is perfect tv

I just can’t understand how some people don’t see that karamel is actually one of the realest couples to ever exist on TV. They didn’t have the perfect begginning, but they learned to see the good in each other. Then they started a relationship that it’s far from those perfect TV show couples that we’re used to: yes, they laugh, they have a good time together, but they also fight and stand for what they believe in, but mostly, they try really hard to make the relationship work. Mon El constantly does something wrong, yes, but he was raised very differently and even so he ALWAYS tries to make things right and learn what to do and what not to do. And Kara is always trying to have more patience with Mon El and be more flexible with him. They help each other be better. That, my friends, it’s what a real relationship is all about.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
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“Shit-packer porn.” That is…that is very interesting. ‘Cause this is where the relationship between subject and object reverses. The proverbial shoe shifting to the other foot. And what was seen… now reveals the seer. Because the eyes of the beholder find not just beauty where they want, but also shallowness, ugliness, confusion… prejudice. Which is to say the beholder will always see what they want to see. Suggesting that what you, Mr. Valles, want to see is in fact shit-packer porn.

Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.