is this really what i do with my life

I’m 25 years old today🌻
Quarter of a century, half way to 50 🙈😳….crazy! The last few year have flown by in what feels like a blink, yet so much has happened and I feel like a completely different human compared to when I was 20. It’s taught me years really do go quicker the older you get AND anything can happen, everything can change. If you attract it and work at it ✨ The older I get the better I feel not only physical but mentally (hope it stays that way 😂)..Feeling thankful for my life experiences that have lead me to this point and for 25 years on this beautiful planet 🙏💛

Why You Should Play Tabletop Role Playing Games or: How I Opened Up And Became A Better Person By Playing Pretend Superheroes

The podcast I do with my friends, @rolltobreathe​ , has become a huge part of my life and a very important thing for me. Tabletop Role Playing Games are fun and engaging and challenging and bring people together and they’ve made me a better person. They are Important.

I never really roleplayed.

I can’t remember a time where I didn’t know what Dungeons & Dragons was. I always knew that it was the Extremely Nerdy Thing that only Extreme Nerds play. A handful of dorks in a basement all around a table rolling dice and shouting spells. Why would anyone ever play that?? Board games are just shitty versions of video games. Maybe it would have appealed to me more if I really understood roleplaying, but aside from the couple of times I entered a Yahoo IM Roleplay Chatroom as a young teen, I never really roleplayed.

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anonymous asked:

I personally don't ship CC so I'm clueless about that "their colors" thing, (tbh I've always though his relationship with M was real, but extremely toxic), and I hate reading into someone's sexuality so much, especially when they openly identify as a particular one, but Darren's pride post has me feeling some kind of way. I wonder if his color choice was intentional? Blue and pink are in both the bi and pan pride flags. Subtle and clever if that's the case.

Anon. I really try not to label Darren. That is something only he can do. I certainly have my opinion. But it’s just that. The only think I can say with certainty is -he’s not straight.

Many suspect Pan. Probably the prevailing theory. But we don’t know. Some just say ColferSexual:) in the end it doesn’t really matter. He has chosen to live his life with a male partner.

What we do know is blue and pink have consistently been colors identified with Chris and Darren. Chris is Blue. 💙 Darren is Pink. 💗So my guess is that is why he chose those two colors. It’s deliberate, something that remains consistent.

I cannot emphasis enough how proud I am of him for that post. We all know what’s happening in his life this weekend. And he once again rebelled. He once again spoke. And he did it loudly.

Louis, please don’t let anyone think you are not
good enough for anything. Please be aware that you changed, saved and helped a lot of lives since you became the star you are. You are an example of strenght, bravery and kindess, a big heart and an amazing personality that has the ability to make the world go crazy as soon as you breathe. Your fans ADORE you, anyone you work with falls in love with you after 10 seconds, you are a treasure and I love you so much I’d like to kick in the face everyone that drag you down in these years. I cannot even begin to define what you mean to me and the connection I feel to you and I am just a fan you will never know but the way you touched my life, anyone’s life really, is something that not a lot of people are able to do. You are amazing, talented, beautiful and GOOD. Please don’t you ever forget it. You deserve the world and you can bet anything you want we, your fans, are going to give it to you. 💙

I’m poly and my bf is mono. I recently caught feelings for a coworker and my bf is not happy about it. We’ve been together for 6 years and I don’t want to ruin that. Can I change to be mono? Maybe therapy? It’s killing me and I don’t know what to do.

There is no poly-to-mono conversion therapy, nor should there be. If you have an inherent ability and desire to love multiple people at once, well, that’s who you are.

You can’t really change your feelings, but what you can focus on is how you choose to act on those feelings. A lot of relationships - heck, a lot of adult life - requires you to not pursue every single fun, good-feeling thing.

While this isn’t exactly a core aspect of my identity, I frequently have feelings that make me want to skip work and lounge in the pool instead. But I choose not to act on those desires, because even though I want something, it doesn’t mean I want it badly enough to risk something very important to me, like my job and my ability to provide for myself and my family.

Sometimes I encounter a Very Rude Person and want to tell them to fuck right off, but if they are a guest of a friend of mine, I choose instead to be politely avoidant. My point is, it’s possible to have impulses and not act on them, or desires and not pursue them. In my experience, that’s a lot easier than simply trying to shut down the impulses and desires at the root.

I’m afraid it’s not going to end well if you just try to thinkify or therapize yourself out of being polyamorous - but you can manage and work the those feelings for your coworker in a way that prevents them from impacting this relationship that you cherish. You could choose to spend less time talking to said coworker, or try to ‘close the door’ to the part of your mind that sees him as a potential sexual/romantic option. It is okay to let yourself think “I want this, but not bad enough to pay what it costs.”

(Of course, if this becomes impossible and untenable, and not being able to express or live into your polyamorous self leads to misery and resentment, then you need to think about whether suppressing those desires long-term is healthy for you and your relationship or whether you need to make a different set of choices. But that’s not really what you asked.)

i’m a little slow on tumblr at the moment! there’s just so much going on this summer, biggest thing of all; i’m moving to my very first apartment! i’m so nervous but honestly i couldn’t be happier about it. i’ve waited so long to be able to move out on my own and now it’s finally happening! with that said, i’ve paused my patreon until later this summer/autumn, and the most work i will do until then will be finishing off my comission list.
but, if you’re still interested in what i’m up to you can follow both of my instagrams; @harteus where i post a little bit more in terms of sketches and stuff, and @feliciawahlstroem where i put my personal stuff! i write in swedish sometimes though!

and if you want more cat pictures in your life you can go ahead and follow me on snapchat; @harteus

oh i also got this really lovely inspo blog here at tumblr named @camorr

if you want to check that out ⚘

thanks!!! 🌟


This summer I plan to improve myself in skills, education and health wise. I just don’t have the desire to be out with friends every single day not doing anything that will help my life. I’ll go out sometimes but that won’t be the theme of my summer. What are all your summer plans I’m really curious?

biryu13  asked:

First time I saw Kustard I was like, wh-what? Sans, no, when I tell you to love yourself man this isn't what... you know what, you do you man. I guess literally. Second time and onward my reaction was just like, yeah self perpetuating cuddle puddle. It grows on you.

This is exactly why I ship this so hard!!! Sans and Red just really hate themselves and only has bad things to say about themselves.but then theres this person that’s just their entire life and they love them so much who’s so much like them. They see the best things about themselves in each other and I just feel like their love helps them love themselves.

I have a lot of feelings about this ship

If you ever feel in that position where you feel like you know some stuff about some things or you’re really into something, never feel ashamed about actually talking about it. Talk all day about it! That’s your jam, own it!

Jacksepticeye-RYC Live #2

I’m glad Jack said this cause I’m really into things like tv shows, books, cartoons, video games, and YouTubers but whenever I talk about that stuff to people close to me in real life, I do tend to feel ashamed and that my interests don’t really matter. Cause I know that they’re either not into that stuff at all or if they are, it’s not to the same degree as me which is usually very passionately. That’s why I’m so active online cause I just want some people to talk to that actually understand me and are also passionate about what I’m into.


“The 20-year goal is to be a film director. The 15-year goal is to win an Oscar. The five-year goal is to just keep enjoying myself. I really am having the time of my life. But as far as my future goes, I want to stretch myself as an actor in a way that Jake Gyllenhaal, Leonardo DiCaprio, and Meryl Streep do. I don’t want to be stuck to one character. I think that’s what can happen when you take on a superhero movie. So every conversation I have with my agent is, “What have you got for me? What’s next? Who can I play?”

Sunday Rambling

Oh Tumblr, I’m sorry I’ve been neglecting you.  Real life has been challenging lately, and I only have so much energy.

But there have been blessings with those challenges, and one of them was a little required relaxation that helped me to examine my time management choices.  Time is precious, and there is so much to accomplish, so I can’t waste a moment of it.  So I am reorganizing (again, some more) my time and my goals.  Hopefully that will mean more time to write and engage with all my wonderful friends here in the Tumblr-verse.

RE-prioritizing is the name of the game right now.  What do I really want to get done?  What can wait?  What can be taken off my plate entirely?  What can I do to support the people in my life?  What can I do that brings me joy?  What can I stop doing that does not bring me joy?

I hope you’re all having a wonderful Sunday, and that your blessings outweigh your challenges. ♥♥♥

anonymous asked:

Jane, it's very difficult for me condense my perspective on things such as psychology in a way that you understand (and in such limited space), or in a manner that maintains my empathy and sympathy towards you. From the bottom of my heart, schadenfreude and retribution don't help you or the causes you care about, even if what you do is as simple as a passing sardonic joke. Seriously, I think you have a progressive life in many ways, and I really don't want you to fall victim to your amygdala.

What the fuck did you just fucking say about me, you little bitch? I’ll have you know I graduated top of my class in the Navy Seals, and I’ve been involved in numerous secret raids on Al-Quaeda, and I have over 300 confirmed kills. I am trained in gorilla warfare and I’m the top sniper in the entire US armed forces. You are nothing to me but just another target. I will wipe you the fuck out with precision the likes of which has never been seen before on this Earth, mark my fucking words. You think you can get away with saying that shit to me over the Internet? Think again, fucker. As we speak I am contacting my secret network of spies across the USA and your IP is being traced right now so you better prepare for the storm, maggot. The storm that wipes out the pathetic little thing you call your life. You’re fucking dead, kid. I can be anywhere, anytime, and I can kill you in over seven hundred ways, and that’s just with my bare hands. Not only am I extensively trained in unarmed combat, but I have access to the entire arsenal of the United States Marine Corps and I will use it to its full extent to wipe your miserable ass off the face of the continent, you little shit. If only you could have known what unholy retribution your little “clever” comment was about to bring down upon you, maybe you would have held your fucking tongue. But you couldn’t, you didn’t, and now you’re paying the price, you goddamn idiot. I will shit fury all over you and you will drown in it. You’re fucking dead, kiddo.

anonymous asked:

Do you think creating a career on social media is kinda trivial? Like ultimately all you are doing is promoting superficial things and getting paid by companies. Isn't there more to life, doing something more fulfilling? no hate just wondering what your perspective is. Love you xx

When you look at it in that perspective then yea it seems fake and superficial and it is really but from my perspective this career would allow me to travel, to interact and connect with others and to share messages I care about ya feel. Like there’s positives and negatives to every job.

i really feel like deleting everything from all of my social media and just restart because im. not content with who i am like i dont know who this is my body doesn’t feel like mine i dont know how i want to present myself in real life or even online
all i know is that people do not care and thats why what im doing with myself doesn’t really matter because no one will notice any change or if i were to delete everything

anonymous asked:

your poetry is not very good

Yet you still waste you time reading them and then actually going onto my asks to go say they aren’t good? Is that REALLY what you want to do with your life? But by all means please do tell why they aren’t very good so that I can ‘improve’ them :) mean I’m not going to listen, but since you like wasting time ❤️❤️

How would boys study ?

During this exams period, it is time to be a little more serious (or not) than usual and close the door to have a date with some syllabi… How boys would study ? 

It is a request from @supersweetpinkcandyposts​.

Does some of you are still in exam ? I finished mine one week ago, and now I discover what it is to be free again and find back my social life. It is weird. 

When they remember it will begin (who recognize himself ?)

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anonymous asked:

hi I need advice, you don't have to answer if you don't want to either, but I'm 16 and I have never really been in a relationship with anyone, kissed anyone or done anything really "romantic" or anything 16 year olds are supposed to do. Is that odd/abnormal. I feel like I'm missing out on my life because I'm not doing these types of things and I want to but no one where I live really likes to date people of color (I literally live near all racists) what should I do? ❤️❤️

Hun, that is 100% normal. Just because you’re 16, doesn’t mean you should be experienced or whatnot. That’s just a societal norm put on 16 year olds in the western world. My advice is to be patient because you will one day find a partner that loves you for you. And fuck those racists. You deserve better so don’t even think twice about them not dating you because of the color of your skin. They prolly don’t season their chicken. Love ya ❤