is it weird that i've always wanted to an angel au

anonymous asked:

(1/?) Okay imma say this here since my blog is SFW, but I've noticed something in a lot of top!dean/Bottom!Cas docs that irks me a lot. They always infantilize Castiel. Make him pale and frail and weak. He's a fucking angel of the lord. Misha is buff as hell. And fairly tan too. He is strong and powerful, and I hate seeing this stripped from him in a lot of these kinds of fics. Yeah, he's kinda dorky and socially awkward, but he's also intelligent and STRONG

(2/?) One thing I enjoy about top!Cas/bottom!dean fics is that they don’t take away Dean’s strength, his cockiness, his attitude. They /use/ it. I like seeing big tough Dean grinning as he’s pushed against the wall (Like he was in the PILOT EPISODE except that was a car), getting all blushy and excited when ‘sexy rules’ were mentioned, and was pushed down onto the bed by the amazon. He remains strong and protective, but Cas is always weak and soft when he was bottom and it drives me crazy.

(3/?) And when it comes to children, especially mpreg AUs, Cas is shown as the mother figure more often. Why? Dean was a mother to Sam, Dean had been shown to be GREAT with children, and likes spending time with them. And are we forgetting the scene when he was making the bunker his home and literally said he was nesting?? Cas is awkward and confused around children, but that’s not his own fault. Cas had Jimmy’s memories, he knows how to be a father, and he learned about a father’s love from him

My dear stressed Nonnie, one more time, I am so sorry I made you feel like you need to apologize fdvbdfjs. Back to your message: 

1/? - I agree so much. I tend to avoid fics with this kind of characterization because I personally don’t like it.
I mean, I am quite okay when Cas is pale and weakened because of something that happened in the fic - like because of an illness or maybe substance abuse, or anything, really. It would be logical and make perfect sense.
But I dislike it greatly when it’s only because he’s ‘the bottom’ in the relationship and people feel the need to make him look smaller/paler/tinier/more feminine in comparison to Dean. I mostly don’t like this portrayal of Cas in fics that are set in canon verse - but that’s just my personal opinion. And Nonnie, you know what I also don’t - personally -  like? When Cas is written as completely naive, like, uh, that makes me nope out from a fic pretty quickly. 

I absolutely adore the fact that Cas is powerful, tall,  beautifully tan, with shoulders and arms that can lift even my self-confidence. He’s so handsome, and like his hands? Big strong hands that turned monsters to ashes?? His beautiful thighs? Why to take this away? 
I love that about Cas that he’s this ancient being that can destroy cities and he still can be so soft and gentle. He can touch with such tenderness, smile with such warmth and I just??? There is absolutely no need to take away some parts of him to enjoy the other. You can literally have both. Cas is a complicated character, you don’t need to reduce him to some stereotypes based on some weird views on sex positions. 
And I will repeat it again - I like bottom!Cas. I prefer bottom!Dean but I like bottom Cas too.
But I like it when he’s still Cas, not some meek pale version of himself. 
And again, that what I, as in me, Emilia aka bamf-castiel on tumblr dot com, like.
Personally. Others can enjoy whatever they want to.

2/? - again, I agree so much with this! I - again, personally - love it so much! Dean is still very much himself, and I always get few years added to my lifespan when I see it.
I love Dean so much, I love Cas so much. I am so happy when in fics they both are described ans strong and as themselves. Those are my absolute fave kind of fics. And I know those are not the same but I do see Dean and low key submissive, and it’s so lovely? He’s such a rough tough guy, he’s fierce and protective and loves so deeply. I enjoy it greatly when people explore the other parts of his character, I love it when Cas takes care of him and Dean lets him. 
I like it when they are both soft with each other, too. They deserve the gentleness and the softness. But yes, I agree, there is a hug difference how bottom!Dean and bottom!Cas are usually portrayed in this fandom. 
( again, I say this based on the fics I stumbled across - I have not read everything, and I have read things that differ from this, I don’t mean to generalize and hurt anyone’s feeling. Plus you have every right to enjoy whatever characterization you want) 

3/? - I don’t think I’ve read enough fics with mpreg to have an opinion about it, but I guess I agree? I mean both of them have character traits usually associated with mother/father figures. 
I think that I see Dean more of a mother figure than I see Cas as one though. 

Everyone can enjoy whatever they can, but yeah, looking on canon I agree with you here Nonnie.
But that’s just my opinion, of course. 
Thank you for the message! <3

anonymous asked:

Hello! I was wondering if you knew any good fics with rimming in them? Like especially if that's a big part. It doesn't seem to be very popular or I've just not been able to find the good ones. :) Thank you for any help you can give.

aawwwwwww nice request ! So I’ve got a lot of them and I mixep up some short specific fics with longer fics where rimming is just a part (but a very good one)

- I Love The Pain :  Harry is a tattoo artist and Louis just so happens to go to his shop to get a tattoo inked on his thigh and of course Louis has just a bit of a pain kink! Rimming and Riding ensues. (14k)

- A Little Love (is better than none): It’s supposed to be no strings attached sex, but Harry’s in love with beauty and tragedy and Louis Tomlinson so there might actually a few strings they’re not talking about.  Or, alternately, the four times they fuck and don’t kiss, and one time they fuck and do . (14k)

- Judge’s Favorite     : “Guess I have to choose my husband don’t I? Or I’ll sleep outside after tonight, I’m afraid,” Harry said shrugging his shoulders. “You’d better Styles,” Louis replied.“That’s Tomlinson, please,” Harry corrected and the crowd went wild around them.   ***Based off the prompt where Louis is a judge on The Voice UK and Harry is promoting his single, so he pretends to audition. None of the judges know, especially Louis, who thinks that he is in Paris doing promotional work. (3.7k)

- Take Me To Your Heart : : Harry blinked at him for a second, and shit, they made eye contact. “Never gonna give, never gonna give…” the man sang, pointing at Harry to sing the next line. “Come on, curly!” Harry wasn’t sure whether or not to indulge him. He just wanted to go back to sleep, but he knew from experience that sometimes, ignoring lively drunks did not make the problem go away. “Give you up.” Harry replied, before laying his head back against the window and closing his eyes. “Yeah!” The man cried, and to Harry’s despair he sat down next to him. “Had a good night?” “I’ve been working.” Harry mumbled, eyes still closed. “Oh. I’ve got a few days off at the moment, so just been out with my mates. I’m Louis, by the way.” — London Night Bus AU where all Harry wants to do is sleep, but he has a drunk man singing at him. (6k)

- baby look what you’ve done to me : [louis moves into harry’s old flat. harry gets a lot of mail.] (9k)

- Mark Me Up (My Skin’s Yours to Touch) : They stumble into their bedroom and Louis’ is immediately pushed onto the bed, Harry scrambling after him. Shaky hands pull down his joggers right under his arse and Harry’s tongue circles around the still tender skin, never touching it directly. Despite the heat and desperation between them, Harry’s almost reverential in his touches. “‘s for me, Lou?” he slurs between passes of his tongue. “A place that only I can see?”Or the one where Harry gets to appreciate Louis’ new tattoo. (2k)

- keep holding me this way: An English grad student, a frat jock, and an unimpressed rich boy walk into a bar. No one walks out. (13k)

- to kill the mess we’ve made : And when he’s finally standing, Liam fussing over him, rubbing his hand at the red mark blooming on Harry’s forehead, does Harry learn two things:One, he wasn’t actually hit that hard, and Tommo–or Louis, rather–is just as pretty when Harry is staring at him head-on and,Two, Louis is the Adidas model he’s going to be working with on today’s photo shoot.(or: AU where Harry and Louis are both models, and they decide being friends-with-benefits is a great idea. It isn’t.) (42k)

- Worlds Away : astronaut au fic where Louis is staying on the international space station and Harry is on earth working ground control and he and Louis have really quiet late night chats after most of the workers are gone and get to know each other in the biggest long distance relationship u could ever have…then eventually Louis comes back to earth and they have a beautiful meeting  (7k)

- Rise up like the sun: “I wasn’t taking a sneaky pic.” Louis blurted out, the guy stood at one of the urinals taking a piss. “You were.” The guy answered coolly. “I would’ve taken a pic with you if you’d just asked.” “No I didn’t want a pic with you.” The guy turned his head, quirking his eyebrow sardonically. “No you’re far too cool for that, you just wanted to violate my privacy.” Louis squeezed his eyes shut. “I’m sorry. Look..” He walked towards the guy flicking his phone out. “Hey.” The guy hunched over, hiding his junk. “Oh no no, I wasn’t gonna take a pic. Fuck.” Louis threw his hands up, stopping in his tracks. “Look I’m going to show you I’m deleting it.” Louis turned his phone and the pic disappeared. “You looked familiar, I was going to send it to my friend and ask who you were, I’m sorry, dick move.” Louis sighed, smiling apologetically. The guy zipped and walked to the basin. “So you invade my privacy then insult my level of fame by pretending to not know who I am.” The guy was turned away from Louis. “Look I’m…shit.” Louis inhaled noisily. The guy turned, a grin spread over his face. “I’m fucking with you.”  (41k)

down sometimes all harry really wants is to play with louis’ arse. (4k)

- Naked & Proud  : In which Harry runs an organic store, not a nudist colony, and Louis doesn’t know whether to be relieved or disappointed. (18k)

- hear your voice, in the backseat of my car  : Louis gracelessly dropped the back of his seat so he could slide himself into the backseat, the fit tight and cramped and almost too warm.  He was unbuttoning his pants when he paused for a moment and took in the sight before him. “Christ.  Look at you.”  Louis stopped and just took in what he was seeing.  He was speechless and a little overwhelmed but very, very ready to see what would happen next.  Louis drives a cab.   Harry needs a ride. (8k)

- just want to feel your lips against my skin : Where Harry is in love with his best friend and Louis just wants to be rimmed. (6.6k)

- Watch Me Fall Down to Earth  : A silver cloud had passed over the moon, and what little heavenly light that had enveloped them turned into hazy grey, something of a dream. // They danced like that, Harry holding himself up on his forearms over Louis, Louis pressed into the bed, gripping the blankets in his sweaty palms. (4k)

- let me make a thing of cream and stars: It doesn’t explain why he’s lying on the floor, with Harry Styles, of all people, planking on top of him.As in, seventeenth most influential person in London, pop-star-turned-rock-star Harry Styles. The same Harry Styles who has had countless model girlfriends, left, right and centre. Also  the same Harry Styles who has been the subject of Louis’ wet dreams since he was about eighteen.(Or: Louis is a Radio 1 DJ and Harry is a pop-star he interviews.) (24k)

- Kiss The Colour Of A Constellation : The one where watching late night TV quiz shows apparently leads to rimming. (7k)

- Sugar  : Set during the Asian leg of the OTRA Tour, 4/5 are out clubbing, Harry is bored of being used as a promotional tool, Liam wants Zayn, Zayn always wants Liam, and Louis is in for a surprise.A completely smutty oneshot that probably shouldn’t have happened. (4k)

- so i just ride : “I want to try something new tonight. I mean, we’ve already done it, but not in the way I’m thinking of.”Louis cocks an eyebrow. “Like what?”“Like I want you to ride my face.” And it comes out really, really blunt. Like, wow. (3k)

Update (last update on April 6th 2017)(under the cut)

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