it looked different in my head

to-do list for when i find you (u know who u are)
- hold your hand a lot
- kiss your knuckles, both absentmindedly and purposefully
- hug you. always.
- press kisses to the top of your head
- sneak up behind you & wrap my arms around you
- lend you my favorite books
- knit you a scarf
- probably write you all sorts of sappy letters
- definitely drown you in pet names 24/7 to see if i can make you blush
- watch ghibli movies with you
- leave hickies on your wrists
- make you a mixtape
- be ridiculously, hilariously, absurdly in love
- never let you feel lonely ever again

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If You Ever Leave Me, Chapter 5

what looked like morning was the beginning of an endless night.

w.p.b.

I respect my mother. I do. But I don’t know what I was thinking when I asked her to have brunch with me Sunday morning.

Like I told Harry, I’ll likely die before I’m ever able to become half the woman she is. My father is just as accomplished, but men do what he and my mother do all the time. My mother is different because very rarely is there a woman who can walk into a room of highly educated, cocky male surgeons and turn heads because of something other than the way her legs look when she wears heels.

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anonymous asked:

does it scare you to see people who've gained a lot of weight in recovery?

i apologize in advance if my answer to these questions seem convoluted or preachy or whatever, i really try to avoid that bc it’s something that personally bothers me in the ~recovery community but i’ve also just spent a lot of time in a setting where those beliefs were kind of re-instilled in me, if that makes sense, and i really am starting to believe and think differently than when i was active in my eating disorder

(wow i’m already annoyed w myself with this answer lol)

but anyway! in an eating disordered sense, yes it scares me sometimes. but it’s more often that it scares me when i look back on times when i have personally gained beyond the point of ‘minimally healthy’. i have this idea in my head that i look more put together or better or just more attractive at a lower weight, which is something i really need to work on.

in other people, i think that a lot (lot) less. part of this is bc i’ve truly seen that people that gain to a point where their body really wants to be (yeah people disagree on this, and u can take 'set point’ out of it entirely, but ur body is smart lol) have so much more distance from the eating disorder than others, and i have always admired (and often envied) that. so it doesn’t scare me when i’m not thinking with my disordered brain. bc i know if i reached that point, and stayed there for longer than is comfortable, but actually did it, my brain would actually BE a lot less disordered, so it would end up being manageable lol.

i hope that makes sense lmao. basically: yes. but no. but yes. but no!

june 25th

i’ve wasted lightbulbs and light spoken sentences on the thought of trying out for the A grade team you need me to be.
lungs are smoke and my head is the dust that gathers between couches after a long weekend of too much of everything.
some days i’m not sure if i’m chasing affection or chasing happiness, some days i believe these two are the same.
other days i can’t sleep worrying about the day my dogs die.
i look at things differently to how i once did, now sitting by the smallest pond is a wonder and every person is an angel.
i’m not sure if this is a good thing though it’s better to be in awe of the small things around us than to not acknowledge them at all.
i sit and wonder if anyone will remember me and that small voice tells me they will.

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cause certain things mend us when we’re hanging on for dear life
we held on so tight

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DUMP HIM

DUMP HIM AND RUN

DUMP HIM AND RUN NOW

DUMP HIM AND RUN NOW AND DO NOT STOP

DUMP HIM AND RUN NOW AND DO NOT STOP OR LOOK BACK

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“..And if I wasn’t calm and used my head, things coulda turned out differently. And of course, you know I don’t heed any danger!”

The reason I find this scene adorable is that Gladstone’s excitement over having an ‘adventure’ is real, and he feels he came out victorious from it, despite us knowing he did literally nothing to earn that feeling. 

Of course, this is also the reason he comes across to everyone as arrogant.

Plus Gladstone is the only Duck who’d look so excited about almost being robbed/murdered.

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i just wanted to draw lil vanessa and nina in cute outfits but whoops they look sad,, what happened??? how do we cheer them up????? this is probably an emergency situation 

Aquarius turned to me and said, “If you had just put yourself together before all this, we would have had our shit together and we would’ve been happy.. Now you’re standing here, and looking back at what could have been. You’re too late.”

Aries turned to me with a smirk on her face and said, “For months I waited. You, you were busy dealing with some other shit, pointless shit and you pushed me away and how DARE you come back and tell me you miss me.”

Cancer grabbed me by the collar of my shirt, gritting her teeth and said, “You motherfucking asshole. I thought to myself you would be different. I trusted myself around you, you were the world to me. Why are you doing this to me?”

Capricorn crossed her arms and slowly she shook her head and said, “I tried to look at the bigger picture and accepted it. Yet, you’re standing here and..” suddenly tears rolled down her cheek. “How many more do I have to endure and meet to finally find some peace..”

Gemini raised her head and smiled at me and said, “I know what you’re thinking. You thought that I’d see you and I’d go weak in the knees, and cry and cling to you and tell you much I missed you?” Her body shakes and slowly she turned her head away. “You’re wrong. Absolutely wrong.”

Leo laughed with tears in her eyes and said, “You think you could come and tell me that you missed me after I have finally got myself together. You’re artistic. Brilliant performance, yours truly. Look, I may be a fool but I know my worth..”

Libra placed a hand on my shoulder and said, “Don’t blame yourself about what happened. We seemed to have gone distant, and it wasn’t just you. So it’s best that we shouldn’t dwell on it. Look at me. We’re okay..” A tear rolls down her cheek. “I..I’m okay.”

Pisces turned to me, with tears in her eyes and said, “How could you. You made me fall in love with you, and you brought up so much promises that you said you’ll keep, but what the hell is this. I sacrificed alot for you. I changed and shaped myself for you, and I was so stupid..”

Sagittarius finally looked up and stared at me and said, “I thought every possible outcome and yet, I seem to be staring at the past and what I feel right now is closure. You were good to me, but I’m sorry if I wasn’t good for you. I’ve done nothing but cared for you. I guess you weren’t ready..”

Scorpio turned to me and said, “I’m over it. I’m happy now. You could’ve been with me but noo, you fucked it up. I mean, boy, oh boy I was so wrong about you..”

Taurus slowly pulled herself away from and looked into my eyes, “Today’s the last time you’ll get to hold me. Would you even care? I doubt it. But I wished things didn’t happen the way it was, but it was good. We were good…”

Virgo exhaled and looked back at me and said, “I told you before that I was planning something big for us. You were always a part of my plans, and you just happened to drift off into your own world again, leaving me to fend off for myself. How do you think I felt? It felt like talking to a wall. I was so ready for the unthinkable. Sadly, we’re 5 years late. You’re late. I’m still going to go through with my plans..” She slowly turned around. “But you’re not in my plans anymore.”

—  Reaching out once more

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Gordon protecting Batman's identity

Ok. Is a well known fact that Jim Gordon probably knows Bruce Wayne’s Batman, but he never says anything because A) he can’t prove it. B) he secretly likes Bruce.

For that reason, he also keeps away everyone who’s getting close.

“Hey, have you guys realized Bruce Wayne’s always out of town while Batman’s missing?
"The guy’s a business man, Carl. Stop being so paranoid”

“Hey, Bruce Wayne adopted a new kid around the same time the new robin came around.”
“Yes, ‘cause Robin is the only black haired twelve year old in Gotham, Frank. Use your head son!”

“Sir, have you ever realized Batman appeared in Gotham the same year Bruce Wayne mysteriously came back after years missing?”
“It was not the same year, Sara. Bruce Wayne came back in December and Batman only appeared the the end of January. Big difference.”

“God, Jim. That Nightwing kid looks a lot like your daughter’s boyfriend…”
“Is it my fault the girl inherited my good taste? Besides, they don’t look that much alike, Dick’s nose is bigger”

“Commissioner, I think I saw Bruce Wayne’s butler passing him a cape and cow under a table during yesterday’s gala…”
“Rich people are weird. Who am I to judge?”

His || Jungkook || 0.19

Member: Jungkook x Reader

Type: Angst, Fluff, Smut.

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Guilty Pleasure {BBH} (M)

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5

Description: You and Baekhyun are best friends and you’ve lived together for three years now. It’s no news to you that Baekhyun sleeps around, but you do too…so what happens when he wants to be with someone as experienced as him? // Requested

Genre: Smut / Angst / Fluff all of the above??

Word Count: 2,432 (possible series?????? three parts at max tho I’m a busy lady)

Pairing: Byun Baekhyun x Reader (feat. Lay)

Author: Admin Xiufairy

Originally posted by ethereal-baek

“C’mon, you can’t say you haven’t thought about it.” Your best friend, Baekhyun, nudged your arm. “There’s no shame in it. It’d be nice to be with someone who finally knows what they’re doing.” You put your cup of coffee down and looked at him from across the table.

It was no secret that Baekhyun slept around, but you liked to keep things under wraps. As long as the boys didn’t know, everything was fine. Baek, being your best friend, found out on his own. You weren’t planning on telling him either.

You’d been living with Baekhyun for a couple years now - it was originally just for a few weeks until you could find a place of your own but the two of you quickly grew close.

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