is this the time

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Day 18! This took longer than I thought, but it’s all good! Here we have The Sides™ all dressed up for Halloween! And yes! I seriously believe Patton would dress up JUST to say a dad joke!! (Thanks for the idea, Sammy) I had multiple ideas for Virgil, but at the last minute I decided to go with his own version of Jim’s Halloween costume from The Office, 3 Hole Punch Jim! Since Roman is a diva I figured he’d go all out for his costume and go as Winifred Sanderson Sister (and yes he’s upset none of the other sides wanted to dress up as the other sisters) and lastly we have Logan, I had multiple ideas for him too, but in the end I decided he’d go as a jar of Crofter’s! The costume isn’t sponsored, he’s just a fan. The only jelly he’ll put in his belly. Crofter’s.

Rhode Island Secret Session Attendants - 10/18/17

sofia - @lov-eswift
halley - @away-from-the-crowds
kelsea - @drunkonnjealousy
jess - @ikeepcruising
taylor - @gingerswift13
danielle - @ofrunningfoxes
lindsay - @taylorthebaelor
bella - @whyisntketchupasmoothie
cheyenne - @swiftielove82195
dana - @befearlessandstaybeautiful
julia - @iknowplaces-runandhide
katie - @katielovesnyc13
lizzy - @ohclassicswift
avery - @averytswiftie

If I have forgotten anyone message me, reply to this post, or tag them!

the signs as fears

ARIES: the fear of failure. as much confidence and competence as aries may exude, they’ll always ponder on the thought of possibly failing at the things they’re trying so desperately to achieve. because they are so good at what they do, failure can never be an option. the moment that they are reprimanded or judged for their work, they will be extremely self-critical of themselves to a point that may even set them back in their progress. so, they’ll keep working and breaking the conventional means of setting paces and taking things one step at a time, and eventually will burn out.  

TAURUS: the fear of giving too much. the moment that a taurus completely opens up and trusts you - which is quite difficult for them to do - they will want to share their entire world with you. however, once they reach this point, it is difficult for them to know when and where to stop - which ultimately leads to them giving more than others deserve. they fear that their efforts will be wasted, that they won’t be appreciated and may even be forgotten by their loved ones. they want to feel like a priority in everyone’s lives. so, they will always put themselves first until they feel like you are worthy of being loved and cared for. 

GEMINI: the fear of not having enough connections. gemini’s are natural talkers - even if they are shy at first - and this is a skill that they take pride in. therefore, they’ll use it to their advantage to gain as many connections and friends as possible. they fear not being entertaining enough, not being stimulating enough. they don’t want to lose the people they already have in their life - they want even more, just in case things go wrong. so, they constantly push themselves to socialize, even if it may mean doing so on a superficial level. 

CANCER: the fear of never finding someone who will truly love them as much as they love others. cancers are nurturing creatures, so it is in their natural instinct to take care of their loved ones. but because they are so giving, they fear that at some point, people may start to take advantage of their kindness. they’re afraid that they may never find someone who’ll go to great measures like they do for others. so, they may put up a cold and stingy facade to weed out those who are just there to use them. 

LEO: the fear of never feeling of not being good enough for the people they love. leo’s often struggle with expressing their love, as they are very prideful individuals and absolutely hate showing any form of weakness. love, in their book, does not always equate to hugs, kisses, and words of affirmation - but mean constructive criticism and lectures to “straighten out” their loved ones. therefore, they hide a lot of their true feelings behind their pride, and try their best to perform as well as they can to make their loved ones proud. they fear not being enough, they fear being a disappointment to others. they hate humiliating themselves, but would hate humiliating themselves in front of their loved ones even more. so, they’ll face a lot of their hardships on their own rather than talking about them - even if it hurts more to keep to themselves. 

VIRGO: the fear of not being useful. virgo’s want to make impact on the world. they want to leave behind a legacy of their work and accomplishment - they want to be acknowledged. they fear not doing enough and being so incompetent and unimportant that no one will remember them once they’re gone. so, they’ll focus only on their future and their aspirations; they’ll continue working vigorously and independently that they may end up forgetting to live in the present and pushing their loved ones away in attempts to reach their end goals quicker. 

LIBRA: the fear of never finding an adrenaline rush kind of love. the thought of butterflies, stomach churns, and the heat radiating between lips after the first kiss is what keeps libra’s excited. their eyes twinkle at the thought of finding the perfect romance that’ll last forever. but after so many dreadfully boring dates, they begin to lose hope in love altogether. they fear that they’ll never be able to find the kind of excitement that they find in books and movies - they’ll question why these kinds of things are always intensely portrayed although reality has nothing similar to offer. so, they’ll keep it light and airy - never settling down because once their relationships pass the honeymoon stage, they can’t face the possibility of the “spark” dying out. 

SCORPIO: the fear of never being able to let go. scorpios don’t have the stereotype of being intense for no reason; whether it’s anger, sadness, or love, they feel everything at full force. happy memories will forever be ingrained in their minds - but so will bad memories. the past will never be the past for a scorpio, because they have a difficult time accepting reality as is, and will continue to question why things happened the way they did. they fear that these grudges will consume them, that they will never be able to be truly happy after something unfortunate happens to them. so, they’ll always have their guard up - because getting hurt again would be too much for them to handle. 

SAGITTARIUS: the fear of boredom. sagittarius’s are always on the hunt for the next newest adventure; that’s what keeps them going. they’d be down to go on a spontaneous drive at 3am in the morning if you’d ask them to, because sleeping is simply a waste of time when there are so many great things yet to be explored. they fear that one day, they’ll run out of things to discover, places to go, people to meet. they don’t want to go to the end of the earth to realize that there is nothing left there for them to see and experience. so, they’ll never stop exploring; as much as they may care for you, their heart yearns for more than just love. 

CAPRICORN: the fear of not being stable. capricorns are great at taking care of themselves. they’re independent and are great decision makers; everything must to be calculated down to the smallest of details because otherwise, capricorns will not move. they fear losing everything that they’ve worked so hard to built up; the thought of having to start over in square one again is unthinkable to them. so, they may end up settling for less than they deserve; capricorns will never stray too far from their routine, because anything unconventional must be equivalent to a risk - and they’re not willing to jeopardize their assets and loved ones. 

AQUARIUS: the fear of being misunderstood. aquarians usually have a completely different approach to thinking. they often think far ahead - the big picture is what matters to them, not the details. so, often times, they’ll overlook what others may consider important, which puts them in a difficult position. they may be criticized and condemned for having such an unorthodox perspective, which causes them to question themselves. they fear that no one will ever understand where they’re coming from - that the depths of their true personality will never be truly known to anyone else other than themselves. so, they’ll keep their distance from you to protect themselves from being labeled as an outcast.

PISCES: the fear of inability to turn their dreams into reality. pisces are big dreamers - they have the layout, the blue print for EVERYTHING. but because they are also quite self-critical of themselves, they may lack the confidence to step out of their comfort zone and implement these ideas. they fear that although they may have these great and revolutionary ideas, they’ll end up embarrassing themselves when they set out to obtain their goals but end up failing. so, they’ll continue to watch from afar as others steal the flag from them - because they’re too afraid to make the first move.

331.

Clint stood on the back of his shopping cart, scooting with one foot past the New Fall Fashions in ugly mustard yellow, reaching out at the last second to snag some leering pumpkin socks that’d honestly look hilarious with Steve’s old man pants. One of the wonderful things about Steve was how polite he was, how any initial outlay on appalling items was more than repaid by how earnestly he’d wear ‘em. 

Tempting as it was to find something uglier - to find lots of things uglier and get Steve to guilt them onto the team - Clint had a destination in mind and rolled cheerfully onward toward the towering monsterpiece of black and white and orange balloons that guarded the entrance to Hallowe’en. 

Hallowe’en’s gotta be a favorite when you’re a kid who’d never managed quite enough to eat. Barney’d always half-assed his costumes, practiced looking pitiful; Clint’d always gone as overboard as his budget would allow. One year he’d cooked up so much fake blood that he’d even got a new pair of sneakers out of the deal when he was still leaving bloody footprints the day after, and the hours scrubbing carpet had been more than worth it for the winter of dry feet. 

He lingered at the entrance to the aisle for a few minutes, earnestly comparing prices on a set of scary-light skulls to go around the door, ‘cos he was never gonna quite be used to having money. After a moment, after a movement, after the hair started to stand on the back of his neck, Clint smiled. 

“You can join me, y’know,” he said, casual, carefully hiding his pleased. 

There was another pause - long enough for Clint to decide, to toss the more expensive set into his cart with a little thrill of now he could do that, of now he was buying for years to come - and then Bucky appeared behind him, looking as casual as it was possible to look clad head to toe in black leather. 

“We should get you a motorbike,” Clint said, thoughtful. “Or at least a helmet, help you blend in.” 

“You’re not supposed to be out alone,” Bucky said, annoyed and intent, and Clint rolled his eyes. 

“Look,” he said, “so far you don’t know me so well. It’s important you know that if someone’s threatening my life that pretty much just means it’s Thursday. No one else would be willing to come shopping for inflatable skeletons -” holy crap, inflatable skeletons, Clint grabbed two to guard his door - “and I ain’t exactly helpless myself.” 

“You didn’t ask me.” Bucky’s beautiful mouth was edging into something that definitely couldn’t be termed as a pout, not without a trick of the light and a world of wishful thinking. Clint was up to the challenge. 

“I didn’t ask anyone,” he said, ‘cos rejection wasn’t exactly his thing.

“So, what, you just assumed that no one wanted to come?” 

“Honestly? The train of thought didn’t even stop at that station,” Clint said, staring intently at packets of fake web. “I mean, who’s gonna?” 

Bucky reached over his shoulder, grabbed an oversized fake spider, studied it thoughtfully. 

“Me,” he said, simple statement, settling into Clint’s stomach. 

“Yeah,” he said, “to protect me,” and Bucky edged around until he could make earnest eye contact of beautiful fuckin’ blue. 

“Every Thursday,” he said, intent. 

I just realised the end of the vid when he’s wandering around the streets that it’s dawn. A nice little visual cue to show he’s ‘waking’ up so to speak and coming out of whatever haze he’d been in for the night. He can make out the shapes in the dark now and see the blood on his clothes if he looked. The vid ending when it’s dark and he’s still in the panda costume is nice too because it’s kinda mimicking the entire theme of not letting go of the past and coming back to it.

You see the sky turning light and think we’ll see the sun come up but instead it cuts back to the night before and whatever the hell he did. At least I expected to see the sun and have some kind of closure but nope right back to the beginning where he’s alone as a creepy killer panda. Nice bit of cinematography, I really like it.

Also I’ve never met Taylor prior to today obviously so I can’t speak for how she may have been in previous eras but I physically cannot imagine her being happier than she is right now. She just seems so self aware and content with the place she’s at and I’m genuinely overwhelmed with joy just from seeing this woman I’ve grown up listening to actually living the fulfilling life she deserves