I would like to first apologize in advance for any worry that I may have caused. I am sorry to have been so down lately, so unable to contain my sadness and agony that I frequently posted about them on here. I promise, I will try to regain my strength (and sanity). A personal matter is taking its toll on me, and I firmly believe that, because I have been exhausting myself with work, I am not able to resolve it or move on with my life and forget it. This has been causing me the greatest suffering so far.
This is also an opportunity for me to announce my hiatus. I should call it a semi-hiatus for now, at least. I have been kinda on hiatus for a while now, with only the queue doing the postings. I am also sorry that I haven’t been replying to all the asks and requests.
My thesis defense is coming up in April. I haven’t finished my work and writing yet, so I have been working nonstop, during weekends and holidays too, at more than 14 hrs/day, every day. I also have a part-time job on weekdays that my working hours jumped to 18-19 per day. It is all so overwhelming to me. It is even more overwhelming because I have a chronic condition and my body is unable to cope with all of this exhaustion. I had a difficult pain episode during the morning today… I feel better now, albeit slightly. I haven’t been eating much lately, and this is also affecting my ability to endure and handle what is happening. I also have an important presentation in the coming weeks that I cannot afford to fail.
For all of these reasons, I decided to take a break from many things in my life. I will try my best to keep the queue active. If I run out of posts, I will try to restock the queue asap, but I hope you’d understand if Im delayed by a day or two.
Fandom-wise, I will be here every Saturday for the tgre spoilers, but I may not be able to publish all the metas, edits and asks as effectively as before.
Considering my other fandoms, mostly Detective Conan, Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure, and Shouwa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu…I will also be available to discuss them when I have the time, and if something new arises.
I will gather my remaining energy and channel it so I can graduate from Grad School this spring. My birthday is coming soon, and I had a shitty birthday every year, for the past few years. I want to avoid that this year, and with the little time left to reach that date, I will try to become stronger for my family, colleagues, and friends that have already realized that I am dealing with great distress in silence. I want to repay their kindness with getting better.
I am sorry again and I hope that you’d understand.
I will probably be more active on my twitter account where I rant the most. However, I am seriously considering making a private account for ranting only, because I have showered my followers there with enough pain and suffering already, even though they never followed me for that content.
Thank you to everyone who has showed extreme and continued support to me, through out my stay on here, and especially, during the past few months. I am extremely grateful ;;