is-it-in-my-veins

Dearest (Joker x reader) 8

Y/N’s curiosity got the better of her when she went exploring by herself in an old insane asylum. Little did she know of the murderous psychopath lurking in the shadows, obsessed and determined to break her and make her his.

Warning; smut and violence 

Chapter 8

Adrenaline was pumping through my veins as my puddin hit the gas and my body was thrown back in my seat. ‘’OOOh-ho-ho HA HA’’ his maniacal laughter filled the streets as we sped through Gotham City. When he stopped the car outside of his club, a bouncer walked up and opened the door for me. I got out, in my golden glory, wrapping my arm around Mister j’s waist and rested my head on his shoulder as we walked in.

All eyes were on us. Strippers, gangsters, bartenders and mob-bosses turned their heads as we walked past them. My pudding had gotten all dressed up for the occasion. White shirt, buttoned down and his golden cane. ‘’Listen cupcake, why don’t you go dance for me, while daddy takes care of business.’’ He held my chin with his fingers and stroked my lower lip with his thumb. ‘’Sure thing, Mistah J’’ I smiled and walked over to the bar.

Once everyone saw whom I belonged to, they practically bowed in my presence. Frost had told me that Mister J only visited his club for business meetings or for pleasure. So once he made an appearance, everyone made sure the club was in the best shape. Mister J didn’t just kill people who vexed him or owed him money. Sometimes he would slit some random poor bastard’s throat just for fun. He fed on the thrill of the kill.

 ‘’Whatcha having, miss?’’ the bartender asked me, a friendly smile on his face. I clicked my tongue and tapped my fingers on the surface of the bar. ‘’You got mimosas?’’ my eyes lit up. ‘’Of course, miss and of course it’s-uh on the house.’’ He stuttered a bit and turned around to fix me my drink. I wonder what it’s like to work for Mister J. Hah!, poor fools, they had to be scared out of their minds. Spill a drink, bang, you’re dead. Play a song the boss doesn’t like, bang, you’re dead. I looked over to a separate section of the club. My pudding sat there with his cane in his right hand, gripping and squeezing it as he threw glances at me. 5 or 8 men had just walked in and was headed towards the room Mister J sat in. They had to be the ones he was doing business with.

I started feeling a little out of place. I had never really been to a real big club before, especially not one like this. Without Mister J by my side, I wasn’t really sure what to do while he was handling business. Should I walk around and mingle, or just sit here and admire him? I refuse to dance before I’m a little tipsy. ‘’Here you go, beautiful’’ Mister Bartender said as he handed me my drink. ‘’Thanks’’ I chirped and spun around on the red barstool. The strippers wore black and golden animal masks and grinded on each other like wild animals.

Taking a sip of my drink whilst looking over at my puddin, I noticed the three strippers in the room. I felt a little knot form in my chest as I looked at them bending over and grinding on their poles in basically nothing. He wasn’t paying that much attention to them but I still saw him throwing them glances once in a while, which he wasn’t throwing in my direction anymore. I waved at the bartender with my finger and ordered three shots of tequila.

I knew he was probably used to having cheap girls throwing themselves over him all the time, plus he had probably fucked every girl he had working for him, but I still couldn’t help feeling a little jealous. He was my puddin. I grabbed one after one of the shot glasses of tequila, placed the rim at my lips and threw my head back. Swallowing and scrunching my nose, I slammed the flat of my hand on the bar and cursed under my breath. Let’s do it.

I got up and walked up the little staircase that led to the stage in the center of the room where the strippers were. When they noticed, they all made way for me and humbly smiled as they let me grab a hold of the golden pole in the middle. I felt the alcohol stinging in my throat and burning in my stomach.

I grabbed the pole and threw myself around it, sliding down as I teasingly spread my legs before I arched my back and slid up again. The others stood in silence for about three seconds, and then they looked at each other and smirked. They joined in and I felt the beat of the music flow through my body. Looking over, I saw that Mister J had caught up on what was happening, and had his eyes glued on my body. I slid down the pole, slowly, while shaking my hips, my eyes locked on his.

One of his potential business clients was talking to him, but he didn’t take his eyes of me. I grabbed one of the male dancers and pushed his back to the pole. I grabbed his neck and dropped down to my knees, ran my hands up his legs, ass out and body swaying to the beat. I could see Mister J’s eyes filled with lust as he enviously glared at me. I was pushing his limits.

As I continued throughout the song, if felt a few drops of sweat form on my forehead. I let completely go of myself and danced my heart out. It could have been the tequila, or the rush of his eyes on me, but I was feeling every inch of myself. When the song ended I stepped off the stage and started wandering around, chatting to employees and other criminals.

In the corner of my eye, I saw four men staring at me with lustful eyes as they started walking in my direction. One of them grabbed my hips and placed his arms around my torso. ‘’And who might you be, hotness? Haven’t seen you around before.’’ I chuckled and smiled at the three others, standing in front of me. ‘’That’s for me to know and you to wonder’’ I smirked as I tried to remove myself from his grip and keep walking. But he tightened his grip, forcing me to stay put between his arms. One of the other ones walked up and lifted my chin up with his finger as he smiled. ‘’You’re a pretty little thing aren’t you.’’ ‘’How about you come play with us a little, huh sweetheart?’’ the third joined in. They obviously hadn’t been here long enough to register who I came here with.

I looked over to my pudding to check if he had noticed what was happening, but he wasn’t there anymore. Neither was any of his business associates or henchmen. The strippers were backing away from the stage and into a backroom and this was when I noticed that there were barely any people left in the club. Uh-oh.

‘’GENTLEMEN!’’ Mister J exclaimed, as he appeared, walking towards us with his gun in his hand. UH-OH. The four men froze, their eyes wide with fear as they saw who was talking to them. ‘’Are you bothering, this nice young lady?’’ he asked, with his hands open and his eyebrows raised. ‘’Uhm- No! no, of course not Mister J, we would never. We were-uh just uhm making sure she wasn’t alone.’’ On of them stuttered, his eyes glued to his feet.

‘’Are they bothering you, dollface?’’ Mister J looked at me, waving his gun around. I decided to join the fun and play his little game. I pouted and blinked at him like a little child. ‘’A little’’ I said with a baby-voice. ‘’Aawwe’’ he pouted as he looked at his innocent little queen. Then he quickly raised his gun and fired four shots, all in their stomach. They all fell to the ground like little dominos and I walked over to my pudding, slung my arms around his neck and kissed his cheek with one foot up in joy.

He was about to say something when one of the men started groaning in pain and grabbed his stomach, rolling over to the side and looked up at us with pleading eyes. Mister J rolled his eyes at the man and looked at me. He took my hand and placed the gun in my small palm. Then he slithered behind me and grabbed my hips. ‘’Finish him, little one’’ he murmured as while he nibbled on my earlobe. I raised my arm, took my aim and pulled the trigger. My heart skipped a beat when I felt the gun go off in my hands.

Mister J growled loudly as he pushed me roughly against the wall and attacked my lips with his. He bit, sucked and licked my neck as he grabbed my ass with all the force he had in his body. Both of our bodies were filled with adrenaline and lust and we needed to touch each other. ‘’Daddyy?’’ I asked as his grills bit down on my neck. He mumbled a small mmm in reply, too focused on pleasing me to chitchat. ‘’Thank you for saving me from those pigs’’ I sighed, barely getting the words out because of the pleasure of his touch.

Mister J stopped and looked at me with his crazy dark eyes. ‘’They touched what belongs to me. I should’ve ripped their faces off.’’ He angrily growled as he pressed his crotch against mine. ‘’I wanna thank you, daddy’’ I said softly and suggestively as I ran my hand down his chest and grabbed his itching crotch. Mister J growled as his chest rose heavily. Before I had time to react, he grabbed my arm hand dragged me with him to his private room.

I pushed him down on the couch and bowed down. Placing my fingers on his knees, I slowly pushed his legs open and squeezed his thigh. ‘’You want me?’’ I teased and ran my hand up and down his thigh.

He shot me a deadly glare as I got on my knees and put my fingers under his chin. ‘’I’m all yours’’ I said seductively while grabbing his hard cock through his tight pants. Mister J grabbed my hair and pushed my head down as he unzipped his pants and looked at me. I pulled them down and locked my fingers around his cock. Then I licked the bottom of his shaft and all the way up to his head. I used my tongue to circle it and flicked it on his tip. He groaned and threw his head back in frustration. ‘’Don’t tease me.’’

I grabbed his cock and placed my lips at his head as I took all of him into my mouth. He sighed and stroked my hair. I started bobbing my head up and down, faster each time. I loved feeling him writhe under my touch. He was bucking his hips up, pulling strands of my hair, growling and purring as I pleased him. ‘’Such a good little girl’’ he groaned breathlessly.

I grabbed one of his balls and squeezed it gently while I kept sucking his cock. I felt him twitch in my mouth as he pulled my hair tighter. ‘’Daddy’s gonna cum, baby’’ he growled. I looked up at him. ‘’Yeeah?’’ I asked as my eyes met his. This was enough to send him over the edge. He growled loudly and threw his head back, his grip on my hair loosened as I felt the warm liquid fill my mouth. I got up and sat in his lap, wrapping my arms around his neck. Breathlessly, he planted tiny kisses from my chest up to my forehead and held me. ‘’Let’s go home, doll.’’

I nodded and got up, got off him and walked out of the room. In the main room stood frost in all of his glory, trying his best to hide the smirk that was on his face. I giggled as I walked past him and out the front door. Weird. Mister J’s Lamborghini wasn’t there. I was about to turn around and walk back inside when I felt a soggy cloth cover my mouth. It burned my lips and once I inhaled, everything went black.

Some people get hurt so bad all they can do is hurt the ones they love.
And all of our desires become holy lies.
The emo in me says there’s too much ruin in my rib cage, but I’ve come to understand there’s no such thing as regret.
I’ve tried to be careful with my words,
but they spill and spin out of control.
My drunk tongue is slipping through sentences.
I meant to mean more,
but those words, they taste so soft.
I cannot believe
the cold yearning in my chest
could ever burn us up.
Your name is the call of the wolf,
howling from my mouth until my throat is raw.
I mean to mean more.
My veins are crowded,
I’m overflowing with blood and love
and I still can’t find a safe way to release the pressure.
I carry the whole world on my back and you are my whole world and I don’t want to ever let you down.
There’s lava all across the floor
so let me hold you.
Nothing has ever meant more.
—  giraffevader - All that was red was blood and bleeding

~Nature Runneth Through My Veins~

Earth, my body and my blood
Dust below me; skies above
Bones bound by an endless love
Crafted of the universe

Sallow moons and starlit skies
Springtime blooms and warm Julys
Twilight’s tender lullabies
Marvels born before my eyes

Source of breath and parting tears
Ancient stones and noble deer
Essence of my living years
Blessed Earth, my hallowed sphere

Timeworn tales and solstice flames
Rugged paths and rich terrain
Boundless seas and gentle rains
Nature runneth through my veins

—  © 2016 Amelia Dashwood, All rights reserved
Some people get hurt so bad all they can do is hurt the ones they love.
And all of our desires become holy lies.
The emo in me says there’s too much ruin in my rib cage, but I’ve come to understand there’s no such thing as regret.
I’ve tried to be careful with my words,
but they spill and spin out of control.
My drunk tongue is slipping through sentences.
I meant to mean more,
but those words, they taste so soft.
I cannot believe
the cold yearning in my chest
could ever burn us up.
Your name is the call of the wolf,
howling from my mouth until my throat is raw.
I mean to mean more.
My veins are crowded,
I’m overflowing with blood and love
and I still can’t find a safe way to release the pressure.
I carry the whole world on my back and you are my whole world and I don’t want to ever let you down.
There’s lava on the floor
so let me hold you.
Nothing has ever meant more.
I thought I knew heartbreak,
but every moment without you
is a lesson in loneliness.
—  giraffevader - Days without you
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In my veins - pleasebekidding - The Vampire Diaries (TV) [Archive of Our Own]
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
By Organization for Transformative Works

Words: 8373
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Alaric Saltzman/Damon Salvatore
Characters: Alaric Saltzman, Damon Salvatore, Elena Gilbert, Mentions of Jeremy Gilbert
Additional Tags: Alaric is a vampire, Damon is human, explicit sex you know me guys
Summary:
Elena called early in December, three days after she left Damon for good. Said after the debacle of Thanksgiving she couldn’t do another Christmas, and definitely couldn’t do another New Year’s, with Damon the way he was. And she cried. And she begged Alaric to come, please, just come, because she was afraid if Damon was alone, he might not make it to January.

He booked an afternoon flight, for the following day.

I’m the happiest girl in the world
Even though my depression scrapes it’s nails down my back
And anxiety snaps at my veins
I’m the happiest girl in the world
Even though I can’t speak clearly to people
And can’t breathe straight when meeting new people
I’m the happiest girl in the world
Even though my life is blue,
Still my favourite colour is yellow
I’m the happiest girl in the world
Because there is someone right now
Having the best day

I’ve got the kind of headache that comes from Bacardi and
one shot of apple flavored vodka

last night the minute the numbness hit my veins I wanted to take it back I wanted to be me again but instead my movements were too clumsy and
my brain was too foggy

i don’t like the feeling of losing control anymore.

—  I’m only desperate when I’m drunk– lily rain

My hands are the color of the sun
and the breeze blows my name on your skin
There are no other things I’d like us to be
It’s just fine with your eyes on my lips
and our hearts in one piece.

There’s nothing more to it,
the warmth of my hands on your skin
You touch me and you fit.

I breathe in your whispers and
breathe out your name,
you’re the sun in my hands
melting my veins.

And there’s nothing else that I’d like us to be
It’s just fine being fire on fire
And leaving ourselves in one piece.

If we’re torn apart
there will be no pain
If we break away -we won’t break
There’s nothing else to it,
We’ve never learnt to be two in one piece.

-And that’s just fine by me.

—  L.G. ; Inner Road - Nothing more to it

Every night, I prayed for a love that can win. I can’t think of anything else but to pray that this time it won’t fail. Hoping my heart will never stop beating, the blood in my veins continues to flow and the oxygen in my lungs helps me breathe.

This is not a game I should play, neither you can play. I will not lie, I know for sure that I’m afraid to take risks. But I’m still giving my all. There’s no need to rush, just let me love you. And I will surely open your eyes, that the person in front of you will guard your heart at any cause.

I prayed for a love that can win. But I prayed more that I can win your heart.