it is ok for me to have everything i want

I’d love more than anything to say I’m ok. And that life is just coming up roses. I mean, I have my moments. There’s are times in the day where I’m extremely happy. But there’s always something that brings me back to thinking about him. It’s so messed up. I love thinking about him, and I love thinking about everything we did. And everything I wanted/ want to do with him.
For a brief moment I’m happy. When I think about him it’s like I’m still with him? But then reality hits and I’m sad. I’ve never been this sad before, and I’ve never been heartbroken.
Even harder is the fact that there’s a chance to get him back, I think? A slight chance? Time will tell. I’m so fucked up. I miss my best friend guys.

In Conclusion

Ok, I have work tomorrow so I have to go to bed, but honestly, I need a drink. The cliches, fucking Mona, so many unanswered questions, and complete copy of the show for an ending, that terrible fake British accent, I mean… god. Pretty Little Liars, you died like you lived- making us question everything and then why we even watch the show.

anonymous asked:

AAAAA WELCOME BACK!!! I MISSED YOU!!! Can I please have aftercare headcanons for Hajime, Shun, You, and Haru? Thank you!!!

AHH WE’RE HAPPY TO BE BACK!! Thank you so much, that’s so nice to hear uwu 
Of course, lovely! I already did You here so I’ll just do the other three. if you want more of You tho, just tell me!  ♡
I made the hc’s a bit different then usual, I hope it’s ok.
~Chou

Mutsuki Hajime:
The black king is definitely the type to cuddle up to you afterwards. He’ll caress your skin, tells you he loves you and asks if everythings alright or if you’re hurting anywhere. If that’s the case he’ll do everything possible to make it better and keeps it in mind for the next time. He loves it when you stroke his hair or give him little butterfly kisses. Best, when his head is resting on your chest and he can feel your heartbeat while his hands softly wander over your body. If it was very heated and your both sweaty he’d carry you to the bathroom to take a nice hot bath with you.

Shimotsuki Shun:
I kinda feel like you’re rather the one that has to take care of him, jfc maou
First of all, he asks you how it was for you and compliments you that you were amazing. Not really one for cuddling but he’ll hold you in his arm, your head rested on his chest and probably wants you to run your hand over his skin. Of course he’d also ask if you’re ok especially if he was a bit rough and kisses every place that may or may not hurt. Would ask you if you want tea or ice cream or a second round.

Yayoi Haru:
Probably acts like your servant afterwards. No matter what you wish for, he’d do his best to make it possible. Extra gentle treatment if you feel hurt or sore anywhere and if you feel uncomfortable and sweaty he’d bath you. Literally treats you like a queen and alway mentions how precious you are to him, how much he loves you and how happy he is to have you. Sometimes you gotta stop him and tell him to just lie down and cuddle with you. He’s definitely the big spoon, playing with your hair and wandering with his hands over your body, appreciating every part of it.

jjpskitten  asked:

Hello Shan, how are you feeling about jjp's comeback I mean death.

ALEKSA. I HAVE QUITE LITERALLY BEEN SCREAMING FOR A DAY AND A HALF. THIS NEWS IS *SWALLOWS* EVERYTHING I HAVE EVERY WANTED?!?! I KNEW, THE DAY I SAT DOWN AND WATCHED ALL OF DREAM HIGH 2 THAT SOMEDAY, SOMEONE WOULD REWARD ME FOR MY PATIENCE

AND LOOK WHAT WE HAVE. A JJP COMEBACK. THE KINGS OF THE WORLD, REUNITING AGAIN TO BRING UP MORE BOPS THE WHOLE FAMILY CAN ENJOY. NEVER FORGET JJP NEVER FORGET BOUNCE JINYOUNG AND JAEBUM ARE KINGS 

I’M JINYOUNGGGGG OK I’M 2 OUT

5

If Jack sees this, I just want to thank you for being absolutely sweet and so nice. You made me feel important and happy and you have helped me in so many ways without even knowing it. I’m so happy you were ok with my request to write my username on my arm. Since this was my first tattoo, I put a lot of thought into it. I wanted something that meant a lot. And this word means everything to me. “Endless” is the username of my original vine account where I met my best friends through the Jack fandom. That username was for an account that changed my life. The tattoo will also remind me of this time in my life. The time when I met up with two friends from Alabama and Michigan and met the person who meant the most to me. And having you handwrite it made it mean even more to me since you are the reason I’m the person I am today. You’ve taught me how to love myself even though I have problems with that. You’ve taught me how to let myself be happy. You saved me. So thank you. I hope I get to show you my tattoo in real life one day. But until then I just want you to know it meant the world to me and so do you.

  • Isak: Even kissed me.
  • Jonas: Ohmygodohmygod.
  • Magnus: Ok, all right. We want to hear everything. Jonas, get the wine. Isak, does this end well or do we need to get tissues?
  • Isak: Oh, it ended very well.
  • Jonas: *getting the wine* Do not start without me. Do not start without me.
  • Magnus: Ok, all right, let’s hear about the kiss. Was it like a soft brush against your lips? Or was it like a “I gotta have you now” kind of thing?
  • Isak: Well, at first it was really intense, you know. And then, oh god, and then we just sort of sunk into it.
  • Magnus: Ok, so, were you holding him? Or were his hands like on you?
  • Isak: No, actually first they started on my waist. And then, they slid up, and then, they were on my shoulders.
  • Magnus and Jonas: Ohhhhh.
  • [In the next room Even eating while Sana swirls a cup]
  • Even: And, uh, and then I kissed him.
  • Sana: Tongue?
  • Even: Yeah.
  • Sana: Cool.
  • Alec: Magnus kissed me.
  • Jace: Ohmygodohmygod
  • Isabelle: Ok, all right. We want to hear everything. Jace, get the wine. Alec, does this end well or do we need to get tissues?
  • Alec: Oh, it ended very well.
  • Jace: [getting the wine] Do not start without me. Do not start without me.
  • Isabelle: Ok, all right, let’s hear about the kiss. Was it like a soft brush against your lips? Or was it like a “I gotta have you now” kind of thing?
  • Alec: Well, at first it was really intense, you know. And then, oh god, and then we just sort of sunk into it.
  • Isabelle: Ok, so, were you holding him? Or were his hands like on you?
  • Alec: No, actually first they started on my waist. And then, they slid up, and then, they were on my shoulders.
  • Isabelle and Jace: Ohhhhh.
  • In the next room [Magnus eating while Raphael swirls a goblet]
  • Magnus: And, uh, and then I kissed him.
  • Raphael: Tongue?
  • Magnus: Yeah.
  • Raphael: Cool.
How the Venus signs want to be loved

*use venus but check moon as well*

Aries Venus: love me back but don’t chase me lol it’s my job to chase you duh…I’m going to make it obvious what I want. don’t overcomplicate things, love is simple. let’s make it fast. let’s jump into it. let’s make it exciting!!! it’s like a game and I’m going to win you

Taurus Venus: love me by staying the same. please. be there for me. be someone I can count on. be patient. feed me!!!! I like that. give me things!!!! I like that too. okay, okay, fINE I might want to possess you wHOOPS…just don’t push me or…bye

Gemini Venus: wait wait do I like you or do I like this other person????? or that person??? wait wait I’m just going to not think about it oooooh I’m curious about you now idk we can be together for today if you want but it’s chill!!! talk to me!!!! let’s just have fun!!! let’s not label this that’s so serious and boring!!! you can change, I can change, and I mean it’s cool if we want to also date 3 other people too lol like no biggie, it’s vARIETY haha just don’t pin me down or get too deep otherwise I’ll be out the door in 0.03 seconds

Cancer Venus: love me!!!!!!!! I’m so lonely!!!!! :((((( I just want you to be soft and hold me and tell me you’re committed and that you love me!!!!! I need to hear that because I feel like no one loves me ever :’( I want to stay at home and cuddle with you and you can tell me all of the things you’re feeling <3 and maybe I’ll smother you a little haha but dON’T LEAVE PLEASE

Leo Venus: love me back and I’ll show you how much I love you!!! like, all the time!!!! if I love you, know that it’s a compliment because I only settle for the best. you’re all I’m going to brag uM I MEAN talk about!!! if you make me the center of your world, I’ll make you the center of mine!!! we can have fun, all I need is attention and validation jUST A LIL BIT BE PREPARED and I’m the king/queen here so tell me I’m wonderful and amazing because I don’t hear that enough :/ if I don’t take pride in our relationship, see ya. that means you didn’t dESERVE ME

Virgo Venus: love me by letting me help you!! okay oKAY I’M A LIL INSECURE but I’ll do things for you!!!! I’ll make you feel loved without all of that sentimental lovey stuff - we don’t need that! my one flaw is that I see all of the flaws in our relationship and you - and want to fix them!!! and…nagging…sometimes…but just to make you better!! I just want things to be simple and practical!!! nOTHING BIG NOTHING TOO INTENSE THAT’S SCARY I MIGHT FREAK OUT AND LEAVE

Libra Venus: haha you can love me if you want to ;) but I mean only if you want to…like…I’m not trying to force anything here lol!!!! we can be in love…and have a beautiful pure relationship where we sHARE everything <3 and make everything look like we’re perfect :) I’m into equality :) um like don’t freak out but sometimes I’m just trying to be nice and it turns into flirting bUT IT’S OK…I know it’s weird but I really don’t like people who are too pushy I just want someone who’s going to be polite and nice :)))))) so if you’re not that I mean I’ll still be nice to you but just I might not want to be with you idk we’ll see AHHHH decisions are hard for me in relationships!!!!

Scorpio Venus: I’ll love you if you can handle me. I would say I don’t open up easily in love, but then that would be opening up to you. and I can’t do that. what I can do is be in control. I know how to handle this. oh, I’ll commit, it’s just not everyone knows how to figure me out. and I won’t stop until I find someone who’s willing to go deep with me. and I might stare at you for extended periods of time. you call it obsession, I call it intensity.

Sagittarius Venus: we can be in love if you show me the world!!!!! let’s grow!!!!! and expand our horizons!!!!! and laugh!!!!!! and have FUN!!!!! lot’s of FUN!!!!! oooooooohhhhhhh and if you’re foreign then I’ll REALLY like you!!!!!!!! wooooooooo love is an adventure!!!!!!!!!!!!! the only time I’ll leave is if I feel like you’re dragging down my free spirit!!!!!! I’ll find someone who’s more interesting and cultured than you are on my next expedition!!!

Capricorn Venus: okay. we can be in love but first I have to have a plan. I like plans. and feeling competent in love. I like seeing what I want and going for it. nothing crazy or overly gooey. nope. can’t do that. I just need someone who’s going to help me succeed. I’m cautious, but only because I don’t want you to waste my time that I could be using to be better and work harder. I’m always looking ahead, and I need someone to be there with me. let’s put effort into this and make it long-term. if you’re not willing to, then I will turn stone cold.

Aquarius Venus: I would say we could be in love but let’s not call it love!!! let’s call it whatever!!!! something we can’t label!!!! let’s mix it up because this world is so dull without us!!!! um…what’s attachment??? could you explain that word to me, please??? all I know is that we can be friends, you know??? and I’ll choose the terms, okay?? haha let’s be intellectual that’s pretty cool there’s no attachment there I know that and um sorry but eW FEELINGS lol not in a rELATIONSHIP if you want to bring that stuff up I’m not right for you I guess :/ find someone more boring

Pisces Venus: looooooooooveeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! uh, sorry, what were you saying? oh, I’m just projecting all of my ideals onto you. no, it’s a compliment!!!!!! I accept all of your flaws!!!!!! aw let’s be romantic that’s so cuuuute <3 and yeah I’ll forgive you, it’s okay!!!! but sorry um I like you and all but it’s hard for me to commit sometimes because I see all of the possibilities!!! um, who am I??? I guess it doesn’t matter!!!! let’s live in a world of rainbows and unicorns together!!!!! but I mean it’s not really nice if you take advantage of me :((((

  • Castiel: Dean kissed me.
  • Gabriel: Ohmygodohmygod.
  • Charlie: Ok, all right. We want to hear everything. Gabriel, get the wine. Cas, does this end well or do we need to get tissues?
  • Castiel: Oh, it ended very well.
  • Gabriel: *getting the wine* Do not start without me. Do not start without me.
  • Charlie: Ok, all right, let’s hear about the kiss. Was it like a soft brush against your lips? Or was it like a “I gotta have you now” kind of thing?
  • Castiel: Well, at first it was really intense, you know. And then, oh god, and then we just sort of sunk into it.
  • Charlie: Ok, so, were you holding him? Or were his hands like on you?
  • Castiel: No, actually first they started on my waist. And then, they slid up, and then, they were on my shoulders.
  • Charlie and Gabriel: Ohhhhh.
  • [In the next room Dean eating while Sam swirls a cup]
  • Dean: And, uh, and then I kissed him.
  • Sam: Tongue?
  • Dean: Yeah.
  • Sam: Cool.
  • John: Alexander kissed me.
  • Eliza: Ohmygodohmygod
  • Lafayette: Ok, alright. We want to hear everything. Eliza, get the wine. John, does this end well or do we need to get tissues?
  • John: Oh, it ended very well.
  • Eliza: (getting the wine)Do not start without me. Do not start without me.
  • Lafayette: Okay, alright, let’s hear about the kiss. Was it like a soft brush against your lips? Or was it like an "I gotta have you now” kind of thing?
  • John: Well, at first it was really intense, you know. And then, oh god, and then we just sort of sunk into it.
  • Lafayette: Okay, so, were you holding him? Or were his hands like on you?
  • John: No, actually first they started on my waist. And then, they slid up, and then, they were on my shoulders.
  • Lafayette and Eliza: Ohhhhh.
  • In the next room
  • Alexander: And, uh, and then I kissed him.
  • Hercules: Tongue?
  • Alexander: Yeah.
  • Hercules: Cool.

favourite parts of beauty and the beast

  • THE INTRO AND THE WAY IT ZOOMS INTO THE CASTLE AND THE ORIGINAL INTRO MUSIC PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND LIKE FUCK ME UP
  • THE FUCKING SCENERY. LIKE SAME WITH CINDERELLA I HAVE DECIDED THAT THE LIVE REMAKES OF ALL THE DISNEY FILMS ARE THE ABSOLUTE BEST AND IT’S BECAUSE OF THE SCENERY
  • THE CGI IN THIS FILM IS A FUCKING MASTERPIECE OK
  • “trust me ladies…it’s never going to happen”
  • THE BE OUR GUEST SCENE
  • literally lefou. everything about him made this fucking film
  • “i just realised i’m illiterate and i’ve never had to spell it out loud before”
  • ALSO WAS THAT A BI MAN I SPIED WITH MY LITTLE EYE DURING THE “how is your wife” SCENE
  • “are you busy” “no”
  • père robert being a fuckign badass
  • stanley tucci. enough said
  • “i want adventure in the great wide somewhere, i want it more than i can tell” like that whole scene gave me chills the way she’s standing on the top of the hill and you can see down into all the little valleys it’s so magical
  • THE DESIGN OF THE CASTLE LIKE IT WAS SO ASTOUNDING I COULD BARELY BREATHE
  • IAN FUCKING MCKELLEN
  • “please turn back into a clock. please turn back into a clock”
  • EMMA THOMPSON LADIES AND GENTLEMEN
  • when belle says that her favourite shakespeare play is rom and jules and the beast is like “why is that not a surprise”
  • THE LIBRARY SCENE
  • “was that a joke? are you making jokes now?”
  • gaston talking to himself in the mirror
  • “you are the most gorgeous thing i’ve ever seen. nobody deserves you” same buddy same
  • “i’m not done with you yet” “me neither”
  • CHIP. IS. THE. SWEETEST
  • belle throwing a snowball at the beast and he’s just like “right” and fuckign decks her
  • THE WHOLE MRS. POTTS AND LEFOU SCENE
  • “we’re in a bad place right now” “you’re too good for him anyway”
  • THE TALE AS OLD AS TIME SCENE WHEN THE LIGHTS COME DOWN FROM THE CIELING FUC K ME UP
  • “happy place, gaston, happy place”
  • “the widows!” “oh, the widows”
  • “are there any other tasteless demands you wish to make upon my artistry?” “no, that’s it”
  • garderobe changing the three thugs and one of them looking fucking fabulous
  • LEFOU AND THE THUG DANCING AT THE BALL
  • “have you ever considered growing a beard?”
  • HIS FUCKING GROWL AT THE END
Guide to Borderline: #2
  • ((Before I start, I want to point out that there are other types of bpd, not everyone fits in this "guides" but if you agree feel free to like/rb the post.))
  • x
  • What BPD People Think When You Tell Them;
  • x
  • Let's go out sometime!: When? Everyday is a possible "sometime" so you gotta be specific. Also, should I call you/text you first? Because I will totally wait for you to do it.
  • x
  • Get ready! I am coming to get you! : No. Just no. When I have to go outside I have to prepare myself for days you ain't getting nothing friend.
  • x
  • Why didn't you tell me? : I probably hinted it and you probably missed it because it was a way too small hint so I still secretly blame you for not asking more so I have reasons but they gonna sound stupid.
  • x
  • What is wrong: If you don't want me to keep repeating my "I wanna die because" list then you should stop asking stupid questions.
  • x
  • You are overreacting: Ok I am not, but I can't explain that I am not overreacting because you would see that overreacting too but my settings are just higher then yours so my normal is overreact for you.
  • x
  • Do you miss them?: Honey I miss everything. I miss my fucking self what the hell do you think?
  • x
  • Calm down: Omg what is next? Get yourself together?? Go get your life and hopes and ambitions back?? Which universe you live in pal that ain't happening.
  • x
  • Wanna tell me? : I want to tell my whole life story to people that is passing by the street rn of course I want to tell you. The real question is, you wanna hear a real sad and fucked up story that is my life?
  • x
  • I love you: For now.

anonymous asked:

Hello! I'm a curious anon who wants to be not ignorant on asexuality cause i gotta be a good ally, so i was wondering if you could explain it? sometimes i get confused like, they say asexual people also have sex but i thought that would negate asexuality? also how do you know you're asexual, how do you know the difference between romantic attraction and sexual attraction? sorry if i'm asking a lot of questions i just wanna be Educated™

hey there, sunshine!!! OK, let me explain EVERYTHING. 

hmmm.

so, asexuality is when a person does not feel sexual attraction to other people. sexual attraction is - this is kind of hard for me, as I’m ace myself, to explain it without it sounding a bit weird, maybe?! - but it’s the feeling of looking at someone and being turned on by them, I guess? the feeling of looking at them and wanting to have sex with them, and feeling aroused by the idea of having sex with them. this is something that asexual people do not feel.

this is separate from feelings of romantic attraction, which is not to do with sex and all to do with intimacy of heart - and how you express that romantic intimacy varies from person to person. for a lot of people, it involves stuff like kissing and holding hands and going on dates and flowers and stuff. pretty much, if it’s your heart going !!!!!! then it’s romantic, and if it’s your down-there lair going !!!!!!!!, then that’s sexual.

asexuality, like many sexualities, is not an absolute: it’s a spectrum! the spectrum of asexuality includes - but is not limited to - demisexuality (being attracted to someone only after a strong emotional bond has been formed with them), grey-asexuality (feeling sexual attraction to other people very rarely, or very weakly, or a combination of both), and asexuality itself, which is simply never feeling sexual attraction.

as for the question about sex negating asexuality, there are many reasons an asexual person might have sex:

  • to experience physical intimacy with someone they care about a lot, even if they are not sexually attracted to them
  • because they know their partner enjoys it, and they get enjoyment out of pleasing their partner
  • because not feeling sexual attraction doesn’t mean not feeling sexual arousal. you can be asexual but still want to have sex, it’s just that you’re not able to find someone you particularly want to have sex with. I’ve seen an analogy that goes like this: you know that feeling where you’re hungry, and you open the cupboard, and everything you see you’re like… nah… but you’re still hungry? yeah, that. eventually you might end up eating something that you don’t feel especially drawn to, just because you’re hungry.
  • because sex can be really fun! even if you’re not attracted to your partner, sex can be enjoyable (and I am speaking from experience here)
  • to have kids! some asexual people want to raise a family.
  • on a less positive note, society kind of demands sex of people. it’s seen as a young person’s rite of passage, as the cementing of romantic feelings, as a given in any long-term relationship. it’s something that friends bond over, their sex stories; it’s part of drinking games, it’s often part of TV and books and movies, it’s a whole world that demands to be understood or else you risk feeling like - and being treated like - a child. asexual people may feel pressured to have sex, even when not wanting to, just to fit in. this is a not-cool reason.

that is absolutely not an exhaustive list but hopefully it gives you some idea of some reasons why ace people might have sex! still very much asexual before, during, and after.

lastly, you ask how people know they’re asexual… this one is kind of hard to answer. personally, I figured it out pretty late. I’d always assumed that everyone was kind of deciding to be attracted to people, like I was, and it was only after some revealing conversations with friends that I realised - no, most people don’t have to try to force attraction with decisions, it just happens naturally. 

often, the Realisation Process begins with doing a little bit of reading and recognising yourself in the things you’re learning! if you want to know more, I seriously recommend AVEN - click here! - a website which has a crap ton of info!! thank you for your question, I appreciate you wanting to learn and be a good ally - it makes all the difference to have educated, accepting allies out there in the big wide world. you’re wonderful, and hope I helped! <3

Hair, Sex, and Make-up

Being the youngest hair and makeup artist for the idol boy group BTS was your dream. Since you finally got to achieve it things were great and although it was hard being the youngest on the crew you knew that they loved you. You became close to the boys, but more so to Jungkook since you were the same age. However it seemed like things were going to change.

Genre: Smut

Word Count: 6k


Originally posted by officialwookkibby



“Yah, ___. Can you grab my makeup bag for me?”

“Yes, unnie.” You frowned in concentration and looked at Yoongi apologetically before running across the room and grabbing the forgotten make-up bag. Being the youngest hair and makeup stylist for the idol group BTS had it’s ups and downs. The boys loved you and you were close to many of them but the older girls bossed you around a lot.

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  • Candy: Lysander kissed me.
  • Alexy: Ohmygodohmygod
  • Rosalya: Ok, alright. We want to hear everything.
  • Rosalya: Alexy, get the wine.
  • Rosalya: Candy, does this end well or do we need to get tissues?
  • Candy: Oh, it ended very well.
  • Alexy, getting the wine: Do not start without me. Do not start without me.
  • Rosalya: Okay, alright, let’s hear about the kiss.
  • Rosalya: Was it like a soft brush against your lips? Or was it like an “I gotta have you now” kind of thing?
  • Candy: Well, at first it was really intense, you know. And then, oh god, and then we just sort of sunk into it.
  • Rosalya: Okay, so, were you holding him? Or were his hands like on you?
  • Candy: No, actually first they started on my waist. And then, they slid up, and then, they were on my shoulders.
  • Rosalya and Alexy: Ohhhhh.
  • Meanwhile, In the next room:
  • Lysander: And, uh, and then I kissed her.
  • Castiel: Tongue?
  • Lysander: Yeah.
  • Castiel: Cool.
The bughead kiss
  • Jughead: I kissed Betty.
  • Archie: ohmygodohmygodohmygod.
  • Kevin: Ok, alright. We want to hear everything. Archie, get the wine. Jughead, does this end well or do we need tissues?
  • Jughead: Oh, it ended very well.
  • Archie: *getting the wine* Do not start without me.
  • Kevin: Ok, alright, let's hear it was it like a soft brush against you lips? Or like a "I gotta have you now" kind of thing?
  • Jughead: Well it was very intense at first,you know. And then, oh god, and then we just sort of sunk into it.
  • Archie and Kevin: Ohhhhh
  • [In the next room.]
  • Betty: And then he kissed me.
  • Veronica: tongue?
  • Betty: Yeah.
  • Veronica: cool.

elessar9  asked:

I just wanted to take a moment and thank you so much for sharing your amazing artwork. I'm dealing with all sorts of things at the moment and your art (especially Dorian) never fails to brighten my day <3

Aw, I’m so glad to hear it, I hope everything goes ok, Dorian and I believe in you! 
Have a Dorian just for u: 

(don’t ask me why he’s naked but for a cape and kissing a snake, I have no idea)