it looked really good in my mind i just don't know


I very much love Garcia Flynn. Definitely too much. We don’t deserve a character so complex and tragic. But also yes I do. Give me more. I earned this. I’ve sat through so many black and white characters. Give me all those shades of gray.

As for the group picture near the end, you know I’m on the Lucy is Flynn’s wife train. All aboard. I will hold out for this until they blatantly tell me no. Probably not even then really. And if it isn’t true, boy, do I have enough observations and theories to make a kickin AU.

icy-doodles  asked:

Hey, how do you find the motivation to draw ???


I’m not the best person to ask I reckon since I’ve honestly not been in too bad of an art slump in a while but I do know what it feels like. My advice would be to inspire yourself. Find something you absolutely want to draw; whether it be something from real life or an idea or just some random art. I mean even if it’s just the thought in your head of drawing, it still counts. It makes us driven. 

Don’t pressure yourself, or worse, don’t look down and be angry at yourself for not drawing. This is something a lot of people do and it doesn’t have to be only art. It’s our own little ball of frustration that we keep to ourselves. But don’t let that build up inside you that it eats you up. Be reminded that this is a steady process, that for good work to be created, an even better state of mind and a good thinking process is required is behind it. Be reminded that this is a process, all tiny steps to create something that is essentially for ourselves. Don’t beat yourself over it, it’s natural to suddenly lose motivation and it’s natural to having slow baby steps towards coming back. No one can ever stay on that treadmill all year, so let yourself be steady and stay at a pace you can handle because otherwise you’re rushing and pressuring yourself. Don’t do that to yourself. Don’t let yourself be the enemy. 

As mentioned, take baby steps! Take tiny parts of your day doing what you want to do. For example, at a certain time when I’m not feeling the digital art, I like to draw all over one page each night at least. Usually by then, I’ll have a sketch I’m dying to have done digitally. Tiny things like this and just an hour’s work can really get the ball rolling! The Bubblegum Series was just a random sketch of Cana back then. When I really feel like I’m missing out on the traditional art and losing motivation to do it, I watch other people’s work. See their process and think “I really wanna try out that technique”. That kind of thinking is how I created the style of The Bubblegum Series. Seeing other styles is inspirational as it is, but observing the process of work is something else; I’ve mentioned before that watching speedpaints in something I enjoy to observe the process of an artist and incorporating techniques in my own process to see how it all collides to create something new. It’s how I usually step back and change up how I draw or colour!

Some baby steps;

- Create a musical playlist full of songs you think will def get you wanting to draw that something! I have one and some pretty heartbreaking stuff is there. 

- Write stuff down! Dude, this is important! Make sure to jot down your ideas. Like for real, I don’t care if you have perfect memory. Ideas can easily slip out so write down what you want to draw when you think of it in a middle of breakfast or something!

- Draw some real life people! It helps because you don’t have a certain topic to even think about! All you have to do is capture the moment. Let it be the impromptu of art. The most difficult but the most rewarding. 

- Draw people you know! Doesn’t matter! There is 90% chance they will love and appreciate it! I did this as practice a few months back; I picked any one of my instagram followers each weekend! It really gets you going because there’s usually a lot of support and of course, you can ask for feedback. 

- Draw someone’s OC. Again, so that you don’t have a certain topic to worry about. It’ll make someone’s day and brighten yours, I promise. 

Have some time to yourself. Balance out what you wanna achieve and what you want to do with your art. Find a goal and work out the little mini goals towards that goal. How about finding a new style? How about getting better at a certain area? It’s all a learning process for all of us and motivation comes from the determination we build for ourselves. Sometimes, I take a step back from my work and ask what I can do next. This is a topic completely on another spectrum but I despise sticking to a certain way of drawing sometimes, which is why if you scroll through all my art, you can see so many different ways of painting and drawing. Everyone is always looking for their own style but I highly discourage finding that style and sticking to it all the time. Of course, you’ll still improve somewhat but when you see how many ways you can draw one thing and another, you’ll find motivation to pursue those things. Pursue how to do this , how to do that, how to pull off this and how to pull off that. Think about what you can find that might surprise even yourself. Trying to find other ways of drawing things is why I keep drawing today and for god’s sake it is useful as all hell. You develop so many skills and techniques. I can incorporate what I did before to what I do now. I can incorporate this lighting technique before to what I do now.  Motivation comes from determination towards what we want to achieve and what I highly suggest you can aim to achieve for is to develop new ways of drawing. Even the thought of finding a new way can motivate you. 

Lastly, motivate yourself by knowing this is what you love. This is what you want to do. These are the ideas you want to create and these are the lines and colours and thoughts you want to share. We draw because we love to draw. Motivate by finding new music and drawing because of that. Motivate by looking at other art and wanting to create that same certain effect. Motivate by wanting to find new ways. Motivate by knowing that you want this motivation because you want to do what you want to do. I know the feeling of the loss, about a two years ago I didn’t draw much at all and I always wanted to and I always had the sinking feeling that I wanted to do it but couldn’t. But I do because I’ve found goals and things I want to create. I’ve found out that I’m a sucker for doing extensive stuff and never letting a piece go until I’m fully satisfied (which is never the case). I’ve found out that there are things I’m willing to sacrifice because of art. Motivation depends on you, and only you and maybe even those around you. Surround yourself with people who encourage you to do art. I’ve never had a single person who told me to stop doing this art. I mean, apart from the occasional math teacher in the middle of class but they all mean well. Seriously, find the positive people. They’re there somewhere. 

I hope you’re doing alright and having a good day. 

Adios, amigos. 

anonymous asked:

Hi! I'm a Jungkook stan I've always seen him as a top. But now I've been looking more closely and I've noticed that even though many people say he's a top, he really seems like a bottom. My friend told me about this blog and said that you're really good at explaining Jungkook "bottom-ness"? Lol I just want to be more open minded when it comes to Kookie. Do you mind explaining a bit? Like with each member? If it's not too much to ask. Thank you! Lovely account :)

Hello! I’m so sorry I delayed this response so much. I knew I would take awhile to fully discuss this and I didn’t have much time lately, so I put it off. Please forgive me. 

But welcome, fellow Jungkook stan! First time here? Sorry I’m a dork haha. Anyways, thank you for taking the time to come ask me this. It’s great that you’re expanding your horizons haha. The reasons I’m about to give are solely based on opinion and preference. I’m not saying either preference is wrong, just saying my point of view because you wanted to know why some people see him as a bottom (aka me). I’m lowkey laughing at the “good at explaining Jungkook bottom-ness” because my trashiness is really obvious. This is going to be really long, so it’ll be under the read more!

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But consider this:

Yoonjin spy au where they have to act like a married couple (FOR REASONS, shh, this is fanfic), and they’re both kind of stuttered and awkward. Seokjin because he was born awkward and Yoongi because he’s not good with outward displays of affection. And the baddies are suspicious of them, like are they even really married? UNTIL. Seokjin invites the baddies over for homemade dinner and:

Yoongi: *reaches for the salt*

Seokjin: *narrows eyes* What are you doing?

Yoongi: I’m getting salt, what does it look like I’m doing?

Seokjin: My cooking doesn’t need salt

Yoongi: *snorts*

Seokjin: You haven’t even tried it yet.

Yoongi: I don’t have to try it to know it’s bland.

Seokjin: I’m trying to make you live past fifty. Yoongi I STG if so much as one grain of salt touches that plate - 

Yoongi: *direct eye contact with Seokjin, cocks an eyebrow, overturns salt shaker and tap, tap, taps*

Seokjin: I want a divorce

Yoongi: *one more tap for good measure*

Baddies: Yeah, never mind, they’ve been married since forever.

the love song of dean winchester. 11k. nc-17.

Let us go then, you and I
When the evening is spread out against the sky
Like a patient etherized upon a table;
Let us go, through certain half-deserted streets,
The muttering retreats
Of restless nights in one-night cheap hotels
And sawdust restaurants with oyster shells:
Streets that follow like a tedious argument
Of insidious intent
To lead you to an overwhelming question…
Oh, do not ask, “What is it?”
Let us go and make our visit.


They’re exiting a bar somewhere in the middle of Wyoming, and Dean thinks it’s possible he’s never felt this good in his life.

Buzzed, but not drunk–intoxicated enough that he probably shouldn’t be driving, but sober enough that he knows Cas won’t really be upset if he does. There’s a warm glow in his belly and a heat in his cheeks, and he feels positively golden, a king of neon signs and billiards and dredges of alcohol. This is his kingdom; these are his people.

He feels so good that he laughs, happy and loud, and puts his hand on Cas’ shoulder just because he wants it there. Cas looks at him in confused amusement, and Dean is reminded of that night he took Cas to a brothel, and how good that had been, too. How he’d laughed as something within him shifted and suddenly he looked at Cas and saw his best friend.

How easy that had been. Everything in his life had been turning to shit and Cas was there and just–easy.

And it’s easy now, too, in a way it isn’t normally. Cas sways slightly into his touch, Dean feeling his shoulder under his coat a bit more firmly. He’s looking at Dean with kind eyes and a creased brow, like he also shares Dean’s happiness but isn’t sure why. Even though he’s an angel he’s got a little color in his cheeks, with his hair mussed and sticking out in about twenty different directions. It reminds Dean of how electric he looked when they first met.

There’s a street lamp that’s backlit him in a way that forms a sort of halo around the crown of his head, and Dean notices this just enough to think to himself huh.

“What’s funny?” Cas says, voice low as ever. A small shiver climbs up Dean’s spine.

He smiles and feels it with his whole body, lit up like a firework.

“Nothin’,” he says. “Just happy, s’all.”

Cas’ smile ventures out of him slowly but completely, turning up the corners of his lips but really softening his eyes. Beautiful, Dean allows himself to think. Just this once.

[read on ao3]

I looked at him and I felt nothing.
I didn’t get butterflies when you touched my hand.
I didn’t like your kisses, especially the ones where you
Tried to digest my lips as if I owed you something.
I bet you really thought I owed you something.
I didn’t want to envision your implications about being
The most intimate with you.
I did not know you.
Maybe I’m just old fashioned, not ready to throw my heart like some sport to be played with.
Is that what you would have done?
Is that what you thought I was? Something so easy to be solved.
You thought about me, you liked my name, you “wanted” to know my story.
How can I show you my pages if they’re not completed yet?
I should have known that you were no good.
Maybe you are for someone else Mr. Gemini.
I’m not sorry that I wasn’t ready to risk myself with you.
I have not had many relationships before and you would not become the first.
“I never had any stable women in my life before.” You said. Is there something about your mother that you haven’t told me?
You seemed to have thought highly of her and wanted me to spill my ink to you within seconds.
What do you mean?
You said you liked to return favors to other women.
Well guess what?
I did myself a favor and didn’t allow you access into my palace.
Am a still bitter?
No darling, it’s just another lesson added to my scars.
-E.T. “I woke this morning with bad news and thought of you.”


This is so inaccurate. I really hope you don’t mind some mediocre fanart

Inspired by @trelldraws ‘s and

I’m so sorry


It’s hard, hard work to make a record. And I’m not just talking now. It’s the whole 20 years of emotions and things. We’re all attached to these things that you’re trying to deal with. You go for a lot of… a big journey in your own mind, in your life and you’re trying to piece it together. Where did you come from to end up at this point? I didn’t really know I was that broke, but I pretty fuckin’ broke when I look back at it now. Drink and me… equals no good, really. When I was in rehab for those four weeks, I was able to look back over my life a lot and think about the band the first time around and think about the band this time around and look at my behaviour and look at, like, who I was or who I wasn’t. Kind of become this person that I didn’t really recognise. How did that happen? Just how the fuck did that happen? You silly bastard!

There was a time when I was like, “I can’t ever go in a studio again.” “I can’t do this, it’s just not who I am.” “What have I been doing?I spoke to Emma and she said that’s not the way to deal with this, you know. That’s, in a way, running away. And then I thought “You know, you’re quite selfish, cos we’ve come this far and we’ve done all this work.” “Don’t let everybody down, you’ve let everybody down enough, don’t let them all down again.” - Mark Owen

About Them Apples Though

So, I noticed @confidenceatitsfinest, @sugakookiefactory, and some of the other SugaKookie blogs talking about the latest BTS teaser/trailer/thing. And, well, I couldn’t help but be curious. (You know me, I can’t resist a good theory session.) I hope, Rin, that you don’t mind me putting my two cents in, but it might offer you a different line of thought about the apples. I’m not ARMY, but I am a nerd…and it just so happens this falls into one of my random specialties.

What really caught my attention about Rin’s post was the equivocation between the apple and sin. I’ve actually seen that a lot, but particularly in regards to this comeback. But what if I were to tell you, apples were never sin. 

A lot of people say, “But Eve ate an apple in the Garden of Eden, which was the first sin.” Lots of people believe that to be the case, but if you actually look in the Bible the fruit eaten by Eve is never named. (In fact, there are scholars who claim a pomegranate would be a more likely candidate for the fruit.) The association between apples and “sin” actually comes from a dead old white guy named John Milton. Now Milton is famous for a big huge fanfiction about the creation story called Paradise Lost, which is considered one of the greatest works in the English language. In Book Nine, he specifically describes the forbidden fruit as being an apple, which is where that construct was born. Legit, Milton was just like “Ugh, you know what are super delicious and tempting? Apples. Imma make apples the forbidden fruit.” 

-takes a deep breath-

But when you actually look at the account, the apple (we’ll call it apple for ease) was not the sin. In Genesis 2:17, it actually says: “But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die.” The apple isn’t the sin. It literally just has the ability to give the eater knowledge of good and evil. The sin, if anything was, was in eating the fruit and going against the direct orders of God (that whole “don’t eat it” bit). So apples are innocent victims in the bigger picture.

That’s all well and good, I’m sure you’re thinking, but what does that have to do with BTS? Well, first off, let’s revisit that idea of knowledge. Jimin and Yoongi are seen chilling, one with an apple and the other with a blindfold.

Now to me, it looks like Yoongi is considering putting that blindfold on. But, in a way, Jimin is offering him the apple - maybe. If that were the case, Yoongi gets to choose between ignorance and knowledge. (Still not convinced apples are knowledge? The Apple logo is a bitten apple, because they are a source of knowledge. Teachers are traditionally given gifts of apples, because they represent knowledge just like teachers.)

Jimin also seems pretty happy with his apples. He’s pictured with them, and in his short film he even eats one.

Much visual. Many important. After he takes this bite, though, he half-smiles at the camera…kind of like he knows something you don’t. 

So I guess what I’m saying is, what if we saw the apple (and by association Jimin) as something instead of sin? How does that change the way people are reading the teaser? To me, it seems less like the video implies YoonMin chicanery and more like Jimin represents knowledge, both good and bad. Maybe Yoongi has to choose between ignorance and knowledge - of what, who knows?

I told gravity I loved him and it was good for a while.

I told myself that I held myself together
too tightly. As a solution, I let my mind wander until
he found legs of his own. He ran, ran, ran until I lost sight of him
and I felt lighter than ever before.
Running-is-the-best-cardio-you-can-do-to-lose-weight (heard by everyone with love handles from somebody who doesn’t).
So, I have been losing weight -wait- everything that once made me heavy
enough to feel worthy of gravity.
I fell in love 

and let it slip through my teeth. I could not
stop slipping on my own emotions so I
taught them about growing their own legs. They now run down my face and
it looks like messed up mascara and sounds like
hiccupping, but it is
really just the way love makes me look when I am alone.
I did not fall in love. I just fell.
My own legs fail(ed) me. I have no choice but to let everything
that held me together
run, run, run
until I can no longer kiss gravity, even just as friends.

don’t leave me

summary: never have, never will. shallura.
also read on: ao3
for: a happy birthday to @queenallura from me. (of course, late, as always.)
notes: it’s not the most fantastic piece i’ve ever written, but i certainly hoped for it to be

Enveloped between the sheets and tangled in his arms, she moves her body closer to him and begins to settle into sleep, but just as she is about to fall into her dreams, she realizes that his mind is still occupied by thoughts and that his eyes are still wide awake and so she opens her eyes to look up at him.

He immediately meets them and asks, on a quiet breath—

“Does it bother you?”

The metal does not bother her. The cold never has and never will.

But sometimes, she lies.

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