it definitely made me cry though

anonymous asked:

I don't know if you're still into servamp and the c3 ot3 (was that what you called them? lol). And I also don't know if you read fanfiction, but there is like one now on ao3. I just thought I'd let you know about that

Thank you!!!!! For letting me know!!!!!!!!!! Holy heck I’ll be sure to read it asap!!! *O*

Anon said: the other day I was listening to the weather forecast on the radio and they talked ab it very poetically, at some point they said “we might get the appearance of a shy lightning in the afternoon” and I just… Denki.

This is THE CUTEST THING I’ve read all week thank you oh my g o d …………. a shy lightning……………………… so cute…………………….h e c k I’m smiling so hard r i p

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You ask me time after time, and I tell you no, that I’m not ready for anything more. But you beg and beg, and ask me why I won’t. “I just don’t want that to be all you want” I say, looking away from your face. You take my hand and I slowly look back up at you. “That’s not all I want, that’s definitely not all I want. I’m happy just being with you” you say. Even though I know it’s true, I can’t help feeling as if I’m going to cry. I lay back down on your chest and hold back that sick feeling. “I won’t ask you anymore. I’m sorry if I made you uncomfortable.” I half-smile, like one of those smiles when you’re pretending to be okay, but on the inside you’re crying. “It’s okay”, I softly reply. Those were the words I needed to hear. Now, if only those were the last words I heard. Soon enough, you ask just one more time, and I reply with the same answer. No, I can’t, and I won’t. The whole thing scares me. It’s not that I don’t love him, it’s not that I wouldn’t do anything and everything for him, I’m just not ready yet. He needs to understand that. And I’m afraid that if I don’t do it, I’ll lose him. I’m afraid that if I keep saying no, he’ll eventually leave me for someone else who will. These worries flood my mind all the time. And although I know it’s not true, he wouldn’t leave me like that, I’m still afraid because I don’t know. I can’t afford to lose him. And if he really loves me like I know he does, he would understand.
—  I just don’t want to lose you… 3.24.17

OK IT 2017. This will be a long ass post FYI!!

So this post will contain spoilers if you don’t want to see any don’t look at this

- so overall I was very satisfied with the movie I thought that the mood was correct they definitely got the themes right it was definitely a coming-of-age film more than a horror film which I really liked

- I thought that every actor did fantastic with their character. Jack and Finn knocked it out of the park. I thought Jack was just absolutely amazing

- the thing that I like the most with this film was the kids. I didn’t so much care about the horror aspect of it I only cared about the kids and their friendship

- I didn’t get scared in all honesty because movies usually don’t scare me. I did jump a few times but the jump-scares were not extensive at all and I thought they were done pretty well

-Pennywise himself was not in it that much which I did like considering he wasn’t in the book that much. he did look a bit fake in some parts and I think that was mostly due to bills prosthetics on his face made his face and mouth move very strange which I did like.

- if you’re worried about Gore or anything like that don’t because there’s really no Gore in it at all except maybe the beginning and bevs scene.

- The Blood Oath made me tear up and made me very emotional and also a scene with stan where he wakes up and he starts crying in the sewers made me tear up as well. The Blood Oath though definitely made me emotional

- I like the idea of Stan’s encounter with the painting but I think it looked a bit strange coming to life and I don’t know if that was intentional or not but to be completely honest I was a bit underwhelmed with the way it looked. I was also a little underwhelmed with Eddie’s encounter. I thought it was done well but there are a few things that I wish they did it a little bit differently

-Some of the music in certain places was a bit over-the-top for my taste but overall I thought the soundtrack was good

-Richie didn’t really have that much of an encounter. His encounter was at Neibolt Street for the first time in the clown room. Now perhaps they did that on purpose considering we don’t find out about Richies true first encounter until he’s an adult so I can move past that

- I’m a bit confused though considering Finn said richie is neglected at home and that’s why he acts the way he does. Now perhaps that was a scene cut from the movie but there’s nothing that suggests at all that Richie was neglected at home. Perhaps that will be a flashback in part 2 I don’t know

- I knew that this was going to happen but I was a bit disappointed that we didn’t get to hear any of Stan’s Bar Mitzvah speech

- speaking of Stan I did like that they made him deny what was going on and made him a bit reluctant to do anything about it

- I thought the bullies did good but they didn’t show at all the fate of Victor and belch which made me a bit confused perhaps that was a scene cut too. Also Henry’s fate was fuzzy in this considering they made it look like he could have died and we saw nothing of him after that

- I do wish we saw more of Mike. We didn’t really see much of him he had the least amount of screen time

- I also wish we got one more scene of Bill at home with his parents ignoring him. We didn’t see his parents ignore him at all in this actually

- The chemistry between the kids is just fantastic especially between Eddie and Richie and Stan and Bill.

-Okay so concerning Beverly: I was never the biggest fan of Beverly in the book. I thought she wasn’t a well-written character. I liked her a little bit more in this maybe just because I like Sophia. I honestly thought that they were trying too hard to make her seem like a really strong female character (which in the novel as an adult anyway I never really saw her as that) and to make her seem like the kind of girl who is like “i’m not like other girls”

- and who called it? Eddie writing the V on his own cast? I did I knew that was going to happen!!! I also knew that it would be Greta who wrote Loser on his cast instead

-I truly enjoyed every single scene with Eddie in it. Now Eddie’s obviously my favorite character if you couldn’t tell but again I just think Jack did fantastic as Eddie


- I thought that they would do the final confrontation a bit differently and not the Cary fukunaga route. I thought that they would do what they did in the 2016 script and do that altered reality thing but instead they went the fukunaga route which made me kind of eh.

-the ben/bev kiss….could it have been any cheesier.??

-i love Ben so much ekenrkenrejhe

- I thought the scenes with Bev and her dad we’re done very well. You definitely get a bad feeling when Bev’s dad is on screen

- I did think Bill did a fantastic job as Pennywise though a couple scenes I was kind of underwhelmed

- I definitely saw the bill Bev kiss coming. I knew that they would play up the romance a bit in this movie considering if there’s any hint of romance in a novel the movie studio will turn it up a notch at least so I saw that coming but I didn’t think it was bad. Now I like Bev and Ben together but in this movie I did think Bill and Beverly were cute. Only as kids though… I’m not looking forward to any romance between them whatsoever in part two as adults

-Jaeden Lieberher was just fantastic!

- one thing that I wish they did though is that in the 2016 script they referenced the spider by Pennywise doing shadow puppets on the wall to scare Beverly and he does a shadow puppet of a spider and it was just super clever but unfortunately that was not in this

- the part with them playing in the Quarry was great. Though the whole group of them staring at Bev when she was laying in the sun was a bit eh to me. I knew they’d do that tho

-The only reason I could see why they made it rated R was because of the language. Nothing else made me feel like it was rated R

-Finn did absolutely amazing as richie though I do wish we heard his voice is a bit more I was very satisfied with the voices that Finn did. But overall I think he was just absolutely fantastic as Richie


I like the film as a whole. My favorite parts though were just with the kids and nothing to do with Pennywise and the horror. Finn and jack stole the show in my opinion. My favorites were Eddie and Richie and Stan (obvi). I would definitely go see this movie a bunch of times but only to see the kids. I ……i just love the kids so so much

NDRV3 and their s/o Relationship Headcanons

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i tried to keep these as fluff-themed as possible! i apologize if some are just too short, but admittedly not everyone is so easy to write for. however, i absolutely love these kiddos, so i had really fun writing for them !! they are all under the cut, because this did end up rather long! – mod chiaki

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Okay, but do y’all think Hopper’s coworkers noticed a difference in their chief after he took in El? He starts showing up to work on time, fully awake and ready for work. Most days he seems a little lighter, happier, though some days he is a little more irritable. There is definitely something different about them but no one knows why?!? Until one day later they hear about the kid that Hopper adopted and it all falls into place.

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Something more for the Psych au ! This line is something Lance would definitely say in canon, I know it. (I don’t remember which episode it was though …)

Also, I saw people enjoying this au and I’m really happy  (⁄ ⁄u⁄ω⁄u⁄ ⁄)
So send me your headcanon for this au ! I’ll be glad to read/share it ! (I’ve got my owns that I will post later :3c )



We need to talk about this. We definitely need to talk about this, because Katsuki comes to a great realisation here.

He finally realises (after he won the fight, you go my boy) that they both compliment each other. That they both can become great heroes of they work together. This… this is he biggest character development I’ve seen in a very long time.

We all remember the Katsuki that despised Izuku. We all remember and now, we have him in front of us on the verge of tears, because he finally understands that you need more than strength to become the greatest hero of all time.

We just witnessed the birth of something great. The Wonder Duo is gonna grow.

They still have a long way to go. Even though Katsuki finally understands and realises that they’ll be incredible of they just work together, there is definitely some of his huge pride left that’ll make their communication and cooperation difficult. Not just Katsuki makes their relationship so difficult, Izuku too. Two complete opposites.

We’re gonna witness something great. Horikoshi, you did a great job. You made me cry again.

Mistakes | Tyler Down

New blog here! 

So this is my first imagine EVER. It’s definitely not perfect but I really hope you like it. 

Summary: Tyler seems to be the only one being judged by what he did to Hannah so the reader reminds him he’s not the only one who made a mistake. 

Warnings: A bit of swearing 


You groan as your phone buzzes with a new text message, pulling you out of your dozed off state. You take your phone of your nightstand, squinting your eyes because of the light of the screen.

You open the text that Clay sent you and soon all sleep leaves your body.  

It’s a picture of Tyler. He clearly isn’t aware of the intruder just outside his window.

He’s now used to the rocks being thrown at his window every once in a while but this definitely caught him off guard.  

He’s completely naked facing the other side of his room. There is no doubt that all of the people in Liberty High have already received this exact same picture.

Your blood boils with anger and before you can even think about it, you throw on a pair of leggings and a hoodie and put your shoes on.

You make sure your parents are asleep before silently sprinting to your front door. Adrenaline is rushing through your system while you make your way to Clay’s house.

There is no other thing in your mind apart from Tyler. After all, he is your… well, you’re not really sure what kind of relationship you both shared.

You met each other at the beginning of high school. You had just moved from your hometown because of your dad’s job and you haven’t had the chance to make friends yet.


You were at your locker putting some books in your bag, getting ready for first period when the particular click of a camera startled you.

Next to you was a pale, tall boy with curly hair holding a camera in his hands.

“I’m sorry. I-I didn’t mean to-to scare you” he rubbed the back of his neck nervously. “I’m just starting early on my yearbook duties”

“It’s okay, you just caught me off guard”

“You’re new here, right?” he asked with a curious glint in his eyes. You nodded and offered him a shy smile.

“Yeah, I just moved here a few days ago.”

“I figured. I haven’t seen you around here before.” he looked and sounded a bit awkward, as if he didn’t do this often. “I’m Tyler”

You smiled at the faint blush in his cheeks and couldn’t help but think how cute he looked. “I’m Y/N”


And just like that something special began to bloom. You were definitely not a couple but you weren’t just friends either. You have this skinny love kind of thing going on and neither of you wanted to risk that by confessing your feelings. Plus, what you had was special and certainly, enough for you… at least for now.

Given your relationship with Tyler, as soon as you saw that picture, your protective instincts kicked in.

You knew about the tapes and you knew what he did to Hannah. However, you thought that people weren’t being fair to him. He didn’t deserve all of this, just for one mistake that he deeply regretted.

You saw Clay leaving his bike in his front yard and before he could climb the stairs of his porch, you called him.

“Jensen!” You were fuming at this point. You can only imagine the shit Tyler is going to get at school just because of that picture.

“Y/N now’s not a good time.” Clay look beyond tired and you knew why. Hannah’s tapes took a toll on everyone on her list.

“What is wrong with you Clay?” you pulled your hair in frustration. “Why did you send that picture?”

He scoffed and his faced shifted in anger. “Because he deserved it”

“No he didn’t Clay!”

“You don’t know anything Y/N. Stay out of this!” He tried to make his way to his house but you blocked the way planting yourself in front of him.

“I know everything Clay.” he rolled his eyes in exasperation and started walking again. ”I know about the tapes.” you said quietly but firmly. He stopped in his tracks and looked at you horrified. “I’ve listened to them and I know what every single one of you did to Hannah.”

“H-how?” he breathed. “H-how do you know a-about them?”

“I’m not on the tapes if that’s what you’re asking.” you said to him, catching on his accusatory tone. “Tyler got the package a couple of weeks ago. He never told me anything but I noticed that whatever was on that box, was affecting him greatly.” you sighed recalling the past few weeks. “Eventually, it was too much for him to handle and he broke. He told me everything and showed me the tapes.”

“Then you know what he did to her.” his anger was back and you could tell he was not backing down.

“I do.”

“And still you’re here to defend him?!” he yelled. He was looking at you as if you were the biggest idiot on Earth.

“Yes! And you want know why? Because he wasn’t the only one who made a mistake!” You were tired of people treating him bad because of those tapes. You were tired of the jocks bullying him every single day. You were tired to see all the pain he has to go trough. “There are thirteen fucking tapes, means that thirteen people did something to Hannah! Why are you all acting as if you are better than Tyler? He made a mistake! Alex made a mistake! Jessica made a mistake! You made a mistake!” tears were rolling down your face but you didn’t care anymore. You just needed him to understand. “Why does Tyler has to be satanized for what he did? You were all as wrong as he was.”

Clay just looked at you, taken aback by your words. He didn’t know what to say, he just stood there with shock in his face. You shook your head and wiped your tears before walking away.  

You were now going to Tyler’s. You needed to see him and comfort him as much as you possibly could. God knows he needed it.

You wanted to cry. You wanted to scream, but right now, you needed to be strong for Tyler. He was going to be the one to take all the bullying after all.

Tyler’s parents went out for dinner and you knew they wouldn’t be home for another couple of hours.

You knocked on his door hoping to see his face, but he didn’t open it. You sighed already imagining the damage and reached for the emergency key under the mat.

You let yourself in and locked the door behind you. With slow and silent steps you made your way to Tyler’s room.

His door was open and you could see the light coming out of the room. You started to make more noise with your steps so you wouldn’t startle him with your arrival.

“Tyler?” you called from the door. You got closer and your heart broke at the sight.

He was sitting on his bed with his arms resting on top of his legs and his head between his hands. And by the slight shaking of his shoulders, there was no doubt he was silently crying. “Oh Tyler…”

You sat next to him and immediately wrapped your arms around him. He slowly but surely rested his head on your shoulder and held you so tightly you could barely breathe but you don’t say anything. He needs it right now.

He is breaking right in front of you and there’s nothing you can do to stop it. Nothing you can do will stop him from hurting. You have never felt more useless in your life.

None of you say anything for a while. You just hold him and let him cry for as long as he needs to. You rub his back trying to provide him with more comfort and eventually his sobs become silent tears.

“I’m tired of everything” he says breaking the silence. His voice is laced with pain and the lump in his throat is more than obvious. It isn’t a pleasant thing to hear but at least he’s opening up to you.

“I know you are” you rest your chin on the top of his head and hold him a bit tighter. “but don’t give up on me just yet.”

“I’m sorry.” he nuzzles his head in your neck and sighs. “It’s just so hard sometimes.”

“Don’t apologize. I can only imagine what you have to go through.”

You press a kiss to his forehead before holding his face in your hands. His eyes are puffy and red and a few tears are still making their way down his face. You wipe his flushed cheeks with your fingers and give him a sad smile. He just closes his eyes and rubs his nose with the back of his hand.  

“C’mon I’ll make you some tea.”

You take his hand in yours and guide him to the kitchen.

He stands awkwardly in the middle of the room while you start filling up the kettle. You open the cupboard and take a mug, honey and a box full of tea bags.

You waited silently by the stove until the kettle started whistling, letting you know the water was ready.

You put the tea bag inside the mug and started pouring some water when a pair of arms snaked around your waist. Tyler pressed his chest to your back and rested his head on your shoulder. You happily melted in his arms and slightly rested your head against his chest. 

You turn around in his embrace and offer him the mug.  

“This will make you feel better.” He takes the mug from your hands and with a tiny smile he starts drinking the tea.

You can already tell he feels a bit better by the look in his eyes.

His cheeks still hold a blush and his hair is messy as ever, but his eyes are back to their usual blue.

God, he is so beautiful.

“Y/N” you look at him at the mention of your name. “May-maybe I deserve it.”

“What?” you ask in disbelief.

“Yeah…I-I hurt Hannah. I took her security away…” you can see the guilt eating him alive and ever since it happened, Tyler has been more than devastated.

“No Ty, don’t say that.”

“I was on the tapes. I was one of the reasons why she did it.” he starts tearing up again and you don’t know if you will be able to pull him out of his misery this time.

“Tyler look at me.” you hold his face between your hands and even though he’s crying, he’s trying hard not to completely lose it. “You made a mistake. You had a crush on a girl and you didn’t express it in the right way. But you cared about her and you definitely still care about her.” Tears start streaming down his cheeks but you don’t stop, he has to listen to you. “We both know that you didn’t mean this to happen. You didn’t know the consequences of what you were doing Tyler. You shouldn’t let one mistake you made, define you.” he shakes his head and is clear that the guilt doesn’t let him understand. You sigh. “I made a mistake too, I hurt Hannah as well. The only difference is that I’m not on the tapes.”

“Don’t lie Y/N. You didn’t do anything to Hannah.” he has a frown on his face but you can see the doubt in his eyes.

“I did. I let her push me away. I knew she needed a friend and I didn’t try harder.” you close your eyes, remembering how lonely Hannah was and how sad she was getting over the months. “the thing is, just because I’m not on the tapes, doesn’t mean I didn’t contribute to her heartache. I made a mistake too but no one is judging me based on that mistake. We all hurt Hannah. Why is your case different Tyler?”

“But the people at school…” you interrupt him already knowing what he is going to say.

“To them is easier to point out other people’s mistakes rather than own up to their own.” he finally releases a breath he’s been holding and wraps his arms around you. You bury your face in his chest and breathe in his scent.

“Thank you for being here Y/N” he whispers against your ear. “I don’t know what I would do without you.”

“I’ll always be here Tyler, we’ll get through this together.” he holds your hand and intertwine his fingers with yours before letting you go.

“Let’s go to bed. You have to catch up on some sleep.” He rubs his eyes while yawning silently, making you giggle. It’s been a tough night after all.

“Will you please stay the night?” he’s not giving you puppy eyes, but he looks so distressed that you know you can’t say no to him. Not tonight.  

“Of course.” he gives you a tired smile and kisses your temple lovingly.

He sets the now empty mug in the sink and starts making his way upstairs. He jumps straight into bed but you take your time to take off your sneakers and hoodie.

You both lay down in bed and he wraps the duvet around you. Tyler closes his eyes and sighs contentedly while he holds you close to him. You caress his forehead and the bridge of his nose with the tip of your finger, trying to lull him to sleep.

“What did I do to deserve you?” he whispers and slowly opens his eyes. “I really don’t know how I would handle this by myself.” His hand gives your hip a gentle squeeze. “I am so thankful to have you.”

You smile feeling the butterflies erupt in your stomach. You caress his nose with yours and rest your hand in his cheek. “You are everything to me Y/N, everything.”

Your heart swells with love and your mind fills with determination.

Shaking with nervousness, you carefully press your lips to his. You try to convey how much you want him, how much you care for him, how much you love him.

He kisses you back with so much passion yet so much care that it takes your breath away. This kiss is everything you’ve ever dreamed of ever since you admitted your feelings for him to yourself. This is what you’ve longed for for so long.

You break the kiss and rest your forehead against Tyler’s, trying to calm your racing heart.

“I love you Tyler, so much.” you can’t believe how happy you’re feeling right now. You feel safe and for the first time, you think that everything will be just fine.

“I love you too.” His face as tired as it looks, is almost split in two by the giant smile on his lips. You can tell this moment means as much to him, as it means to you. “Y/N?”


“Are you mine now?” he looks at you nervously through the hair that is covering his forehead. “Are you my girl?” you blush at his words but offer him a sincere smile.

“Yes, I’m your girl Ty.” he mirrors your blush and gives you the biggest and brightest of all smiles.  

“Now get some sleep baby, I’m not going anywhere.” you tell him making the silent oath to take care of him in his sleep.

He kisses your lips one more time before resting his head on your chest. His arm rests on your stomach and his legs tangle with yours before you bury your hands in his hair, playing with it, getting him to relax.

Eventually you can hear him snoring softly and you allow yourself to close your eyes and find some rest.


You walk hand in hand through the school hallway. It’s going to be a hard day and you know that Tyler is going to need all of your support.

You squeeze his hand in reassurance when the stares begin and he just gives you a sad smile.

He walks you to your locker and you notice he’s been avoiding to look people in the eye. You don’t blame him although you wish it didn’t affect him that much.

You hold his chin between your fingers and make him look at you. “Hey, it’s okay. I’m here.” he starts breathing heavily before kissing you desperately. He holds you close while grabbing your hips and you pull at his hair with care. He’s shaking with emotion and you hold him even closer to you, hoping to ease him a bit.

Loud chatter comes from the end of the hallway and makes you pull apart to see what’s going on. You see the group of jocks approaching and you clench your teeth already sensing the tension in Tyler’s body.

He presses your body against the lockers trying to hide you from them, but you stand your ground and with your arms around him you give them one of the most nasty looks ever. Tyler is looking at the floor and his fists hold on to the fabric of your shirt as if he is scared you are going to disappear.

The laughter dies down but you don’t look away. You’re still giving them your dirtiest look trying to mostly direct it at Montgomery, Tyler’s biggest bully. They hold your look, but they don’t say or do anything as they continue their way to their class.

You sigh a breath of relief and take a look at Tyler’s face. He’s still looking at his shoes and you can tell he’s a bit shaken up. You don’t want to make it worse so you decide not to mention anything about what just happened.

“So how about we ditch last period and go take a nap to my place? My parents won’t be home until 6.” you tell him kissing his cheek. He chuckles a little bit and looks at you with adoration in his eyes.

“Sounds like a plan.” he smiles, all the tension leaving his body. 

He holds your hand and you both walk to class ready to face whatever life throws your way. Because Tyler now knows that as long as you’re with him, he will be okay.   

Slow It Down

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A/N: As soon as I got this request, I wanted to start writing it immediately. Slow It Down is one of my all time favorite songs, and so I was just so excited to write it. Warning, there is angst and heartbreak and smut… Which I don’t think the requester was probably asking for when they requested this (it sounds like they might have wanted fluff) but just listen to the song, and I think you’ll understand why I went the route that I did.

P.S: If you’re more of a John Mayer fan, Slow Dancing In A Burning Room was also inspiration for this as well.

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It was rush hour in the middle of the dead, summer heat in New York City. The sun was just beginning to set, and the sky was changing from bright, cerulean hues to periwinkles and pinks. The city was busy. Busier than most days- as it was Friday night- and everyone was trying to get home to their families and their weekend off.

As soon as she stepped out of her very corporate, office headquarters, the first thing she saw was the line of people standing on the curb with their arms in the air as they tried to hail a cab. It would be faster to walk the distance, but the humidity and her high heels made her think twice about waiting with the rest of her coworkers on the sidewalk.

She bumped shoulders with a dozen other New Yorkers as her heels clicked on the concrete with each step she took. Her nose was buried in her phone, still replying to work emails and checking over spreadsheets. She just wanted it to be over; wanted to put her feet up and drink a glass of wine.

But she had something to take care of first.

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A lot of you that tuned into my Instagram Live last night were asking how I was so calm. Here’s the thing about Taylor Swift: despite being one of the biggest celebrities to currently exist on this planet, she is the most relaxed, human being you could probably ever meet. When I first saw her, yes, absolute shock and I teared up. As the night progressed, that celebrity/fan barrier completely disappeared. She never tried to show off her status. She was as humble and as kind and as genuine as I could wish for anyone to be, celebrity or not. Walking into her home, it didn’t feel like how I pictured it. I always had this image of it being this unattainable architecturally designed masterpiece of a mansion. Somehow though, that giagantic home with a view felt incredibly small, cozy, and inviting. It felt like being welcomed into the home of a friend. I’ll forever be grateful for this opportunity, and don’t get me wrong, I definitely had myself a good joyful cry once I laid in bed last night and reflected on this entire experience. In the moment though, Taylor made the entire night feel like the most normal occasion it could be, and I cannot express how incredible that was.

dera-chan  asked:

You know even though season2 wasn't so good, it did two things right: 1.) Hide's character design 2.) Boosting his popularity and making him to a fan favorite (I remember when I read TG for first time and nobody was interested in him... Glad those times are over).

Honestly, as much as people hate the anime, I think they did a really good job with Kaneki and Hide’s relationship. All the parts with Hide definitely worked on trying to convey to the audience how important they were to eachother, and though root A made me cry for literally four hours, I think the ending was really beautiful, especially in terms of the focus it put on Hide’s dedication to Kaneki.

I also like Hide’s design in root A better than in the manga; he looks so cute in the anime (’:

(Another thing I commend them on is not giving short-haired Hide Naruto hair.)

Okay… I’m kinda sorry to address this blog with my problems but I really don’t know who to turn to anymore and I really need some kind words and encouragement, for I’ve been feeling awful for quite a while now. Also, I want to apologize for grammar/spelling mistakes, my native language is German…

So here’s the story. In my childhood, kind of every male person in my family made a connection to a really negative event. My father committed suicide, a short while after that my uncle threatened to hurt my mother, my brother nearly died of cancer… that sort of things. It was awful and I really was a wreck. I grew up, convinced that loving a boy would always lead to pain, for every male person that was important to me hurt me in one way or the other (even though it was not always there fault). This might sound really stupid, but I was just a kid who needed some way to cope with all this sadness and fear. Once, in elementary school, I started to cry because a girl made a joke about a boy being in love with me. I couldn’t bear the thought of being loved and love. I wanted to make myself aromantic (even though I didn’t know that this term exists back then. Concerning asexuality… I never thought about sex at this age. And I also didn’t really knew that non-hetero is a thing), so I started to repeat all the bad things that happened to me over and over again, to keep me from loving someone. Of course, I was just in Elementary School and my definition of ‘love’ was the one of a child, but it was awful nonetheless.

After some time, I started to draw and listen to music and everything got better, also due to awesome friends and my wonderful mum. Over a few years, I really grew confident, balanced and happy. I learned about the term ‘asexual’ when I was 14 and thought I might fit in, but was quite unsure because I thought I might just be a late bloomer. Now I’m 17 and I’m sure I’m ace. I didn’t think much about it, I just was like ‘Ah, okay.’ And when I discovered your blog and learned that there are more aces out there, I felt so good and understood. Everything was fine, until a few days ago, when I read that some people see asexuality as a result of trauma. That made me remember the time of my childhood when I forced myself not to love anyone in a romantic way, I hadn’t thought about this stupid period of my young life for a long time, since I fortunately had outgrown it.

So, suddenly, there were those terrible thoughts that have been stuck in my head since I read this. What if my asexuality is just the result of all those bad things? If it’s just a sickness? And, even worse, a sickness that I forced on myself?

Don’t get me wrong. Since I know I’m not alone, I really enjoy being ace. The community is lovely and I just love all the ace puns you can make. I never thought about asexuality as something wrong or bad. Never. Until I read those few lines. Even now, I don’t have a problem with asexuality itself. Not at all. But just the thought that my asexuality might be the result of this awful memories makes me feel so broken and worthless. It kinda feels like inheriting something beautiful from your passed away grandma that you loved, so you love the beautiful thing but can’t get over how you came by it.

I don’t know if it’s really connected. And if it was, I think it would be more logical for me to become aro/aroace.

I also don’t really think that your sexuality is affected by your life.

But I still can’t cope with what I read. It just destroys me, even though I don’t really believe in it. I’m so sorry if this sounds stupid. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I’m feeling so alone again.

Everything went so well, I finally got over the loss of a friendship, which hit me very hard. I felt so confident with calling me ace. And now I’m so scared to tell anyone I’m ace, for I fear they might think of me as broken.

I was broken. But I fixed me. But now I’m feeling broken again.

I’m so sorry. I’ve never shared my feelings on the Internet before. Just writing this made me feel at least a bit better. Thank you for reading this and for your wonderful encouraging blog. 

anonymous asked:

if i was an elsewhere student, would the safest name for me be the one with a very negative association? like, for example, the name of the kid who shoved his hand down the front of my shirt in the seventh grade, or the last name of the teacher who made me cry too many times?

In terms of the Gentry, yeah! It would definitely be up there as a safename, in terms of something that would probably never fit right. In your day to day life it might suck, though.

First Thoughts on the Anastasia Broadway Cast Album

So I grew up watching Don Bluth’s Anastasia, like a lot of people, and it’s now definitely one of my favourite movies of all time. I’m also a huge theatre geek, so when I first heard whispers about an Anastasia broadway musical, I was VERY excited. Sadly, I haven’t watched the show because I live in Manchester, England (I read the plot online and I am VERY disappointed that Rasputin isn’t the antagonist), but I pre-ordered the cast recording asap (I don’t think it has every single song on it, though) and they’ve recently released it onto soundcloud here  and I have opinions that I want to share lmao. Also, these are just my FIRST thoughts, after hearing the album ONCE - in my experience, I tend to grow more attached to songs the more I listen to them, so these definitely aren’t my final opinions on this soundtrack.

Prologue / Once Upon A December - This very first song actually made me cry because of the nostalgia XD and also Mary Beth Peil has an AMAZING voice.

A Rumor In St. Petersburg - I also really like this song, including the additions they made to it. Not much else to say really.

In My Dreams - I got chills listening to this song; it’s so beautiful, I can’t wait to learn it.

Learn To Do It - Admittedly, I personally prefer the faster pace and more upbeat original version of this song, however this new version saved itself with the part where Anya flips her shit and has a go at the boys. Amazing.

The Neva Flows - So this is the antagonist’s (Gleb) first song, and uh…it’s pretty good, I guess, especially during the crescendo. They’re definitely trying to create a more humane “villain”, showing how he’s been affected by what he witnessed as a child. Still would’ve preferred In the Dark of the Night, though…

My Petersburg - I like the energy of the song, very upbeat, I love the ending buildup. And I’ve always loved how adaptations of films delve deeper into the characters’ backstories a bit (like Shrek the Musical)

Once Upon A December - Beautiful. I’ll probably always prefer the original, due to nostalgia, but Christy Altomare did a really good job capturing Anya’s emotions in this more vulnerable moment. They were right to not mess with this song too much.

Stay, I Pray You - I have no idea who tf Count Ipolitov is but this is a very emotional choral song, and has a beautifully melancholic melody. I love how Anastasia ends it.

We’ll Go From There - Awh, this song is so cute! I’m glad they gave Vlad (ha that rhymes) a song about Sophie- sorry, I mean Lily. Nevermind all three of the gang are singing it….I like it! It’s a good, quick way to show their feelings (which are mainly anxiety) at this point.

Still - Um why the fuck is Gleb in love with Anya. I HATE that. Haven’t they met, like, twice at this point? I’ve only read the wikipedia page for the plot so maybe I’m wrong. But still….fuck this subplot. So yeah this song is ok I guess, I think I’m just too stubborn about my dislike for the changed story lmao. I also quite like the whole….idea? of this song, how it ends with “but still…” like, it doesn’t need t explain what comes after the “still”, it just needs to show his hesitation/inner conflict.

Journey To The Past - I’m not bothered by the fact that they moved this song to this point in the story, it still fits well actually, and like with OUAD, they smartly didn’t change it much. And like with OUAD, I’ll always prefer the original, but this version is also amazing.

Paris Holds The Key (To Your Heart) - It’s a great chorus number, and definitely a good one to start off act 2 with. Again, I prefer the original, although I like how Anastasia has a solo in this one too.

Crossing A Bridge - I love this song, tbh I’ve realised I think I just love any added Anya moment now lmao. I’d love to see this live, to see the image of her on the bridge singing this.

Closing/Close The Door - (the wikipedia says “Closing” and the soundcloud name says “Close”). Like the Anya moments, I will lap up ANY added Dowager Empress moments, too! Her tired, hopeless emotions were shown a little bit in the original film, but I love how this explores them further. So low-spirited and heart-wrenching.

Land of Yesterday - Another thing this musical explores more in-depth is Russia in general, the state of it, its people, and this song is really cool. Lily’s voice is amazing!!!! (Caroline O’Connor)

The Countess and the Common Man - Awh Vlad and Lily have a love duet!! Fuck yeah! This is what I signed up for!! It’s funny, flirty, and all-round lovely.

In a Crowd of Thousands - I don’t mind that the story of how Dmitry and Anya’s pasts were linked has changed, because the new one they made up is presented so beautifully in this song. I absolutely LOVE Altomare’s voice in this, possibly more than in the other songs, and omg when she realises!! When she realises!! You’re like oh shit ! It’s her and they both know it now!! It’s also a nice development to Anya and Dmitry’s relationship.

Meant to Be - This was also in the original film, and I think it’s done wonderfully here. ‘Nuff said.

Quartet at the Ballet - The Swan Lake music gives me huge Barbie nostalgia! And then it blends so seamlessly in and out of the OUAD tune…ahh I love it. I like how it shows all these inner thoughts of these different characters, like We’ll Go From There. The ending with the overlapping solos is beautiful omg.

Everything to Win - This is a good song, but not one of my favourites or anything, it’s nice to see Dmitry’s conflict. The ending is sweet (or I guess bittersweet).

Once Upon A December (Reprise) - I’m not crying, YOU’RE crying!!!!

The Press Conference - Yet another good chorus number; I love the typewriter sound effects. And Vlad & Lily’s parts are quite funny (it’s funny when he spells out his name, for some reason. And her high notes at the end..DAMN GIRL). I’m slightly feeling like they’re being kind of lazy with the use of the OUAD tune, however.

Everything to Win (Reprise) - Nice!! Good! I like it!

Still / The Neva Flows (Reprise) - Can Gleb just shut the fuck up already. Yes, I’m still salty. (although admittedly this is a good song - I especially love Anya’s fierceness in it).

Finale - I’m not surprised they decided to end on Once Upon A December, and this is exactly what you’d expect from a musical finale, tbh.

In conclusion - I love the musical’s soundtrack, yet I’m still iffy on the whole villain thing. Feel free to reply or reblog with your own thoughts, it’ll be fun to discuss!

Me and my ex had a great relationship but I always felt like something was missing. Eventually, we started to grow distant and we were more like friends. I planned to break up with him in person, but he wouldn’t come see me so I ended up doing it over the phone. We are still friends now, but it’s been about 6 weeks and I still cry about it. I wish I could’ve fixed our relationship because even though we’re friends, we’re definitely not as close and sometimes I even regret breaking up with him.

The other day he was drunk texting me and kept asking me what he did wrong and what he could do to be a better person for the future. It made me so sad. The last thing he said before he passed out was, “I wish I could’ve seen you one last time and given you one last hug; I’m sorry I couldn’t do that for you.”

My thoughts on RTTE Season 5(SPOILERS)

To be honest, season 5 was filled up with A LOT OF ACTION and intense battles. We saw Garf(geez, that first episode was hard on my soul), Hiccup’s genius mind in action, Girls Power(YEAH), Astrid flipping around and throwing her axe at everybody on the edge 😂, HICCSTRID TIME AND HICCUP FLIRTING.

My character’s spotlight this season: DEFINITELY Astrid.
We saw new faces of her personality throughout the episode I thought I could never see before. Plus! She did reallyyyyy cool things! 😄

- Her, caring for someone else than Hiccup or Stormfly at sometimes(Garf :’( )

- Her RAMPAGE(and feminist) MODE, That definitely killed me! XD (Snotlout, Throk and Fishlegs. They were in BIG troubles)

- Her support towards Hiccup during ALL episode even though he wasn’t in a mood at some point.

- Her, recognizing and calling Hiccup “boyfriend” 😍

- Her struggles to find a gift to her babe and guilt to have failed on that.

- Her, riding Toothless. I mean! That was awesome!

And finally…

- Her… CRYING! Astrid Fearless Hofferson crying! You have no idea.. the tsunami of feels and pain that went through my body at THAT specific time. That made me realize that, inside that strong and fierce shell, hides a sensitive and warm personality AND that’s why I can relate so much to Astrid. I wish to be just like her and in a way… I am.

Okay! Enough with the sad confessions!

Now! Things I disliked! 😈

First: Kisses.. compared to the previous season..

There was a BIG lack of Hiccstrid kisses. We got one and a half(the one on the forehead counts for a “half kiss” for me) in 13 episodes.. I mean.. they are engaged right? The others know about it!

I’m not complaining about all these wonderful moments they spent together (I had a heart attack at each of them). Don’t get me wrong! The kiss on the forehead, the romantic midnight flight, the hugs, the support Astrid gives to Hiccup in each episode, that AWESOME battle between the two of them(This is where you see that the weapon doesn’t make the warrior), the engagement… 😍They were perfect BUT where are the little kisses we had in season 4?! I’m a bit disappointed for that particular point.



Can somebody tells me the whole purpose of making Astrid sick for FIVE SECONDS?! Come on guys! She ran off to face that deadly poisonous snake dragon. She PUNCHED it like a total BADASS to gain some venom for the antidote to “cure” Stormfly.(She’s my model 👌🏻) Risking her own life for her dragon WHO WASN’T EVEN SICK?????

Plus, We saw Astrid faint, then, there’s a blackout and when we go back to the episode, SHE’S COMPLETELY FINE and go on like nothing has happened! What the Thor Is That?

So RTTE writers, if you want to make Astrid sick or any other character, at least, would you please make it last a little more longer than 5 flipping seconds(Sorry Astrid) or put Hiccup nearby so we can potentially have an awesome Hiccstrid moment like we had in Buffalord Soldier. Give it a purpose for Thor sake! Stop hurting my favorite character(and my model) for nothing! Unless it gives us Hiccstrid or it is benefict for the story developpement, DON’T DO IT! That’s to hard for my soul to handle.

If you’re still reading well. THANK YOU KIND PERSON! I don’t feel lonely anymore XD

Other wise… Now I’m in a bad mood because the last season comes in 6-7 months(RIP 😱😭). School will keep me occupied in the mean time..

A Dream Come True (Mark x Reader)

Character: Markiplier (Mark Fischbach)

Fandom: Markiplier/Youtubers

Categories: Reader Insert, Female!Reader, Youtuber!Reader

Title: A Dream Come True

Requested by @darkknightiplier:

The reader starts a YouTube Channel and gets contacted by Markiplier himself. They decided to meet. The reader getting to hang out with Mark and later asks the reader on a date? Which includes romantic dinner, theatre, and on the park. (A date with Markiplier kinda thing). He feels like he got to know the reader so well that he would absolutely ask for the reader to be his?

I had never been more nervous and excited in my life.

I stood at the queue, waiting for the meet and greet to get an autograph from the man himself. Mark Fischbach.

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