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If I could talk to Viktor

…In chapter 3 of OBSABH, I’d have a few things I’d want to say to that boy grown man. He’s got his head in the clouds and a bit of good Northern straight talking would do him a lot of good. Here goes:

Listen to Yakov. He is wise.

Listen to Chris. He is wise.

“Well he stayed the night and didn’t leave until the morning, that’s something at least”.
Oh just you wait until next time, Viktor…

“Viktor, what were you honestly expecting to come of this?”
Marriage, actually.

“If Yuuri wouldn’t talk to him through words maybe he would listen another way instead”
Well yes, he might, but to be perfectly honest I wouldn’t put money on it.

“This was Yuuri reaching out, offering - if not the hand of friendship - then the hand of good sportsmanship at the least”
About time. I mean, I love that boy but he does behave like a dick sometimes.

”…the little niggling voice in the back of his mind that he usually ignored was screaming at him to think and wonder why exactly Yuuri Katsuki was kissing him in a corridor with no warning or explanation whatsoever.”
Listen to the voice, Viktor. It is wise.

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Love Yourself - pt. 2

Pairing: Kurtbastian

Summary: Fix it fic for 6x01 & 6x02. Kurt is struggeling after his break up and he doesn’t know how to deal with any of it anymore. Until he meets Sebastian again.

Words: 3.945

Part 1 - Part 3 - Part 4

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Part 2

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Kurt tapped his foot nervously on the floor, not breaking eye contact with Dr Barnes. She raised an eyebrow at him and blinked, signaling that she wouldn’t join a staring contest with him. Dr Hammond had been different. This time Kurt hadn’t looked for a therapist himself, instead he had sought out recommendations from various people and after last time, different didn’t appear to be too bad at all. Still, he expected a little more than only staring when he had just poured his heart out. Kurt couldn’t believe he had postponed his flight to Lima for this.

‘What do you plan on doing next?’ Dr Barnes finally spoke up.

‘I’m not sure. I thought about going back to Lima to get Blaine back.’

‘Why?’

‘What do you mean, why?’

‘It’s a simple question, Kurt. There’s no right or wrong answer. Just go ahead and explain your thought process, please.’ She smiled gently at him.

‘Well, uh, I… He’s the love of my life. I can’t just let him go. Don’t you think I’ll regret it forever if I don’t try to get him back?’

‘I can’t really answer that question for you. What I can do is give a little advice. Ready?’ She leaned forward a bit, as if she was about to tell him a secret. Kurt half shrugged, half nodded. Yes, Dr Hammond had asked less questions and talked more himself. Kurt wasn’t sure yet if he felt too comfortable to talk so much about his thoughts and feelings, but something about Dr Barnes’ personality made him relax. Her cozy office might have helped a bit as well.

‘Nothing is worth it to regret it your whole life, Kurt. We should try to never linger too long on negative feelings. Imagine you never let any of your regrets go, they’ll be like little drops of rain in a bucket. The bucket can hold one drop, two drops, even twenty drops. But if it never gets emptied, it will inevitably spill over. Every negative feeling, no matter how small, is a drop of rain.’

‘But I have been trying to forget my negative feelings?’ Kurt frowned as she shook her head.

‘Don’t forget them, Kurt. Accept the bad things as well as the good things. Then you’ll be able to let them go and move on.’ Insecurely Kurt bit his lip.

‘The last therapist I’ve seen told me that Blaine is the best thing that has ever happened to me.’

‘And do you agree?’

‘I… I’m not sure. Sometimes, yes. Other times…’ He lowered his gaze, expecting her to say something. But Dr Barnes stayed silent, patiently waiting for him to finish his sentence.

Kurt continued in a whisper. ‘Sometimes I wish I had never met him.’

‘Tell me about Blaine. What do you like about him?’

‘He’s very passionate. Especially about music. When we met, he was very understanding and supportive. You know, I came to talk to him because I got bullied and he got how I felt because he’s been bullied as well.’

‘What else?’

‘He is nice. Everyone who meets him instantly likes him.’
‘That’s being charming and popular, not nice.’

‘Uh, well… I guess so.’

‘I’m sorry I interrupted you, go on,’ she said with an encouraging nod. Still Kurt hesitated before he said the next thing.

‘He loves me.’

‘You like that Blaine loves you?’ Kurt blushed. That didn’t sound quite as it had in his mind.

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