is killing me and i'm not even going

  • what she says:I'm fine
  • What she means:Richard Armitage finally got recognized for his talent and his wonderful portrayal of thorin oakenshield and he is amazing and I'm trash and he deserves every single bit of recognition and happiness for the amount of effort he puts in his work anD OH GOD OH MY GOD HE IS WEARING A FLOWER CROWN AND JESUS JESUS CHRIST HE IS NAPPING WITH THE FLOWER CROWN AND THIS MAN IS SUCH A FUCKING DORK I'M DONE I'M SO DONE GODDAMMIT I LOVE HIM SO MUCH
If anyone make fun of you because of how passionate you are about your dream, shit on them and give me their addresses
—  My Mom.

I know there’s a ton of pressure on women to be cheerful and whatnot, but I am so done with the glorification of negativity and cold bitterness. I’ve been cold, I’ve been bitter, and I’ve been negative. I’ve been ✨  misunderstood ✨ , and I’ve given in to the glorification as a means of self-preservation. And I’ve been all of those things on a regular basis, for years. But what I’ve realized since getting out of such behavior patterns and attitudes is that clinging to those things for strength was nothing more than a glorification of unhealthiness. I wasn’t overcoming stereotypes – I was deeply depressed (and often blind to the fact). Yes, we live in a difficult and deeply unjust and miserable world. Yes, there are tons of reasons to be angry. We NEED to be angry at the state of the world and we need to act and push others to act. But being /constantly/ angry is tiring and being constantly negative is immature. Yes everyone functions differently, and I /understand/, but I am so done. Being around dark things drags me down, and I am done. Be angry, act, but try to make things better. Strength is trying to rise above the negativity of the world. Strength is fighting to be better by being kind. Overcoming sexist stereotypes is sometimes not being afraid to be warm and soft and “feminine” if that’s what you want to be. I’m done with the rest of it. I’ve been dark and cynical and frigid and ✨  strong ✨  but all it did was give power to the things that were actually dragging me down and feeding the shiny darkness. I’ve given a decade of my life to it, and I’m done. 


You don’t need it.


I’m so glad I went to the park today. It was going to be such an ordinary day if you hadn’t been reading that book!


Athos in series 2 previews, part 3

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