What we WANT is not all what we NEED.
Since I was a teenager, I didn’t really get what I actually wanted. I was so sad on that time. I felt like Allah didn’t listen to my prayer. and most of the matters are really important to my life, in which they determine my future path.
One of it was about my education. I actually wanted to be in different area, badly. I applied for it and I prayed all nights with full of hope. I believed with high confident level that my application would be accepted. However, my application was rejected and I was offered in another area. I just accepted it… and moved on. Time goes on. I fell in love with the course and amazingly I found that, that was I what I want and I need. Alhamdulillah… That was one from my experiences…
A series of this event occurred again and again, in different matters as well. and I tried to get used to it. How bad I felt because of the deep disappointment I experienced, I always tell myself that “ALLAH knows the best”.
“0 Allah if in Your knowledge, this matter be good for my faith (Din), my livelihood and the consequences of my affairs in the world and the Hereafter, then ordain it for me and ease it for me and grant me blessing in it. But, if in Your knowledge this matter is bad for my faith, my livelihood and the consequences of my affairs in the world and the Hereafter, then turn it away from me and turn me away from it and ordain for me the good wherever it be, and cause me to be pleased with it.”
I realized now that what we actually WANT in our lives is not all actually what we NEED. I believe, if we don’t get what we want, ALLAH has planned something else better. I also get used to wait for a long time just to comprehend, analyse and get ready before I really acquire and receive what actually ALLAH has planned for me, the best for me.
“….though you dislike it, and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know." Verse 2:216
Now, the storyboard of the story becomes clearer and I could see it how smooth ALLAH has planned the journey of my life. Subhanallah… MasyaALLAH!! I couldn’t see before as I kept complaining and comparing with others’. But now I understand. If this is the best for me, dear Allah, bless me. If this is what I need and I can handle it, ease my way. I ask from nobody but You, my Creator.
If it is true, it is worth waiting! :)