So. Today was my last day at my job.
My day started out happy, then a few bad things happened and I ended up going to work sad AF. Then when I got to work, I realized my favorite manager (and really like 1 of only 3-4 people I’d truly miss) didnt come to work today. Which made me teary-eyed because through this whole year I’ve been depressed and struggling and had no friends or family or support system, and he would literally be so concerned about me when it started to show on my face. Constantly checking up on me and doing/saying things to make me smile and telling me he was there whenever I needed to talk, even though I never did because uhh I’m an idiot.
Anyway, he just really lifted my spirits when I was down and pretty lonely and he was one of the few lights in my life this year and I’m so mad at myself for never saying the things I always wanted to say whenever he talked to me. He has no idea how much I appreciate him now. He told me multiple times leading up to my last day that he was gonna miss me and I never even let myself tell him I was gonna miss him too. There was so much I was gonna say to him today that I cant now. I mean my friend is gonna relay a message but its not the same.
But after I accepted I was never gonna get that face-to-face talk with him, I just focused on finishing out the day and I actually left with a smile on my face. Now I have one more week in Wisconsin, which will be spent packing up my apartment, selling furniture, and cleaning. Then I start my new life on the first of the month…