is one of the things that causes me to rage

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Thanks to @rage-quitter for beta reading this. If you haven’t already seen their stuff you really should. They’re what caused me to write The Long Drive Home and start shipping Jerevin.

The first thing Jeremy realized upon joining the Fake AH Crew, was that it was in his best interest to just nod and go along with everything Geoff said.

Not complaining when the man drunkenly slapped a name badge sticker on his forehead during the biggest staff party in the criminal world was just one of them.

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I'm Still Angry About This

When I was 17 was when the abuse I suffered was at it’s worst. One thing that I still rage about to this day was that my parents would create situations where they would really upset me. Like, they’d tell me how lazy I was, even though they forced me to become their personal Cinderella and I did all the housework. They would also shame me for things like my depression (that they caused) and just generally emotionally abuse me.

We lived in a tiny town that was very safe, and I used to cope with the abuse by going for walks. But one of my parents’ favourite games was to push me to the edge, then refuse to allow me to leave the house to calm down.

They would do all of this then threaten to call the police if I stepped out the door. What sort of sick game is that? I’m still so angry about it. It’s absolutely fucking sick.

And because I knew that the police would always side with my parents, I had to stay. So I would just go to ny room and cry. That is until they’d come in for round 2.

This would normally entail them making fun of me for being upset and telling me how mentally ill I was.

“I just don’t know what to do with you”

The only thing they would gain fron this was power over me. I hate them so much for it

anonymous asked:

Your character is a boss, three phases. There abilities and music, go!

Oh this is a neat one lol don’t judge me on the music choices either. 

Phase 1: Paladin~ ( Music )

Zathorin starts out using a one handed blade. 

“To think things have gone this far. Your minds have all been brainwashed by him! But if you wish to take up arms against me, then so be it!”

Main Abilities:

  1. Auto Attack mixed with Swift Strike(Fast Blade)
  2. Ripping Blade(Goring Blade)
  3. Rage of the Spirit (Rage of Halone)
  4. Circle of Scorn - An AOE that places a dot on all who are in the circle.
  5. Sword throw - Attacks a random target, causing little damage

This phase will continue until Zathorin reaches 75%, then a small RP will begin.

Phase 2: Fury Warrior (Music )

Zathorin’s inner rage will begin to tip, causing him to reach his limit on anger. He then grabs his second weapon, a large axe..

“Enough! If you wish to push me to my limits then I will your own! I hope whatever he is paying you was worth dying for!!!”

Main Abilities: 

  1. Brutal Swing 
  2. Overpower - Cone Aoe
  3. Mass Maim - A raid wide Aoe that causes vulnerability, cannot be cleansed and stacks to 5
  4. Infuriating Berserk - Damage Zathorin does to all raid members is increased by 25%
  5. Fury Cleave - Causes immense damage - TANK BUSTER
  6. Chain and Kill - Zathorin targets a healer, pinning them in place. If the chain isn’t broken within the time limit, the target will die instantly from a Fury Cleave.

This phase continues until 45%, then another small RP will begin where Zathorin will kneel, his axe out of hand. The man will then stand up, clenching his fists until a darkness overtakes his body, being lifted into the air ever so slightly. A large two handed sword will appear, starting the next and last phase…

Final Phase: Abyss Knight (Music)

“Perhaps…he was right. No…no I won’t…I…AAAAHHHH!!”

In this final phase, Zathorin is more around the room than previous phases.

Main Abilities:

  1. Dark Slash - Standard attack
  2. Abyssal slash - Zathorin will dash to one side of the room, charging an attack. If all raid members are not behind him by the time the attack is charged, anyone caught in the attack will take severe damage.
  3. Carve and Spit - A three hit attack (TANK BUSTER) Also causes a vulnerability debuff
  4. Unleash - A charged AoE around the boss
  5. Abyssal Earth - A player is targeted out of random, the player must run away from other players in order to drop the ground AoE. The AoE stays on the ground where the player was last standing for 20 seconds.
  6. Lunge - Zathorin will target a random player and lunge at them, causing medium damage

At 1 percent health, Zathorin will cast Living Dead. Once active, players must kill two  Abyssal Daemons that are summon, they have 45 seconds to kill both adds. During this time, Zathorin is charging Soul Syphon, hovering above the raid. If the Daemons are failed to be killed in time, Zathorin will plunge his weapon into the ground, killing all raid members instantly, gaining his health back to 45%.

If killed in time, Zathorin will then be able to be attacked. Once killed a small cutscene starts.

Zathorin drops his blade, falling to a knee, panting heavily from battle and death that is near. The darkness fades from his eyes, he falls to his back, looking up at the sky. A hand reaches up as if he was grasping for something…

“Everything has been taken from me… be given back..”

Find me here

She watched him silently, hidden in moving shadows from where the moonlight shone in through the oculus. There was something RESTLESS about the way he moved lately, as if the wires of his muscles had been pulled so taut that they were bound to snap sooner or later. And when they did, it would cause a ripple effect so fierce– so powerful, no one was left unscathed in the wake of Julian’s RAGE. 

The worst thing of all was the knowledge that somehow she was to blame for his instability right now– his loss of equilibrium. She had taken everything which had been constant and stable, and pulled it out from under him like an old rug. Knowing this though, KILLED  her. 

Emma could live with her own pain, even REVELED the sting and burn of agony, because it reminded her that she was doing the RIGHT  thing. What she couldn’t be at peace with, was being the cause of his devastation as well. No world could ever make sense for as long as the only one she loved more than life itself, was SUFFERING. 

As she backed away from the horrid sight, the blonde bumped into one of the paintings on the wall, and the heavy frame fell to the floor. 


( @heroesmakesacrifices )

Shattering Illusions

This is in response to “parents of autistic children” telling me I don’t know what it’s like to have to deal with an autistic child from the parent side. TMI but it needs to be said.

Judging my comments because I post from the side of the autistic without reading back is rather shallow of you, but we’ll skip past that to some interesting things that you don’t want to know.

I have been with Baby since she was a 4 foot tall and 50 pound bundle of rage. Around 5 or 6 years old. I have held her when she was a screaming shit fit trying to fight the world and no one knew why. 

I have had her pee on me because she doesn’t notice when she has to go. I have had to fight off well-intentioned but clueless wannabe mothers who want to stop her screaming fits by comforting her without knowing that it is their very presence that is causing her meltdown. I have held her while she cried because her grandmother wouldn’t let her inside the house because she was a “half-naked little savage” - at 10 years old.

I am the one that has to tear her away from her giant teddy bear because she gets rashes from touching cloth for too long. I am the one that had to cut a bicycle chain down and put a lock on it for her to use as a belt because she will not keep clothes on in public (or anywhere else). 

I am the one that she hits and kicks and punches when she sees violence on tv or a video game while she screams ‘no fidin’.

I am the one that has to make her keep studying the same thing day after day, year after year, because anything she doesn’t use or read often enough she forgets - at the same time as I have to find more math and physics than I understand because she thinks learning about string theory is a really fun game and she wants to know more about these weird worlds where physics has rules.

I am the one that had to learn to sleep on her back all night every night because letting Baby sleep on sheets or blankets meant she either woke up every two hours or woke up in the morning with a rash so bad she was screaming in pain because her SPD makes the continued touch with fabric agony and sleeping on me was safe since I have no body hair to irritate her skin. Yes, SPD does have physical effects.

I am the one that had to figure out why she couldn’t tolerate being near her mother - and now have to deal with that witch refusing to stop using the chemicals that cause Baby’s rage.

I am the one that had to hold Baby as she screamed because the therapist wanted to know why she wouldn’t say “lub” to her mother - because her mother already knew she loved her so saying it again was too painful.

I am the one that has been helping Baby cope with a world not ready to accept a person that just wants to climb trees and cuddle bunnies and poke (real) holes in advanced physics and math theories as a hobby while talking to the trees and rocks around her.

She’s still only 4 feet tall and 50 pounds at 23, but she is no longer a bundle of rage, and I like to think I helped a little with that.

And I did it while not being able to speak or understand speech, while having my own meltdowns for other reasons, while suffering the loss of my first girlfriend to heart failure, while becoming a successful software engineer.

Yeah, I don’t understand how hard it is to be a parent of an autistic child. I’m Turner Syndrome - I can’t be a real mother, I have no functioning ovaries.

Thank you for reading, but I doubt you did.

         Breathe. I’m listening close to every word that you speak. Don’t try to blame the things that bring you down just see, I’m on your side and counting down the days to be right beside you when you sleep and when you dream… dream.
         Leave, all of your rage behind and realise it’s me. Hold on before I’m gone cause one day we will need someone to understand the things that make us free… free.


What I love about Ginny is that she is a mixture of soft curves and hard edges. Simultaneously she is filled with love and rage. She can be extremely compassionate but just as equally cruel. She is not just sass. She is darkness and bitterness, happiness and joy, all wrapped up in a small frame that causes people to underestimate her. Do not underestimate her. [x]

Taurus in a Nutshell:

Taurus is the one who has immense perseverance, even when others have given up, the Taurus rages on. Solid and persistent, just like the bull, which is Taurus’ well suited symbol. Taurus’s have a well known reputation for being stubborn, which is not necessarily a bad thing. The stubborn streak can cause Taurus to butt heads and conflict with other strong character types. Taurus are not fond of change. They like the familiar and routine comfort of life. Taurus is easy going and not one to pick a fight but should some poor souls attempt to provoke Taurus, the wrath will be known, for they have a temper underneath the calm surface. Taurus are very responsive to their surroundings. They like decorations, color, anything that appeals to all the senses. Taurus like possessions and the Taurus home is nicely decorated with lots of things. Taurus are down to earth, they do not like gaudy, flashy or over the top things. They prefer comfortable and creative settings and objects. Taurus likes security, in every aspect of their lives from home, to love, to career. Taurus can be secretive, opinionated and stingy. Taurus tend to be self-indulgent and lazy, Taurus are master procrastinators of the astrology zodiac! They do however have a strong, persistent drive that comes to life when they chose, and no one would ever know that they are lazy. The secret to this is that their laziness is pushed aside when it comes to themselves.

 I was skimming through the Demigod Diaries today and found this piece of dialogue: 

“Um… Well, no. But afterward, I promise–”

Annabeth raised her hand. “You’re cute and you’re sweet, Percy. But please– no more promises. Let’s just find this giant.” 

And it got me thinking how big a deal broken promises must be to Annabeth. After Luke and promises that her dad probably never kept about things getting better, that last thing she ever wants is more people who make empty promises to her. 

She gets overwhelmingly upset when people flake on her, even causing a month long rift between her and Piper at one point. Annabeth can’t even articulate why it makes her so angry, she only knows the way a ball of rage simmers in the pit of her stomach and how no matter what she does she can’t seem to shake the disappointment that seems to have seeped into her bones. She cuts off several friendships through her adulthood with people who aren’t dependable and she doesn’t look back. 

Sally witnesses a fight between the two when Percy forgets he promised to help Annabeth with something one day and Annabeth storms out. Percy is completely confused about why it was such a big deal and Sally points out how a person is only as good as their word, and how much more that rings true with someone so used to being let down. Percy can’t believe he missed to connection and hurries after Annabeth to apologize. 

From then on, Percy makes a conscious effort to not make empty promises. The p word exits his vocabulary and instead he always reassures her with the phrase “you can count on me”. The day she responds with “I know I can”, Percy thinks he’s going to burst with all the love he feels for her and Annabeth can’t remember the last time she felt so safe with someone.