i need cas to be reckless on hunts. i mean charge-in-blind-and-hope-i-die kinda reckless
i need dean to go up to him after a particularly bad hunt with his jaw clenched and then for cas to avoid his gaze
and then for dean to grind out ‘look at me’
but cas doesn’t
so dean cups cas’s face in his hands and forces his head up, brushes his thumb along a cut on his cheekbone
and for unspoken words to pass between them. cas doesn’t think he’s worth it. he needs penance. he needs punishment.
and i need for dean to just stare at cas, anger being replaced with broken frustration
and then i want dean to grind his teeth together and say; 'i’ve lost you once. i’m not losing you again. you’re worth it. always have been.’