miamorbarba  asked:

DUDE but can we just talk about #140 “I thought you were dead…” with Barba??? I'm not ready, your writing is going to be the death of

@miamorbarba is a sweet angel sent from heaven. They are to sweet to me.

Hope you enjoy! Warning: Mentions of death, labor, gunshots. This one got me. I was crying while I was writing it.

“No, no, no, no, no!” You screamed and clutched your stomach as you watch the events unfold on the TV. Soon your vision became blurred as hot tears ran down your cheeks. “I have to get down there. I have to get to the courthouse.” You continued to scream, still holding your stomach. Fin caught you before you fell and then saw the liquid pouring down your legs. 

“Y/N, I think your water just broke. We need to get you to the hospital”

“No I can’t do this now. I need him.We were supposed to do this together. I can’t do this without him.” You were hysterical. You had every right to be. You just watched your husband get shot on the steps of the courthouse on live TV.  “I can’t do this without him Fin. I.. I.. I can’t breathe.” 

“Somebody call a bus!” He picked you up and carried you to the elevator. “Hang on Y/N. It’s gonna be okay.”

“I can’t do this without him. I can’t.” Everything was blurry and you felt like you were going to pass out. “I need him. I need Rafi. I can’t…”

The elevator opened and the paramedics were waiting. They got you into the ambulance and sped towards the hospital. 

“What happened?” They looked to Fin.

“There was a shooting at the courthouse. Her husband was the target. She saw it on TV. She’s due in three weeks. After she saw it happen her water broke.”

“Did she fall or lose consciousness?”

“She started to fall but I caught her. No she hasn’t lost consciousness.”

You arrived at the hospital but you couldn’t seem to speak. You just cried.

“Alright what do we got?” “Mid-twenties, 37 weeks pregnant, went into labor after seeing her husband get shot at on TV.” “Alright this baby is in distress we’re gonna have to do an emergency c-section. Let’s go.”

“I can’t do this without him. I can’t.”

“Hi, I’m Dr. Montgomery. Can you tell me your name?”

“Y/N Barba.” You choked out between gasps.

“Well Y/N, your baby seems to be having some trouble so we’re gonna have to do a C-Section. Everything is going to be okay. We’re gonna take care of you and we’ll get through this together.” She took your hand and gave it a squeeze. “I’ll be here the whole time. We’re gonna get through this.”

“He’s dead. I can’t raise this baby alone. I need him. I can’t… I can’t..” You let out a blood curdling scream as another contraction hit and then everything went black.

You woke up and everything was fuzzy. You tried to focus in and figure out where you were. When you finally were able to see you looked up at the TV and saw them replaying the events at the courthouse and remembered. You started crying again and hyperventilating. In seconds two nurses and Dr. Montgomery were in the room and one shut off the TV.

“Y/N everything is alright. It’s Dr. Montgomery. You’re fine. It’s okay. Just take deep breaths.”

“Is the baby… Did he… Are they…”

“The baby is fine. With all of the stress, the baby was just having trouble breathing but he is fine and is waiting on his mother.” She motioned for one of the nurses to go and get someone. Your breathing slowed.

The door opened again but you turned away. You couldn’t look at your child. He would only remind you of Rafael. You were supposed to have a big family, grow old together. Now none of that would happen.

“Would you like to meet our son?” You snapped your head in the direction of the door. There was Rafael standing in the doorway holding your son.

“Rafael? I thought you were dead! I saw you at the courthouse. You… Rafael I thought I lost you. I thought you were dead.”

“Shhh… It’s okay. I’m fine. I’m here. I’m alive. Both of us are fine. I’m only sorry I wasn’t there when our little boy arrived.” He walked over to you and handed over your son. You grabbed his hand and looked down at your son. 

“Please don’t ever leave me. I couldn’t go on without you. I love you so much.”

“I’m not going anywhere Y/N. I’m not leaving you or our son. Or any other person who comes along.” He leaned down and kissed your forehead. 

“I thought I lost you Raf.” You leaned into his touch as he moved his hand to cup your face. “You were there and then… I thought I lost you. Just.. Just hold me now.”

“I’m here.” 

“That’s all I need to know.”

10 favs

@booklovershipper thank you for tagging me and sorry i’m doing this late. ♡ 

1. bellamy blake                                                                                                    i doubt this is a surprise. he’s been through so much, he’s such a strong and complex character. i just have a lot of live in my heart for bellamy blake

Originally posted by jchnmurqhy

2. clarke griffin                                                                                                      my lovely stubborn strongwilled girl. she’s lost so many loved one’s, experienced a lot of pain clarke has changed a lot from that innocent space girl to the commander of death but she’s trying her best ok heavy lies the crown 

Originally posted by princessclarke

3. raven reyes                                                                                                       hhhcbehcbhebhehebh raven, a beautiful angel sent from the heavens to brighten our lives? more likely than you think! she’s been though pain pain and more pain yet all she deserves is happiness. 

Originally posted by tortured-reyes

4. jughead jones                                                                                                   i know there has only been a few episodes of this show but i really love jughead. i’m really looking forward to see his character develop farther 

Originally posted by riverrdxle

5. mary stuart                                                                                                        through hurt and great loss shes so strong. mary is a good queen and a deserves the world

Originally posted by cuteskywalker

6. aayla secura                                                                                                     i can remember her being my favorite star wars character since i was little? she doesn’t even have a line and i couldn’t find a gif but i had to put her on the list.

7. lincoln                                                                                                                everyone tried to turn him into a monster but he always fought it, he sacrificed himself for people who looked up to him. i really miss him 

Originally posted by ilovenarcisse

8. betty cooper                                                                                                      strong girl who loves her friends and her sister. again i’m really looking forward to see her story continue 

Originally posted by elizabethcoops

9. veronica lodge                                                                                                  this gorgeous girl knows the difference between having money and having class. an angel from above

Originally posted by camilamendes

10. luna                                                                                                                 she hasn’t been on much and she hasn’t been on enough. i need more luna. i need more sea mechanic. she was trained to be a killer and forced to kill, yet she found peace and is still somehow an actual angel 

Originally posted by bellamybalke

i’m sure i forgot a bunch and don’t pay attention to the order. i kinda just put them on as i thought of them.

i tag: @clarketoearth  @platonic-bellarke  @ethereal-bellarke  @bel-ami-blake  @taco-bellamy  @bellamyblakesgun  @clrkesbellamy  @the100bellarke  @the-rebelliousgirl  @bellarkestrash

“It’s been over a year since my divorce. I’d been married for fifteen years. I was pretty beaten down. Some days I would feel so lonely that I couldn’t even sleep. A friend of mine from work told me to download a dating app. I tried for a long time but nobody was answering me. It was making me feel worse. I wanted to delete it but my friend convinced me to keep trying. Then on January 28th, I saw her picture and gave her a ‘heart.’ And she sent me a message. I said: ‘Wow, this is really happening.’ It’s like she’s an angel who came from heaven to bring light to my life. I love my chocolate bonbon.”

(São Paulo, Brazil)

The zodiac signs in Ravenclaw

Aries: loves riddles, decides to learn a new language at 3 AM

Taurus: has read every book in the library and wants to write their own ones in the future

Gemini: spends their spare time pressing the random button on wikipedia learning whatever definition comes by heart

Cancer: the one who doesn’t look like much but always gets the highest scores and no one knows how because they are doodling in their note book all day

Leo: good looks, clever brain, a room full of books - they’ve got it all and they know it

Virgo: incredible at arts and crafts, can build every ikea furniture WITHOUT the instructions

Libra: the angel sent from heaven who helps you when you don’t know how to solve things and never runs out of patience when you’re being especially dumb that day

Scorpio: still waters run deep; will stab you with their sarcasm when they’re bored

Sagittarius: takes their friends to museums and eats lunch at artsy french street cafés

Capricorn: never really talks much but is the biggest video game nerd

Aquarius: knows too much about outer space, is probably half an alien

Pisces: writes poems and composes songs, they don’t need you all they need is their phone and iTunes gift cards

the fact that sehun is an avid ig user and goes through tags related to the boys and literally takes photos of everything swells my heart until its breaking point and wow i love sehun so much more people should cherish this angel, hes literally a gift sent from the heavens and ppl who think hes an asshole r missing out tbh

I said this yesterday, I’m saying it now and I will say it tomorrow. Even if Kara was given a real footage of Lena breaking Metallo out of prison, she would literally still fight for Lena because she just knows Lena is innocent; an angel sent from heaven, despite everyone telling her otherwise. The fact that the writers are still sleeping on the potential to develop their relationship (that is based on trust and care) into something more and healthy because we already have our one (1) token gay couple is beyond homophobic.



It’s so telling that even when he is pretty much at his lowest Min Hyuk still manages to smile a little when he sees Bong Soon who cares already enough about him not to let him mope and drown in his sadness and depression. His baffled reaction says that MH isn’t used to actually have someone who would cheer him when he’s sad; and he lets himself be dragged by her to wherever she wants to go because he would probably follow BS to the end of the world.

What is so damn symbolic about this is that because Min Hyuk doesn’t have anyone who would comfort him when he is sad, he would always go to BS’s portrait and look at it for hours, seeking consolation from the angel he believes his mother sent him from heaven; and he would likely do the same this time. However, now HE HAS THE REAL BONG SOON TO CONSOLE HIM AND CHEER HIM UP. SHE EVEN HOLDS HIS HANDS ON THE VIKING RIDE AND HOLDS HIS CHEEKS TO MAKE HIM SMILE!!!