You’re so unfair~ its not easy to forget hey boy!
I’m just thinking about you all the time. Even I’ve been trying to be enjoy chatting with another man, yet, it’s still you in mind. WHY?
my heart keep beating faster when it comes about you. I don’t know why, my brain gonna burst aaaaaaaarrghhh. its all about you!
But my brain keep pushing me that we cant be together. its too risky. yes, risky…….risky….so much mudarat next in our future. No, we cant. come on, no matter what we cannot be one. We have to separate. We have our own path which is no way to meet at one point. Still don’t know why I love you so much.
oh Allah, erase him from my foolish mind and my tiny fragile heart. I just couldn’t take it :( I always cry when I remember him. It just hurts so much. Even though he’ll never feel the way I feel now. He’s too…. he is too cold, sucks, weird and he’s the most complicated man ive ever known but…..he’s so comfy. Yes very funny.
Oh Allah i knew this is haram to feel this way, this doesnt halal yet loving a man as long as he’s not my mahram. So please.. guard me, take care my heart, keep it away from all the negative things of this world you made. Allah, I want my life filled with your love. I wish i could love a man not for fulfill my syahwat, but for Allah’s sake. So then someday, I can say to my beloved future Imam, “Ana uhibbuka fiilah"