is this really what i do with my life


So where does that end, Frank? Because I look at you and my heart breaks because all I can see is just this endless, echoing loneliness. I’m not lonely, Karen. Bullshit. We are all lonely. I sometimes think that that is all that life is, we’re just- we’re just fighting not to be alone. So what do you want, Karen? What should I do? Should I let it go? No, but I want there to be an after. For you.

Me & Cinderella

Originally posted by heart-attackles

Summary: The reader always knew Dean Winchester was the one. But when her college quarterback boyfriend gets considered for the pros, they let each other drift apart so he could go after his dream. Seven years later, Dean realizes just what happened all those years ago…

Pairing: Football Player!Dean x reader

Word Count: 8,500ish

Warnings: language, angst, self-depreciation

A/N: Thank you to @imissyoualittlemoreeveryday for giving me the inspiration for this story! Written in split POV between Dean and the reader…

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Here it is

I’m a little bit proud of this

I know I could’ve done better… But I’m running on a time limit. I hope it looks okay. You can see where I screwed up the shading… and blending… and colors in general… But today I tried a new way of making the outline. I’m pretty happy with the results.

@princeofmints has been one of my favorite artists for a while. Similar to Moho, Zachary is great with anatomy. He can made amazing works of art with so many layers that it makes my vision blurry. Or I just need glasses. Anyways, Zachary is always fun to check up on. I love seeing new art and this artist’s happiness generally makes me happy. I can only wish him the best, and hope that he doesn’t let anything bring him down. His OCs are awesome looking, and from what I’ve read about their personalities they’re really creative and cool. I wish him the best in life, because in my opinion, he deserves it. Zachary, from what I’ve seen, really is a sweetheart. I think that others who admire him like I do will agree. I hope one day I’ll be able to draw bodies similar to how he does. I don’t want to be just like him art wise. I want to be able to envision what I want and draw it out like he does. Whenever I watch a speedpaint, I’m always baffled at how he creates his lineart. He can always get better. Everyone can. Still, you can tell that he puts a lot of time and effort into what he does. You can see the results of hard work and practice. Out of all the things I admire about Zachary, that’s probably the biggest one. Not only for him, but for all artists who do their best.

He’s a truly amazing artist, and this is my gift to him.


Let’s just set one thing straight,

I’m being forced to write in this stupid journal. Gramps said it will help us but honestly? What good is sitting on my butt and writing about my day gonna do? I don’t think it will benefit me at all. Do you wanna know something?

I think I’m fine. Perfectly fine. So what I get into trouble a lot? I’m not the one who starts the name calling. I’m not the one who spits at the other first. I don’t throw the first blow. They do. All of them.

I hate this city. I want to get out of it so badly but I’m stuck here. I’m just a kid after all. This city is just…I don’t know. I really want to do something with my life, not work in a store selling dishes.

“Cuphead is gonna be selling vases and pottery for the rest of his life.” Screw them.

And for the record, I don’t take Cuphead as an insult anymore. So suck on that.


You know you’ve found your platonic soul-mate when you quote Harry Potter to each other to make a point and help each other through tough times.

My “gay husband” (yes, that’s his official title): “This just sucks and it isn’t fair I have to deal with this.”

Me: “You’re right, but remember that Sirius Black spent 12 damn years in Azkaban and he was fucking innocent.  You’ve got this.”

GH: (after laughing for a full 5 minutes) “Well shit, when you put it that way, you’re right.”

20 minutes later into the conversation dealing with my issues…

Me: “I just have no idea how to do this or if this is the right thing to do.”

GH: “You know that tattoo on my back? Just like Dumbledore said, ‘We must choose between what is right and what is easy.’”

Me:  “Well fuck, when you put it that way I know what I have to do.”

Ladies and gentlemen, my life is really ruled by Harry Potter.

@therealjacksepticeye’s first video today hit so hard home 😓😭 So I felt like opening up a little bit.

I mean, I’m in university right now. I’m a second year English major who constantly fights against self doubt and depression. I wonder at least weekly how I managed to get in in the first place since there were 283 who applied and 51 got in and I often feel like I manage to do the most stupid mistakes in every assignment or when I’m supposed to talk. I don’t even know what I want to do in the future. And sometimes everything just feels so… meaningless. And I don’t know what to do. Like I would be stuck in a car on a cliff.

But the last time that I was really struggling with my mental health and pulled through it something just clicked. I started to enjoy the little things in life. Literally little, like how pretty a scenery can look for a split second when leaves are falling down perfectly or how good food tastes after a long day without eating or how good it actually feels to stay up late watching something and then sleeping as late as possible during the weekends.

Idk what the exact point of my rambling is, but what I’m trying to say is that everything that Jack said and what the game represents are on point. Things get better and easier and that sometimes the most important thing is to take a deep breath and try to see the best in every moment you are going through.

Tripping Over the Blue Line (38/45)

It’s a transition. That’s what Emma’s calling it. She’s transitioning from one team to another, from one coast to another and she’s definitely not worried. Nope. She’s fine. Really. She’s promised Mary Margaret ten times already. So she got fired. Whatever. She’s fine, ready to settle into life with the New York Rangers. She’s got a job to do. And she doesn’t care about Killian Jones, captain of the New York Rangers. At all.

He’s done. One more season and he’s a free agent and he’s out. It’s win or nothing for Killian. He’s going to win a Stanley Cup and then he’s going to stop being the face of the franchise and he’s going to go play for some other garbage team where his name won’t be used as puns in New York Post headlines. That’s the plan. And Emma Swan, director of New York Rangers community relations isn’t going to change that. At all.

They are both horrible liars.

Rating: Mature
Content Warnings: Swearing, eventual hockey-type violence
AN: I’d like to take this moment to apologize to all the sports teams I absolutely trash in this story. I have very strong feelings about my teams and even stronger feelings about not my teams and that’s probably obvious in every single word, but I care a lot about the New York Rangers. That being said, let’s trash on Pittsburgh some more. And have some in-game moments, which is always so much fun to write since that’s, you know, my job normally and I’m real proud of the actual game-play in this story. As always this is nothing if you guys don’t read it and even more nothing without @laurnorder, @beautiful-swan & @distant-rose (who is the real MVP and has listened to me this entire week during the week from absolute real-life hell). 
Also on Ao3, & tag’ed up on Tumblr

“You have to get up,” Emma mumbled, kicking back slightly.

“Nope,” Killian argued. “I’m not going.”

“You have to go. They’ll fine you otherwise. I can’t believe you guys didn’t leave yesterday, actually.”

“Trying to get rid of me, Swan?”

His arm tightened around her waist and his bed really was way more comfortable than hers, but he had to leave early and she needed to stay in the city and there’d been some sort of unspoken agreement about coming back to her apartment this series.

It was definitely athletic-based superstition.

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Far from Noise

“Everything, I think, does happen for a reason. Even the most horrible things in life, happen for a reason. Some people are taken from us way too soon but you know what? Maybe… Maybe they were needed elsewhere. Maybe, Maybe they were such a good person, that they were- that power was needed somewhere else? I dunno.” ~@therealjacksepticeye

When Jack said this, it really hit home for me. This whole game did. My mother passed away on November 11 and I thought that my life would just end there. There was no meaning anymore. My mother did almost everything and now that she was gone, I thought everything was meaningless. I’m not exactly a religious or spiritual person either, but I do definitely think that things happen for a reason. My mother was a good person, the type to help people if they needed money, a ride, or were homeless.

Jack, thank you so much for playing this game. It really helped me realize that everything has meaning and life is worth living even through tough times like this. It means so much to me. Thank you.

anonymous asked:

Hello,, sorry for disturbing! Can I ask you a question? You can ignore it but. I’m new to the fandom. I’m really ‘into’ louis, and I wanted to ask you, how do you see him? I mean his personality, as a person etc? I hope it’s okay to ask this. Since he’s a ‘real life’ person and I don’t know..I’m just really insecure about what I think, and I would love to know if my opinion on him is ‘true’ or most ‘common’ ? if I make sense. like I see him as someone insecure etc. those stuff like that...

hmmm i’d need like a 10 page essay to describe louis tbh i see him as someone who’s so full of /life/ like ofc he’s a celeb and you should keep in mind that we don’t know him personally but this is someone ive “seen grow up” for 7 years now, his personality is so vibrant, i see a pic of him smiling and just automatically have to smile like :’) he carries this aura around him which is so calming to me i cant even explain it gives me inner peace like ~few relax, he cares cares cares so much it’s incredible how much love he can fit in his tiny body, he’s fiercely protective, open to everyone welcoming yet closed off and careful in a smart way, hes quirky, funny and uplifting, and an absolute sunshine when he’s his happy self, like when you spend 30 mins of your time looking “deeper” than what the public gets to see what he’s gone/still goes through is just awful yet he manages to always think of others before himself he turns his own heartbreaks into something others can find strength in, he lets his songs tell his story, he saves lives, i see so many comments of people saying how he literally saved their life, he’s brave he’s /good/ he’s genuinely a good person he gives without asking anything back and cares for others when he feels sad and asks them not to mention anything to the public bc he could care less about publicity or needing a pat on the shoulder for it, he donated literal millions on charity, he notices, he’s the first to notice when people are uncomfortable and tries to make them feel at ease by making jokes and lifting the mood, he’s humble, always appreciative and thankful, he’s just…. genuinely a good person with a heart of gold, it’s interesting that you said ‘insecure’ because yes his confidence dropped immensely over the years and it had everything to do with how he was treated by the label and everyone around,some “fans” even, but he finds confidence from his fans and we find strength from him, it’s a real teamwork♥️

I think this is a little overdue but here we go.

My name is Telle Smith and I do vocals for this shitty little band called The Word Alive (don’t listen to me, look into us, we’re cool), I have a line with a jewelry company called Never Take It Off and that’s really cool too as well as a clothing line called Resist & Rebel. This is clearly just me telling you to support my businesses rather than an introduction, I’m sorry. I have a dog named Colby and she’s the light of my life so you’ll see her around a lot. I think that about wraps it up so hit me up at stoptheshakes and we can be best pals.

anonymous asked:

Oof I read your recent posts and i am here to tell you that you shouldn't overwork yourself if you don't want to but I'm only assuming- so :p I really love your art work though and I hope you continue what youre doing artpai! -some random

oh I never overwork myself. I just have so many ideas I wanna do and sometimes (all the time) I don’t get to them bUT EVENTUALLY!!!!!!! If I ever lose motivation it’s more like real life taking a toll on me and I’m just like -stares at blank canvas- hah wow this is my BEST PIECE EVER!!! 

and then I just set it aside for a while and binge watch animatics with my wife and then I’m p good to go again (like now at 1:03AM) – 


anonymous asked:

What do you wanna do w/ ur life? Career wise xx

currently, what i’m planning to do is industrial design. is that what i want to do with my life? idk. there’s a lot of cool careers out there that are really difficult to truly succeed in. i’d like to be in a band. i’d like to get on the great british baking show despite me not being british. i’d like to be an artsy movie director. or a screen writer. so weird how it somehow seems to late to do any of that despite only being 18. i guess cause i don’t have an unlimited amount of $$$

anonymous asked:

I'd love if you did more creepy Pokemon entries

I’ve been meaning to write a post on this, but I might as well do so now so I can still answer your message and explain what’s going on.

Things have been rather awful lately. In the past couple of weeks, I’ve experienced some of the most horrible days of my life, and the worst of it is only a matter of time. I’m grateful to my followers, and I really enjoy running this blog. I love Pokemon, the fandom is great, and I appreciate that you enjoy my edits and would like to see more. I just don’t have the desire or energy to partake in anything related to tumblr or fandom in general. I’m not deleting my blog, so for now I’ll just put it on hiatus. 

Thank you for understanding.

anonymous asked:

Hi, so i'm new to christian witchcraft, but i've been interested in it all my life, and i actually have two questions. If i have to make a spell do i always have to cast a circle? And the other question is since i don't intend to do any fortune telling how can i use my tarot deck? i mean what kind of questions can i ask? Thank you so much, i really love your blog.

You dont always have to cast a circle. If you are doing something thats really opening you up to outside things..then its best to cast circle for protection. But you dont have to do it every time.

Tarot decks are based on major and minor parts of your life. Though they can be used for future divination they arent made for it. The future can change to easily for a solid fortune on that. SO..they are GREAT for letting your subconscious open up and talk to you..not to mention a great way for God to speak to you. Alot of times we get caught up in a moment and cant see anything but one the Tarot cards can help show you a different perspective.

anonymous asked:

Okay so um...I've been friends with someone for a really long time. like, since 2nd grade. in 3rd grade we moved away from each other to different provinces and ever since then we've kind of drifted apart. it's years later now and our friendship has become toxic. she always wants me to be texting her and she's suicidal and self harms and is depressed, but due to recent events in my life I'm extremely depressed aswell. I've tried to help and I know I can't. after a fight we stopped talking (1)

“and we’ve started taking again. it started off okay but after a while it just turned back to her only taking about herself being depressed and suicidal. she only talks about herself and I don’t know what to do anymore, but I really can’t take her on, on top of what I already have going on. (2)”

Honestly nonnie, friendship is like a team. A partnership. If one of you falls down, you help the other up in their time of need. It’s a two way street. If she refuses to think about how much it’s taking that much of a toll on you, then that shows she doesn’t care about your feelings. I think t’s called something like Emotional Consent. Not everyone can handle the emotional toll of these things. Now, I can’t tell you what to do, but if she can’t understand that, then what’s the point of being friends? 💗

anonymous asked:

I'm confused. If your name isn't Takara or Phoenix then what is it?


Now I’m confused.

You can’t tell me you… use your real name in your usernames? ôô I’ve literally never met someone who does that… *blinks doe-eyed*

And. Uh. Yeah, no, sorry, but I’m not just randomly posting my real name. ^^° I do like to keep my fandom life on here separate from my real life. Not to mention I really fucking hate my first name, which is literally why I enjoy the fact that *I* get to pick my own username. ;)


1. Name, Age, Country?

fannie, 21, hungary

2. Appearance?

this is meeeeeeee

3. Hobbies?

i really love reading and dancing tho i havent been to a class in a long time :(

4. What is your dream job?

something to do with travelling or it would be nice to be a writer but that’s like… maybe in my next life

5. What kind of shit would we find in your bag?

idk my bag is usually pretty much empty except for my wallet and a book?? i know, not very lady-like but i always forget to put actual useful things in it

6. How would you describe your personality?

ugh i dont know this is hard to answer… i mean a try to be kind to everyone and make them happy but at the same time im just like… leave me alone pls. but tell me about your passion and dreams!! cause those things fuel me. lol I told you I cant answer this

7. When did you find Jack’s channel?

almost a year now ! it was in december last year, i was watching felixs last guardian lets play and jack was in the recommended section and i fell in love immediately

8. Put in order your top 3 favourite Egos!

anti, robbie, jackieboy man

9. Favourite/ most nostalgic video/series of Jack’s to watch?

definitely the last guardian, for obvious reasons, but i really love night in the woods cause of the voices!! oh, and the lost legacy!!

10. Would you describe yourself as an active member or a quiet member of the community?

i try to be active and make gifs here and there but i think im a quiet one mostly

im so lucky to have met the love of my life so young. and although I can’t be with her for many more years I wait everyday for the day I can see them.

please babe, don’t hurt yourself.

please peach, love yourself.

please babydoll, eat up.

please my love, never leave me.

I dont know what id do or how id live with myself.

hold me.

kiss me.

tell me im pretty.

and I’ll do this same for you.

I miss you and im talking to you.

I really love you lots.

and I hope you love me as much too.

take care of yourself.

you deserve it.


( @lucifur22 )