ish 2013

makamu-a-tumbling  asked:

I have been reading and reblogging some of your posts and wanted to thank you for that detailed account. I have been out of fandom for a while, and antis really baffled me at first. But now I have a question: Could you talk some more about how current antis relate back to the LJ social justice scene and when the morph from debating fanworks to dissing people happened? Thank you!

I’m glad you’ve been enjoying this blog!

I think this reddit post does a nice job of summarizing the history of fandom and how it’s led to our current point. But I’m going to go more into how tumblr’s very structure led to a ‘race to the bottom’ sort of enacting of punishment via social justice.

Almost all of this is from personal observation, having been here since late 2010.

To get more into the actual history of it: Racefail ‘09 is the name given to the big, public 2009 debates about racism in genre fiction (published fantasy and sci-fi), which happened primarily on livejournal and private websites. (Racefail was itself the result of the rising awareness of social justice in the real world thanks to the democratization of information via the internet.) Racefail raised a couple of big questions: were non-white (and non-straight/non-cis/non-male) creators being silenced and erased in published genre fiction? And were the stories being told primarily racist/sexist/homophobic and lacking in representation for non-white/Western cultures (and LGBT+/queer/female stories)?

From everything I’ve read I feel like a lot of good came out of these talks; in particular, it greatly raised the awareness of social justice in genre fiction and fandom spaces - which had been there before, but not quite so prominent.  But one major bad came out of it: it revealed, via the shitty behavior of one member of the genre fiction community, how social justice could easily be used as a silencing tactic by applying arguments meant to dismantle power structures to individuals who may (or may not!) benefit from those power structures.

Fast-forward to 2010-2012 tumblr. LJ has undergone multiple journal purges and partial restorations, been bought out by a Russian company, and - final straw - changed the way anonymous threaded posts were handled, ending its value as a space for anon memes like kinkmemes. Fandom dispersed. A not-insignificant number of us eventually end up on tumblr, and those of us coming from LJ have brought with us a greater awareness of social justice, particularly lgbt/queer culture and feminism.

At the same time, Facebook has opened its doors to everyone instead of only allowing college students to use it. Facebook has almost single-handedly popularized the notion of making your offline life publicly available online.  Gone are the days of keeping your age, real name, and offline identity hidden; we share everything except maybe last names and exact locations.

Tumblr democratizes the fandom experience like never before. Livejournal and forums had moderators; tumblr has none.  Communities are gone - instead we have tags where people gather to talk about shared interests. People who previously felt shut out, forced to be ‘lurkers’ because they had nothing to say, could now have a blog and share the work of others via reblogging. The main way to gain social capital is by having the most followers and therefore the most widespread content.

But tumblr is a weird experience compared to other blogging sites because at the time it was the only one with a ‘reblog’ function. any one post can go absolutely viral and the people who see it beyond your immediate circle will lack the context of the rest of your blog. This means that either every single post needs to be entirely self-contained … or get wildly misunderstood. (Guess which one happens.) It also means that that the posts that spread the fastest and furthest are the short, witty ones or - you guessed it - the controversial ones. Finally, people tend to not fact-check - if something is interesting and seems believable, people reblog it uncritically. Tumblr’s dashboard structure actively encourages people to not leave their dash to look at provided external links - you’ll lose your ‘place’ on your endless-scrolling dash, and the little ‘home’ button in the corner is reminding you how many new posts have been created since you last refreshed. You don’t have time to fact-check.

Controversy without context is polarizing - without the original context, people provide their own context and agree or disagree based on a bunch of assumptions. Tumblr is a breeding ground for this. Opinions don’t get more nuanced - they get more vitriolic, more sharp and quick-witted.  And with people not bothering to fact-check or click linked information, misinformation spreads like wildfire.

The early experience of fandom on tumblr is one of widespread acceptance. Possibly because FB does this, people feel safe to share their age, sexuality, and gender on their tumblr profiles - and those identities get more and more specific as people learn more about gender identities and sexual orientations that are off the gender binary. People spread educational posts about queer/LGBT+ culture, feminist theory, and racism alongside fandom posts.  The importance of minority representation in the media is a hot topic and posts that criticize media for their lack of (or bad) representation get thousands of notes. Social justice theory - fighting the appropriation of colonized cultures by imperialists, promoting the voices of the oppressed over those of the privileged, the right to be angry because of the oppression and trauma you’ve experienced, not tone-policing people who have been hurt, and not erasing the experiences of others - are widely discussed.

A lot of good came out of this, too, but I believe a natural backlash resulted. Earnestly working to promote the voices of the least privileged and trying to avoid silencing or erasure, what started as an effort to even out the social strata gradually became a kind of reversed social strata. People who were oppressed on any axis could not be corrected by anybody of lesser oppression - it was considered to be silencing. People could not say their feelings had been hurt by a marginalized person’s word choice - that was tone policing. 

And this led to a secondary, and probably lesser conclusion: people who identified as ‘privileged’ - that is, white, cis, straight, mentally well, able-bodied, (and male) - felt guilty for all the privilege they had. and the promotion of marginalized voices over their own - the tendency to tell people, regardless of the validity of their points, that if they were privileged their voice did not matter - to escape their privilege, at least on tumblr.

I think we hit Peak Tumblr in 2012-2013-ish. Non-human and nonbinary identities proliferated. Asexuality awareness exploded, as did other lesser-known sexualities and paraphilias.  People wondered what it meant to be trans in a world with no gender binary. People self-diagnosed severe mental illnesses.  And this unto itself wasn’t a bad thing!   Probably many people learned a lot about themselves from the openness and acceptance.

However: there’s no way to know how much of this was from people self-discovering and how much was from people who realized that unless they had some axis of oppression they could point to they could be silenced.  And people were extremely open about these identities as well: despite all of the talk about social awareness, interactions on tumblr suggested that most people still assumed that everyone else was white, cis, straight, able-bodied and mentally well (and therefore completely unaware of social issues and in need of education). And due to how tumblr’s reblogging system could separate posts entirely from the context of the original poster’s blog and personal details, this assumption happened a lot!

Whatever the actual numbers of people who were self-discovering versus self-deluding, this extreme acceptance got its own natural backlash. It wasn’t possible for everyone on tumblr to be oppressed, but everyone on tumblr seemed to be finding some way to be marginalized - they weren’t cis, they were ‘a demigirl’. They weren’t straight, they were ‘gray asexual’.   There had to be some way to distinguish the real marginalized people from the fakers.*

Enter gatekeeping - which seems reasonable enough at first, given the sheer number of people who are claiming to be part of the marginalized club. People start making fun of ‘transtrenders’ and ‘starselves’ and say ‘heteroromantic demisexuals’ are ‘just normal’.  People call one another ‘cishet’ specifically to erase their gender identity/sexual orientation.

This environment makes tumblr ripe for radfems, who greatly benefit from people putting limits on what identities other people can have. And radfems feed the gatekeeping mentality, leading to more and more policing of one another on tumblr instead of acceptance.  Instead of trusting others to be honest about their gender identity, sexual orientation, race or mental health, people increasingly decide the identity and experiences of others based on whether or not they say and do the right things.  Conversely, if you say or do the wrong things you are ostracized and your identity is erased using the reverse social strata of tumblr: ’cishet’ becomes shorthand for ‘ignorant asshole’ - and ignorant assholes are not to be listened to.

One no longer has to identify wrongly to have the wrong identity to be worth listening to. One only has to do the wrong thing.

So how does this tie back to debating fanworks vs dissing people?  Well: tumblr isn’t just the home of social justice. It’s also the home of fandom, and these two spaces heavily overlap.

Like our genre fiction friend that I mentioned back at the beginning of this long-ass post, tumblr had already begun - with the best of intentions - to silence people for having the wrong level of marginalization.  And when radfems and gatekeepers entered the scene, one’s level of marginalization became a function of how you behaved.  Now you had to behave right to have the right to be listened to - and fanworks, far from being the exception, are the rule for determining if people behave ‘right’ in fandom spaces.

In other words: debating fanworks/fan opinions and dissing people have become the same thing.  If a fanwork is for the wrong pairing, that makes a person a bad person.  And bad people are only able to create bad fanworks.

This attitude is how you get things like ‘if you ship [x] you’re straight’ and ‘oh, you ship [x], your opinion on this unrelated social justice issue is invalid’ or ‘i’m not surprised to find that this person is [x]-phobic, they created problematic fanworks.’

And that’s where we’re at today.

Man this is much. I’m sorry for your eyes.

*And in case it isn’t obvious, I think policing sexual orientations and gender identities is nonsense - demigirls and gray-ace people count as much as everyone else.

The Start of Us

“Did I miss it?!”

Max slammed open the door of the Price-Madsen household and nearly tripped over her feet. She stumbled down the hallway after flipping the door the other way and hearing it slam back onto its frame. She finally stopped when she hit the back of the couch, staring at the TV. 

Nope. Five minutes to spare, even. The ball in New York hadn’t dropped yet, and they were five minutes away from the new year. 

Max heaved a sigh of relief and nearly forward-flipped over the back of the couch and onto the cushions. “Thank dog… I busted ass to get over here…” She stood up and dropped her bag to the floor, then started to peel off her winter coat. It was light blue, insanely puffy, and unbelievably warm. She revealed a dark gray t-shirt, one of Chloe’s grunge band ones, and stomped some of the snow from her Converse. 

“Chloe, where are you?!” Max called, wondering why there wasn’t an answer. ‘If she fell asleep or went somewhere right before the ball dropped, I swear to dog…’ Max thought, holding a slight tone of bitterness in her head, before she walked towards the kitchen in search of her best friend. 


abrightcontainer  asked:

Speaking of awkward fan interactions: late 2013-ish, SeaTac airport. Big bearded guy in a Karateka shirt said hi to you and talked about Tabletop. That was my husband, he still feels bad for bothering you but he was so excited when he saw you wearing that shirt.

He was so kind, and we totally nerded out about Tabletop. It was awesome.

The manga:

Definitely black.

1997 series:

Yeah, I’d say that’s pretty close to the source material.

Film trilogy (2012-2013):

That’s… not quite right. She’s still a woman of colour, but…
Oh well, they can’t do worse than this.

2016 series:

Wow, they actually made it worse. They took a screw up and they screwed it upper. How could you… Why.

rough outline of asexual community development on tumblr, or: how asexual discourse on tumblr got this way

2011-2012: multiple non-asexual individuals posted frequently in asexuality-related tags arguing that asexual identity was inherently homophobic or misogynist. many of them were straight women, and some of them were TERFs (galesofnovember). there were a few sga people (including one gay man), but it wasn’t the case that “gay people started it.” there was even a non-sga anti-sjw (using the handle meravie) posting that asexual identity was inherently homophobic & misogynist.

asexual people got incredibly defensive in response. there was lateral violence in both directions (aces being homophobic to the lgb non-aces, non-ace lgb folks literally arguing that asexuality was always an illegitimate or even harmful identity for same-gender-attracted aces to have). there were very long argument threads. it was rare to find someone willing to take criticism of their viewpoint seriously, on either side. i and a few other asexual people tried to have conversations with the individuals involved, and it was ultimately futile.

2012: many non-aces said not to call them “sexuals.” many alternative words were created by asexual people. the one that became most popular was “allosexual.” in the time of the coinage of allosexual, the individuals who made the aforementioned anti-asexual posts (again, mostly the straight women) had no criticism of allosexual other than “lmao it sounds like allosaur, asexuals are so fucking st*pid" (the legitimate criticisms of the word came much later on, from different non-aces)

2013-14-ish: asexual community develops a culture of being extremely defensive in response to all criticism of asexual discourse from non-asexual people. by this point, most of the non-aces voicing criticism of the homophobia in asexual discourse were sga. 

2015: asexual community is also extremely defensive in response to criticism of asexual discourse from asexual people.

present: no non-asexual person involved in the original massive organized asexual invalidation from 2011-12 posts in asexual tags anymore (sometimes one or two of them post in demisexual tags though, with arguments that demisexuality is an inherently homophobic, misogynist, illegitimate, and/or harmful identity). almost every asexual person currently involved in asexual discourse is someone who was not present in the community during 2011-12. (a lot of Tumblr Asexual Elders got extremely burned out.)

presently in asexual discourse: there are no non-aces claiming that asexuality is inherently and literally a homophobic, misogynist, illegitimate or harmful identity. non-aces argue that it’s homophobic to apply the split attraction model to people without their consent (i agree with them). there is still lateral violence on either side: anti-asexual comments paired with often legitimate criticisms of asexual discourse, and homophobia from asexual people (often from the cis het ones, but also from the sga ones). (note: homophobia from cis het aces is punching down and it isn’t accurate to call it lateral violence.)

so: my recommendation to fellow asexual people is not to respond to lateral asexual invalidation with homophobia. it’s okay to be angry and express anger in response. but it’s not tone policing or respectability politics to say “my fellow asexuals, stop saying homophobic shit like ‘gay people fucking suck’ in response to non-asexual lgb people being acephobic” *

* fun fact: i was actually called victim blaming by another asexual person in 2015 for saying “don’t say ‘gay people fucking suck’ in response to a gay person being acephobic”

Bean’s 15 tips for beginner (digital) artists...


I drafted my reply stupidly and tumblr ate it. Oops.

DISCLAIMER: I am by no means excellent with digital art. I’m deficient with color schemes/the concept of “color” in general (I’m definitely not colorblind, but there’s definitely a screw loose somewhere,) I rarely if at all have the patience to line my art, and forget painting altogether because I don’t get it. So I’m flattered you’re asking me for advice even though I consider myself the last person you should (haha~.)

TIP #1: TL;DR it took me years to get to where I am. Some people don’t need that long. Change may not happen on a day to day basis. Try to be patient. 

We hear it all the time, “practice makes perfect.” It’s actually “perfect practice makes perfect” and I don’t believe there is such a thing as “perfection” when it comes to art. When people say it’s “all practice,” they’re full of nonsense. There is definitely a role for talent, in that some artists pick up on stuff really quickly and advance at unreal speeds. I am not that. I started with mouse drawing before I got my first tablet in 2005, followed by the second around 2013-ish (maybe.) I’ve been art-ing in general since I was a wee bitty toddler.

Here’s my progression over the 10+ years I’ve been doing this: 

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So a lot of people complain why teens (especially girls) look much older now say in their early twenties, and how they wear makeup, dress, act, etc. Although if they did act their age, many would be in be piled up in “Cringe compilations” or shunned. Now see in the early 2000′s there was the “Random culture/scene/emo” it was pretty ‘cringy’ looking back, but adolescents got have fun and find their place in friends and their current world around them. I used to be apart of that in the late 2012-early 2013-ish but i was at least happy at the time. Nowadays kids are force to grow up at a much faster pace or else be shamed for gasp! acting their age. I’m tired of teens/pre-teens and children (people make fun of fucking ten year-olds man) being humiliated by others for being themselves, let them make shitty sonic ocs, those damn neon wolves, shipping themselves with a video game character, drawing fanart on mspaint with a mouse, using XD and what ever they feel like (and is appropriate), and most of all, let kids be fucking kids.

Now before some asshole tries to tell me teens use their age as a defense of taking responsibility here’s this: if you are 14+ (high school age) and use that “oh but I’m a minor and i cant take responsibility for hurting others!”, you are a peace of shit and old enough and capable enough to be responsible for your own shitty actions and choices. Don’t use that lousy excuse for your own bad behavior.


Changing isn’t a bad thing, it never was 🌹

Can we appreciate my glo up from 2013/14 ish to now I mean thats when I first fell in love with Shawn mendes , Ariana grande & youtube now look at me I have Tumblr blog about them

jumping on this bc this has got to be the easiest promo ever. LIKE or REBLOG this if you are ever interested in playing with his sinnabon && sarcastic warlock ; MAGNUS BANE ( shadowhunters && tmi. ) he can be a total jerk, but lovable && cuddly once he gets to know you. && eeeey ! even protective. scribbled by BER. est: 2013-ish.

Here is where I’m listing paintings I have for sale from the stash I’ve accumulated in my apartment over the years!  If you have wanted a Banshee or or some of my more well-known DS9 content, here it is!  There’s also some Babylon 5.

There’s a link in my sidebar to other paintings for sale, but this is a collection of just the new things that have been added!

All prices listed in US dollars, shipping costs the same for US and Canada.  Ask me if you want to ship elsewhere!  

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MCU Timeline, Re: Homecoming

Bear in mind with this that Marvel evidently sucks at keeping track of their own timeline, given in The Winter Solider Bucky has two birth years on his memorial wall. (Seriously, Marvel, wth?)

So, Iron Man takes place in 2008, as guessed by the events of Civil War’s release date corresponding to the actual year it was released, and Sam saying they looked for Bucky for two years corresponding to the release of The Winter Soldier, and Vision saying it’s been eight years since Tony Stark announced himself as Iron Man. (Also apparently there’s a date on the Mad Money episode Pepper is watching that says 2008—I’ll have to go look at that later to make sure)

Iron Man 2 takes place six months later, maybe 2009. Maybe.

A “Fun Fact” I’ve seen floating around the internet is that Iron Man 2, Thor, and The Incredible Hulk all take place in the same week (jokingly referred to as “Fury’s Big Week”). So, again somewhere between 2009/2008.

I’m going to make a leap here and suggest that The Avengers doesn’t actually take place too long after that, not corresponding to it’s own release date. Fury mentions that Thor showed up “last year,” which could mean it’s a year later, or just a couple months, but now in a new calendar year.

I’ve seen that screenshot post floating around that Steve had been out of the ice for ten days when the first Avengers movie happened, so it’s maybe 2010 when they thaw him out. So about 2010 when The Avengers takes place.

Then Iron Man 3 is 2013 (there’s a newspaper with a year on it), back on track with release dates corresponding with the timeline. So it’s been a while since the disassembling. Got it. Okay.

(Both Guardians of the Galaxy movies take place in 2014, with Vol. 2 being set a few months after the first one, according to IMDb.)

I’m just going to guess that Thor: The Dark World is in 2014-ish (maybe late 2013) because why not? Remember that Agents of SHIELD episode where Simmons is like, “They left a giant mess!”? Yeah I’m running with it because honestly, this is me trying to figure this out for my own purposes.

And The Winter Soldier is also in 2014 because that’s when it was released and it works with Civil War’s timeline, as I mentioned above.

Age of Ultron is in 2015, still working with the release dates, and then Ant-Man as well, because there’s that newspaper article Scott lands on that says, “Who was responsible for Sokovia?” Implying that it was recent. (Also Hank Pym says that The Avengers are probably too busy dropping cities out of the sky. Obvious reference that it’s probably recent. And just after AoU, the New Avengers Facility in upstate New York is opened and that’s where Scott infiltrates.)

Doctor Strange has awards that say 2016 in his display case, so it’s probably around there too, despite his months of training at Kamar-Taj that kind of throw me off. I assume the movie begins in early 2016, and then ends around it’s release date in November because there was snow in NYC when the Ancient One talks to Strange in their astral forms.

Captain America: Civil War is where it gets complicated when it comes to Homecoming. Why?

Because Peter says he nailed his algebra test, implying it’s still during the school year. Yet Homecoming takes place in September (as evidenced by his Academic Decathlon poster saying September 14 because I’m a nerd and I noticed), “Two Months Later.” Meaning Civil War takes place in July? Then why would Peter have an algebra test?

As well as Homecoming saying it’s been eight years since The Avengers, making it roughly 2018 instead, unless The Avengers took place in 2009, making it 2017.

Or unless someone is rounding up. Something could have been 7.5 years and someone’s just saying eight to be clean.


Side note about Timelines: WHY THE HECK ARE THE ACADEMIC DECATHLON NATIONALS IN SEPTEMBER?! Shouldn’t they at least be in winter, if not early spring so the teams have time to, oh, you know, actually compete and make it to Nationals instead of holding them three weeks after school starts again?!

Look, I went to high school in Western America, so I don’t know how the East Coast works, but if it’s Nationals, the west would be included and that just… doesn’t make any sense. It wouldn’t be Nationals for last year’s team because the seniors on the team would be graduated and gone.

kaiyodei  asked:

do you think people of those "tumblr type genders" would grow out of it? or "stargender for life" like how kids don't grow out of being trans? if someone 14 years old labels them self "mousegender" they are as valid as woman right? and will never grow out of it do you have any knowlage if something like pyro or swampgender existed pre tumblr? like maybe the Clovis knew it first?

the whole [noun]gender thing really isn’t prevalent at all lol. i saw some of it in 2013-ish and even then most of those were troll blogs coming in from /r/tumblrinaction. i don’t know why people fixate on it and try to make it seem like a legitimate issue for the trans community.


it’s not quite the end of 2015, but here’s an assortment of my art from this past year! as in, this stuff i still kind of like. as you might be able to tell, i had a fandom this year.