he had turned down needed him to save her

and he did

and then she did

they became the closest friends

but, i mean, if you take a look at her attitude towards him you can tell there is always a little of that junior year crush left in her

that became love soon enough

and for him too, but it took him longer

the saved each other constantly

she made him fly and he pulled her back to land, perfect balance

and we’re at a point where he knows there is no one he could love more than this girl who thought no one would ever pick her

but he did, that boy who never loved someone enough to give her a ring

until now

Some things you will never hear
    Some words you will never read
    I don’t mean them any less
I did love you
    So much it hurt
    It still hurts
Letting you go is the hardest thing I’ve ever done
    My hands shook
    My chest stopped
    I felt like an addict who would finally let go
    Even now I remember only how good you felt
    And how badly I want to relapse
I still think about you everyday
    Sometimes I think about if I’ve spent a day without thinking about you
    This only makes me think of you more
I secretly hope you keep my stuff
    Just so you can think of me sometimes
You scared me more than anything
    I was always afraid you would get bored of me
    Because I thought even watching you breathe was beautiful
I just want you to know how much of me you still have
   How much I’m never going to have again
   And that it’s yours to keep
—  Day 11/366

blissfulbees  asked:

social anxiety is the fucking worst. I mean, I've bought a book on how to get over it and even feel motivated but the self. hate. is. too. strong. it's much easier listening to my brain tell me I'm worthless bc that's what I've done my entire life and it feels more familiar than telling myself to be strong and confident. do you happen to have any self love tips? also, lil question: does anyone else feel guilty af when they vent their feelings? maybe it's bc I'm used to suppression

surely! i always used to feel so guilty when i told anyone anything about myself bc i thought it was all just a burden and that no one ever wanted to hear it. but that’s the thing. they do! people wouldn’t ask you what’s wrong if they truly didn’t want to hear it. people are there for you because THEY CARE! that was the hardest thing for me to realize, i always thought everyone would leave me and hated me and never cared. but they do. life isn’t as bad as everyone makes it out to be. people aren’t all assholes and rude and cruel. so trust that people have good intentions, maybe you’ll be let down, but it’s a whole lot better than assuming everyone is out to get to you and planning on hurting you. and as for loving yourself, start by smiling more. smile at everyone around you. sounds silly, but just seeing someone smile at you kinda makes things better. and smile at yourself in the mirror! it sounds dumb but that’s what i do!! it helps!! give yourself compliments! “i look good!” “this color really complements me!” and go from there! build yourself up like the tall, beautiful temple you are.

Thank you everyone and Important question

I wanted to say thank you so much to everyone for the support this blog has received. I honestly never thought it would have 10 followers. But before I knew it there were over 1000 people waiting to see my amateur writing. It means more to me then I can express.

Having said that I am faced with a bit of a dilemma, and I feel the need to ask for opinions.
I’ve said it a few times before but there are a TON of asks in my inbox. More than I ever thought I would get.

I wanted to complete requests in the order I received them but there are so many and some don’t inspire me as much as others. Doing them in order almost feels like a job instead of something I enjoy. So I have a couple of options that I’m considering.
A) wipe my inbox completely and have people send in new requests, so it doesn’t feel as daunting to write

B) wipe most of them, and keep prompts that inspired me or that I want to write.

C)keep most of them and start to go out of order even though it means some request will sit for even longer.

I’m also struggling to accept that these are requests and that I don’t need to do every single one, because I want to. If someone sends in a request I want to write it because it means they like my writing. But not all the prompts I get really inspire me or give me ideas.

So please help me decide what to do, it’s been on my mind for a while and I feel it’s keeping me from making content for you guys.

The sooner I figure out what to do the sooner I’ll have more works up again.

ASoUE Cast Ideas

I’ve been thinking about this way too much at work so I figured I’d share (if a character isn’t listed it means that either I didn’t have any good ideas or i forgot about them) and some actors are listed more than once because i thought they’d be interesting in multiple roles and also because I WANT THEM IN THE SHOW. put Aldis Hodge in ASoUE. DO IT.

Esme Gigi Genevieve Squalor:
Laverne Cox
Mindy Kaling
Taraji P. Henson
Anne Hathaway
Freema Agyemen
Alia Shawkat

Jerome Squalor:
John Cho
John Boyega
Aldis Hodge
Mahershala Ali
Rami Malek

Lee Pace
Aldis Hodge
Dev Patel
Dule Hill

VFD Elders:
Patrick Stewart
Ian McKellan
Danny Glover
Harrison Ford
Betty White
Maggie Smith
Liza Minelli
??? All your faves ok i can’t think of enough older actors

Dustin Hoffman
Morgan Freeman

Captain Widdershins:
Chi McBride
Forest Whitaker (tell me this would not be the greatest casting choice ever)

Quvenzhané Wallis
Auli'i Cravalho

The Man With a Beard But No Hair:
Samuel L. Jackson
or someone who doesn’t look intimidating at all like
Matthew Broderick

The Woman With Hair, But No Beard:
Freema Agyemen
Catherine Tate

Madame Lulu:
Emily Browning
?? I don’t know I’m drawing a blank here

Bill Hader
Keegan-Michael Key
Aziz Ansari

Kit Snicket:
Emily Browning
Anne Hathaway
Lucy Liu
Mila Kunis
Ruth Negga
Mizuo Peck

Jacques Snicket:
Sebastian Stan????
Daniel Henney
Shia LaBeouf
Javier Bardem
Steve Coogan

Beautiful Just As You Are

A/N: As someone who has been overweight most of their life and has only recently started to lose weight to get to the point of being a healthier BMI weight, I sympathize with this request a lot. Some of the stuff used in here is actually how I view/viewed myself so it could potentially be triggerish or just sad in general. If you ever feel that way please don’t hesitate to come and talk to me.

Request:  Hi, I love your writing and I was wondering if I could request some love from Lucifer for a plus size reader? Fluffy, smut, any sort of love. Thank you.

Warnings: Severe self hatred and body negativity that the author experienced so…but it’s a good ending! Ok wait this is actually much more intense in some ways than I thought it would be just because I brought out my inner sad so… I mean I think it’s pretty good but go ahead at your own risk.

Originally posted by spnfans

It had been a good day-no great day! You went to the store to get the perfect dress for your anniversary dinner next week, you went to the supermarket to get food for dinner, plus you saw the cute little animals at the pet store and a puppy even licked your nose! Oh, it was all so fantastic and you genuinely couldn’t have been happier.

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I’m on such an intense BLACKPINK kick right now, because I’m missing my girls so much 😭😭 I need a comeback from them. Noooow~!!! I really hope that their lack of constant updates on the V-app channel+ thing means that they’re busy recording, practicing and whatnot 🙏

Also, YG. Let it be an actual album that they come back with this time. Please and thank you. I’m still completely in love with the four songs they have out, but… It’s FOUR songs. I need way more than that from my babies 💕