it better be possible by 2016

Laucy VS Camren

Well, this is not a theory. I got up to these pics and they hit me like a truck. I’m not a morning person, but this even overpowered what an alarm could do.

I admit I wasn’t on the best state to see these pics because I just got my heart broken. So seeing the 1st pic posted on wildflyme’s instagram was breaking my heart even more because I’m a camren shipper af.

These pics are so sensual, yes. They both look really happy. With the fragile state of me right now, even the 1st pic had me so down and sad because my ship has lost in the middle of nowhere LOL. It felt as if my heart was ripped to two.

But again, this is media. One thing that is consistent about me wherever I am on social media (Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr) is that I don’t trust media anymore. MTV is one of them. I don’t even believe in Billboard, then how can I even trust MTV? This is the link

http://www.mtv.com/news/2995972/lauren-jauregui-lucy-vives-photoshoot/?xrs=_s.tw_news


After all, we all know, these are from a photoshoot in November 2016.

There are many possibilities out there, but I’m just gonna narrow them down to 2 possibilities here. If I list all the possibilities one by one, it might end up like a novel. It’s better to just focus on two.

1. Laucy did date just like what was mentioned in the article and Camren was NOT real or even if Camren might be dating at some point

2. Laucy did date just like what was mentioned in the article, but Camren IS real as well

You know, when you read these 2 possibilities, you will feel like, “No, I think..” or “Wait.. but..” Save it. Let’s just focus on these 2, because I know it’s a never ending debate if we talk about all possibilities.

But now, let’s see the big picture and let’s stop with “No, Camren is real” and “No, Laucy is real” debate. Let’s look at another point of view here. What if both ships are real?

For me, the 2nd possibility is what I believe. You know I don’t trust media anymore just like what I said earlier. But, what was mentioned in MTV is STILL one of the many possibilities, right? We can’t just exclude it just because we are denying that Laucy is real.

Laucy might be real at some point (or not). They mentioned they dated on and off for a few years. They have known each other since high school. The context of “a few years” might be around 2 - 3 years. That’s my definition. 4 years for a relationship for me is a long time. I can’t define it as only “a few” years. But, what if this happened before Camila and Lauren met each other? Or what if this happened before Camila and Lauren realized they fell in love with each other? For God’s sake, this might happened during the X Factor as well, and Laucy & Camren might be a complicated love triangle (okay, I’m delusional but this is one of the million possibilities out there, right?)

It was mentioned in MTV article that they did this photoshoot as part of their coming out. It was mentioned “They did really like each other” but there was no timeline mentioned about when they had the relationship. It was only mentioned “They dated for a few years”.

Those photoshoot pics might break my heart, but I’m not losing my Camren heart. No.. Why? Because of these.

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I’m sorry but they look really happy here as well? Or are you still gonna call me delusional?

Well, these gifs seem too friendly though. But these iconic moments will always be in our minds.

Originally posted by camrenpieces

Originally posted by pureheartsaredope

Your other expressions can lie, but your eyes will never lie. These gifs are heart-warming to be honest.

Then, these indirects.

Lol, I’m sorry for being extra on this. But have you realized that the article confirmed yet killing Laucy at the same time?

I’m NOT losing hope on what I call as true love. I might be so lowkey about it on my instagram and twitter accounts cause I use those platform for another purpose. I never posts about Camren there. But here, in Tumblr, I’m quite vocal about it. I might not be as intense as the other Camren accounts, and I might be lowkey about it, but since the very beginning my fan account was made, I AM a Camren shipper.

You have your right to believe what you wanna believe, but I believe in true love and that revolves around Camren, because the way Lauren looks at Camila is love.

P.S. Guys, I don’t know why but on my phone the pictures shown are only a few. Even the indirect pics are only one which is shown. Is it like that in your phone as well? Because I posted this using my laptop. If you see it from the laptop or computer, you’ll see all the trolls lol

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If you assume that there is no hope, you guarantee that there will be no hope. If you assume that there is an instinct for freedom, that there are opportunities to change things, then there is a possibility that you can contribute to making a better world.

Captain Fantastic (2016) dir. Matt Ross

ATLAS: do not talk to me of the weight of the world, 
nor its people’s hearts. you know nothing of endurance.
the heavens are heavy and my shoulders ache. 
i am tired.

APHRODITE: you think holding the earth is enough?
you think you are close to them just because they rest on
your back? you know nothing of their pain. do you even remember
how tears taste?

ATLAS: i know pain. i know bruises that last centuries,
bone deep and digging like claws, burrowing like worms
through body structure-

APHRODITE: -you know standing still, rigid, a statue in body
and soul alike / you know the exact weight of the human heart
x 7 billion. you do not know how it feels to watch as they burn in place,
how it feels to see them fall; down / in love / to their deaths.

ATLAS: i carry them in life and death. my dear, your hands
are soft; they do not understand the strength it takes to balance
oceans on knuckles and land against muscle.

APHRODITE: my hands are soft because they hold hearts
as easily as you hold the world, and hearts, in their own way, are worlds.
i know strength. better yet, i know how easily strength crumbles
and i know how to guide through the breaking. do not equate soft
with weak. they are not the same thing.


l.s. | APHRODITE vs ATLAS: on the subject of strength© 2016

Why 2017 is already better than 2016

- Twin Peaks season 3 (after 26 years)

Originally posted by spacecadet

thats it.

oh you need more?

- 2016 will officially be the last dead of 2016

- Snk season 2 (after 4 years)

Originally posted by lady-nounoum

- also new opening composed by ‘linked horizon’

- Possibly the last tomes of snk + snk entire fandom coming back to life

- did I say ‘the year of snk’?

- All the art, skits and memes about Trump

- Wonderwoman’s soundtrack movie 

Originally posted by amazonianhero

- Orphan Black Finale season

- ‘Pitch Perfect 3′

- 5H3 & CC1 ok no stop

- Fifth harmony finally free?

- Legend of Korra Dark Horses’s release (after 2 years)

Originally posted by had-it-coming

- A new Pixar/Disney movie everyone will be obsess with + cute fanarts

- 10th SNSD anniversary + SNSD comeback

- Konosetsu’s wedding


- Eurovision will take place in their country

- 2017 is basicaly cuter

Olympic Theory

Okay so everyone basically knows that Victor has definitely gone to the Olympics but no one talks about the possibility that Yuuri has.

1. Yuri is considered Japan’s best skater

Originally posted by daburupurei


In the anime, Japan has believed this since at least the 2015-16 season. Please consider that 2 Seasons prior would have been the year for the 2014 winter. It’s reasonable that Yuuri would have been considered Japan’s best in 2014 because it’s not likely for skaters scores to vary too much between seasons. [Excluding Viktor Nikiforov & Yuzuru Hanyu who have the ability to score 35+ points above the next skater because they are considered out-liars]

Looking at the scores from Yuri on ice, the competition scores tended to vary by 10-ish points overall from competition. So likely they also all had lower scores 2 seasons ago, if they were competing, because of natural progression. [Unless your an out-liar] 

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Hey guys! So, I wanted to make this post for a long time. Sometimes we are our own enemies and it’s so easy to get caught in fighting against yourself, and I want to be a new person and become someone that is content with who they are. A part of me wants to look back on this when I am feeling bad again and read everything I have written here, like a little reminder of my own, you know? With that, I hope you walk away feeling okay and content, like I hope to do, because that is my goal: for all of us to be okay with ourselves and our lives even on days when it feels like it won’t be.

Be proud of your art, because it matters.

Whatever you choose to create, know that is great and you should not look to others to find what is inside of yourself. So often, it is as if you look around and feel you are not good enough, because you may feel you are behind the curve of others you admire. But, in a way, that is perfectly okay to be behind the curve. Every writer, artist, poet, dancer, and singer did not start with an abundance of skill. They worked at what they loved to create to become your inspiration. Take personal notes from them and find who you want to be as a creator, on your own terms. And down the line, when you become who you want to be, you can become someone else’s inspiration. Where that begins is being proud of what you create, and finding the confidence within you to be your own great writer, your own great singer, or your own great poet. First and foremost, be your own inspiration. Be your first inspiration because it matters. Create your art because it matters.

It is okay to be alone.

For the longest time, alone and lonely have been exclusive to each other. And that is not true. Loneliness sucks. It is one of the worst feelings to have nobody to truly reach out to when you have a bad day, or even a great day. Loneliness is the feeling when you walk around and feel as though you are the only one in the world without someone to share your stories with, your words, your passions. But, aside from the pain of being lonely, you have the opportunity to be alone with yourself and love it. Find what makes you great on your own. I am not saying that you should not be understandably upset because you are lonely, but maybe it is a sign that you need to become the best version of yourself first. Find what is making you unhappy alone, and change it. That way, when you meet others, you will be the greatest you possible. Just remember, it is okay to be alone. It is okay to be alone at home on a Friday night, to eat at a restaurant alone, and to go to a movie alone. The best company is yourself, because nobody can or will know you better than you.

Don’t doubt your positivity/optimism.

There were so many moments in 2016 that questioned your faith, your beliefs, your hope, and your optimism. With everything that went wrong, personally or externally, it was hard to feel the space of your comfort being shaken, but that’s okay. You stayed strong through to this year, and that is what is important. Be optimistic for the future. Do not believe hope ends when there are moments of doubt and struggle. See the good in people, in unfortunate events, in life. Sometimes that space of comfort needs to be stirred to rattle that optimism inside you, to light the fire that keeps you optimistic, and to motivate you. So let it be stirred. Keep that fire alive.

It is okay to fail, or not achieve perfection.

Perfection is impossible. Nobody is perfect. You may look at someone from the outside and see perfection, but there is always something someone is fighting, no matter how small or big that thing is. And I understand. Failing sucks. It is horrible to feel inadequate at something or feel less than because you slipped and fell. It’s as though you can’t get up without the shadow of that failure beside you. Don’t believe in that. Your failures and imperfections are there to remind you that you are simply you and there is nobody in the world who does something once and instantly gets it right. That is impossible, just like perfection. Nobody is instantly great at everything they try at. And that is the whole point of failure: the act of trying. If you’re trying, you’re doing something.

Who you are throughout your life is not completely defined by what is out there.

I am talking about strangers, celebrities, media, and even family and friends. You are not your parents, or your friends, or celebrities. You have tons of opportunities to be your own person, with your own thoughts and feelings about what is going on around you. You have a way to make in the world, and it is only made through where you choose to go. Nothing in a magazine, movie, or someone else’s words can or should change how you feel about yourself, or change who you are as a person. When you wake up, you are yourself, so it is important to know who you are and not let things outside of your own influence take you down. It’s unhealthy and a disservice to yourself. Don’t rely so much on what is outside of yourself, because you live in one set of skin your whole life. Don’t spend it worrying about fitting into a box created by something or someone else.

They are out there.

Yes, they. The people that will understand you and love who you are. They will find you, or you will find them. It may take a bit of waiting, but it will be worth it. Maybe “they” are friends, or significant others, or maybe even family, but the point is to know that you won’t be alone forever. You’re not gonna keep your emotions, your passions, or your thoughts inside of yourself forever. You’ll find the ones that will be glad to listen, who will love to hear from you, and will be glad you are beside them. Like I said, it may take some waiting, but nothing worthwhile is instantly gratified.

You won’t notice it.

You won’t realize things have changed until they have already been changed. While sadness seems to remind you of its presence, happiness can blindside us. Once you’ve achieved what you want to achieve and done the things you’ve set out to do, you won’t understand it has gotten better and you have moved on until you’re already moving. As I said before, be patient; instant gratification is never as good as people say it feels. That moment where you look back and realize you’re in a better place than before is coming, and it’s gonna feel fucking great.

There will be shitty times. But, you are gonna be okay.

It’s easy to fall into believing things won’t be okay. Maybe it’s the day you’ve been having, or the people around you are bringing you down. And yes, things will be shitty for awhile. Whether that “awhile” is a few minutes, a few days, or a few months. But, you should not forget things will be okay, and you are gonna be okay. You have everything you need inside of yourself, even if it feels like you don’t in those shitty moments. Don’t let yourself fall into a space where you believe you won’t be okay, because you will. Things will be okay. For all of my hallmark advice and words that could be put on a self-help card, you will find the friends, moments, and everything in between that will remind you it all will be okay.

anonymous asked:

Thank you for talking about your concerns re: Sony/Columbia and Rob Stringer. I thought I was the only one who felt sick to my stomach at the thought of the man who has been friends with Simon for years, and was head of the US label that helped to closet H & L, being the one to sign H. I don't know why people are excited, because the power dynamics are really messed up now, and there's no guarantee that the stunts are going to stop for L anytime soon. Trying to have hope, but it's hard. :(

It’s very hard, and you’re perfectly welcome, anon.

I thought I had posted about Rob Stringer in the fall, but all I can find is some articles I uploaded, so I’ll revisit now. Stringer has spent his career at Sony, he’s been running labels there since the early 90s, and his brother was a main exec and CEO of Sony Corp (not music) for quite some time. Stringer has headed Columbia since 2008, and he’s done extensive business with Simon Cowell in that capacity. Indeed, Simon was the first quote in the Billboard article announcing Stringer’s appointment as head of Sony this October. Their working relationship has been extensive, as far as I can tell. He has credited his work with Simon on XFactor acts as his gateway to success for getting Glee to work, which was hugely responsible for his success turning Columbia around. [Adele as well, and he’s partly responsible for a lot of a resurgent trend of U.K. artists’ US success.] He has called Simon the “best A&R guy he knows” in multiple interviews.

One Direction signed to Columbia in 2012 as they were breaking the American market; the closet clamped down during this time.

Sony purchased controlling shares in Syco in July of 2015 – paying £85 million total for it, and absorbing the £70 million debt it had accrued. While making £45 million from it personallyis somewhat pathetic for Simon, that’s a far better fate than being jettisoned from Sony and declaring the company bankrupt within five years. The buyout was, it would appear, the best possible outcome for Simon given the failures of his television series, losing One Direction, and being unable to produce a suitably earning substitute.

Rob Stringer was announced the new head of Sony mid-October 2016.

I say all this to suggest that thinking of a ‘fresh start’ for Rob Stringer or Harry is not logically sound. Rob Stringer has been involved in their business since 2012 – but even say for argument’s sake that perhaps he didn’t determine their marketing. But Rob Stringer has been calling the shots at Sony since this fall (and potentially had input before that official announcement). And we know Sony now holds the Syco strings and has since July 2015, a date we are all very aware of – so Rob Stringer stepping into the office in the last six months has certainly had power to ameliorate the situation, and he has not done so.

Harry has been constructed as the big fish, the Justin Timberlake, almost since the beginning. It seems Sony’s going to be damned if they don’t get what they’ve always angled for, by hook or by crook. Given what we have seen, they’ve been successful at backing Harry into a corner, as well as Louis, with profound effects for Liam and Niall as well.

Columbia and Sony are sure to promote Harry’s music thoroughly, because it could make them a great deal of money. But that is the equation. It is very much in their best interests not to help Niall, Louis, and Liam or One Direction, as that would distract dollars and time from Harry’s solo work, which will make them a fortune. It is quite evident by now that Sony has had the power to step in but have not, because such an extreme power imbalance in negotiating is much more expedient for their bottom line. They’ve been monstrous and it’s gotten them Harry’s contract, which is what they wanted.

Hope is not any easy thing in such a situation. I think patience will continue to be the watchword. 

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At this very moment, genocide is occurring in Aleppo, Syria. We are being tortured, raped, slaughtered, and basically exterminated indiscriminately. There is no aid, medicine, food, or tools of survival. There are no hospitals, schools, homes, or any safe haven. There is no body or causality count anymore, there are too many to be accounted for. The White Helmets have officially announced that they are essentially powerless and paralyzed; they have stopped counting the dead, only stopping to wrap bodies in orange bags. Men and male children are forcefully being conscripted into the regime army or massacred in mass executions. There are official reports of women asking their husbands to kill them before being conscripted or executed in fear of mass rape and other atrocities they may face. Aleppo and Hama have suffered chemical attacks that have left seemingly unharmed children lining mosque floors dead. The about 100,000 people left in the city that haven’t died or been displaced are moving from one neighborhood to the other as regime and Russian forces close in. They are running only to fruitlessly go through the action, only to feel like they are trying: it’s of no use. The city is blockaded and there are ongoing airstrikes. There is no way out. There is no escape. This is essentially a cat and mouse game. There is no hope. We are literally asking God for divine help and miracles.

There are claims that “Aleppo is falling”; however, it has FALLEN. Russian and regime offenses have taken 96% of the city. Officials say that Russia and the Syrian regime have agreed to a peace deal and/or ceasefire, but live reports from Aleppo confirm it has yet to be implemented. The siege is ongoing. There is no going back from this. What has occurred these past two days is a genocide that was live-streamed to a world still in denial about our suffering. All we asked for was an end to emergency/martial law, yet we received six years of pure agony

Humanity has failed us. The international community has failed us. We are the worst human rights violation since World War 2. We are Obama’s and the UN’s Rwanda. Please save us. Call your representative. Donate to the White Helmets, Syria Relief, Save the Children, etc. Spread the word. Tell the truth. Do anything you possibly can.

UPDATE: As of Wednesday, December 14th 2016, the Turkish-Russian peace deal and ceasefire has FAILED. Syrians have been waiting since 5 AM for evacuation busses and NONE HAVE ARRIVED. Regime and Russian forces have started shelling the city AGAIN.

Please, don’t forget us! This is not getting better, this getting WORSE. They have won. The city has COLLAPSED yet they will not cease their offense. This is still ongoing. This is a nightmare that will never end. We Syrians are trapped in this city with war crimes still happening! Please continue spreading the word.

UPDATE #2: As of Thursday morning, December 15, 2016, the ceasefire has (for the most part) been held. Preparations for evacuation are just about complete. There will be a safe passage from Eastern to Western Aleppo that the International Committee of the Red Cross will oversee. Evacuations should begin soon. We are hoping that Western Aleppo will react kindly to the under 100,000 civilians coming in from Eastern Aleppo and that it will be, for the most part, successful.

Just remember: surviving Eastern Aleppo citizens are being transported on busses that are overtly and excessively decorated with the face of their butcher. At least it’s a slight reprieve from the past couple of days. Please keep the residents of Aleppo in your thoughts and continue to spread the word.

UPDATE #3: First convoy of 1200 Aleppo evacuees have arrived at Idlib, of which 200 were immediately hospitalized and most in critical condition. A second convoy of about 1198 people has crossed the West Aleppo countryside and has just about arrived, as well. There may be a third evacuation convoy if all remains fairly unhindered.

Please keep in mind that remaining waiting Aleppo residents and even the evacuees are facing harsh winter conditions as homes have been destroyed and it gets brutally cold, especially during the night, in Syria. They are also facing extreme hunger. The Syrian regime is providing them with nothing more than transportation to Idlib. Continue to donate what you can and call your representatives.

This will be the last live update I can provide from Aleppo unless an emergency or crisis (more than the now usual) occurs or important updates must be made. Please keep spreading the word, supporting civilians in anyway you can, and remaining vigilant and informed on the crisis in Syria. International mainstream media failed us and many of you didn’t even know what was happening until you read this post. The Aleppo genocide was one of many crises over the past six years and will be one of many more. Keep Syria in your thoughts and prayers. Spread the word.

I watch a lot of detective shows, and while I love all my mystery babs, Dirk Gently from the 2016 show is such a refreshing reversal of the typical archetypes. Detectives like Morse, Sherlock, George Gently (I JUST realized they have the same surnames…), Hardy, Wallander, Lewis once he gets his own show, they’re all very pessimistic, broken by personal tragedy, socially avoidant, and oftentimes smugly superior about their intellect even towards those they care about. Their shows do everything possible to convince you that these men are Just Better by showing off their admirable personal tastes (either refined or salt-of-the-earth in a very dignified way) and their almost complete mastery of their jobs.

Then there’s Dirk Gently. Dirk, who listens to the trashiest pop music outside of a SoCal club from 2004. Who pairs a ice cream cone patterned tie with a bright yellow leather jacket. Who briefly mistook a map for a picture of a woman, and then spent another few seconds completely baffled as to what it could actually be. Who does his job by stumbling into clues rather than actually searching for them. Who greets everyone like they’ve genuinely made his day. Who wants friends, as many as will have him. Who is esctatic when someone else figures out part of the case before him. Who sees the good in everyone and doesn’t hesitate in telling them about it as many times as they need it. Who doesn’t always really understand how to relate to people, but tries so hard to keep them happy. Who has seen some shit, but tries not to let it get him down. Who gets scared sometimes and wears his heart on his sleeve. Who really does listen to the worst fucking pop I’ve heard in my life, and it’s great, and he’s great, and I’d like to see more characters like him in this genre.

anonymous asked:

I had such a bad day and I cried pretty much all day long.. so would it be possible to get a cute Holtzy & Erin drawing?

i’m sorry you’ve had such a bad day anon :( i hope this is cute enough to make you feel a little better. 

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Wanna learn more about 924 Gilman/Lookout!/The Bay Area punk scene? Here are some resources I recommend.

Books:

  • 924 Gilman: The Story So Far… (2004) - Brian Edge
  • Gimme Something Better: The Profound, Progressive, and Occasionally Pointless History of Bay Area Punk from Dead Kennedys to Green Day (2009) - Jack Boulware & Silke Tudor
  • Please Kill Me: The Uncensored Oral History of Punk (1996, reissued 2016) - Legs McNeil & Gillian McCain (this book is continent- and decade- spanning and doesn’t focus on our era or area, but it is one of the greatest rock books and possibly the greatest punk book ever written, and it is priceless for understanding the development of the genre some people claim Green Day have inherited the mantle of, and others claim they’ve killed.)
  • Punk USA: The Rise and Fall of Lookout! Records (2014) - Kevin Prested
  • How to Ru(i)n a Record Label: The Story of Lookout Records (2016) - Larry Livermore
  • The Spitboy Rule: Tales of a Xicana in a Female Punk Band (2016) - Michelle Cruz Gonzales (because I know I’m writing about Green Day but let’s get some women and people of colour up in here, and also this really is a very good memoir)

Film:

  • Punk’s Not Dead dir. Susan Dynner

Zines:

  • Cometbus, the seminal long-running zine by Aaron Cometbus, veteran of the Bay Area punk scene and active with the Gilman Street Project, interim Green Day drummer, former Green Day roadie, bandmate to Billie Joe Armstrong in Pinhead Gunpowder, and all-round punk legend. A good starting place if you’re overwhelmed by his sheer amount of output is Add Toner, a collection of old favourites and new material.
  • Maximumrocknroll, the San Francisco-based monthly punk music zine, especially the issues of the early 90s, if you can find them at a zine library or the like
I spent 2016 chasing after love and having my heart broken by boys who didn’t know better. I promised myself that 2017 will be the year I fall in love with myself. The year my dreams start to come true.
—  New year, new possibilities -Jess Amelia
self-rec Saturday? let’s do this thing

i’ve seen a quite a few of these around, and felt like throwing my hat in the ring, too, though most of this stuff isn’t exactly new


it’s been just about a year, but i am still inordinately proud of Be A Body (Explicit, ~5K), the fic best summarized as “General Hux goes on shore leave to get anonymously railed until he can barely stand. Adam Sackler Kylo Ren is a filthy fuck who eats his own come out of Hux’s ass, because he is considerate like that.” 

this fic was prompted by @machinewithoutfeelings, who’d asked me for ‘something where they do space coke in a club’, and i like to think it really turned out! the actual summary for the fic is General Hux likes spending his shore leave somewhere anonymous, convenient and blessedly free of Kylo Ren. Somewhere full of men with big hands, and preferably with a good bathroom to do Mon Gazza spice in, and yes, Mon Gazza spice is an actual thing in the old EU, though i made up all the effects. 


also turning one is it don’t come in a shot glass (Explicit, ~19K), my May 2016 kylux exchange fic, which includes such tags as “Kylo is a horrible neighbor but he gives great head”. the summary on AO3 is Kylo hates his job, his life, his hot neighbor Hux, cats, turning thirty, and everything, not necessarily in that order. Well, maybe cats – and Hux – are OK. Whatever. Being thirty still blows. 

I ABSOLUTELY ADORE all of the comments i’ve received on this fic, and i hope y’all are OK with me sharing some of them below, because i think they are possibly an even better summary (please let me know if you’re not ok with me quoting you, and I’ll edit)

“I loved Kylo just periodically grabbing Hux out of the blue, interrupting their small talk about Stephen King to suck his dick, […] creepily reading his mail and envying him for his actual ties and real coffee table.” – @rex-luscus

“a smol ginger cat is delicately guiding us through kylo’s mess of a life and leading him toward hux” – @bettydays

“Kylo Ren is this kind of possessive in bed, terrible at people type of thing, but he’s like, confident as soon as he has someone naked.” – @reserve

“The transformation of Kylo from petulant man-child to slightly-less petulant man-child. The complexity of Kylo-the-dejected-youth’s insecurities told via mail tampering.” – @sinnotalone


disobedient (Explicit, ~7K) is the puppy play fic that’s a very loose @kyluxhardkinks fill. this is the one with the collar, leash, crate, cock cage, orgasm denial, and feelings. it’s pretty much what it says on the tin: D/s modern AU: Hux is an overworked and isolated businessman who advertises for a full time, live-in sub – except that Hux ends up with naughty puppy Kylo. some trivia for you: i ended up reading a late 1800s dog training manual for funsies as a result/consequence/side-effect of writing this fic. it was incredibly illuminating.


care and control (Explicit, ~6K) remains my favorite, most self-indulgent, happiest fantasy. the actual summary on AO3 is a quoted paragraph, It’s a wide strip of dark brown leather, soft, already a bit worn at the edges, snapped shut over Ben’s wrist. It means Ben wants him. Ben needs him. He may not always be able to say it, but he means it every time he puts the cuff on, every time he puts himself into Hux’s care – I’m yours. so to rephrase that, it is the softest, sweetest D/s fic, wherein Hux spanks Ben, eats him out, and fucks his face. it was my first time writing trans!Kylo|Ben, and honestly, were i to try writing the same exact scenario now, i’d likely frame it a bit differently, but i am still very, very pleased with how this one turned out. @artyaourter made really gorgeous art for this fic, and I gotta admit, I LOOK AT IT A LOT.


i know Princess (Explicit, ~7K) isn’t everyone’s cup of tea (what with the underage Hux, the age difference between him and Ren, and the daddy kink), but it does involve a very pretty Hux who wears pretty panties, and dreams of pink nail polish, and even prettier dresses he’s going to wear for Ren someday, like this one  @ottenebrare drew, which i love so damn much. 

...And in a “blink” of an eye, I had a 1k per meet. 3-4x a month.


The funny thing was, I was pretty apprehensive about going out with BLINK tonight. He’s a doctor at a hospital but texting prior to this, I didn’t know if an arrangement was something he was looking for. I thought he wanted more of a relationship. Even during the beginning of dinner I really wasn’t into this guy. He took me to a really casual restaurant called the Yard House. So off beat than my usual 4/5 star restaurants for a first meet.  Good looking, but his personality was like, “what?” I had to face check myself and make sure my facial expressions came across as SUPER interested. (We’ve all done this lmao) 
By the end of the night I was laughing and opening up, especially when I thought I heard 1k per meet and our next date is this arcade bar. Um, OKAY! :D He’s really sweet and we actually do get along quite well. 

The name Blink comes from a book he was talking about, it’s about first impressions not only on people but on art or whatever you can see with the eyes and how to depict it. 


Moral of the story : Don’t knock it till you try it and TRY, TRY AGAIN. 

I’ve been on Seeking Arrangement since September of 2016. Slowly but surely my allowances have increased. I’m getting better at this. So far I’ll have about 3-4 daddies going lol which I think I’m going to stop. It’s hard enough work as it is scheduling them. 

Don’t give up hope. I keep hearing a saying going around on Tumblr “10k allowances are possible!” Now, I’m starting to believe it. 

Hope this helps. 
 (sbmisstaylor) xoxoxox

Infinitely Wallflowers: Chapter two

Eventual Peter Parker X Reader

Warnings: Mentions of drinking, Cussing, Bullying, high school.

A/N: This is based off of “The Perks Of being A Wallflower” if you haven’t read it or seen it, i highly recommend you make a trip to the library. 

 Also, It’s been such a long time since i’ve written the first chapter, but i finally did it! Yay! There’s so many reasons why but i don’t feel like i need to say them. I just hope you enjoy and thank you for sticking around for this long!

{Chapter One Here} // Song to listen to: Temptation

Words: 1,556



August 24th, 2016

Dear journal,

Sometimes I wonder what it’s like to not have powers. To not be that awkward kid who sticks around walls whenever possible. Would it be better to fit in? To be popular? Besides the kind of popular in middle school where you held hands with anyone who could breathe. The kind of popular where people actually liked you and looked up to you.

Besides my slightly angsty wannabe poetry, I’m doing okay.

Well, as okay as you can be when everyone around you seems to want to force hell on you every single time you step one foot on school grounds. Though I firmly believe that things get better. Thing have to, right? Not everyone can be so bad.

Always ~ Peter P-



He thought maybe, just maybe that school might not be as bad the next day. But god, was he wrong. Some could even say it was worse. Time seemed endless in the dull hallways of the germ-filled building. It was all just… useless.

He wasn’t learning anything, really. Some things, yes. But nothing that would help him five years later. And he hated it. Everything about it. The wasted time could be spent patching up old computers and saving the world.

Peter stuck to his plan of staying close to the walls and not saying much. Becoming part of the limitless amount of students. Keeping quiet during classes, too. It certainly made things easier and harder at the same time.

But despite all of his efforts, this only worked moderately well. People still pushed him over, still snarled “loser, pick up this,” as they ripped some of the pages straight out of one of his history books, throwing them across the room. They left with a smirk on their faces, satisfied with ruining another life that day. Peter sighed, clenching his fists tight, his knuckles going pale white and even pink. It sounded stupid, but he could feel something inside him, power, maybe. But more uncontrollable than usual.

The last thing he wanted was spider problems in school.

1,384 days till he was out.


He overheard students yelling about a football game, and how it was going to be “the bomb.” Though he never really liked sports, it would just be a shame to miss the first game of the school year. And, he didn’t want to be around when Derrick came around to pick up Aunt May for yet another date. It made him sick just thinking about it.

When Peter arrived to the game, he was shocked to see how many people had come. He was expecting 100 or so, maybe, but it seemed as though everyone and their friends had come. And, unfortunately, Peter had turned up late. He wove his way through the heavy crowd of sweaty teenagers, trying to find some sort of empty seat anywhere. But it was pointless.

Just when he was about to turn around and go home, he heard a voice.

“Hey! Looking for a seat?” Someone waved to him, motioning to the saved seat next to them. Realizing it was Patrick, Peter quickly made his way over, silently glad it was him, since he seemed to be the only sane person in the whole damn school.

“Thanks,” Peter muttered, sitting down on the end of the awfully uncomfortable metal bench.

“You’re in my workshop class, right?” Patrick asked, turning to talk to Peter. He seemed truly interested in Peter, which was a new thing. No one had ever wanted to know anything about him before.

“I’m pretty sure, yeah,” Peter tried to reply as casually as possible, but he thought it was quite obvious he knew for sure. He had always been a horrible actor, anyway.

“I never was good at workshop. Though I think you can tell by the clock I tried to make today.” Patrick gleamed, laughing at his own joke, his face lighting up instantly.

“Oh, hey, Y/n!”

It was the girl from the day before. Still just as gorgeous as she’d been the previous day.

She was wearing a oversized varsity jacket and overalls that were really mismatched. It seemed as though she didn’t want to fit in, and that was something so rare nowadays. Slightly refreshing, actually.

“Question: could the people here get grosser?” She smiled the warmest smile he had ever seen. He tried not to stare, but his eyes were letting him down. She scooted right next to Peter, causing him to suddenly be aware of the lack of space between them. Peter’s breath became ragged, and he didn’t quite know why. It was just a girl. Yes, the most beautiful girl he had ever met, but still, a person. He didn’t know what to do. Talk? No. He could always fuck that up. Best to stay silent, as always.

“We’re not going to Ruth’s, by the way. Her parents caught her buying rum for the party,” Y/n spoke up, leaning across Peter slightly to talk to Patrick. Her tone was loud, though dimmed by the roaring of the students whenever anyone did anything on the sports field.

“Damn it, Ruth. I always tell that girl that paper bags are a dead giveaway.. So, we wanna go to Queenies instead?” Patrick rolled his green eyes, clearly disappointed by their friend.

“Of course,” she said in a joking tone, like it had been blatantly obvious. Then, she turned to him, with that smile of hers, and a shimmer in her eyes. “Peter? That’s your name, right? Would you like to go to Queenies with us after the game?”

“T-that’s my name. And I’d love to, if that’s okay. I don’t want to ruin your fun,” Peter spoke up, stuttering a bit, which he mentally slapped himself for.

“I invited you for a reason. If I thought you were a buzzkill, I’d move away as soon as possible.”

Noise flooded his ears, so he looked over at the scoreboard. Seemed like he had missed quite a bit of the game, since many points had been added since he last checked. For a little bit, he forgot that they had even been at a game, but with the roaring crowd, the cozy atmosphere surrounding the three of them cracked instantly, bringing him back to harsh reality.

“GO SPORTS!” Patrick yelled over the crowd, clapping along with everyone else.


“So,” Y/n started as soon as they sat down in a empty booth in a darkish corner of the small diner. It was a cozy place that smelled like milkshakes and heartburn, but in a good kind of way. “Peter, what music do you like?”

“Answer this carefully. You might get on her bad side if you hit a nerve,” Patrick smirked devilishly, wiggling his eyebrows.

“I’m not that bad, I swear.” She slapped Patrick’s arm with the back of her hand, rolling her eyes at him. “Tell us already!”

“Oh, well…” Peter started, but drifted off. All of his life, people had made fun of him for what he liked in music, or anything, really. Though Patrick and Y/n seemed nice, would they be like everyone else and judge him? “It’ll sound stupid.”

“Nothing truly sounds stupid,” Patrick said, pointing right at Peter, “and never think otherwise. Your taste matters in this cruel world.”

“Okay. Mostly I listen to David Bowie, Prince, Duran Duran, U2, The Smiths…”

“Ohmygod! Someone who likes good music! Our music!” Y/n squeaked, beaming head to toe. Peter couldn’t recall someone being so happy over a small topic like music, but he thought it was cute. She gripped Patrick’s arm tightly, shaking it vigorously.  “Can we keep him? Peter, can we keep you?”

“Yes?” he said with more of a question than an answer in his voice. These people must’ve been slightly insane, but he thought he liked it, strangely enough. Never had he thought that people like them could exist. So free spirited; people who didn’t care and didn’t want to. They were just… them. And that amazed Peter.

“Do you know The Electric Fetus?”

“Yeah, I love that band.” Peter lied. He really didn’t know who it was, but the last thing he wanted to seem like was clueless.

“It’s actually a record shop, but good enough.” Patrick smiled. He did not even make a big deal about it. Just a casual mess up. Another new thing to add to the list of what makes a decent person. Not everyone had to point out your mistakes.

“Tell you what, sometime over a weekend, I’ll take you there, okay?” she offered. There was a constant undertone in her voice that sounded so welcoming, but he couldn’t place a finger on exactly why. It was something you could get addicted to hearing. “Show you some more good music…”

“Be careful, you start listening to that shit and it’s basically a popularity plague. One old song and your rep is dead.”

“I’m pretty sure my rep can’t get any worse…” he muttered. And at that, they burst out into sudden laughter, startling Peter a bit. Y/n was even wiping away tears from her eyes. Soon enough, Peter joined in with laughing, not fully sure of why yet, but it was just contagious.

“We’ll see about that,” Y/n managed to say, smiling ear to ear. “we can ruin anyone, kid. You’ll learn that soon enough.”


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A-Z Prompts: Donnie

Requested by: Anonymous

X, J, C, and S for Donnie I love your blog keep up the good work!!

X - KISSES

Donatello finds making out incredibly awkward. He’s better than he gives himself credit for, but he usually finds himself at a loss for something to do, and so he’ll fumble and get all flustered, and then mess it all up. So he much prefers chaste, meaningful kisses as often as possible. He loves to kiss you on the cheek, he thinks it shows you more affection than trying to suck your face off. Plus, you are incredibly cute when you blush under his lips.

J - JEALOUSY

Donnie doesn’t get jealous much. At least if he does, he doesn’t show it. He loves you too much to think of you wanting to be with anyone else, and so he often tries not to think about it. However, if you are standing slightly too close to Casey Jones, or talking to him a bit too much, Donnie will get jealous in seconds. And you’ll know it because he’ll either drag you away and smother you with love and affection, wrap his arm around you and join the conversation at random, or he’ll bury himself in his work, and not talk at all until you bring it up. He doesn’t like Casey, and he often tells himself you’d be better with a human, and so whenever you spend any time with Casey, he immediately thinks that hockey player would be better with you, and that makes him incredibly jealous.

C - CONTACT NAME

On your phone he is saved as ‘Darling <3’ and on his phone you are saved as ‘My Baby <3’.

S - SLEEPING

Donatello loves you, but he is still needy for affection, and so sometimes he is the little spoon. If he’s had a bad day, or you’ve had an argument, you’ll crawl into the bed behind him and wrap your arms around him to make him know you still love him unconditionally. He’ll let you wrap yourself around him, as best you can, and he’ll let you hold him while you both fall asleep. Other times, though, he’ll let you fall asleep on his chest so that he can watch as your beautiful eyes flutter to a close.

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“If you assume that there is no hope, you guarantee that there will be no hope. If you assume that there is an instinct for freedom, that there are opportunities to change things, then there is a possibility that you can contribute to making a better world." 

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