is there a way to deal with him when he does this

anonymous asked:

Beppi x baroness von bon bon headcanon

Beppi the Clown/Baroness Von Bon Bon would be so cute together!!! Beppi would always joke around with Baroness, and sort of act like a Jester!!! Beppi would always try to make her laugh when her anger got the best of her!!! They love each other very much!!! Baroness would protect Beppi way too intensely because he is fragile and she does not want him to get hurt!!!

lost cause {s.r}

summary: the reader sends nudes to steve when he’s at work and he becomes a flustered little shit
pairing(s): steve rogers x reader 
listen to: movement - us (trust me, the song makes it a lit reading experience)
word count: 2.8k
warning(s): UNPROTECTED SEX (wrap it before you tap it kids!), dirty talk, language
notes: i tried something a little different and wrote in 3rd person. idk what you guys prefer so just lmk :) also, writing this made me feel some type of way. hope you enjoy!

The first one comes at two o’clock. 

Steve is walking down the hallway with Bucky in tow, both sweaty from their workout in the training facility. Lunch is at the forefront of their minds and they are throwing suggestions back and forth as they amble up to their rooms. Showers are a definite necessity. When the soft ping of an incoming text rings through the hall, Steve pulls his phone out and glances down at the screen. 

The 21st century still confuses the hell out of him, sometimes, but he has at least some technological proficiency, and when he sees who has texted him he stops walking. (Y/N) never texts him in the middle of the afternoon. Bucky glances over at him with a raised eyebrow. “What is it?” he asks, hands in his pockets as he watches his friend.

Steve purses his mouth, “It’s from (Y/N).  I’ll look at it later.” Conversations with his fairly long term girlfriend usually last a while. She likes to tell him what she’s up to at the hospital where she works, and he likes to hear her stories. It’s surprising, how much drama a hospital setting can incur. 

Bucky gives him an almost cringing look, “Are you sure that’s a good idea? Dames don’t like being ignored.” 

Steve laughs. So much has changed, in the world and between them, and yet here they are. Bucky’s still giving him relationship advice and Steve is still treading with so much uncertainty around dating. “Women aren’t the same as they used to be, Buck,” he says. 

Bucky just smirks and rolls his eyes, “The women didn’t change, Steve; they just got empowered.” They don’t say anything more on the subject though, and when Steve returns to his suite he tosses his phone on the bed and goes for a shower, almost forgetting about the unopened text entirely. But by the time he comes out of the bathroom, towel wrapped around his waist and steam billowing behind him, Bucky’s words come back to bite him in the ass. He sits on the edge of the bed and glances at his phone, only to see that there are two more texts. A jolt of worry suddenly hits him at that – perhaps he should have opened the original one the moment he got it instead of taking his shower first.  

What if something’s happened at the hospital and (Y/N) needs him? He grabs his phone and opens the texts without a second thought…only to start coughing the moment they load. He hadn’t been expecting this.

Stockinged legs stretch out on the screen. Her ankles are crossed and vibrant red heels are on display. There’s so much leg that Steve feels his face redden as he stares. If she’d taken the picture any higher…“Oh God,” he mumbles, and looks at the message beneath the picture.

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All I Want For Christmas

In which it’s Christmas time, and Harry can’t help falling for the girl who helps him shop for gifts. 

A/N: THE CHRISTMAS ONESHOT IS HERE! I’m sorry I didn’t get this out yesterday like I originally planned, but I figured better late than never right?!  Enjoy, my loves, and Merry Christmas!!! xx

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Go See ‘Call Me by Your Name’

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The film is beautiful in every sense of the word and as both actors have put it, is an earnest story of first love, coming of age, vulnerability, sexual awakening, and so much more

I’m aching to see Call Me by Your Name again (update: I have). I am so enamored by the screenplay, the direction, the cinematography, the soundtrack, but most of all the actors. All of them are marvelous in their roles but the dynamic between Armie (Oliver) and Timothée (Elio) as well as the way Michael (Mr. Perlman) and Amira (Annella) carried themselves, just unf, so fucking good.

The acting in this film has so many levels, from Timothée Chalamet’s emotional rawness to Armie Hammer’s control of tone and nuanced facial expressions to the final monologue performed by Michael Stuhlbarg.

It was so refreshing and captivating to watch all of the characters interact with one another. I honestly don’t believe the film would be what it is without the cast. They delivered the story of Call Me by Your Name by André Aciman in ways that far exceeded my expectations. There are parts of the film that differ from the novel but I kind of appreciate Luca Guadagnino’s & James Ivory’s decisions to have the film stand apart from being an exact retelling of the novel.

There are dozens of scenes from this film that are memorable, that made me bite my lower lip, that made my heart ache. Moments where I laughed unexpectedly and felt safe, and moments where I felt like I was reliving a vulnerable experience.

I love films that can do this to me despite the emotional and psychological toll they can have.They delivered the story of Call Me by Your Name by André Aciman in ways that far exceeded my expectations (having read the novel and not being a fan of it almost a decade ago). There are parts of the film that differ from the novel but I kind of appreciate Luca Guadagnino’s & James Ivory’s decisions to have the film stand apart from being an exact retelling of the novel. 

There are dozens of scenes from this film that are memorable, that made me bite my lower lip, that made my heart ache. Moments where I laughed unexpectedly and felt safe, and moments where I felt like I was reliving a vulnerable experience.

I love films that can do this to me despite the emotional and psychological toll they can have.

Aftermath of the Peach 

This scene stood out because the film ‘went there’ but it’s also where Elio goes through an array of emotions: being aroused to feeling embarrassed to feeling ashamed and there’s that word again, left vulnerable in front of Oliver. What I love about this scene is that Oliver immediately understands and stops joking around, embraces him, and then holds him. 

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It was such a beautiful and tender scene and one that resonates with me strongly, for having lived moments where I was that vulnerable and my lover at the time held me but also because it made me remember the times where I didn’t have anyone or the person I wanted to make me feel safe didn’t and I was forced to deal with feeling raw by myself.

This is something the film constantly has me doing: remembering moments where my expectations were met and weren’t. Having me sway back and forth between content and melancholy, and where that might sound like torment, I appreciate the effect the film has on me.

Elio’s Spot

Another phenomenal scene where Chalamet’s ability to be a vulnerable and portray a sentiment we all can understand and even appreciate is when the two are in Elio’s secret spot, standing in the cool waters of the spring and this dialogue occurs:

I am notorious for downplaying compliments, it’s an awful habit, and the way this scene was shot and acted just had me nodding my head.  I haven’t resonated so closely with a character in so long that having it played in front of me I found myself completely stunned and in awe.

That Cheesy Moment

Of course I’d mention this scene where Oliver, with his hand on Elio’s face, whispers: “Call me by your name and I’ll call you by mine.

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I distinctly remember my face scowling and rolling my eyes whenever I saw this clip play in the trailer. A tiny but commanding voice in my head going, “Ugh, cheesy”, but the build up to this scene and having it finally unravel I found myself blushing. I could feel myself turn pink with excitement and my jaded self eroding away to allow for beautiful and romantic moments to happen without scorn.

Like, getting real with y’all here, but I can’t find the words to perfectly explain the importance and beauty of this scene but know that it’s so much more intense than what the trailers show.

The way Eroticism is portrayed

One criticism the film receives is that there isn’t a full-on sex scene and not going to lie, where it’d be nice, I’m relieved. I’m glad there isn’t a full-on scene where one of them has their legs up in the air and the other is thrusting and grunting. Why? Because they handled it so much better, far better than a sex scene would’ve been.

A good chunk of the novel, and the film, revolves around nuances and subtlety in both the way Elio and Oliver speak to one another but also the way in which they touch one another. 

Here’s some examples…

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I find all these moments where the two are stealing glances at one another, finding excuses to be close, or even touch to be some of the most erotic moments of the entire film. These scenes aren’t trying to be sexy, they just are and they leave the viewer feeling intoxicated, eager to see what happens next.

There’s one particular moment, just before the two have sex (off-camera), that just shows Luca knows what the fuck he’s doing as a director.

Elio and Oliver are sitting next to each other on a bed, both of them not entirely sure how to go about this. Slowly Elio moves his foot on top of Oliver’s, to which he responds, “What are you doing?” and a nervous Elio bashfully laughs “Nothing…” We then see Oliver move his other foot on top of Elio’s and plays with his toes while asking him, “Does this make you happy? You aren’t going to have a nosebleed are you?” which breaks the tension and eases Elio’s nerves.

When this scene played out I was astonished by how cute, intimate, but more importantly suspenseful and erotic the scene was. You could feel the sexual tension between the two in your own bones and I can remember my heart beating faster with anticipation, a lump in my throat as I began to live vicariously through the characters.

It’s a perfect example of how you don’t need a sex scene to convey love.

The Train Scene

It’s sad. It’s the moment where Elio sees Oliver off and there are little to no words exchanged between the two and that’s what makes this scene memorable. So much is said through gestures and facial expressions from both Armie and Timothée, they don’t need to say the words to convey what they feel because it’s understood. [Fun Fact: If you read the screen play, it’s written that Oliver recites the lyrics to “Love My Way” by The Psychedelic Furs]

And damn it, I just fucking can’t get over the scene immediately after. Elio sitting at the bench, just before he gets up, he lets out a breath and does his best not to cry. He then goes to the phone booth and calls home, where he talks to his mother and during this his tone falters while he says, “Listen, Mom, can you…can you come get me, Mom?” Oh my heart, it ached so much, I wanted to reach out and hold him. And the momentum of this scene continues, where it cuts to Annella driving Elio home and Elio, with puffy eyes and a look of utter heartbreak and sorrow.

You can watch this scene here: 

I loved how this was scene was filmed, how Amira Casar composed herself as Annella and comforted her son. She didn’t ask questions or scold him to “man up,” she smoked a cigarette and drove all while letting her son mourn Oliver’s departure. 

Mr. Perlman’s Monologue

Remember, our hearts and our bodies are given to us only once. And before you know it, your heart is worn out, and, as for your body, there comes a point when no one looks at it, much less wants to come near it.

Right now, there is sorrow, pain. Don’t kill it.

Embrace it with the joy you’ve felt.

I’d be doing everyone a disservice if I didn’t mention the final monologue given by Michael Stuhlbarg. It’s in this moment where the audience realizes that the parents, or at least Mr. Perlman, was aware of the relationship between Elio and Oliver. This is so powerful and so meaningful, in this scene Mr. Perlman doesn’t pass judgment but just tries to comfort his son with some words of wisdom.

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The delivery from Stuhlbarg is breathtaking and oscar-worthy. In interviews, Stuhlbarg talks about how the film and its message resonated with him as a parent: “One of the sentiments that I love most strongly is the idea that as humans, we go through all sorts of things, and how lovely for a parent to say, ‘I see what you’re going through, and as hard as it may be, don’t crush it or try to ignore it.’” [see the full interview on

So it’s no surprise that in this final speech to Elio that every word that comes out of Stuhlbarg is with intent and carefully placed to really drive home that Mr. Perlman cares for his son, realizes his son just went through first love, and doesn’t want him to do what everyone else does when they meet heartbreak.

The Ending Credits

It’s the winter after Oliver left and Elio gets a surprise call from Oliver. They catch up, where Oliver tells that he’s getting married next spring. Moments after Elio is whispering into the phone, “Elio, Elio, Elio, Elio, Elio…” to which Oliver responds, “Oliver…I remember everything.”

The film then cuts to Elio sitting over a fireplace, his mother setting the table for dinner, and the ending credits begin to play, leaving viewers to watch Elio go through wave after wave of memories and the emotions they bring.

The film ends about 40-pages before the novel does and they changed the way in which Elio finds out. In the novel Oliver returns to tell the Perlmans in-person of his engagement while here we see the exchange happen over a phone call and to be honest, the way Luca handled it makes me love the way the film ends.

There aren’t many films that have memorable or beautiful ending credits and this one takes the cake. It’s artistic and so carefully acted and edited. On top of that, they picked a perfect song to play alongside: “Visions of Gideon” by Sufjan Stevens. I mean, just look at the first verse:

I have loved you for the last time
Is it a video? Is it a video?
I have touched you for the last time
Is it a video? Is it a video?

It’s a perfect combination and heightens the film’s ending.

On how I love and hate Sufjan Stevens

Which brings me to my next point: Sufjan Stevens. He has three songs that play throughout the movie: Futile DevicesMystery of Love, and Visions of Gideon. And honestly if you wanted a playlist that summarizes the film, there you go. The songs couldn’t have been a coincidence for the film and with Luca as director, I highly doubt he didn’t have them in mind. 

I love Sufjan Stevens but I also hate him because there’s few artists that leave me crippled wallowing in despair. His music is tragically beautiful in every note and verse, that I’m not surprised that some of the happiest and tragic moments of my life had a Sufjan Stevens song close by. 

Don’t get me wrong, the soundtrack to Call Me by Your Name is outstanding. So much so that I’ve been listening to it on repeat for the past week almost every day, even at work. [Check it out on Spotify]

Last Words

I’m likely going to pick up the novel again and give it a second-go, if I loved the film this much as a 28 year-old, perhaps where I’m at now will let me appreciate Aciman’s work.

There’s so much more I can say and probably will, but this is the majority of what I wanted to say. The film is beautiful and I will be rooting for it come Oscar time, for it not to win an Oscar would be just blasphemy in the highest degree.

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break the ice, 2

Pairing:  Jungkook x Reader x Jimin
Genre: Sports AU, hockey players Jungkook & Jimin, smut, comedy, fluff!!!
Warnings: Dom!Jimin. Switch!Jungkook. Sub!Reader. Threesome (there’s mxm so…). Voyeurism. Thigh riding. Degradation. Overstimulation. Edging. Oral sex. Breath Play. Spanking. Ass play and anal sex. Slight Cumplay and Cum-eating. Squirting. I think that’s it? : )
Word Count:  27k

There are three rules to become an official Puck Bunny:
1.     You have to love hockey. No exceptions.
2.     You have to had slept with at least three hockey players. Starters, no benchwarmers.
3.     And most importantly, have fun!

01 | 02 (finale)

author’s note: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i’m sorry… also huge thank you to 3S for proofreading this and always cheering on my messy ideas :’) ily!!!  

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more thoughts on luke’s portrayal in that flashback

one thing that’s bothering me about luke’s portrayal in the last jedi - and specifically the scene with kylo ren in the flashback - has to do with the fact that luke is not a cinnamon roll and never has been. given that, this movie isn’t just a departure from the sweet farmboy who grew up to be a jedi. it’s a change in how luke responds to the temptation of the dark side.

luke is certainly that farmboy, but he’s not just that. he is tempted by the dark side multiple times in the original trilogy and gives in to anger and revenge multiple times as well. however, this means we have evidence of what luke is like when he’s tempted by the dark side. make no mistake, that’s what the flashback scene with kylo ren is about. examples of luke being tempted by the dark side in the original trilogy include: the cave, taking vader’s bait at cloud city for the duel, the scenes at jabba’s palace, and lastly, the throne room scene. 

given that we have seen what luke looks like when he is angry or when he is tempted by the dark side, tlj’s interpretation is even weaker and sloppier in its handling of luke and kylo ren’s backstory.

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 Min Yoongi, Suga, AgustD, Genius, Producer, BTS Rap Line.

  The coolest member of BTS also known as savage Suga, Genius. Suga is a contradiction, considered the laziest member, you can see him mostly sleeping, but he’s also the one that stays up all night, writing a song per day, known as one of the most hardworking members. He can be sarcastic af, savage, sassy, an asshole but he is also the one whose smile and aegyo can light up your whole world. Always saying words of encouragement to his Army and sending hearts, things you don’t usually expect from a person like him. 

  Members of the group have mentioned that Suga does around 200-300 songs a year and I am telling you guys that’s a lot of work. Can you imagine that there are artists that struggle to find inspiration to write a song once at (let’s say) 6 months and he is writing maybe a song in 2 days. How can you not call him a genius and appreciate him for that?

   As many of you might know, Suga had to deal with mental illness. I am telling you this because it was really hard in the beginning of their debut and before that. His parents never supported his dreams and the fact that he choosed music. It’s hard to not have the people you most care about support your dreams. But here he is, standing tall, getting an award as a producer, getting many awards as part of BTS, working everyday to make his dreams come true and still loving his family and writing songs about them. You have to appreciate a soul that stays as beautiful inside as Suga is after going through so many hardships.

  Yoongi doesn’t put with anyones shit. If he doesn’t want to do something he won’t do it. Why am I mentioning this? Because I see it as something to be appreciated for. As a person that has worked so hard to get where he is, as a person that did this on his own, emotionally, mentally and physically you learn to know your value. He’s not FULLY aware of his value yet as you guys might’ve noticed when he received his award. This gives him and gives you the chance to see that this “savage”, “cold hearted” guy i’s still a very humble person. To be a genius and still stay humble is one in a million. 

  All Suga wants is to do music, to produce. As any person would, he wants to be appreciated for it. I’m telling you this because “fame” it’s not his target. That’s not his dream, that’s not his purpose in life. Being able to make music, to produce and to express his thoughts through his art, that is his dream and I deeply appreciate him for that. 

  BTS members said that Suga is an inspiration for them, he motivates them to keep going just by seeing him working so hard but also he’s encouraging them with words.

  Suga is also one of the sweetest things on earth, have you guys seen his smile? He didn’t used to smile as much as he does now as many of you might’ve noticed. Even members said that he’s not really the type to express his emotions, but on stage Suga is a different person now. We’ve seen him smile, we’ve seen him cry, we’ve seen him sending hearts and honestly I feel so proud of his development. He’s still the same Suga, but with an emotional upgrade and I appreciate him so much for that. I personally know how hard it is to be a “tough” person and become emotional in front of people and for him it must be way harder cuz it’s not just a few people but millions. And he did it for ARMY and he’s grateful to ARMY for where he is now and that’s a beautiful thing.

  Yoongi is the one telling you through his art, his lyrics, his story to not give up on your dreams. Work hard and work everyday for your dream and people will appreciate you for that. All that matters is that what you do, what you achieve makes you happy and makes people around you happy. What you do should inspire people, should make people feel good about themselves, should make the world aware that there’s good and bad but what matters the most is that you see the good in everything. Do not try to live up to people’s expectations, you live up to to your own expectations and overcome them on your own cuz you are strong and you’re enough. Appreciate people around you, even the ones who don’t believe in you cuz that would also be your motivation to keep going.

  This one here is Suga, Agust D, Min Yoongi, genius, inspiration, workaholic, savage, humble, loving, producer, a paradox that makes you change your life in nothing else but good. 

Reasons to appreciate Jin, J-Hope, RM, Jimin, Taehyung

an incomplete list of my favorite things in CALL ME BY YOUR NAME

  • that scene where elio is moody as hell and switches from italian to french to english in the span of like half a minute
  • oliver’s soft laughter whenever elio does something he likes/something that surprises him
  • in fact, oliver’s entire shift in attitude when he’s around elio, the way he becomes less and less guarded over time and drops his macho bullshit
  • “off and off and off and off”
  • for all that we joke about it, the peach scene was one of the most incredible and emotionally raw scenes i’ve ever seen on film and i love it to bits
  • ANNELLA. i loved everything about amira casar’s performance and she obviously knows about elio and oliver and she’s just so??? great???
  • mr perlman in that dinner scene leading up to the nosebleed, his face is fucking priceless
  • “what time is it?” aka oliver being A Little Shit
  • the way timothée portrays elio’s restlessness, especially when he’s lying in bed
  • and everything else timothée does in this movie. just give him the oscar now and be done with it.
  • oliver dealing with being shown kindness by letting himself fall in the pool is the most relatable thing tbh
  • the credits. timothée’s performance is out of this world, but on top of that, it’s also such a great way to let the audience sit with everything we’ve just seen and it creates a natural connection between what elio is feeling and what the audience is feeling and i just really love that a lot
  • marzia is an angel and elio doesn’t deserve her
  • elio climbing oliver like a tree every chance he gets
  • THE SPEECH. i don’t think i’ll ever get through that one without crying
  • that whole montage of bergamo was pure Queer Joy and i’m still weepy about it
  • the train station scene killed me

The one where it’s y/n’s first time. Enjoy :) xx


You opened your eyes, Harry hovering over you. He was propped up on his hands, holding his weight over you carefully, his hips in the space between your legs. His skin was warm to the touch against yours, the tops of his thighs resting against the backs of yours. Small breaths puffed out from his nose, so soft that if it wasn’t silent save for the rain lightly tapping at the window, you wouldn’t have heard them at all. 

His eyes were warm as he took you in – the way your rosy cheeks burned, giving you an angelic look, how your lips were parted just enough to take in a tiny breath (they were very pink too…), and how your doe-like eyes stared back longingly up at him. Harry couldn’t quite figure out the emotion panning out over your features. 

You looked blissful but with the slightest hint of fear… Maybe it was anticipation, maybe it was lust – he couldn’t quite get it. 

The room around you was soft as the both of you sat there, nearly frozen in time. The constant lull of rain drops running down the window, the yellow-glow of a small lamp turned on at the side of your bed, your pink walls from when you were eleven years old (that you were much too embarrassed to acknowledge now) creating a warm embrace around your bodies – it felt right.


“Hey,” Harry started again, brushing a piece of hair from your forehead when you didn’t respond earlier. “Are you sure? We don’t –.”

“No,” was all you could muster up, the single word almost caught in your throat as it fell from your lips in a hurried whisper. 

Bringing your hand up to his chin, you caressed his cheek, jaw firm in your grim. He stayed still, letting you explore with your fingers, letting you grow more comfortable. 

You held his face, fingers cupping under his cheek, thumb over his lips. Harry parted his lips just slightly, taking your thumb in his mouth with a soft kiss. He suckled over it for a second, tongue sweeping gently over your thumb, before opening his mouth again, this time with the smallest of smirks.

“I want to,” you brought your hand back down to rest next to your naked body, “Promise.”

Harry nodded, looking down at himself, and back up to you, waiting for you to give the go-ahead. 

Taking a deep breath in, you closed your eyes again, trying to calm the nerves that had wound themselves up again inside your stomach. A kiss was pressed to your cheek, then down you jaw, and further over the skin of your neck. Your lips curled up into a grin, a small giggle muffled by your pursed lips. 


A nod from you sealed the deal – Harry held himself up on his elbows now, forehead just ghosting inches from yours, eyes focused on your face. 

Your eyes stayed closed as you felt him press forward and your neck arched back involuntarily the further he went. Harry felt you begin to squirm underneath him, as he rolled his hips forward again. You bit at your lip, out of pain or enjoyment, you weren’t quite sure of yet.

“C’mon, love,” Harry cooed at you, “Let me know how you’re feelin’. Please.”

He burned inside you, similarly to the way the words did in your mouth – it was almost as if you were paralyzed in that moment.

Where your words lacked, your hands made up for them in gripping at his shoulders, nails digging in as he continued to ease himself forward. It wasn’t long before Harry had started to build a rhythm of thrusts, all being gentle and utterly aware of how you were responding. Which, was now much more positively than before. 

Harry’s ears lit up at the sound of your first mewl as he rocked over you, helping him to refocus any and all of his energy into doing that again. 

“There we are,” he muttered into your ear, “S’tha’ better, hm? Doin’ so well for me, so well, baby girl.”

You nodded, crying out again as he grew more confident in his presses forward, stretching you in more ways than you knew possible. He leaned down to kiss you, your lips greedily taking his. The hunger behind your actions pulled a groan from Harry’s throat and he deepened the kiss with his tongue. 

You were all his.

Anticipation began to bubble up in your tummy as Harry worked you both up to your finishes, his moans coming more quickly now. 

“So bloody warm,” he groaned, “Wanna be wrapped up in you forever… Gonna fill you right up.”

He drove into you again, causing you to yell out. Harry’s thrusts stuttered as a rushed “Are you okay?” came from his mouth. 

“Yes, yes,” you threw your head back, “Don’t stop!”

Harry needed little invitation, and rode your hips deeper than any other time that night. The two of you were a tangled mess of limbs, your harsh breathing now covering up the noise of the rain as you chased the finish line that was surely coming soon. 

“M’close,” he panted, “Gonna cum with me, baby girl?”

“Mhm,” you nodded as your chest heaved, nearly exhausted at this point. 

“Good then,” Harry bent down to whisper in your ear, “Show me how good I made y’feel.”

You squeezed your eyes so tightly shut that you saw stars as your abdomen contracted and you clenched around Harry, milking him for all he was worth. His groans echoed around you, mixed with your never-ending moans and created a song that would have surely kept your neighbors up had they been home. 

The two of you laid there, catching your breath and relishing in the now-quiet of your bedroom. Harry was draped over your chest and you traced circles over his shoulder blades, goosebumps prickling up under your touch. 

Everything was back to normal again – the rain pattering against the window, your lap illuminating the corner of your room nearest your bed, the walls embarrassingly pink – except, now it felt different. 


And, Harry had filled you up, just as he’d promised.

omg those christmas aus - “i know we hate each other but it’s christmas eve and your flight was cancelled please come inside” or “drunken caroling” - or both?? for any set of characters you wish??

LATE LATE LATE snowed in christmas eve fic, idek what’s happening here but there are dogs!

It’s not that Stiles hates his neighbor. Sure, he’s a huge jerkface who wears leather jackets, douchy sunglasses and routinely tries to murder Stiles with his eyes. He calls Roscoe a hunk of garbage. He’s got a bombshell probably-girlfriend, Erica, who likes to snap her teeth at Stiles and call him Bambi. He once grabbed Stiles by the scruff of his neck and growled in his face about, uh, a missing newspaper or handprints on his Camaro or something—Stiles was definitely not too turned on to listen properly, and who drives a fucking Camaro in a place where it snows sixty percent of the year round?

But Stiles doesn’t hate him. He’s not sure he’s capable of hating someone that smoking hot. Not to mention the fact that he owns dogs. Plural.

Kira shrugs a little and says, “He’s nice to me.”

“Then why don’t you go ask him for a cup of milk,” Stiles says, staring morosely down at the empty jug.

“I’m not the one in desperate need of Lucky Charms. Also,” she swings her bag up onto her shoulder, “I’ve got a bus to catch.” Her grin is cheeky, but the way she trips over the rest of her luggage kind of ruins the effect.

Stiles sighs and says, “If you’d wait a couple days, I can just drive us both.” They’ve got three days until Christmas—plenty of time to drive the mere five hours back to Beacon Hills.

There’s a break in the mountain weather, though—wind chill holding steady at a balmy 21 degrees, the sun glare even making the snow melt into slick black ice for fun nighttime driving—and Kira’s not going to tempt fate.  Stiles wishes he could leave today too, if only to save him from having to ask Derek Fucking Hale for cereal milk. Unfortunately, he volunteered to take shifts right up until Christmas Eve, like an asshole. Ugh.

“The bus always smells like feet,” Stiles tries one last time.

Kira just cages his face in her hands and tugs him down for a forehead kiss.

Stiles slumps into her hold and says, “Tell Scott I love him.”

“Will do, peaches.” She bounces on the balls of her feet right out the front door, slips down the icy steps with a, “Crap, oops,”—Stiles holds his breath, arms out and legs locked, he wouldn’t get to her in time, anyway—and is caught by the strong, manly arms of Derek, who swoops in with nearly preternatural speed, Christ.

His dogs, Josh and Pongo, take advantage of the dropped leashes and wiggle their furry butts right up the front stoop to sniff at Stiles’s crotch and then make themselves at home on his sofa. They’re both doofy lab mixes that ruin Derek’s street cred by routinely eating paper towels and hacking them up on Stiles and Kira’s doorstep.

Derek says, “Are you okay?” with this deep eyebrow v of concern that makes Stiles want to puke.

He’s almost ninety percent sure Derek has an inappropriate crush on Kira, and that his probably-girlfriend approves.

The sad part is that Kira’s going to be moving home when her journalism internship at Hollow Moon Times is done with, but Stiles will still be stuck out in the boonies for the foreseeable future.

No matter what his dad says, he doesn’t see how being the under-sheriff of a sleepy little mountain town can give him real policing experience. While there’s a slim chance Moon’s Hollow is a hotbed of secret mayhem, Stiles was forced to arrest an overweight raccoon last month, and Tim Gareth seems to vandalize the Wolf’s Den pub’s singular bathroom regularly with forestry propaganda just so Kira can interview him.

Kira straightens up sprightly and says, “Oh, I’m fine! That was a total wipe out, thanks for catching me.” She pats Derek’s arm as he lets her go, his face completely flushed, either from the praise or the frigid wind. He’s probably thrilled to have his hands on Kira. Derek Hale has perfect complexion to go with his perfect lumberjack beard—the quality of it would be pretentious if they didn’t actually live on a mountain.

Stiles has basically been a wind-chapped tomato for the entire five months he’s been living here. He can’t grow even the tiniest bit of well-groomed scruff to save his life, so it’s either look like a patchy bum, wear a ski-mask, or hope that in five years he’ll have the weathered skin of an Alaskan bushman.

None of his options are appealing. He should adopt some Norwegian skincare regimens.

Derek glares over his shoulder at Stiles and whistles for Josh and Pongo, who ignore him in favor of licking the top of Stiles’s coffee table.

Stiles sighs and steps into his boots. He says, “Come on, assholes,” as he grabs his coat.

Pongo barks at him and then disappears into the kitchen.

Stiles jabs a finger at Josh, currently wriggling under Kira’s favorite afghan, and says, “You better not eat my TV remote again,” before pulling the door closed behind him.

Derek harrumphs. “What are you doing, Stiles?”

We are going to walk Kira down to the bus stop, and then you are going to give me a cup of milk, and we’ll call any damage your monsters do to my kitchen trashcan an even trade.”

Kira says, “I’m fine, though. But, uh,” she frowns down at her three bags, “some help would be great.”

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Ben and Rey: The Other Side of the Line

In The Last Jedi after Ben Solo turns on Snoke and kills him, and after he and Rey fight back to back to destroy the Praetorian guards, he turns to Rey and asks her to abandon the Resistance and everything she’s known and rule the galaxy with him. Rey, who boarded his ship with the single intent of getting him to turn back to the light, is heartbroken by this and begs him “not to go this way.” Both refuse to change their positions; she reaches for her lightsaber; so does he and after a brief struggle they are forcibly separated. Apart from a brief, important scene at the end, this is the last time we see them in the same frame. 

Ben’s Force!Darcy “let’s rule the galaxy together” proposal and Rey’s subsequent rejection is tragic and heartbreaking, but above all a PERFECT encapsulation of why romance can never override morality. And I don’t mean “shouldn’t”, I mean “cannot”. This scene proves beyond the shadow of a doubt that it is a literal impossibility. There is a line between Ben and Rey that is keeping them apart, and it is the line of morality, cold and hard and sharp-edged. And Ben and Rey’s arc, and this scene in particular, is about how that line cannot be ignored or crossed or blurred by feelings, however soft or deep they may be. And I love that so much. I love that this scene shows you very clearly the line of morality emerging out of the fire and softness of their emotions for each other, like iron, like cold truth, to separate them from each other until they’ve learned their ultimate lesson- how to deal with that line between them without pretending it isn’t there or that it can be circumvented or that it is anything less than the earth-shattering, life-shaping thing that it is.

Ben and Rey are equals and opposites on either side of a war, of the line between light or dark, essentially good and evil. When Ben is presented to the audience for the first time it is as Kylo Ren, the Villain to Rey’s hero, the Bad to her Good. The tension between them (and this is presented in The Force Awakens before it is expanded in The Last Jedi) comes from the fact that though they are on opposite sides of the moral line, there is an understanding and attraction there- humanly speaking and through the force, and that both of them know it. Kylo knows it, and because he’s on the side of the line that has no stake in respecting the boundaries the line represents but everything to gain by making people cross over it, he offers to train her. Rey knows it and, understanding that that line is the fundamental difference between love and hate, destruction and life, losing her soul and saving countless others, does her best to keep him out. He says, essentially, stay with me, and she responds by slashing his face open and leaving him to die in the cold.

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new year’s bliss ❖

Pairings: best friends to lovers!tom x reader

Warning(s)?: alcohol and a whole lotta cuteness

Word Count: 1.9k

Summary: Old feelings resurface when your best-friend-from-school-turned-famous-actor, Tom Holland, invites you to his New Year’s Party and you both see each other for the first time in years.

A/N: i have literally been having the worse case of writer’s block for the past few weeks/months but i’m back and better than ever here with a new imagine for you guys! hope u enjoy and i that’s so ravened and had a vision of a part 2 for this. that is if this doesn’t flop…


You and Tom Holland were best friends all throughout high school. You were a transfer student from the States so when you moved to the London School of Technology, Tom and you clicked pretty quickly. You both weren’t the coolest kids in school, so you and a couple other students banded together to form your own group.

And out of that group, you only still stayed in touch with one person, which wasn’t Tom. Right after high school, Tom’s focus was all about acting. Now that you think about it, it was probably around the time of Spider-Man auditions. And you were focused on packing up and leaving for university in New York and you didn’t really make room for each other in between like you should’ve. You tried but plans fell short; it was all just miscommunication.

So needless to say, you were pretty surprised when your phone buzzed on an early Saturday morning with a text from Tom inviting you to a small party he was having in New York. Not thinking much of it, you quickly replied to his text saying you would be there. Why not catch up with an old friend while he was in your city? At the moment, however, you weren’t thinking about the overwhelming feelings you’d had for Tom in high school, because they had died down once you two lost contact.

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- The one where Y/n is left at the altar and has a hard time dealing with her emotions


Y/n has alway been good at running away from her problems.

It’s something she’s become so used to—avoiding all the feelings and emotions that could tear her down and finding her way around them.

It’s a dangerous coping mechanism and she knows it. She’s been through this cycle more times than she can remember, and each time did they end with her being so full of emotion and so torn apart from the heartbreak that she’ll spend days—weeks, even—laying in the dark and locking all of her doors to avoid the outside world.

It’s gotten so bad that there have been times she hasn’t even communicated with anybody, leaving her friends and family begging on their knees by her locked doors just to get her to open up—both mentally and physically.

And they all could have been prevented if she wasn’t so afraid of letting her feelings get to her. But she hates it—god, how she hates being in a sensitive state of mind and her heart feeling so heavy that she forgets how to breathe. So, instead of letting herself feel all of that, she does anything and everything to ignore it.

She’ll teach herself new things, keep herself occupied at night so that she doesn’t have the time to fall asleep (because it was always then her thoughts caught up with her the most), and even will go so far as avoiding the people in her life that would make her talk about it.

But this heartbreak was the worst one yet.

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anonymous asked:

casual physical affection reddie- richie gets flustered when eddie is affectionate and all the losers notice except my dumb gay son

  • Personal space didn’t really seem to be a thing when it came to Richie. He was always touching the other losers: either he’d put an arm around their waist or shoulders; or he’d ruffle their hair; and he even held Eddie’s hand a few times when they were walking somewhere.
  • Eddie had to get used to this at first, but none of the losers ever said anything about it so Eddie assumed it was a perfectly normal thing to do between friends. From that moment on, Eddie started to initiate physical contact more and more.
  • If he sat down next to Richie, he’d casually rest his head on his shoulder or he’d put Richie’s arm around him if he was cold.
  • He didn’t notice that whenever he did this, Richie would completely forget what he was saying and start stuttering worse than Bill. Much to Bev and Stan’s amusement who were the first to catch on.
  • Whenever Eddie noticed an eyelash on Richie’s cheek or if there was some food left near his mouth, he’d reach up and wipe it off for him without asking.
  • “tuh-thanks, Eds.”
  • “No problem, Chee.”
  • (Eddie had decided that if Richie was going to keep calling him Eds, he would start calling him Chee to get back at him. It did not work, because Richie l o v e d it)
  • Eddie had made a habit of holding hands with Richie when he walked him home after hanging out together or with the other losers. It made him feel safer, especially at night.
  • Somehow Eddie didn’t notice that Richie would either go really quiet or start talking his ear off when they did.
  • At first, the losers decided not to talk to Richie or Eddie about what was going on between them, because they assumed that they would figure it out on their own but Eddie seemed so oblivious.
  • The final straw was when they were all standing in front of the movie theatre after a late night feature. They were still discussing the plot and the effects of the film and it was getting quite late and cold. Eddie was getting really chilly, but Richie seemed to be too preoccupied to notice that he needed hugs to stay warm. So, Eddie walked over to Richie and undid the zipper of his hoodie. Then he hugged him and zipped the hoodie back up again so they were sharing the warmth,
  • Richie stopped listening to Stan, completely mesmerized by Eddie who was snuggled up against him and burrying his face in his chest. Richie could do nothing but wrap his arms around his friend, and rest his head on Eddie’s. 
  • That’s when the Losers realized something needed to be done, because if those two still didn’t understand what was going on they would probably never.
  • They decided to split up: Beverly and Stan would take Richie, while Mike, Ben, and Bill would go with Eddie.
  • Richie and Eddie were both super confused when the group wanted to split up and they couldn’t walk home like they usually did. Eventually compromises were made and Richie gave Eddie his hoodie, so he would at least be warm. How did these boys not get they were in love, no one knows?
  • Both boys start talking about the other as soon as they are out of sight:
  • “Richie made the funniest joke during the film-…”
  • “Do you think Eddie will be warm enough? Maybe I should go back and check on him-…”
  • Cue sigh from all of the losers 
  • “Eddie, do you like Richie?” / “Richie, what’s the deal with you and Eddie?”
  • “Nothing! Why? …. Did he say anything about me?”
  • Cue eyerolles from everyone
  • So, Richie knows he’s busted. It was too good to be true that the losers wouldn’t notice him blushing every time Eddie touched him. He’s pretty quick to admit his feelings.
  • Eddie is another case. He keeps insisting that they’re just two guys being guys, etc.
  • Mike tells him that even he and Stan aren’t that touchy and they are literally dating. (hooray for Stanlon!)
  • Eddie thinks about that a lot later in bed. He has to admit that he likes Richie a lot: he likes the way he smiles, and he likes the way he smells, he likes it when he has his arm around him, and he likes to play with his hair. He thinks of the feeling in his stomach when he was snuggled up to Richie earlier that evening, and how disappointed he had been that Richie didn’t walk him home that night. He comes to the conclusion that, yeah, he does have a crush on the Trashmouth…. Oh no…. he has a crush on the Trashmouth.
  • The next time Richie walks him home, things are a little awkward. Richie is thinking that this is his moment to confess his feelings to Eddie, but he doesn’t want to mess it up and he just doesn’t know what to say.
  • They reach Eddie’s house and Eddie goes in for their usual long hug goodbye. Richie is thinking that he has missed his shot, when suddenly Eddie stands on his tiptoes to give him the softest peck on the lips ever.
  • Richie freezes up and before he can kiss him back, it’s already over.
  • Eddie thinks that probably means he doesn’t like him back, and he thanks him for walking him home under his breath.
  • Eddie crosses the street and is already at his door before Richie recovers and shouts at him.
  • “Date me friday.”
  • “What did you say?
  • “I meant to say, will you go on a date with me this friday?
  • Eddie doesn’t answer, but instead runs towards Richie and jumps into his arms.
  • They share their second kiss and this time Richie definitely kisses him back.
  • That friday they went out for burgers and milkshakes and it was magical.

anonymous asked:

I really liked how you wrote the a/b/o dynamic in your last fic. It wasn't some thing that overruled and defined everything about the characters, which is so awesome because I doubt many people - Stiles especially - would deal well with that. Anyway, i thought I'd washed my hands with a/b/o fics but it's sucked me back down again. Do you have any fic recs?

thank you so much! that fic was super fun to write, and I loved cramming in all my favorite tropes :)  I’m a big fan of a/b/o, idek why, but I love it. I’m sure all the ones I’d rec are well known, but here’s a list of some of my favs in no particular order.

we can take our time by KouriArashi

Tact and social mores are completely relegated to the back of Derek’s brain, and without thinking, he blurts out, “Did you spend your heat alone?”

Stiles’ head jerks around in surprise, and then he flushes pink and looks away. His voice comes out brusque and unfriendly. “Not that it’s any of your business, but I spend every heat alone.”

Knot if You Don’t Knock by jsea, marguerite_26

Stiles never expects to present as an omega – that’s something that happens to people like Greenberg, not him. He is so wrong.

His life only gets stranger when Derek Hale mistakenly bursts through the door of his exam room during a doctor’s appointment. What happens next is a complicated series of events, including freshly baked cookies, book-carrying and surprise heats.

Build an Ivory Tower by teot 

Stiles didn’t know how Derek sleeping on his floor developed into sleeping in his bed, or how cuddling ended up turning into Derek humping his ass. He didn’t agree to being knotted in the school locker room, either. But what can you do when Derek Hale wants something? He’s the Alpha, after all.

You Smell Like Mine by bleep0bleep, marguerite_26 

People talk about the alpha instinct, an alpha’s head being swayed by a nice-smelling omega, or the desire to drop everything and show off. Derek’s never felt any of that. He’s just not that kind of alpha.

Then he meets Stiles.

Say It With Me (Don’t Assume) by orphan_account (I’m pretty sure this is by KuriKuri, does anyone know if this was abandoned on purpose or not, since they’re’ still on AO3 with other fic?)

Derek knows way too much about how omega heat suppressants work now, after having been partnered with Stiles for as long as he has. They’re probably his favorite thing to bitch about whenever they’re stuck on a stakeout. Of course, omegas on the force aren’t required to take them. Derek’s never really understood why Stiles does, if he hates them so much, especially –

– especially because he’s bonded.

#omegaproblems by subnivean 

Stiles didn’t need an alpha. He might want one, though.

The Sanctuary by chase_acow

Stiles runs away during his first heat, right into the waiting and ambiguously scary arms of the Alpha’s nephew, Derek Hale. He doesn’t have any choice except to submit, but along the way, he digs up a mystery that threatens his family and even the town’s safety.

Old Traditions, Werewolf Edition by Footloose 

Stiles does not work his Omega ass off to attract frat boy Alphas. Absolutely not. He’s at college to get his degree. If he’s crushing on an Alpha who never crosses the lines of propriety, well, no one needs to know, right?

Mix and Match by Jerakeen 

Stiles walks into the Beacon Hills alpha-omega mixer with a smile on his face and three condoms in his wallet.

monday i can fall apart but by friday i’m in love by tryslora

It’s just past five in the morning and Stiles is barely awake, wearing only sleep pants that hang low below his pregnant belly, and he can’t get the damned brand new jar of decaf coffee open. But he has a neighbor, and he’s too tired to think that waking someone else up at this hour might not be the best (or politest) of ideas.

Someday Came Today by Fatebegins

“March 2, 1810…
Today, I met the man I’m going to marry.”

At the age of eight, Genim “Stiles” Stilinski showed no signs of Great Beauty. And even at eight, Stiles learned to accept the expectations society held for him–until the evening when Derek Hale, the handsome and dashing Alpha of the Hale pack, solemnly kissed his hand and promised him that one day he would grow into himself, that one day he would be as beautiful as he already was smart. And even at eight, Stiles knew he would love him forever.

But the years that followed were as cruel to Derek as they were kind to Stiles. Stiles is as intriguing as the Duke boldly predicted on that memorable day–while Derek is a lonely, bitter man, crushed by a devastating loss. But Stiles has never forgotten the truth he set down on paper all those years earlier–and he will not allow the love that is his destiny to slip through his fingers . .

Rare Books and Special Collections by KuriKuri

Derek Hale hates libraries.

Unfortunately, not all books can be ordered on Amazon.

(Or: in which Derek is a grumpy omega writer, and Stiles is an annoyingly attractive alpha special collections librarian.)

The One With The Mail-Order Brides and A/B/O Dynamics by Stoney

Wolves aren’t meant to be alone. Laura tells Derek this repeatedly. Which… is why Derek knows he’s losing his mind, as Laura has been dead for more than six years. Wolves aren’t meant to be alone.

And so he sends away for a companion. JUST for a companion, not for a mate. The universe, however, has a different plan in store for him.

here comes trouble by grimm 

All Derek wants is one day where he can sleep without worry of being woken by gunfire, without the threat of death hanging over his head. He wants a full stomach and no pain clinging to his bones, no ache in his feet from months of running. He wants a shower, a safe place to put his head. He wants his family, the healing comfort of pack. He’ll never have any of that again.

You’re a Mess, But You’re a Catch to Me by jsea

The laws are clear: omegas are required to have an alpha guardian. So when the sheriff gets shot, Derek is roped in to stepping up as Stiles’ temporary alpha while he recovers.

Derek knew it was going to be a bad idea, but he never could have predicted all of the ways that Stiles would end up turning his life upside down.

Worth the Wait by Dexterous_Sinistrous

Stiles always had a thing for Derek, but then again, so did everyone else. Stiles just wanted to be seen as different, which was why he waited.

But maybe he waited a little too long.

Can’t Be Saved (Not So Frail) by weathervaanes

“Kira doesn’t care a wick if you can afford her dresses and bonnets, I’m well aware. It doesn’t change the fact that I have to look after her best interests. I’d like her to be with an Alpha that puts her above all else even if he cannot afford her every luxury.”

Scott looks surprised. “I know you do not know me, sir, but I can promise you that that is my only wish. I—I love Kira quite dearly, and all I want is to provide for her, make her happy.”

“So you will marry off your brother,” Derek says, taking a sip from his drink.


In which Kira is Derek’s ward, Stiles is Scott’s brother, and omega heat cycles are good for everyone.

Fight Fires In Your Best Clothes by standinginanicedress

The key isn’t actually being confident, he repeats in his head in Lydia’s breathy voice. It’s faking the hell out of it and looking as sexy as possible while you do it. For omegas, it’s easy. There’s a natural charm to all of us that only takes seconds to engage, and barely takes practice.

Walk into the room, he chants in his head. Own it, and look people in the eyes. Find the best looking alpha, have them buy you a drink, and the rest is easy.

Fallen for You by Mynuet

Stiles is not swooning when his hot next door neighbor comes to his rescue. He’s not! Maybe a little.

Survival of the Species by Lissadiane 

“I think I’m dying.” Nothing makes sense – and now Derek has left him.

“No, Mr. Stilinski,” Deaton says grimly, rooting around in his special cupboard of herbs and remedies. “I’m afraid not. You’re merely suffering from a biological imperative to bear your alpha’s children and strengthen the pack.”

Stiles considers that for a moment, as best he can with his mind a hazy mess, and then he says quietly, “I think that might be worse.”

“So, so much worse,” Scott agrees.

In which Derek’s pack is apparently stable enough to begin planning for the future, and somehow, the universe has decided Stiles is the perfect candidate to bear his alpha’s children.

i need your sway by thatworldinverted

Stiles always figured it would be Scott who saw him through his first heat. They pinky-swore on it, in fact, when they were eleven and newly-presented. There haven’t exactly been an abundance of offers between then and now.

What there is now, though, is the pack, and pack takes care of each other.

How to Woo Your Local Omega by alocalband

Stiles knows a pity gift when he sees one. Mostly because that’s all he’s ever gotten from anyone since the moment he hit puberty.

I don’t know why, but I guess it has something to do with you by LunaCanisLupus_22

“You smell like me,” the guy says, scowling as he crowds in and Stiles staggers back between the coats and finally hits the wall. “Why do you smell like me?”

He barely lets out a garbled sound as the blood rushes to his cheeks. “No reason,” Stiles yelps, struggling to get his footing and grasping at a whirlwind of puffy fur.

Or the one where Stiles goes thrift shopping and steals an alpha’s shirt. And gets a lot more than he bargains for.

I have seen a lot of people mourning over SHINee and worrying that the other guys aren’t really ever going to be okay again, so hopefully this will help everyone worry a little less and bring some comfort. 

Guys I know we’re all dealing with this loss and I totally understand that sometimes it feels like nothing will ever be okay again when you lose someone.

I understand the feeling, but I will honestly say that I don’t believe they can’t be as happy again as they were before that. 

Loss hurts. It is awful. It’s horrendous and yeah it sticks with you. You don’t forget the people that leave you, but one day you smile and you laugh again. You grow and change and loss changes you, but it doesn’t take happiness away forever.

Almost ten years later and yeah sometimes I still miss my mom, but it doesn’t hurt the way it once did. I’m different because she died but like I’m still living and laughing and there are times I’m even HAPPIER than I ever was when she was here. Something great or funny happens and I laugh. You make new great memories.

You miss the person and you cry sometimes but sometimes you laugh at something dumb they did and the pain genuinely isn’t there when you look at that memory. The time does come where not everything is shrouded in the loss you have to pull through.

It’s cruel to think that life goes on, but it does. And sooner or later happiness does, too. Whether it’s as SHINee or not, our boys will find that happiness too.

I’m pretty sure Kibum especially understands that. He lost his beloved grandmother, and gosh does he remember her, but you can’t tell me there aren’t times that Kibum smiles and you just feel it because he’s SO happy and you know he’s genuinely happy.

It’ll take time to heal, it will be challenging, and it’ll be hard, but they can heal and I’m sure they will heal. And they are surrounded by people who love them and will help them in any way they can. Jinki, Kibum, Minho, And Taemin are LOVED. And the others that Jonghyun was close to are also loved. And they will heal. And if we take Kibum seriously, Sodam and Mama Kim also aren’t alone through all this.

It’s been barely a week. But time will help and heal and growth helps heal too. But please don’t think that those that love him will be sad forever. Jonghyun wouldn’t want his loved ones sad forever.

They will heal. It might take quite a lot of time. Some people heal faster than others. So maybe some of the guys will handle it better than some.But I promise guys happiness comes back.

And if you’re out there struggling with all of this, I hope happiness comes back to you soon and that the pain eases. You are not alone either, and I and others are here if you ever need to talk or vent. 

EDIT - also please remember that everyone heals and grieves differently and so to be patient and kind with one another and with the boys.


Bill is an odd character for a multitude of reasons; his design, the mysterious origin, contradictory motives, and connection to all things weird. I wanted to take a closer look into him and really see if I could find something that hasn’t already been pointed out, and I found a lot more than I originally thought. This was going to only be exploring a few aspects about him as a religious reference, but when I got into the nitty gritty I found some damning evidence that points to him involved in a much bigger plot that I anticipated.

To even begin to understand Bill Cipher I needed to first gather information about perhaps the most important character in the franchise that only shows up in the show as a reference. That’s right, the Axolotl. Upon first watching the show you can miss him completely and if you don’t reverse Bill’s death message yourself or find a clip with it, then there certainly won’t be any pointers to this creature. However, looking closer you find that Stanford had been in possession of one of the creatures before with it’s tank left as Stanley took the shack, but Bill even outright mentions him when saying the backwards message that once reversed reveals something huge: “A-X-O-L-O-T-L! My time has come to burn, I invoke the ancient power that I may return!’ In the Gravity Falls universe, the Axolotl is a powerful extradimensional creature that takes the form of a giant talking axolotl whose power ranks above that of Time Baby, Bill Cipher, and possible other unnamed or unseen powers.

Now this on it’s own is interesting but when comparing the creature to its real life equivalent and mythology things get even more intense! So, what are these creatures in real life? Well they’re a type of salamander that’s critically endangered and originate in Mexico, but the more intriguing piece of their history is their abilities and what they were named after. First off, these little creatures are a rare type of animal that can stay in a tadpole like state for the entirety of their lives and can even regenerate limbs. Their names comes from an Aztec myth about one of their gods, Xolotl, who was associated with the sunset and would guard the Sun as it traveled through the underworld every night. This deity and a dog were believed to lead the soul on its journey to the underworld. In order to avoid being hunted for sacrifice, he turns into a plant now named Mexolotl and animal now named Axolotl. In Aztec mythology, he was a god with associations to lightning, death, and fire and was also god of twins, monsters, misfortune, sickness, and deformities. Xolotl is the twin of Quetzalcoatl, the god of wind and learning. He is the dark personification of the evening star, and was associated with heavenly fire. Knowing this has huge impacts on what we know about the series, so now it’s time for some connections and my idea of what the Axolotl in Gravity Falls canon truly equivocates, to. And boy is it huge.

First let’s start with the mythology and piece it with the show. The Aztec god Xolotl has some big relations to Bill Cipher, with how it is associated with lighting; Bill uses it in the battle during Dreamscapes and even forms a weather cloud that shoots lighting to pillars in Weirdmageddon, death; I don’t need to even explain this one as Bill causes the death of his entire dimension, sought to destroy the universe, and of course his death in the finale, and the biggest one of all; fire. We see that Bill can use both harmless fire as it appears blue when he strikes deals or even surrounds his body on occasions or to hurt others when it’s orange as shown in Dreamscapers as well. Along with this he is the god of monsters, misfortune, and deformities which are things heavily related to Bill. But if he is so heavily connected to Bill, why is it that Axolotl is the one who goes by the name? The answer has been in the show all along. Who are two other main characters where one goes by the other? Stanley and Stanford Pines. The twins, and here’s where things get mind blowing.

Look back at the mythology. Along with being a god of monsters, misfortune, sickness, and deformities, Xolotl is also a god of twins. And every. Single. One. of these attributes are huge key factors in the show. Not only are the two main characters, Dipper and Mabel, twins, but the twist of season two reveals that Stan hasn’t been what he’s seemed all along as isn’t who we know him as, instead having the twin brother who is the real owner of that name. Along with this Bill’s whole plan is revolved around bringing his monstrosities to the world, and disfigurements are in so many of the characters within the Gravity Falls universe!

With this implication in mind, consider this: Why would a creature who is an ancient power and all knowing being after surely seeing Bill Cipher’s crimes give him the opportunity of another form and shirk blame onto Axolotl himself? Why would Bill wait until his death to remotely mention this being at all besides a quick note in the journals? And why would Alex, knowing the dedication of his fans, throw in a troll name like Axolotl if he wasn’t completely important? The answer has been hidden in the show the entire time, but as Alex says, one out of show piece hides a huge canon secret; the Axolotl poem. Here is it pieced together:

Sixty degrees that come in threes.
Watches from within birch trees.

This part is pretty self explanatory, telling what Bill is and referencing the woods where he makes his first appearance, noting that he can watch from the eye-like features in the trees. It’s further on in the poem where things start to get interesting.

Saw his own dimension burn.
Misses home and can’t return.

Remember that line in Weirdmageddon where Bill describes the second dimension? He says “Try living in the second dimension. A flat world with flat minds. I liberated my original dimension, Stanford, and I’m here to liberate yours”. At first I thought this meant he purposely burned down his dimension after wanting to leave, but why not just leave? I believe this was an accident. That the second dimension may not have been ideal but it was still his home, and when he tried to seek greater things, like power (more on that later), he was granted that wish and with it came a fire he could not control and a sight he’d never experienced. This is further supported by the next lines:

Says he’s happy. He’s a liar.
Blame the arson for the fire.

Bill is hiding the fact that this wasn’t purposeful, and we see it clear on his features how unhappy he is about burning down the second dimension as pictured here.

He blames arson, which is described as “the criminal act of deliberately setting fire to something”. Deliberately. He doesn’t want to admit how this didn’t make him happy, how it was an accident, and instead he lies and says it was purposeful, he meant the fire, and he’s happy about it. It was liberation.

If he wants to shirk the blame,
He’ll have to invoke my name.

For the longest time this line confused me. Why would the Axolotl offer this, and why would he have to appeal to him, be judged like this by this being? Then I read more on axolotls and the mythology behind them, and then i found out Xolotl was responsible for guarding the sun and transporting souls to the underworld. The Axolotl is doing this because his job is to act as judgment to Bill and either destroy his soul completely or, as the next lines go:

One way to absolve his crime.
A different form, a different time.

He can also give Bill another form if he appeals and tries to absolve his crime. But why, why the Axolotl? How are they connected? It had to be something big if this creature who was barely in the show could do something so massive as bring back the main antagonist who was a being that could destroy existence itself as we know it?

Because of one simple answer. One groundbreaking answer that I almost couldn’t believe when I was researching and writing this.

Bill Cipher and the Axolotl are related. Not only that, they are twins based on the Aztec myths of  Quetzalcoatl and Xolotl. 

To prove it, I’m going to present to you my own idea as to both of their mysterious origins as well as some parallels before then and by the time you’re done reading it I hope I have you as convinced as I am. 

Before this, I’ll address the biggest problem right here and now: they don’t look the same, and they aren’t even of the same species. That is where I challenge you with this: both the mythology and canon about Axolotl talk about how the form of this frilly salamander is taken, but isn’t necessarily their true form. And we also see that Bill can both shapeshift and become any form he chooses after Weirdmageddon. What I believe these beings truly are, are mere stars and dust for Axolotl and weirdness for Bill. As, in Alex’s own words; “Bill was born from weirdness and crafted by it, but not the cause of it.” He chose to look as he does because it was not only the forms he saw in the second dimension, but something weird and something he wanted.

Since that’s out of the way I can now draw out the parallels. I believe this is made to be a sort of Ying Yang story, a balance of good and evil. As Xolotl is made to represent Bill, even though the name goes to Axolotl, Quetzalcoatl is made to represent Axolotl in that he is god of knowledge and wind. Take a look at the canon Axolotl and the environment, as well as where it’s described. It’s a time and space between time and space, with bright fluffy clouds and a nice aura. That could be the wind part, but the knowledge part is clear as he is able to provide any answer to the questions Mabel and Dipper can ask. They also go completely in parallel with each side of the All Seeing Eye belief, more on that later. And there’s a part in the journal where he is referenced, saying that every conspiracy theory is correct. This means Axolotl knew these, and is being cursed due to it. The more damning piece, however, is on the page with the Oracle where it points to Bill and the inscription says ‘his exact opposite’. Or the balance to the weirdness that is Bill. Consider this: usually storytelling elements go in threes but with the twins it’s only twos. Mabel and Dipper and Stan and Ford. But adding these two to the equation makes it even better, as if destiny. Bill and Axolotl being twins as well. And one taking after the other (Bill as being more like Xolotl), foreshadowing the series’ entire plot. And it even matches perfectly with the characters as, again, one of Xolotl’s jobs was to be a god over disfigurement and weirdness. And guess which three main characters, in my opinion the third being a twin, each have a weirdness to them? Dipper’s birthmark, Stanford’s six fingers, and Bill’s one eye.

Now, here is my version Bill and Axolotl’s background for your consideration:

Bill Cipher wanted more out of his life. He wanted knowledge like his cosmic brother, and he wanted to be free of the flat realm that he’d been confined to. The Axolotl warned him to stick to his own dimension, that he was too blind to see the truth but Bill didn’t listen. When he tries to leave, he does gain success but he also gains a burden from his twin. As this being was both Ultimate Knowledge and Ultimate Sight, the power was split and sight was given to Bill for him to see that his leaving that dimension would cause it’s end. But it was too late, the power too great, and Bill killed everything within that dimension after causing a fire he couldn’t control.

Axolotl, being the one who judges souls, sent him to a realm between dimensions with no escape where interdimensional criminals and nightmares would also be sent upon their judged crimes. Within this place, Bill becomes a cold and cruel being due to the dimension’s influence on the mind and the lawless, unstable atmosphere. He became insane, to the point where he could not distinguish his own lies from himself anymore and convinced himself that his crimes had been purposeful and funny, that this was the only true way to be alive. Along with this he also learned how to control his ultimate sight and he would watch as the universe morphed around him, being the only one who could see it as his destiny was now to become the All Seeing Eye.

As he watched the third dimension’s earth he realized that he could have influence over it through eye-like features within the earth as well as appear as a mere shadow, or become a constructed thought. Eventually his influence was found in caves where people had drawn their worship, in pyramids as he was connected to their gods, eventually even on money and in many other places throughout history, but he still was trapped, and it was still only his influence. Bill wanted to truly exist and control, to have more power, which would come in the form of a broken rift. But the promised day that he’d seen in his own future was short, as he was tricked into being erased and where he would finally have to answer to his crimes.

When his judgment day had come again, Axolotl takes pity on his brother since it had been him that gave the powers and decides to give him another form in another time. And that form is what I believe Alex may either hint at or go into in the graphic novels that will soon be released.

Well, that sums up what I believe the Axolotl has to do with Bill, but what exactly is Bill and what are his true plans throughout the series? Now that I’ve explained what hasn’t been shown in the show, I can connect it further and with even more mythological examples, this time in Trinity and Egyptian myth.

I think we all know by now that Bill is meant to symbolize the Eye of Providence, but if that wasn’t proof enough Alex has stated he made Bill when he thought it would be funny to dress up the thing on the one dollar bill with a tophat and tie, then name him Bill for dollar bill. But that thing on the dollar isn’t just some random design, it’s the All Seeing Eye of God from Trinitarianism belief. This can either be a good sign saying that God is always watching and represents light and glory, but as with the Egyptian idea it means something far darker. That you are just a pawn in a higher game, and this eye is out mocking you. Axolotl is the light, and Bill is the dark.

Further evidence points out that this eye also can mean that an enemy is hiding in plain sight, and with Bill Cipher that has never been more true. Not only is one of the major plot points his false partnership with Stanford Pines, but his symbol can be seen all around the shack and even hidden in certain panels of the show. He’s there, and you’re all pawns in his game, and there is nothing you can do about this.

So, knowing this, here is my assessment of Bill Cipher and what he truly is:

Bill is a deity, the polar opposite to his twin brother Axolotl. He is the All Seeing Eye and has been throughout history, watching and influencing. All along he’s wanted freedom from the nightmare realm and to create his weirdness reign. He can do this by entering dreams and showing people what they want to see, by possession as he places yet another pawn on his chessboard, and by influence over the universe he saw and helped to grow just so he could take it over. He desires power, referenced by gold in the show as both his famous line “Buy Gold, Bye!”, and his power over Ford and how he turns him to gold to show who is really in control. He desires true happiness as he’s been lying to himself all this time, and he desires freedom. By any means necessary.

Thanks for reading!