There will come a time when all you’ll feel is sheer exhaustion – you’ll want to stop chasing people who have no time for you, and you’ll wish back every second you’ve wasted on the wrong things. Do you know how tiring it is to be treated like a doormat? To be treated like you don’t matter, to be told that you’re not good enough? That you’re too available, or even too kind?
But you see, it cannot bring back all the tears that had run out from my eyes. It cannot change all the sadness I’ve felt—the terrible feelings I tried to explain. You cannot just catch those waves with your hands and throw them to the ocean again. You cannot just pick those petals from a beautiful flower and regret it afterwards, wishing that maybe it will grow more stunning if you let it bloom on its own way. You cannot just let a bottle fall on the ground and decide to use it again even its sharp edges can painfully tear your palms. Because your sorry cannot change the past. Your sorry cannot change all the things you made me feel. You see, it’s different this time. You cannot just break someone’s heart and make them feel worthless that way—then put the blame on them. You cannot just say sorry for each and everything. You should have known that what you’ve done is wrong especially when you clearly did it intentionally. Especially when you did it selfishly.
look im so EMOTIONAL bellamy saying goodbye to jasper and harper, trying not to cry and looking like he’s trying to memorize their faces while he leaves bc he respects their DECISION my beautiful son and his character development i-