it has been a while since ive been so worked up that i posted on here about it

With All My Heart - Part 8

Word Count: 3003

Pairing: Jensen x Reader

Warnings: Angst, Medical Situations

A/N: Tags are closed. Unbeta’d. All mistakes are mine. 

Feedback and constructive criticism always welcome and encouraged

With All My Heart Masterlist


“You sure you’re gonna be ok with me gone?” Jensen asked for the 500th time. He was packing his bag to leave for PhoenixCon and while you didn’t really want him to go you knew he couldn’t disappoint the fans to stay behind with you.

“Yeah, it’ll be fine.” You reassured, wrapping your arms around him from behind and resting your head against his shoulder. “Emma will be here and Gen is gonna come by when Emma has to work so I’m pretty much covered. Plus, the dogs will keep me company.” You glanced over at Oscar and Icarus, who were both staring at you intently.

Jensen spun in your arms and put his arms around your neck, checking your face to see if you were lying. “Sorry the doctor said you couldn’t go. I really thought she’d say yes. You’re doing so well.”

“Yeah. Me too.” You sighed. “Plus, I’ve been getting a lot of people asking me on Twitter and stuff about singing since I did it in Rome. I was actually kinda hoping I’d get to do it again…”

“Wait.” Jensen stopped and blinked, pulling away from you while he continued to pack his clothes. “You actually…were planning on singing with me? Like on stage?”

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170409 Got7 Mini fan meeting

Mark uses these from Olive Young

And buys the mask by the boxes

Yugyeom said he likes Crayon Shin-Chan and Doraemon the best
YG: i dont watch it anymore but Bambam still watches it hes a baby

Jackson said when he was young when he watched Pokemon he like Golbat the most

JB said he’s happiest when he gets a text from the delivery guy saying that he left a package at the security office

Bambam wants another piercing (Helix area) but he cant cuz of the in-ear
he wants to get one more piercing

Fan told Jackson
You’re my star You’re the best
in Chinese
JS: in Chinese it means star but it also means gorilla

Fan got flustered and Jackson wrote
“To me you’re also my star” in Chinese

Fan told Bambam that Wiz Khalifa is having a concert in Korea
and Bambam said he really wants to go

F: Jackson what perfume do you use?
JS: My body naturally has a good scent ^^

Jackson uses Dolce and Gabbana perfume
Fan: the perfume u used yesterday smells so good
Jackson puts out his neck for the fan to smell

JB said that he likes the smell of natural body scent

JB said that he puts on perfume thats made of wood and that he doesnt know the name cuz he doesnt put on perfume often

Fan: It’s true that ur the model for Pepsi?
JS: yes
Fan: Est or Pepsi? 1 2 3
JS: Cola
Fan: no (asked again)
JS: Cola~

Fan told Jinyoung that he looked handsome with the choker today

Jinyoung said he didn’t want to do it

F: Have you put on lenses before?
JY: I really don’t want to do that
F: what about dying ur hair?
JY: I need to think about that

JB said if you see it analytically he doesn’t have any thoughts on doing a ‘sweet’ concept
cuz of age~

Mark and Bambam both weighs 60kg
Mark weighed himself in the jungle

Yugyeom said he like sweet scent
F: then do you not like sweet concept?
YG: I like salty concept better i cant do cute things on stage

F: Jackson what perfume do you use?
JS: My body naturally has a good scent ^^

F: the flower got discouraged cuz Jinyoung looks prettier
JY to the flower: ur a loser! loser!

Fan prepared flowers for the boys but Jinyoung’s flower wilted a bit

Jackson said when he was young when he watched Pokemon he like Golbat the most

Yugyeom said he likes Crayon Shin-Chan and Doraemon the best
YG: i dont watch it anymore but Bambam still watches it hes a baby

JB: I did get a tattoo here (taps chest) just joking
JY: lets see it (tries to take off JB’s clothes)

Mark saying that he had the ahgabong on all the time in the jungle but when he came back to Korea the battery ran out

BB: Mark hyung it was the fans that was lighting it up for u

YG: Mark’s anger is gettting released lately

Mark did 실화냐? Jackson drew a turtle and wrote Wang’s wife

MK: i have a tattoo right here (chest) i have ahgases right in my heart

YJ: my signature 3 the one that i drew on the ipad with a ruler so it’s straight

BB: Mark hyung you have a tattoo *taps calf*

YG: but for our last stage all 7 of us was there so it was definately different

YG: personally i was a bit sad cuz one person was gone and then when he came another person was gone

BB: we will have international schedules so we might not have time to see kfans for awhile

Bambam saying that he thought this promotion was more fun than Hard Carry

YJ: it felt like ahgases were growing

YJ: i enjoyed this activity because comparing the first and last stage we can see how more people came to see us

Jinyoung saying that he can see how much they grew during this triology

JY: I think that after doing this trilogy we need some time to prepare for the next album we might do solo activities butBut activities with all 7 of us might be in awhile
YG: but i think we will come back this year

MK: I went thru so much hard time in the jungle
JB: i saw Mark shirtless in the shower after he came back and got buff
MK: JB is lying

MK: there is no reason for me to gain weight cuz i wasnt able to eat much in the jungle

Jackson: everyone during this promotion i was sick i wasnt able to take care of my body and mental health  i always told u guys to take care of ur health but i learned that health is the most important during this time

Mark: Jackson don’t be sick

JB really doesn’t want a boyfriend concept again

 Jackson said that, along with ‘dan’ (sweet) and ‘jjan’ (salty) concepts they also have ‘sseun’ (bitter) like SSI hahahaha

Bambam: should we do yaja time (talking informally)
JS: u do that all the time
JB: if u pick that im the one who should talk informally to u

YJ: oh i like this “Lim Jaebum aegyo for 1 min”

JS: some of these arent even questions they are commands “Dance”

Jackson telling the members to pick a post it again
YJ: we pick again?
JS: this is QnA

Jinyoung said he cant remember the choreo for Home Run

They stopped the 2x dance
YJ: do u guys want to kill us?

While watching the periscope im wondering how i was able to periscope the whole LA fanmeet 😳 wonder how much data i used lol

Jinson saying that it was a warmup
JY: since the 2 maknae only looks cute and didnt do well we will all do it together

Yugbam is actually doing well for the blindfold 2x dance

maknae team lost so they are getting blindfolded to dance

JY: do any pose
JS: hyung pose
JY: do u have any new pose u learned from the jungle?
JS: of course chic and sexy

The loser for the game is gonna do 2x dance with blindfold on

JB said that the lyrics for Something Good and Everyday connects

Bambam correcting Yugyeom
YG: i know but he said for me to do the same thing again

GOT7 trolling Yugyeom
YG: why r u guys doing this to me today?
MK: Yugyeom u got it wrong

Yugyeom picked lyrics from skyway

Bambam picked Yeoju Paju busy since morning (Mark’s part)
BB: its my fav song from this album

JB: i picked lyrics from my song Something Good
BB: r u promoting ur song?

Jinyoung making Yugyeom do the brrah
YG: i cant do it

Bambam said his goal for next year is to be 61kg

Bambam said he’s 60kg
JS: r u 60kg with ur shoes on?

JB: there was this kind of lyrics of ours? How is the relationship between Nora and Coco?

F: r u changing ur hair to black cuz u want to?
YJ: no i like it now~
and shook his hair and bragged his hair color 

F: its been awhile I haven’t been able to go to broadcasting shows cuz of work
JY: work right now is important too

JY: when I rested for 1 year after JJP it was hard
F: no if I don’t see GOT7 theres no point
JY: yup remember No Jinyoung No Life

F: Mark did u eat well in the jungle?
MK: i ate well after I came back!

While fan was talking with Bambam he cracked her knuckle
F: oh what ive heard of
BB: oh is alot of ppl talking about this?

Jinyoung said that if u guys make boyfriends then he will make a girlfriend too

One of the fan asked Bambam why he didn’t crack her finger today
BB: cuz many ppl said that it hurts

Is it fansign or children’s day? 😂😂

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Reign IV (Reader x Bucky Barnes)

Word Count: 1601

Summary: Royal AU: the reader is a princess next in line to take the throne. Bucky is a knight that has been put in charge of taking care of and protecting the reader.

Warnings: funeral?

A/N: Sorry it’s been a while since I’ve posted in this series! Things got busy and I just had no time to write but here we are and omg. enjoy!!

“Reign” MASTERLIST

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Disclaimer & Masterpost 

Summary: Kakashi can’t help the whimsical smile on his face as he watches his former students, interacting with one another as if no time has passed. This peace won’t last long, he knows. But for right now, in this tiny medical tent, they can all pretend for a little longer that everything is going to work out perfectly. [NarutoWeek2017 – Day 1 - Prompt: “Team 7”]

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3 Years in  // The Only Way Out is Still Through

Did you guys notice I never posted a three years of nursing post back in March?? Probably not. That’s ok. In truth I was having a rough time at the end of February so it took me a while to write this post. Then I decided to sit on it and decide whether it felt right to post it. So… Here we are almost in June and I’ve decided I’m ready for this post to appear, albeit in an edited form. 

March has rolled around again and with it my third anniversary of nursing. Out of my three years of nursing so far, this last year has been the best. I’ve moved to a new city and a new hospital, into a Labor and Delivery unit that I love. I have some truly wonderful and caring co-workers and a lovely boss. I’m doing just L&D now which I love so much. I feel so supported on my unit and in my job.

This last year has been a little more comfortable for me as well. I’ve been a nurse for three years but doing L&D for two years now. I feel a little bit more like I finally know what I’m doing. I realized the other day I feel pretty awesome about IVs and I rarely need someone to check behind me with cervical exams. I love being with laboring patients and we get a lot more natural patients at this hospital which is fantastic and lovely and challenging.

I work with some lovely providers including mostly midwives for my labor patients and of the handful of MDs we have most of them are awesome. I love the camaraderie and the feeling that the providers truly want what is right for the patient. I don’t feel like I’m fighting every step of the way to get patients what they deserve, because things just happen the way they should and our policies support that.

I honestly hadn’t even been thinking about the passage of time much this last year, because I finally feel happy and content where I’m at. So it took me a bit by surprise when I realized how close I was to my nursing anniversary this year.

Or should I say I was taken by surprise the week and half before my anniversary when I began to question whether I was still supposed to be a nurse. Things had been going great. I’ve experienced almost a hundred births in the last 9 months I’ve been working at my new job. I’ve gotten to experience beautiful, chaotic, reverent, happy and joyous births. Interspersed have been a few sad times with fetal demises and my first patient that delivered who intended to give her baby up for adoption. But all in all this year I felt much better able to deal with the sadder days because I felt well supported by my coworkers and leaders, plus I have experienced more of these situations and feel more capable.

But a few weeks before my three year nursing anniversary, I had what I had considered a normal day with a laboring patient. An uneventful labor led to a slightly more challenging delivery, but nothing we aren’t trained to handle as L&D nurses. 

What resulted was the unexpected death of the baby about 6 hours later. (We finally just recently received the information from the autopsy that the baby’s death was the result of many unforeseen genetic anomalies).

I was a mess, my entire unit was a mess from the charge nurse to the midwife to every single person that I worked with that day.

What words do you say to the mother who just found out from a phone call that her six hour old baby has died?

What words do you say to yourself? How do you explain the ways of the universe?

                                                   —————

At the debriefing we had for the staff involved, we talked about how PTSD related to traumatic events at work is real. It is so real. And that we should be cognizant of that with ourselves and others.

I wish I could say it was no big deal. I had attended over 150 deliveries before this one. I know that 99% of the time EVERYTHING IS FINE. Everything is always fine. Even things that seem like a catastrophe usually end up just fine in the end. I almost never went into deliveries feeling like something terrible might happen or any sort of dread. I really do love the labor and delivery part of my job.

But ever since that delivery I feel so much fear. I’m worried I missed something. That something terrible and random is going to happen. That there will be another freak accident because that must be what happened. There was no reason for the baby to die. And that doesn’t make me feel better. There is nothing we could have prepared for or done better.

Sometimes, terrible things just happen.
And how do you deal with the unknown?
How do you deal with terror that at any moment something catastrophic might happen?

This is the reality we face as nurses and as healthcare professionals.
Nothing is guaranteed.
We practice and prepare for the unknown, for the emergency situations.

So what do you do to ease the low level, simmering terror that rises like bile in the back of your throat?

How do you continue on like everything is okay, when things will never be okay again for one family, for one mother?

As nurses maybe we don’t talk about this enough. What do you do to cope with the unexpected sadness and loss in your job? 

I guess I’m writing all of this to say, I see you. I feel your pain, my fellow nurses and healthcare providers. I understand the shit we go through everyday but also the sadness, suffering, and dying we see some days that seems to weigh us down. I am present in your pain. 

An Open Letter to Cow Chop

Ever since I was born, I was diagnosed with a neuromuscular disease called Spinal Muscular Atrophy. It’s like ALS in that it’s degenerative. Right now, I’m in a wheelchair and can barely use my hands to drive my power wheelchair and control my computer. My whole life is online since that’s the only thing I can really do, even my university is an online program. I used to be able to play video games like Mario Kart and Pokémon and now my disease has even taken that away from me. Since I still enjoyed the video game culture I decided to look into YouTubers playing them instead. From that day forward, everything was different.
It started with Seamus and his GTA IV videos, he was the first person I had subscribed to. One day he made a video about the drama with his group of friends (we all know who that was). So, I decided to check some of the other guys out and that’s how I was introduced to James, starting with his Hey You Pikachu! videos. (I can’t believe it’s been three years!) I’ve been along for the long haul and have enjoyed every minute of it. Starting around January of 2016 I had received yet another diagnosis of chronic kidney stones. Since I don’t move, my bones basically are decalcifying constantly, which leads to calcium kidney stones. From March to September I had extensive kidney shockwave surgeries which were excruciating and barely helped the overlying problem. During that period, I was severely depressed. Not being able to do anything physically while having to suffer so much AND trying to keep my grades up junior year was dreadful. It was to the point where I wasn’t even sure if my quality of life was worth suffering so much for.
However, as many of us know, something else appeared that year. On April 1, 2016, Cow Chop uploaded their first video and changed my life for the better. The way James and Aleks took such a major leap of faith in creating the channel astounded me. Their courage showed me that you must work hard for what you want in life and that it isn’t chocolates and roses every day. So, every day that summer when I came home from the hospital feeling like shit I’d log on to YouTube and be able to laugh at whatever amazing video they released that day. Especially with this LA move, everybody at Cow Chop has taught me that sometimes you just need to take that step forward to make your dreams come true. I am now looking forward to starting my major of Computer Science and I wouldn’t be where I am today without the amount of entertainment and positivity that this one group of people has attributed to my life. So, from the bottom of my heart thank you, James, Aleks, Trevor, Brett, Joe, Anna, Asher, and Lindsey!
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20 Questions with Dr Ferox #10

200 questions in these bundled posts! Unfortunately nothing extra special for you, just more answers. 

@loveprose said:  hey doc! ive been following you for a while and i absolutely love your blog, your humor, and your intelligence! i just wanted to say that im very thankful to have learned so much from your blog, and im glad that your patients benefit from having you as their doctor! youre amazing :D QT: my headcanon for you is that you absolutely love dino nuggets, and you like to eat them as if youre a predatory dinosaur

I did not actually know that dino nuggets were a thing. So I researched.

And I have decided I need to become more familiar with them. Rawr.

Anonymous said: Do you have a list of pets you wish weren’t inbred to a point where they are just a walking mess? Or, I guess my question is what are your thoughts on those types of pets, like pugs for example(pugs are the only ones I can think of at the moment)? I am perfectly fine if you don’t want to answer this at all. I’m certain there are better questions to answer in your inbox.

Kind of… all of them.

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In My Time of Dying (The Hospital Looked Pretty Accurate)

A review of Supernatural’s “In My Time of Dying” for @weesta

So very honestly, besides the fact that getting thrown against walls and getting the sh*t beat out of you is a lot worse for the average person than Supernatural tends to make it out to be, “Devil’s Trap isn’t all that exciting medically (mostly because a lot of the more interesting injuries (Dean bleeding everywhere, etc…) were vague and supernatural in origin). There’s really not a lot for me to talk about in this one.

But then there’s “In My Time of Dying” which totally makes up for it.

Most of this episode takes place in a hospital, where Dean’s ghost is wandering around while his body is in a coma. They really did some impressive research when it came to a lot of this episode, especially the set design and ACLS. Here are some things I noted in particular:


  • Everything seemed a little outdated, including, for some reason, the scrubs (maybe 10-15 years outdated, taking into account that this episode aired in 2006), but it was all real equipment.
  • Again, those are actual vent hoses- not the prop mock-ups I’m used to seeing in TV shows, and the ventilator is real. It is a Bear 1000 (built about 1993).
  •  Dean has an NG tube- a tube that goes from his nose to his stomach in order to deliver tube feedings and possibly medication. If there was any kind of problem with his digestive tract, it may also be hooked up to suction to keep his stomach empty. I don’t usually see this in TV/movies (ask me how I feel about the end of Superman Returns sometime) and its something I’m really impressed by that the set designers chose to use it. If someone is unconscious for any amount of time, they’re going to need food, and contrary to popular belief, IV nutrition, while possible, comes with a lot of risks and is generally a last resort for when the digestive system isn’t working at all and the person would literally starve otherwise. For everyone else, tube feedings it is!
  • Everything on the monitor makes sense (he has EKG leads on, a pulse-ox clip, etc…), with the exception that a blood pressure reading is not displayed even though Dean clearly has a blood pressure cuff on. In a setting like this, it might only be taking his blood pressure once an hour or so, but the most recent reading would still be displayed.
  • Something I’m also impressed about: When Dean codes, the rhythm on the monitor is V-Fib! Yay! I mean, that sucks, but since they’re shocking him, it’s a correct rhythm.
  • The only thing is that while yes, Dean has leads on, they’re hooked up to the monitor over his bed, not the defibrillator. He would have needed pads or a separate set of leads in order for there to be a readout on the defib screen. The Zoll M-Series (made in 1998), the defibrillator in the scene, has the capability for either of these monitoring modes, but neither is utilized in the scene.
  • Something I’m even more impressed about: Later, when another character codes and goes into asystole… they don’t shock her!
  • Unfortunately, in both scenes, the CPR is almost non-existent.
  • While a cool scene when Dean throws the glass off the table, a glass water glass in a hospital would be a big no-no.

Defibrillator use: When Dean Codes, they use “stacked shocks” (the series of three shocks prior to initiating CPR in the scene). This was no longer recommended as of 2005 (so depending on when they were writing this episode, it could have been correct). Also (and this is the nit-pick of the century, but because of this post I am now an expert on the Zoll M-series and need to share my knowledge), they charge to 360J. The 2005 recommendations for a biphasic defibrillator (such as the one in the scene) only go up to 200J, and would take about 7 seconds to charge between shocks. When talking about higher-energy shocks like 360J, we’re typically talking about monophasic defibrillators. You didn’t need to know that, but… fun fact?

Also, good job to this episode on the differentiation of roles in the codes (someone different is charting, administering drugs, doing CPR, running the defibrillator, leading, etc..). However, at certain points, the doctor seemed to be the code leader, the defibrillator guy, and the person doing CPR. These would have been very difficult roles to triple-up on. An aide or nursing/medical student can do CPR just as well.

“Code 500 CPR”: They overhead page this as the cardiac arrest code for the hospital. Its also a kind of… unique one. Overhead emergency pages are typically either colors, words, numbers, or fake doctor names (think “Code Blue” “Code Heat” “Code 2” or “Paging Dr. Smith”) that are set in advance to be able to get sensitive information (cardiac arrest, fire, severe weather, active shooter, bomb threat, etc..) to hospital staff without alarming the patients or public. “Code Red, Third Floor” sounds better overhead paged than “There’s a fire on the third floor” does. Unfortunately, they never specify a room number in the episode, and if you overhead page “CPR”, pretty much everyone knows what’s happening, so…. Yeah.

One last thing to mention before I close is… shirts and scrub pants look good, but they’d be a b*tch to wrestle unconscious/uncooperative patients into. Not quite as bad as SGA’s infirmary scrubs, and I get that it was done because having Dean’s butt hanging out would be, ah, inappropriate for TV, but still. As a nurse, I laughed (like, do they cut them off if they need to defib them? That seems like a waste of shirts…).

Overall, I was super impressed with the episode, especially since its from the same show that subjected us all to “Red Meat”. It did really exceptionally well in set design, and in the ‘not shocking unshockable rhythms’ department. I didn’t even think “why oh god why????” even once while watching it. Thank you, Supernatural. This is how you make a good episode.

 The ending kind of falls off I’m so so tired of looking at this. @klangst-week

Title: I’m just a notch in your bed post (but you’re just a line in a song)
Prompt: Mistake/Faith
Rating: T
Word Count: 825
Warnings: Pining Keith, unrequited love, mentions of sex
Summary: Keith has been many places in the world and he’s never belonged anywhere but beside Lance. Even when it hurts.

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Sick: Chanyeol scenario

A/N: Hey everyone! I want to say a few things about this one shot before I post it. First and foremost I wanted to tell you that this actually happened to me.. I got sick this exact way and this one hits home big time for me so bear with me because its also a really long fic, like over 2k words. So pull up a chair, grab a snack and I sincerely hope you enjoy this. Love you guys! -admin A


“Someone just come kill me please” I whine, cuddling into the covers. I’ve been sick for the past week and I feel like complete death.

I’ve been to the hospital twice now and they can’t figure out why my temperature has been out of control and why I don’t feel like eating anything. I can’t keep down that I eat anyway, so there’s really no point in trying.

The only reason I have even eaten anything all week is because Chanyeol makes sure of it. I love him, but he worries about me too much sometimes. He’s been working so hard and the last thing I need is for him to stress himself out any more trying to take care of me.

Today was the worst of it and I couldn’t get out of bed if I wanted to. I was so weak that if I wanted to go to the bathroom or do anything for myself I had to crawl.

I reach for the thermometer at my bedside and check my temp. 104.7F, the highest it’s been all week. I lay back down but it feels like a brick is sitting on my chest. I’m absolutely miserable, but I muster up the energy to sit upright, only to start coughing profusely.

I cough so hard that my eyes water and I can barely breathe. I try to stand to go to the bathroom and my knees go weak, but I catch myself in time to get back onto the bed and I do the only thing I can think of. I call Chanyeol.

I know he’s at work and I don’t want to worry him, but I also need to tell him. His phone rings a few times and I leave him a voicemail telling him what’s going on and ask him to call me back.

He calls me back almost immediately. Just hearing his voice makes me feel a little bit better, but I know that I can’t take care of myself with how I’m currently feeling.

I tell him everything that’s going on and tell him that I think it’s a good idea that I go to the hospital to get checked out. He agrees and I hear rustling from the other end of the phone.

“Baby? What’s going on?” I inquire. After about a minute, he replies.

“Sorry I was talking to my manager. Since I’m done with my part of the photoshoot they’re going to let me leave so I can take you to the hospital. I’ll be home in twenty. I love you.”

“I love you too. See you when you get here.” I hang up the phone and try to look presentable to no avail. I can’t even get out of bed let alone dress myself, so I lay in bed until he arrives. He finally gets here after what feels like ages and walks into the bedroom to see me in my pitiful state.

“Jesus babe you weren’t kidding.” He says as my body goes into another coughing spell. Once I finally stop coughing I tell him about the fever and how weak I am. He puts one of his masks on and helps me out of bed. He walks me to the bathroom, helps me get dressed and takes me to the hospital.

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20 Questions with Dr Ferox #8

My gosh, there’s just so much stuff you vetlings want to know, isn’t there? Well, knowledge is good, so here we go with yet another info dump as I try to answer a big slew of your questions in one hit.

Anonymous said: I sometimes get your patreon emails or an update on your blog while I’m studying/struggling in the wee-hours of the morning (vetmed). I’m in WA, so where-ever you are it’s also late/early. What are you doing up in the witching hours?

First of all, I am an AdultTM and as such I am permitted to set by own Bed Time. There are many reasons why you might receive notifications from me so ‘early’.

  • I have a blog post on queue every morning between 5am and 6am my time (so probably 3am and 4am your time). It goes up automatically, so I can see initial responses before I go to work.
  • I think Patreon sends its emails at the same time each day, regardless of when I post. I certainly don’t type there early in the morning.
  • Sometimes I’m on nightshift and can get kinda bored at 3am sometimes.
  • Sometimes I just can’t sleep, especially with the changing day/night cycles.

Most of the blog runs on queue, honestly. At least three posts a day do.

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uqu  asked:

oh my gosh your art style is so clean and pretty ahhhhh ❤️ is it okay for me to ask if you've used any certain books or techniques to improve your anatomy?? i love love your work ;;

 SORRY I TOOK SO LONG TO GET BACK BAB!!!!

but as far as anatomy goes, i dont really use books! most of it has been years and years of refining and re correcting anatomical mistakes (so a LOT of blood, sweat, and tears if i can simply put it lol). though what really helped was looking a LOT at references and remembering some basic principles/characteristics of anatomy

*DISCLAIMER* i dont have any formal teaching on this subject and this is completely based off of my own personal style lol!!!

its really a matter of drawing over and over again until it comes naturally and without having to look at references… i prepared a few images to probably help bUT IM BAD AT EXPLAINING

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New Beginnings! Time to Focus: ‘Just Fine.’ and ‘Sailor Jeohn’

hi guys! ahhh its been too loooongg ive missed posting and sharing my art here, but hey! that’s what I wanted to talk about. 

first off, commissions are still underway, with just one slot left! so grab it while you can. also in other news, I got a part-time job! i earn real monies like a real PERSON NOW lol. a lot has gone on these past few months since I moved here to San Francisco and my life is a lot better than it was just 6 months ago. I’m so much happier, I feel better, i actually have real-life, tangible, friends and i get to interact with REAL PEOPLE lol its been so great. The city is just great and amazing and i love it here, it’s been a long time since I’ve felt soo.. liberated, and content. im really happy right now, lol. 

so, to get to the point; since ive moved out here ive experienced so many new and different things ive had time to reflect upon my life, my past, my future, my dreams, my desires, my passions, and everything ive experienced up to here, and ive just realized that i know what to do now. 

i want to make comics, which isnt actually new news lol but whether its webcomics or graphic novels or whatever lol, it’s something i really want to do, that ive wanted to do for a long time. but i dont just want to work for a company or something, drawing other peoples stories, right now I want to draw my own comics, my stories. its something ive just put off for so long, because ive been so used to doing what other people have wanted me to do my whole life (this is a long long story about my life history for another day) but now that im living on my own, i finally feel that freedom ive longed for for so long, that freedom to just draw whatever i want, to actually START something.

so NOW here is what this post is about; ive been intently working on and jotting down notes and ideas for 2 comic projects for a long time now, and i now feel like i have the capacity in my life currently (mentally, artistically, financially etc.) to actually commit to them and start fleshing them out. 

The first one is called Just Fine., a story ive been working on on and off for 3+ years with OC’s of mine you already know (Pahl, Rhodas, etc.). It’s a story about best friends and life and so much more, but for now that’s all I’ll say.

The second one is my newest one, based on a small flash of a thought from 2 summers ago that ive only recently revisited in December, but its one ive grown oddly yet quickly passionate about, called Sailor Jeohn. This one, hopefully, I plan on starting as a webcomic by December this year.

I’ll talk more about them later, and you’ll understand more of what they are about in the coming months, but basically, this is what im focusing on now, this post is just to say that these stories, their concept art, etc, will probably be all youll be seeing from me for a long while. that’s not to say there will be no occasional fanart spurts here and there, or fanart comics and such, im just beginning a new focus, devoting my art to what ive wanted to devote it to for along time. 

right now, commissions, school, and my job have been taking up a lot of time, but i plan on starting posting art that ive done here and there about these projects as soon as readily possible!

Sooooo thank you all for your support! for following me, for actually reaching over 10,000+ followers!!! (i dont know when it happened, but i just checked in this morning and was like WHOAAAA AHHHHH) Thank you so much for liking my art, what i draw, it means more than the world to me that even one person likes what i do lol. So hopefully you continue to follow my artistic journey from here on as well, and that you look forward to the projects and comics Ill be working on and releasing in the future! Thank you so much! 

anonymous asked:

HEY can you post like how you bake pizzas or what sorta recipes you googled bcos im interested in what youre doing plus im an idiot when it comes to anything involving the kitchen

HEY yeah i can! its been a while since i baked a pizza but this is the very easy recipe that you can adjust and change:

1. acquire your pizza base. you can do this from scratch but i prefer to buy premade because its easier. 

2. remember to preheat your oven. you don’t want cold-in-the-middle-pizza. make sure it has been preheated for about 10 minutes minimum. (also, remember to use a baking sheet on your baking tray and flour it!)

3. stretch out your pizza base! you can make it a standard circle or even a rectangle, its up to you. don’t be afraid to shape it to your baking tray. rectangle pizza is just as delicious as circular. 

4. apply your sauce to the base! can be anything, tomato sauce, tomato puree, bbq sauce. depending if you like a lot or a little, make an even layer on the base.

5. get your cheese & toppings! you can either put the toppings on first and the cheese, or the cheese first then the toppings. both work and its down to personal taste. this is the best place to experiment; try different cheeses and toppings and combinations. multiple cheeses can be delicious, and contrasting flavours (spicy and sweet) on the toppings can be nice too! spread all this out evenly. 

6. if you want to add seasoning go ahead! im a filthy brit who doesn’t season his food (but i swear i’ll learn how one day) but be better than me. season that pizza.

7. pop it in the oven! (on your baking tray!) i cook my pizzas on gas mark 6 (200c/400f) for 15 minutes. keep checking, as the thinner the pizza, the quicker it cooks. once it is crisp and golden its all done.

8. serve! let it cool after you take it out (cutting immediately can cause the cheese and the toppings to drag everywhere) and then serve after a few minutes. 

here are some more resources on making pizza!

basic pizza making: 1, 2, 3

making your own pizza base: 1, 2, 3,

hope i helped!! i am in no way a perfect cook so if ive made any errors please do let me know!!

Ever Since You Came Around

this glitched really badly, formatting wise the first time i tried to post it, so my apologies, and here we are again! written for swawesome santa, 8k of patater goodness. huge thanks to @stupid-for-stars and @skyline-sunset-in-my-veins for giving me a hand while this was still a work in progress. read it here on ao3.

The worst part is, it’s a clean hit.

That’s not the worst part— the worst part is that the doctors have already told Kent with a reasonable amount of confidence that Alexei is not going to be able to play professional hockey again. The worst part is that Kent hasn’t slept in thirty six hours and had to argue with the nurse at the front desk about whether he was allowed to be here, even though he’s clearly listed as the emergency contact for Alexei Mashkov (he rants about the fact that Alexei’s whole family lives in Russia, because he is Russian, and rants a bit in sloppy, utilitarian Russian, mostly hockey terminology, just to prove a point, before they seem to accept that he is the man they should be speaking to about Alexei’s condition). The worst part is the waiting room of the hospital looks exactly like every other fucking hospital waiting room and Kent’s hands haven’t stopped shaking since he got the call. The worst part is probably that Alexei is in pain.

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ok so by request heres some more mentally ill newsies fam headcanons (a bit of an extension on this post) and before we begin, since there was some confusion last time, im mentally ill and this isnt romanticization, it’s a coping mech. enjoy. tw dissociation, past child abuse, disordered eating, self destructive behavior, homophobia

  • speaking of coping mechs, betting is racetrack’s lmao it gives him a sense of control over his money and habits and stuff like that even tho realistically hes got less control over it than he used to back when his parents used to take nearly everything he made, before he ran away
  • if he doesnt get to go down to the races at least a couple times a week he starts getting real anxious and twitchy and snappy so even though sheepshead is technically brooklyn, both jack and spot let him sell over there
  • jack’s super tactile because it’s really grounding for him & makes him feel connected and present. like just laying a hand on davey’s shoulder or putting his legs in someone’s lap while theyre just chillin helps him remember that he’s u know..a real person. in a real place. and not just lost in his head or whatever
  • he hated the refuge for a lot of reasons but one of the biggest is that snyder used to isolate him and keep him away from the other kids bc he was such a troublemaker so he literally had no way of grounding himself and it was distressing and scary and bad and he dissociated a lot because of it
  • a lot of the guys have weird relationships with food bc they dont get a lot of it so sometimes they get to a point where theyre just..forgetting to buy food. it happens to the older ones a lot bc theyre, u kno, saving their money for an apartment in a couple years, or a new pair of shoes for the smallest newsie, or a jacket for winter. and food becomes sidelined
  • usually tho they all make a habit of checking in and being like, dude did you eat today?? well did you eat yesterday then?? no? ok we’re getting something now. theyre all a little fucked up but they care about each other so theyve all got someone watching their backs
  • davey kinda feels like he’s invading this family space at first and he tries not to be intrusive or assume anything and he doesnt realize how much everyone actually cares about him until he doesnt sell for two days bc hes sick and wakes up in the middle of the night the second day to like ten newsies on his fire escape trying to figure out if hes ok
  • comfort objects….most of them have one or two…jack’s got a book about santa fe that he knows by heart and also his sketchbook, spot’s got his cane, boots has his marbles (haha)
  • theres…a lot of self destructive behavior that goes on. like, nobodys gonna stop any newsie from really doing anything or going anywhere unless its a turf problem so theyre free to do really ill advised things that they know will make them feel shitty bc. they just want to
  • not everyone makes a habit of it obviously but like. yeah. jack hangs around near the refuge sometimes just to hate it more and sometimes spot sees his family on the street and follows them around for a bit because fuck them ok he’s the king of brooklyn and he can do what he wants. hes not the same 12 yr old they kicked out for liking boys. and who cares if just seeing their faces makes him want to throw up
  • they monitor the headlines for each other in an attempt at a trigger warning for the guys who might be set off by something in the paper. thats why jack and race and the older guys always get their papers first so they can scan it and like if some woman was found murdered in an alley and they know that the newest kids dad died in a similar way, they can warn them not to look at that article
  • sometimes theyre not fast enough to warn the person though or sometimes they accidentally get triggered themselves and those are really bad days bc you cant really sell while youre having a panic attack. and usually the person will have already bought their papes, too, so every divvys them up and sells em and gives the money to the guy at the end of the day bc it’s not his fault
  • after crutchie gets out of the refuge he and jack talk about it a lot in private and just like. get it all out. bc its a fresh trauma for crutchie and an old one for jack that hes never been able to properly talk about bc nobody gets it, but now crutchie does get it. and it really helps the two of them to heal and feel better about the whole thing
  • theyre all definitely a family with a really good support system and i know ive been focusing on the manhattan newsies with a couple references to spot but trust me its very similar in brooklyn and the other boroughs bc theyre all in kind of a sinking boat together you know
  • the separate boroughs start working together a lot close since the rally and the union got formed obviously and everyone kinda figures out theyve been doing the same sorts of coping mechs and behaviors and building the same kind of support systems entirely separate from each other
  • theyre all a union, the newsboys union, and theyve always been acting like one

gammapulse  asked:

ALSO congrats on coming out as non binary??? I'll support all my pals gender or not. I'm a trans guy myself and interacting with u on Koichi has been tons of fun I'd love to get to know u more 👌👌👌

AND THANK YOU–ive actually been out on here for a while, but since i just don’t talk about my gender identity very much, i don’t think it’s very common knowledge, haha. OFFLINE, HOWEVER–well, eventually i’ll work my way up to coming out to certain people! 

most of my posts are free to interact with and stuff, and it’ll be really obvious if they aren’t, so feel free to jump in and chip in and whatnot! i can be really shy if you try talking to me through messenger or otherwise one on one, but that’s never your fault (im just anxious)