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New Fic Outtake?  Addition, maybe

Not quite sure what you’d call this, but when I finally post Geode to to AO3, it will have this scene added in there because the story seemed to demand it.  How could I do a story about Steve and Darcy visiting museums and not bring up the fact that there’s a museum exhibit dedicated solely to Captain America?

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While Darcy’s been to the Air and Space museum before (thank you, 8th grade class trip to Washington D.C. where one of her friends smuggled a naughty magazine onto the bus with them and they ended up breaking one of the beds in their hotel room because they were jumping from mattress to mattress and lied about it to the chaperones to stay out of trouble), she hasn’t experienced the Captain America exhibit yet.  But the curators had called up Steve to consult on a new addition to the exhibit - which apparently was just asking him to verify if the items they’d found were actually his or just someone trying to blow smoke up their asses - and they’d decided to make a little vacation out of it.  Some time that’s just for the two them, away from the familiar territory of New York and everyone who knows everything.

But the job comes first, of course, which leaves Darcy to wander idly through the fairly empty halls of the exhibit.  It’s never entirely empty, not given Steve’s popularity and the fact that the entire museum is a tourist’s highlight, but on this Wednesday morning, Darcy feels like she can slip between the other tourists without being noticed, blending into the background as just yet another person who’s there to partake in the spectacle.

Steve is notoriously quiet about his private life - much to the dismay of the paparazzi who went in expecting another Tony Stark and got someone entirely different.  Even so, word has gotten out to the gossip columns that he’d been seeing someone for quite a while now, though all they’ve been able to discover is that she’s female and brunette thanks to those few artsy photos of her shadowy profile Steve had put up on his Instagram page.  

It’s funny though, no one ever seems to pay attention to them in the New York City museums.  But that could be because it’s New York, Darcy thinks.  New Yorkers don’t get excited about anything (or at least they don’t let people see them get excited), and as soon as Steve slaps a baseball cap and a jacket on he’s just one more meathead in the crowd that they don’t notice.

But in Washington D.C. Darcy feels exposed.  Like there are eyes watching her from every direction, assessing her, determining her value and passing silent judgement that she’s not worthy of being Steve’s girlfriend.  And rationally, she knows that’s bullshit.  She’s entirely fucking worthy, and doesn’t even need to lift a hammer to prove it.  But the whispers through cupped hands behind her back have always gotten to her, long before she’d ever even known Steve.  Sometimes it’s hard to break through those years of old habits.  

“Whatever,” she mutters under her breath, wrapping her cardigan even more tightly.  “You are damn worthy.”

It’s hard to shake the feeling of creeping eyes on her, however, even if it’s probably only her head seeing things that aren’t there.  So Darcy hunts for a shadowy corner in order to take a few minutes to regain her equilibrium, and finds herself wandering into the room where the Peggy Carter interview is running on a continuous loop.  And boy, doesn’t that just make all the inadequacies come rushing back…  Still, Darcy plonks herself down on one of the benches; it’s dark and quiet in there, the perfect little escape from the outside world.

Peggy Carter is an entirely formidable woman, even when she looks like she’s on the verge of tears.  But then, it’s probably a natural response to have when one reminisces about the lost love of your life.  When did you know, Darcy thinks, that this person - this magnificent and imperfect wonder - was going to be the one to get under your skin like that?  That this person would be nothing less than the other half of your soul?  

Darcy has never been good with emotions.  She realized this long ago, and has accepted it as one of her deep flaws.  That it’s far easier to be brash and loud, to put the safe parts of her personality out there for everyone to see because the soul, that inner part of her that bruises and sometimes doesn’t want to cope with the world, is soft and squishy and gets hurt all too easily.  Why get hurt when you can get angry instead, has been the motto that’s gotten her over and through many rough times in her life.  But this approach to the world has sometimes made her a little out of touch with her own feelings, she admits (if only to herself).

How do you know when you’ve found that person, the one who you don’t mind cracking open your skin in front of so that they can see the whole package of your emotions and not just the safe outer shell?

(Darcy studiously avoids thinking about the fact that Steve could be that person for her, because emotions are tough and the deeper she looks the more in over her head she might find herself.  Romance is such a strange thing, in her experience.  But that doesn’t mean that it’s not good for her, that having that imperfect and wonderful compliment to her soul would make her more like the true self that she wants to be instead of that facade that the world sees.)

Ugh, she gets awfully maudlin once the caffeine wears off.  Darcy grimaces, and is incredibly grateful that the darkness of the film room keeps her hidden from the group of elderly ladies a couple of rows down from her commenting about how much they like Peggy’s suit outfit.  It’s better to focus on Peggy than on herself, anyway.  On the screen, Peggy makes a comment about how, even after his (supposed) death, Steve was always changing her life.  Ain’t that just the truth, Darcy thinks in full agreement.  

After a while Darcy needs to leave the movie room, because otherwise she might start crying at the intensity of Peggy’s emotions.  They’re not obvious, because Peggy is a consummate professional, but Darcy knows the type (she’s one herself, after all) - never let them see you sweat or see you cry.  So she wanders back out into the main exhibit, washing up in front of a display that outlines some of Peggy’s other accomplishments that weren’t related to her time with Captain America.  It’s only a matter of seconds, however, before she sees a shadow loom up next to her, followed quickly by soft footfalls that come to a stop next to hers.

When she looks up at Steve, it’s all too easy to see the strain on his face, even half hidden by the baseball cap he’s got shoved on his head.  His eyes are tight, mouth pulled into a slight frown.  His shoulders are hunched over, hands shoved into his pockets, and, at least for this moment in time, he looks a hell of a lot less intimidating than she’s ever seen him.  There’s no need to ask him how he feels when it’s written all over him, Darcy thinks.  So instead, she just waves a hand at the display in front of her and says, “She’s a hell of a woman.”

“That she is,” Steve replies, the frown dropping away from his lips for a moment and replaced by something far more soft and pensive.

“Come on.”  Darcy weaves her arm through his, tugging his body close to hers.  “Let’s get out of here and see some sunlight.”

It’s one of those days that moves slow like molasses, thick and lazy, traveling along without any actual aim and just spreading about instead.  It’s a good day, sunny and warm even though it’s late in November, and they stroll along the streets, wandering into bookshops and cafes and places that Darcy hopes won’t remind Steve of the past.  Anything to take that frowny look of his face, she thinks.  Eventually they head back to the hotel with the intention of getting ready for dinner…but the best of intentions are forgotten when Darcy all but pushes Steve back on the bed, and starts planting kisses down his torso, peeling back his sweater as he goes.  After that, room service is the only dinner option that either one of them has the energy for.

“I know what you’re doing,” Steve says afterwards as he stumbles out of bed towards where the room service menu is.

“What am I doing?”  Darcy sits up, dragging the sheets around her shoulders and attempting to bring some semblance of order to her sex-tossed hair.  It’s a futile effort, but she has to try anyway.

Steve arches an eyebrow at her and crawls back onto the bed, menu in hand.  “You know, you’re not as subtle as you think.”  He presses a swift, firm kiss to her mouth.  “It was a good day.  Thank you.”

Darcy smiles back at him, followed swiftly by the sound of her stomach grumbling.  “You’re very welcome.  Now feed me.”

“As you wish.”

The picture that gets posted to Steve’s Instagram later is a simple one, overlaid with a black and white filter that just emphasizes the shadows coming from the small lamp off in the distance of the shot.  The main feature of the photo, however, is the two hands tangled together, fingers intertwined, relaxed and resting on a pillow.  And while nothing else is visible aside from the extension of their forearms, the implication that there are two people on the other side of those hands, snuggled up and resting together, is a given.  The caption simply reads ‘a good ending to a good day.’

What happens in South Africa... doesn’t stay in South Africa

@beatrix-franklin had a made a post requesting a fic of the nurses realizing what ~happened in South Africa, and immediately I got to writing! I hope you enjoy, please let me know if you do! :) 

The nurses gathered in the supply room, taking advantage of the lull in patients to take a snack break. Trixie, Patsy, Phyllis, and Barbara sat huddled around the table, passing around a box of biscuits and deep in a hushed conversation.

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Shams Tabrizi’s 40 Rules of Love
  1. How we see god is a direct reflection of how we see ourselves. If god brings to mind mostly fear & blame, it means there is too much fear & blame welled inside us. If we see god as full of love & compassion, so are we.
  2. The path to the truth is a labour of the heart, not of the head. Make your heart your primary guide! Not your mind. Meet challenge & ultimately prevail over your nafs (self, psyche, soul) with your heart. Knowing your ego will lead you to the knowledge of god.
  3. You can study god through everything & everyone in the universe, because god is not confined in a mosque, synagogue, or church. But if you are still in need of knowing where exactly his abode is, there is only one place to look for him: in the heart of a true lover.
  4. Intellect & love are made of different materials. Intellect ties people in knots & risks nothing, but love dissolves all tangles & risks everything. Intellect is always cautious & advises, “beware too much ecstasy”, whereas love says, “oh, never mind, take the plunge!” Intellect does not easily break down, whereas love can effortlessly reduce itself to rubble. But treasures are hidden among ruins. A broken heart hides treasures.
  5. Most problems of the world stem from linguistic mistakes & simple misunderstanding. Don’t ever take words at face value. When you step into the zone of love, language, as well know it becomes obsolete. That which cannot be put into words can only be grasped through silence.
  6. Loneliness & solitude are two different things. When you are lonely, it is easy to delude yourself into believing that you are on the right path. Solitude is better for us, as it means being alone without feeling lonely. But eventually it is best to find a person who will be your mirror. Remember only in another person’s heart can you truly see yourself & the presence of god within you.
  7. Whatever happens in your life, no matter how troubling things might seem, do not enter the neighbourhood of despair. Even when all doors remain closed, god will open up a new path only for you. Be thankful! It easy to be thankful when all is well. A sufi is thankful for what he has been given but also for all that has been denied.
  8. Patience does not mean to passively endure. It means to look at the end of a process. What does patience mean? It means to look at the thorn & see the rose, to look at the night & see the dawn. Impatience means to be short-sighted as to not be able to see the outcome. The lovers of god never run out of patience, for they know that time is needed for the crescent moon to become full.
  9. East, west, south, or north makes little difference. No matter what your destination, just be sure to make every journey a journey within. If you travel within, you’ll travel the whole wide world & beyond.
  10. The midwife knows that when there is no pain, the way for the baby cannot be opened & the mother cannot give birth. Likewise, for a new self to be born, hardship is necessary. Just as clay needs to go through intense heat to become strong, love can only be perfected in pain.
  11. The quest for love changes us. There is no seeker among those who search for love who has not matured on the way. The moment you start looking for love, you start to change within & without.
  12. There are more fake gurus & false teachers in this world than the number of stars in the visible universe. Don’t confuse power-driven, self-centred people with true mentors. A genuine spiritual master will not direct your attention to himself or herself & will not expect absolute obedience or utter admiration from you, but instead will help you to appreciate & admire your inner self. True mentors are as transparent as glass. They let the light of god pass through them.
  13. Try not to resist the changes which come your way. Instead let life live through you. And do not worry that your life is turning upside down. How do you know that the side you are used to is better than the one to come?
  14. God is busy with the completion of your work, both outwardly & inwardly. He is fully occupied with you. Every human being is a work in progress that is slowly but inexorably moving toward perfection. We are each an unfinished work of art both waiting & striving to be completed. God deals with each of us separately because humanity is fine art of skilled penmanship where every single dot is equally important for the entire picture.
  15. It’s easy to love a perfect god, unblemished & infallible that he is. What is far more difficult is to love fellow human beings with all their imperfections & defects. Remember, one can only know what one is capable of loving. There is no wisdom without love. Unless we learn to love God’s creation, we can neither truly love nor truly know God.
  16. Real filth is the one inside. The rest simply washes off. There is only one type of dirt that cannot be cleansed with pure waters, & that is the stain of hatred & bigotry contaminating the soul. You can purify your body through abstinence & fasting, but only love will purify your heart.
  17. The whole universe is contained within a single human being - you. Everything that you see around you, including the things that you might not be fond of & even the people you despise or abhor, is present within you in varying degrees. Therefore, do not look for Sheitan outside yourself either. The devil is not an extraordinary force that attacks from without. It is an ordinary voice within. If you set to know yourself fully, facing with honesty & hardness.
  18. If you want to change the ways others treat you, you should first change the way you treat yourself. Unless you learn to love yourself, fully & sincerely, there is no way you can be loved. Once you achieve that stage, however, be thankful for every thorn that others might throw at you. It is a sign that you will soon be showered in roses.
  19. Fret not where the road will take you. Instead concentrate on the first step. That is the hardest part & that is what you are responsible for. Once you take that step let everything do what it naturally does & the rest will follow. Don’t go with the flow. Be the flow.
  20. We were all created in his image, & yet we were each created different & unique. No two people are alike. No hearts beat to the same rhythm. If god had wanted everyone to be the same, he would have made it so. Therefore, disrespecting differences & imposing your thoughts on others is an amount to disrespecting god’s holy scheme.
  21. When a true lover of God goes into a tavern, the tavern becomes his chamber of prayer, but when a winebibber goes into the same chamber, it becomes his tavern. In everything we do, it is our hearts that make the difference, not our outer appearance. Sufis do not judge other people on how they look or who they are. When a Sufi stares at someone, he keeps both eyes closed instead opens a third eye – the eye that sees the inner realm.
  22. Life is a temporary loan & this world is nothing but a sketchy imitation of reality. Only children would mistake a toy for the real thing. And yet human beings either become infatuated with the toy or disrespectfully break it & throw it aside. In this life stay away from all kinds of extremities, for they will destroy your inner balance. Sufis do not go to extremes. A Sufi always remains mild & moderate.
  23. The human being has a unique place among God’s creation. “I breathed into him of my spirit,” god says. Each & every one of us without exception is designed to be God’s delegate on earth. Ask yourself, just how often do you behave like a delegate, if you ever do so? Remember, it falls upon each of us to discover the divine spirit inside & live by it.
  24. Hell is in the here & now. So is heaven. Quit worrying about hell or dreaming about heaven, as they are both present inside this very moment. Every time we fall in love, we ascend to heaven. Every time we hate, envy, or fight someone we tumble straight into the fires of hell.
  25. Each & every reader comprehends the holy Qur’an on a different level of tandem with the depth of his understanding. There are four levels of insight. The first level is the outer meaning & it is the one that the majority of the people are content with. Next is the Batin – the inner level. Third, there is the inner of the inner. And the fourth level is so deep it cannot be put into words & is therefore bound to remain indescribable.
  26. The universe is one being. Everything & everyone is interconnected through an invisible web of stories. Whether we are aware of it or not, we are all in a silent conversation. Do no harm. Practice compassion. And do not gossip behind anyone’s back - not even a seemingly innocent remark! The words that come out of our mouths do not vanish but are perpetually stored in infinite space & they will come back to us in due time. One man’s pain will hurt us all. One man’s joy will make everyone smile.
  27. Whatever you speak, good or evil, will somehow come back to you. Therefore, if there is someone who harbours ill thoughts about you, saying similarly bad things about him will only make matters worse. You will be locked in a vicious circle of malevolent energy. Instead for forty days & nights say & think nice things about that person. Everything will be different at the end of 40 days, because you will be different inside.
  28. The past is an interpretation. The future is an illusion. The world does not move through time as if it were a straight line, proceeding from the past to the future. Instead time moves through & within us, in endless spirals. Eternity does not mean infinite time, but simply timelessness. If you want to experience eternal illumination, put the past & the future out of your mind & remain within the present moment.
  29. Destiny doesn’t mean that your life has been strictly predetermined. Therefore, to live everything to the fate & to not actively contribute to the music of the universe is a sign of sheer ignorance. The music of the universe is all pervading & it is composed on 40 different levels. Your destiny is the level where you play your tune. You might not change your instrument but how well to play is entirely in your hands.
  30. The true Sufi is such that even when he is unjustly accused, attacked, & condemned from all sides, he patiently endures, uttering not a single bad word about any of his critics. A Sufi never apportions blame. How can there be opponents or rivals or even “others” when there is no “self” in the first place? How can there be anyone to blame when there is only one?
  31. If you want to strengthen your faith, you will need to soften inside. For your faith to be rock solid, your heart needs to be as soft as a feather. Through an illness, accident, loss, or fright, one way or another, we are all faced with incidents that teach us how to become less selfish & judgemental, & more compassionate & generous. Yet some of us learn the lesson & manage to become milder, while some others end up becoming even harsher than before.
  32. Nothing should stand between you & god. No imams, priests, rabbis or any other custodians of moral or religious leadership. Not spiritual masters & not even your faith. Believe in your values & your rules, but never lord them over others. If you keep breaking other people’s hearts, whatever religious duty you perform is no good. Stay away from all sorts of idolatry, for they will blur your vision. Let god & only god be your guide. Learn the truth, my friend, but be careful not to make a fetish out of your truths.
  33. While everyone in this world strives to get somewhere & become someone, only to leave it all behind after death, you aim for the supreme stage of nothingness. Live this life as light & empty as the number zero. We are no different from a pot. It is not the decorations outside but the emptiness inside that holds us straight. Just like that, it is not what we aspire to achieve but the consciousness of nothingness that keeps us going.
  34. Submission does not mean being weak or passive. It leads to neither fatalism nor capitulation. Just the opposite. True power resides in submission to a power that comes within. Those who submit to the divine essence of life will live in unperturbed tranquillity & peace even the whole wide world goes through turbulence after turbulence.
  35. In this world, it is not similarities or regularities that take us a step forward, but blunt opposites. And all the opposites in the universe are present within each & every one of us. Therefore the believer needs to meet the unbeliever residing within. And the non-believer should get to know the silent faithful in him. Until the day one reaches the stage of Insan-I Kamil, the perfect human being, faith is a gradual process & one that necessitates its seeming opposite: disbelief.
  36. This world is erected upon the principle of reciprocity. Neither a drop of kindness nor a speck of evil will remain unreciprocated. For not the plots, deceptions, or tricks of other people. If somebody is setting a trap, remember, so is god. He is the biggest plotter. Not even a leaf stirs outside god’s knowledge. Simply & fully believe in that. Whatever god does, he does it beautifully.
  37. God is a meticulous clock maker. So precise is his order that everything on earth happens in its own time. Neither a minute late nor a minute early. And for everyone without exception, the clock works accurately. For each there is a time to love & a time to die.
  38. It is never too late to ask yourself, “Am I ready to change the life I am living? Am I ready to change within?” Even if a single day in your life is the same as the day before, it surely is a pity. At every moment & with each new breath, one should be renewed & renewed again. There is only one-way to be born into a new life: to die before death.
  39. While the part change, the whole always remains the same. For every thief who departs this world, a new one is born. And every decent person who passes away is replaced by a new one. In this way not only does nothing remain the same but also nothing ever really changes. For every Sufi who dies, another is born somewhere.
  40. A life without love is of no account. Don’t ask yourself what kind of love you should seek, spiritual or material, divine or mundane, Eastern or Western. Divisions only lead to more divisions. Love has no labels, no definitions. It is what it is, pure & simple. Love is the water of life. And a lover is a soul of fire! The universe turns differently when fire loves water.
The universe is one being. Everything and everyone is interconnected through an invisible web of stories. Whether we are aware of it or not, we are all in a silent conversation. Do no harm. Practise compassion. And do not gossip behind anyone’s back - not even seemingly innocent remark! The words that come out of our mouth do not vanish but are perpetually stored in infinite space, and they will come back to us in due time. One man’s pain will hurt us all. One man’s joy will make everyone smile.
—  The Forty Rules of Love (Elif Shafak)

Not gonna lie with the world as it is right now I kiiiiind of need a hug and a pep talk and a jumbo-sized martini from the Duchess of Mandalore. 

anonymous asked:

I'm from Poland and even here all gossip sites took your words as a source haha 😂 If you'll ever get a chance to meet Taylor you should tell her about it. I think she would laugh

she would never believe it!

Shams of Tabriz’s 40 Rules of Love

Rule 1

How we see God is a direct reflection of how we see ourselves. If God brings to mind mostly fear and blame, it means there is too much fear and blame welled inside us. If we see God as full of love and compassion, so are we.

Rule 2

The path to the Truth is a labour of the heart, not of the head. Make your heart your primary guide! Not your mind. Meet, challenge and ultimately prevail over your nafs with your heart. Knowing your ego will lead you to the knowledge of God.

Rule 3

You can study God through everything and everyone in the universe, because God is not confined in a mosque, synagogue or church. But if you are still in need of knowing where exactly His abode is, there is only one place to look for him: in the heart of a true lover.

Rule 4

Intellect and love are made of different materials. Intellect ties people in knots and risks nothing, but love dissolves all tangles and risks everything. Intellect is always cautious and advices, ‘Beware too much ecstasy’, whereas love says, ‘Oh, never mind! Take the plunge!’ Intellect does not easily break down, whereas love can effortlessly reduce itself to rubble. But treasures are hidden among ruins. A broken heart hides treasures.

Rule 5

Most of problems of the world stem from linguistic mistakes and simple misunderstanding. Don’t ever take words at face value. When you step into the zone of love, language, as we know it becomes obsolete. That which cannot be put into words can only be grasped through silence.

Rule 6

Loneliness and solitude are two different things. When you are lonely, it is easy to delude yourself into believing that you are on the right path. Solitude is better for us, as it means being alone without feeling lonely. But eventually it is the best to find a person who will be your mirror. Remember only in another person’s heart can you truly see yourself and the presence of God within you.

Rule 7

Whatever happens in your life, no matter how troubling things might seem, do not enter the neighbourhood of despair. Even when all doors remain closed, God will open up a new path only for you. Be thankful! It is easy to be thankful when all is well. A Sufi is thankful not only for what he has been given but also for all that he has been denied.

Rule 8

Patience does not mean to passively endure. It means to look at the end of a process. What does patience mean? It means to look at the thorn and see the rose, to look at the night and see the dawn. Impatience means to be shortsighted as to not be able to see the outcome. The lovers of God never run out of patience, for they know that time is needed for the crescent moon to become full.

Rule 9

East, west, south, or north makes little difference. No matter what your destination, just be sure to make every journey a journey within. If you travel within, you’ll travel the whole wide world and beyond.

Rule 10

The midwife knows that when there is no pain, the way for the baby cannot be opened and the mother cannot give birth. Likewise, for a new self to be born, hardship is necessary. Just as clay needs to go through intense heat to become strong, Love can only be perfected in pain.

Rule 11

The quest for love changes user. There is no seeker among those who search for love who has not matured on the way. The moment you start looking for love, you start to change within and without.

Rule 12

There are more fake gurus and false teachers in this world than the number of stars in the visible universe. Don’t confuse power-driven, self-centered people with true mentors. A genuine spiritual master will not direct your attention to himself or herself and will not expect absolute obedience or utter admiration from you, but instead will help you to appreciate and admire your inner self. True mentors are as transparent as glass. They let the light of God pass through them.

Rule 13

Try not to resist the changes, which come your way. Instead let life live through you. And do not worry that your life is turning upside down. How do you know that the side you are used to is better than the one to come?

Rule 14

God is busy with the completion of your work, both outwardly and inwardly. He is fully occupied with you. Every human being is a work in progress that is slowly but inexorably moving toward perfection. We are each an unfinished work of art both waiting and striving to be completed. God deals with each of us separately because humanity is fine art of skilled penmanship where every single dot is equally important for the entire picture.

Rule 15

It’s easy to love a perfect God, unblemished and infallible that He is. What is far more difficult is to love fellow human being with all their imperfections and defects. Remember, one can only know what one is capable of loving. There is no wisdom without love. Unless we learn to love God’s creation, we can neither truly love nor truly know God.

Rule 16

Real faith is the one inside. The rest simply washes off. There is only one type of dirt that cannot be cleansed with pure water, and that is the stain of hatred and bigotry contaminating the soul. You can purify your body through abstinence and fasting, but only love will purify your heart.

Rule 17

The whole universe is contained within a single human being-you. Everything that you see around, including the things that you might not be fond of and even the people you despise or abhor, is present within you in varying degrees. Therefore, do not look for Sheitan outside yourself either. The devil is not an extraordinary force that attacks from without. It is an ordinary voice within. If you set to know yourself fully, facing with honesty and hardness.

Rule 18

If you want to change the ways others treat you, you should first change the way you treat yourself, fully and sincerely, there is no way you can be loved. Once you achieve that stage, however, be thankful for every thorn that others might throw at you. It is a sign that you will soon be showered in roses.

Rule 19

Fret not where the road will take you. Instead concentrate on the first step. That is the hardest part and that is what you are responsible for. Once you take that step let everything do what it naturally does and the rest will follow. Don’t go with the flow. Be the flow.

Rule 20

We were all created in His image, and yet we were each created different and unique. No two people are alike. No hearts beat to the same rhythm. If God had wanted everyone to be the same, He would have made it so. Therefore, disrespecting differences and imposing your thoughts on others is an amount to disrespecting God’s holy scheme.

Rule 21

When a true lover of God goes into a tavern, the tavern becomes his chamber of prayer, but when a wine bibber goes into the same chamber, it becomes his tavern. In everything we do, it is our hearts that make the difference, not our outer appearance. Sufis do not judge other people on how they look or who they are. When a Sufi stares at someone, he keeps both eyes closed instead opens a third eye – the eye that sees the inner realm.

Rule 22

Life is a temporary loan and this world is nothing but a sketchy imitation of Reality. Only children would mistake a toy for the real thing. And yet human beings either become infatuated with the toy or disrespectfully break it and throw it aside. In this life stay away from all kinds of extremities, for they will destroy your inner balance. Sufis do not go to extremes. A Sufi always remains mild and moderate.

Rule 23

The human being has a unique place among God’s creation. “I breathed into him of My Spirit,” God says. Each and every one of us without exception is designed to be God’s delegate on earth. Ask yourself, just how often do you behave like a delegate, if you ever do so? Remember, it fells upon each of us to discover the divine spirit inside and live by it.

Rule 24

Hell is in the here and now. So is heaven. Quit worrying about hell or dreaming about heaven, as they are both present inside this very moment. Every time we fall in love, we ascend to heaven. Every time we hate, envy or fight someone we tumble straight into the fires of hell.

Rule 25

Each and every reader comprehends the Holy Qur’an on a different level of tandem with the depth of his understanding. There are four levels of insight. The first level is the outer meaning and it is the one that the majority of the people are content with. Next is the Batin – the inner level. Third, there is the inner of the inner. And the fourth level is so deep it cannot be put into words and is therefore bound to remain indescribable.

Rule 26

The universe is one being. Everything and everyone is interconnected through an invisible web of stories. Whether we are aware of it or not, we are all in a silent conversation. Do no harm. Practice compassion. And do not gossip behind anyone’s back – not even a seemingly innocent remark! The words that come out of our mouths do not vanish but are perpetually stored in infinite space and they will come back to us in due time. One man’s pain will hurt us all. One man’s joy will make everyone smile.

Rule 27

Whatever you speak, good or evil, will somehow come back to you. Therefore, if there is someone who harbours ill thoughts about you, saying similarly bad things about him will only make matters worse. You will be locked in a vicious circle of malevolent energy. Instead for forty days and nights say and think nice things about that person. Everything will be different at the end of 40 days, because you will be different inside.

Rule 28

The past is an interpretation. The future is on illusion. The world does not more through time as if it were a straight line, proceeding from the past to the future. Instead time moves through and within us, in endless spirals. Eternity does not mean infinite time, but simply timelessness. If you want to experience eternal illumination, put the past and the future out of your mind and remain within the present moment.

Rule 29

Destiny doesn’t mean that your life has been strictly predetermined. Therefore, to live everything to the fate and to not actively contribute to the music of the universe is a sign of sheer ignorance. The music of the universe is all pervading and it is composed on 40 different levels. Your destiny is the level where you play your tune. You might not change your instrument but how well to play is entirely in your hands.

Rule 30

The true Sufi is such that even when he is unjustly accused, attacked and condemned from all sides, he patiently endures, uttering not a sing bad word about any of his critics. A Sufi never apportions blame. How can there be opponents or rivals or even “others” when there is no “self” in the first place? How can there be anyone to blame when there is only One?

Rule 31

If you want to strengthen your faith, you will need to soften inside. For your faith to be rock solid, your heart needs to be as soft as a feather. Through an illness, accident, loss or fright, one way or another, we are all faced with incidents that teach us how to become less selfish and judgmental and more compassionate and generous. Yet some of us learn the lesson and manage to become milder, while some others end up becoming even harsher than before…

Rule 32

Nothing should stand between you and God. No imams, priests, rabbits or any other custodians of moral or religious leadership. Not spiritual masters and not even your faith. Believe in your values and your rules, but never lord them over others. If you keep breaking other people’s hearts, whatever religious duty you perform is no good. Stay away from all sorts of idolatry, for they will blur your vision. Let God and only God be your guide. Learn the Truth, my friend, but be careful not to make a fetish out of your truths.

Rule 33

While everyone in this world strives to get somewhere and become someone, only to leave it all behind after death, you aim for the supreme stage of nothingness. Live this life as light and empty as the number zero. We are no different from a pot. It is not the decorations outside but the emptiness inside that holds us straight. Just like that, it is not what we aspire to achieve but the consciousness of nothingness that keeps us going.

Rule 34

Submission does not mean being weak or passive. It leads to neither fatalism nor capitulation. Just the opposite. True power resides in submission a power that comes within. Those who submit to the divine essence of life will live in unperturbed tranquillity and peace even the whole wide world goes through turbulence after turbulence.

Rule 35

In this world, it is not similarities or regularities that take us a step forward, but blunt opposites. And all the opposites in the universe are present within each and every one of us. Therefore the believer needs to meet the unbeliever residing within. And the nonbeliever should get to know the silent faithful in him. Until the day one reaches the stage of Insane-I Kamil, the perfect human being, faith is a gradual process and one that necessitates its seeming opposite: disbelief.

Rule 36

This world is erected upon the principle of reciprocity. Neither a drop of kindness nor a speck of evil will remain unreciprocated. For not the plots, deceptions, or tricks of other people. If somebody is setting a trap, remember, so is God. He is the biggest plotter. Not even a leaf stirs outside God’s knowledge. Simply and fully believe in that. Whatever God does, He does it beautifully.

Rule 37

God is a meticulous dock maker. So precise is His order that everything on earth happens in its own time. Neither a minute late nor a minute early. And for everyone without exception, the clock works accurately. For each there is a time to love and a time to die.

Rule 38

It is never too late to ask yourself, “Am I ready to change the life I am living? Am I ready to change within?” Even if a single day in your life is the same as the day before, it surely is a pity. At every moment and with each new breath, one should be renewed and renewed again. There is only one-way to be born into a new life: to die before death.

Rule 39

While the part change, the whole always remains the same. For every thief who departs this world, a new one is born. And every descent person who passes away is replaced by a new one. In this way not only does nothing remain the same but also nothing ever really changes. For every Sufi who dies, another is born somewhere.

Rule 40

A life without love is of no account. Don’t ask yourself what kind of love you should seek, spiritual or material, divine or mundane, Eastern or Western. Divisions only lead to more divisions. Love has no labels, no definitions. It is what it is, pure and simple. Love is the water of life. And a lover is a soul of fire! The universe turns differently when fire loves water.

—  The Forty Rules of Love by Elif Shafak
☩ Examination of Conscience ☩

based on the Seven Deadly Sins

Sins of omission may be more serious than sins of commission: “In what I have done, and in what I have failed to do” - Have I omitted to say my prayers? Have I omitted to look for and respond to the needs of family? “In thought, word, and deed” - Even if I did not gossip in word, did I judge someone in thought? Each area of my life should be considered: e.g. My family, my friends, my work, my prayer, those I work and live with, etc.

Pride (ST II-II q162) is the mother of all sin. It is a craving for excellence beyond what is reasonable. It makes a person hate being equal to others, and hate being less than God. ☧ Have I refused to admit my own weaknesses? ☧ Have I dwelt on the failings of others? ☧ Have I judged others, in my thoughts or words? ☧ Have I ranked myself better than others? ☧ Have I borne hated for another? ☧ Have I refused to learn from others? ☧ Have I been stubborn? Refused to admit I was wrong? ☧ Have I been arrogant? Have I held others in contempt? ☧ Pusillanimity is the opposite of pride. False-humility fails to use our gifts. ☧ Have I neglected to use the talents that God has given me? Vanity (ST II-II q132) is excessive concern about manifesting my glory before others. ☧ Have I been overly concerned about what others think of me? Have I allowed this to motivate my actions? ☧ Have I lied or exaggerated to make myself look good? ☧ Have I wasted undue time and money on clothes and appearance? ☧ Have I been content with my lowly position, or have I resented the role that Christ asks of me?

Lust (ST II-II q.153; CCC 2351) is disordered desire for sexual pleasure, isolated from its procreative and unitive purpose (CCC 2351). Custody of the Eyes: “Whoever looks at a woman with lust for her has already committed adultery with her in his heart” (Mt 5:28). ☧ Have I viewed other people as mere sexual objects rather than as persons to be loved? ☧ Pornography: On internet? or TV? ☧ Impure Thoughts: Have I entertained impure thoughts? ☧ Impure Acts: Alone, or with another?

Anger or Wrath (ST II-II q158) is undue desire for vengeance -undue in cause or in amount. ☧ Have I harbored resentment, grudges, and hatred in my thoughts? ☧ Have I nurtured imaginary angry conversations? ☧ Have I been slow to forgive? Have I lost my temper? ☧ Impatience: How have I carried my cross? Have I been impatient with people, family, events, sufferings, sicknesses?

Avarice or Covetousness (ST II-II q118) is the excessive love of possessing things. ☧ Have I been overly concerned about my own comfort and well-being? ☧ Have I been resentful of my lack of money? ☧ Have I been generous in giving? Have I given with a cheerful heart? ☧ Have I cheated, stolen, or failed to pay my bills on time? ☧ Have I used people for my own ends and advantage? ☧ Have I wasted money?

Envy (ST II-II q36) is sadness at the happiness of another. Jealousy is coveting what belongs to another. ☧ Have I envied or been jealous of the abilities, talents, ideas, good-looks, intelligence, clothes, possessions, money, friends, family, of another? ☧ Gossip: Have I judged others in my thoughts? ☧ Have I damaged the reputation of another person by my words, attitude, or looks? ☧ Have I repeated accusations that might not be true? Have I exaggerated? ☧ Have I failed to defend the reputation of others? ☧ Have I failed to keep secrets? ☧ Do I despise others of different race, class or culture?☧ Lies: Have I lied or exaggerated?

Apathy (ST II-II q35) is laziness, especially laziness in the things of God. Sloth is a sorrow in the face of spiritual good; it makes a person lethargic and want to do nothing. ☧ Have I sought God above all else, or have I put other priorities ahead of him? (e.g. friendships, ambition, comfort and ease) ☧ Have I got so caught up in the things of this world that I’ve forgotten God? ☧ Have I risked losing my faith or piety by bad company or reading? ☧ Have I trusted God, especially in times of difficulty? ☧ Have I attended Mass each and every Sunday? ☧ Have I neglected to say my daily prayers? ☧ Have I entertained distractions in prayer or in the Mass? ☧ Have I received Holy Communion while in a state of serious sin? ☧ Have I taken the Lord’s name in vain or used other foul language? ☧ My Neighbor: Have I been attentive to the needs of my neighbor, the needs of my family? ☧ Has my conversation been focused on my own pleasure, or on others? ☧ Has my humor been insensitive to others? ☧ My Family: Have I spent time with and shown concern for my family? Have I been forgiving and tolerant of them? Have I scandalized them by a bad or lazy example? ☧ Punctuality and Discipline: Have I sinned against my neighbor by being late, or against God and the congregation by being late for Mass? ☧ Have I wasted time needlessly? ☧ Have I planned good use of relaxation and recreation, knowing that I need to rest well?

Gluttony (ST II-II q148) is the inordinate desire for food. ☧ Have I eaten more than I need? To how serious an extent? ☧ Have I spent excessive money on food? ☧ Have I drunk alcohol excessively? ☧ Have driven after drinking? ☧ Have I eaten greedily and with little consideration for the presence and needs of those at table with me? ☧ Have I given money to help the hungry? ☧ Have I regularly practiced fasting and self-denial, especially on Fridays? ☧ Have I always fasted an hour before receiving Holy Communion at Mass?

“The universe is one being. Everything and everyone is interconnected through an invisible web of stories. Whether we are aware of it or not, we are all in a silent conversation. Do no harm. Practice compassion. And do not gossip behind anyone’s back – not even a seemingly innocent remark! The words that come out of our mouths do not vanish but are perpetually stored in infinite space and they will come back to us in due time. One man’s pain will hurt us all. One man’s joy will make everyone smile.“

- Shams of Tabriz

‘Bullying’ isn’t just a big kid at school that picks on little kids. The deepest and darkest examples of bullying go unseen and unnoticed. They are found in the most harmless corners. A quick word of gossip about a “fat” friend. A “basic” girl. We all fall victim to becoming a bully. It’s so easy to utter a negative word about another person, yet the results can be devastating. We all talk about anti-bullying and how it’s not ok, and that’s great, but I feel the issue has far deeper roots. Gossiping = bullying in its most serious form. I find myself gossiping due to my own insecurities. It stems from a weak place and leaves me only feeling weaker afterward. I find deep and powerful strength in seeing the good in everyone. Be a powerful human being. See everyone as yourself. A human being searching for peace in what can be a very difficult and confusing life. I say this from a place of great imperfection. I am no master of this concept, but I believe that the first step is always acknowledgment. Acknowledging that it’s NOT ok to judge someone based upon their sexual orientation. Their religion. Their looks. Their mental ability. Their race. Class. Weight. Hobbies. Dreams. Musical taste. How 'hip’ you think they are/aren’t. The list is endless. To judge is to bully. The result of bullying? The girl that is told she’s “basic” spends the next year of her life cutting herself. maybe committing suicide even. The weight of words/gossip/negativity is the heaviest of all. It changes how we see ourselves, though it’s a false representation. The truth is we are all so damn beautiful and thankfully, unique. Otherwise this would be a really boring world to live in. Embrace your differences. Shine a light on them for the world to see. Don’t hide.
—  Dan Reynolds’s rant on bullying on Twitter (@DanReynolds)

anonymous asked:

hELLO can I have s/o inviting Hanamiya and his mother to dinner on christmas eve and s/o's parents and his mom hit it off and soon they're just blabbering about their children and s/o and Hanamiya are at first amused but 20 minutes in they're like "s t o p"

It was cute watching the two older women interact, sitting close together as if they’d known each other their entire lives. The room was filled with small laughter and quiet gossip, the warmth of their words spreading into the atmosphere. And even with the absence of Hanamiya’s father, your dad still found comfort and enjoyment in chatting with the two mothers in the room.

“I’ve never seen her smile so much in one night.”

Sitting to your left, Hanamiya leaned back on the sofa as he watched his mom. His face was far from the picture of smiles and serenity that you would imagine during the holiday season, but his tone and posture still held a sense of peace. Though he’d never tell you outright, he really was happy you’d decided to invite his mom to your family’s Christmas Eve dinner.

“I’m glad she could make it,” you replied, taking a sip from the nearly scalding hot chocolate you had made earlier that night. “I think this is the first time our parents have properly met. Your mom is always working.”

“She has to,” Hanamiya agreed. For a moment, you could almost hear the sense of guilt in his words, but he’s quick to brush it off with his next sentence. “It’s like they’re our age.”

At your questioning look, Hanamiya nods his head in the parents’ direction. You glance over to see them hovering over your mother’s phone, likely looking at a couple photographs she’d taken over the past few months. Hanamiya’s mom had her hand over her mouth, stifling the smile and laughter that threatened to bubble through too loudly.

“You’re so lucky he stands still long enough for you to get a decent picture,” she gushed. “Makoto won’t even let me take a picture of just himself, let alone one of him and ____ together.

“You know how shy teenage boys can be,” your own mother laughed. “Speaking of shy, let me show you some pictures of ____ as a child. Oh, they’re just the most adorable things.”

You nearly spat your hot chocolate out as you watched your mother stand before leading the other woman out of the room. Setting the cup down, you followed after them with hasty steps. Surely your mom wouldn’t be able to find the photo albums in the spot you’d hidden them last, right? Right?!

“Mom, please don’t bring that dusty old book out again!”

Hanamiya laughed at your misfortune, remembering when your mother had pulled out the same book when he first came over for dinner. Sitting back on the sofa alone, he decided to relax and watch the chaos unfold. That was, until his mother chimed in with, “I have a couple photos of Makoto as a kid on my phone, too. I can show you those.”

“Wait, what? Mom, no!”

latenightglowflies-deactivated2  asked:

Can I ask for Kise seeing a false article about him doing something scandalous and he tries to earn his S/O but they've already seen it and he has to win them back? :)

so this turned out longer than expected.. also.. kind of.. angsty? there’s a happy ending?? kind of??? idk i’m not very good at sticking to the plan


People’s voices were everywhere. Kise was used to hearing them; being a model meant people were talking about him, around him, to him, pretty much all the time. Over the years, he had learnt to filter people and their voices, hear only the voices he wanted to hear. He didn’t need people speaking to him unnecessarily, influencing him. Today was a little different.

People all around him were staring, pointing, scoffing in- disgust? He may have forgotten to iron his shirt, but he wasn’t expecting this many people to notice… The voices seemed a little louder today, he was having difficulty filtering them out. They were invading his thoughts; like worms burrowing into his brain, their words hit him like they never had before.

“How could he do that?”
“I thought he loved them…”
“Well, it’s only to be expected of a model, right?”
“Yeah, there’s no way he’d stay faithful!”

Confused, Kise turned to the group of gossiping students - they weren’t even trying to lower their voices in his presence, words grating in Kise’s mind.

“Hey!” He called out to them, voice ringing above the commotion of the school hallway. “What’re you talking about?” Upon realising exactly who it was addressing them, Kise would have expected them to scatter, shocked at the subject of their gossip overhearing them; rather, they simply stared, noses upturned.

“Oh please, don’t act all ignorant, Kise.” He knew this girl - she was usually so kind towards him… What had happened? “You’ve probably broken _____’s heart, you can’t act perfect any more.” Her tone was biting, words spat out with a clear intention to hurt him.

“How can-”

“Look.” The magazine that she presented halted Kise’s speech. He felt his blood run cold as he took in the image, the words printed in bold, red letters.

HIGH SCHOOL MODEL KISE RYOUTA - GOLDEN BOY, OR BAD BOY?

As if the hideously tacky print wasn’t enough, there, beneath the headline, was a blurred series of images, all of him in various provocative positions with one of his female colleagues; him getting into a car with her, hugging her – in a more than friendly manner –, kissing her…

“This isn’t real.” Kise felt dizzy, cold sweat breaking out across his body, sharp pain shooting down his spin. “This isn’t real.” He reaffirmed, but his voice cracked, and his words sounded like a childish plea. He could see the doubt, the disbelief, in everyone’s eyes, and the realisation hit him like a brick: This was why everyone was looking at him earlier. This was why their voices were reaching him… “This isn’t real.”


By the time he’d managed to gather himself enough to face you, classes had already started - not that Kise was going. He hadn’t even seen you, there was no way he was going to step into a classroom, cut himself off from you for the whole day; not without explaining first. Explaining that, somehow, that article wasn’t real. It wasn’t. He had no idea how the press had fabricated pictures like those, but he knew for certain that they weren’t real.

“____!!” Never before had he been so grateful for his long, powerful legs - he had managed to reach you just before you stepped over the boundary of the classroom. “____!!” Out of breath as he was, Kise called for you at the top of his lungs, his voice resonating in the now near-empty corridor. He knew you could hear him. He saw your fist clench around your notebook. He saw your tongue wet your lips, your jaw clench.

He saw you glance at him; just for a moment. One second longer, he remained hopeful that maybe you were just having a bad day, that you didn’t have the energy to ‘deal with him’ – something he’d been told before – today. You took one step across the threshold of the classroom, and slammed the door behind you. Kise knew hoping was futile.

“____…” In your stead lay the very same magazine that had fueled his mad sprint to find you - the same magazine you had been holding and, no doubt, reading, moments before you stepped into the classroom. 

You thought it was real. How could you not? The images were so realistic, so well done. Even you, who knew Kise better than anyone, couldn’t discredit the images.

“They aren’t real, ____…” His please fell onto the cold tiles of the corridor - not that you would have heard him, had you been here. “They aren’t real.”

He could have remained there until you got out of class, surrendered himself to these falsified images, this incorrect image portrayed by someone who surely intended to poison the minds of those who loved him most. He could have. But there was no way that he was letting something as petty as this ruin your relationship.

Kise Ryouta loved you more than anything, and he would prove it. His feelings for you were real - they wouldn’t be shattered by some forged lies.

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Can't stand it!

An Aries can handle brutal honesty (even if their ego may get bruised), they can handle confrontation, drama, and even your mistakes as long as you apologize, but they cannot handle lies.

 A Taurus can handle almost all of your flaws, impatience, jealousy, white lies, mean comments, and some asshole actions but when you are disloyal or betray them then they put their foot down.

 A Gemini can handle gossip, some mean words, maybe even some back-stab comments, forgetfulness, and rudeness but if you start messing with their insecurities or if you take away what are theirs (a reputation, lover, friend, position, etc.) then it is war.

 A Cancer can be super sensitive to a lot of things but they are enduring to mistakes someone makes to themselves and mistakes through ignorance, but betrayal and being used will not be stand.

 A Leo is okay with someone being distant, tactless, a cry baby, or someone who is always asking for favors but they hate awkwardness, rudeness, someone ignoring them, and downright meanness.

 A Virgo can withstand almost any mistake as long as you apologize and admit they were right, they are okay with your emotions, control, jealousy, but messiness can annoy them and they can’t stand it when someone forgets them, ignores them, or uses them.

 A Libra can easily get annoyed or hurt by someone, they can tolerate some emotional out-burst as long as it is not too intense, lying can be forgiven at times, so can some gossip or talking behind their back but conflict, rudeness, bias, and someone who smells bad can get to them.

 A Scorpio can handle almost anything you throw at them but when you break their trust it is over forever.

 A Sagittarius is good at handling people’s restlessness, honesty, impatience, and criticism but smothering, emotions, bossiness, and restrictions they do not deal with.

 A Capricorn can handle a lot of your flaws, they will tolerate your emotions, and they can understand sensitivity but don’t ever disrespect them or mess with their pride.

 Aquarius can handle your quirks, oddities, some of your dirty laundry or skeletons in the closet, but they can’t stand close-mindedness or someone who constantly challenges their ideas.

 Pisces can handle a LOT but they cannot deal with someone who uses and abuses them over and over again.

The universe is one being. Everything and everyone is interconnected through an invisible web of stories. Whether we are aware of it or not, we are all in a silent conversation. Do no harm. Practice compassion. And do not gossip behind anyone’s back – not even a seemingly innocent remark! The words that come out of our mouths do not vanish but are perpetually stored in infinite space and they will come back to us in due time. One man’s pain will hurt us all. One man’s joy will make everyone smile.
—  Shams Tabrizi
Strange Magic FanFic - “Raiment”

There’s wedding talk, and then there’s her sister already presenting her with Queen of the Dark Forest attire. Marianne tries on Dawn’s gift, and Bog wonders if he’s dreaming…


Part 8 of the Strange Hearts & Wild Things Timeline! Basically yet another excuse for me to describe Fairy Fashion to my hearts content. Suffice to say, Bog’s come a long way since Vesture, a fact that Marianne is endlessly delighted by, almost as delighted as Bog is by what new, delightful discovery awaits him courtesy of Marianne and Fairy clothing.

This work has no explicit content to it, but just as a warning, after this, the Timeline is going to get progressively more intense… 

As always, I hope you enjoy! 


The package lay innocently on the mossy covers of Bog’s bed, bound with a tender green vine, utterly inconspicuous.

Marianne eyed it as one seizing up a foe, arching a brow at it shrewdly. There was no way to know what it contained, no way to know what she would be asked to face.

Unless she quit the dramatics and just opened the damn thing.

Marianne sighed. Oh, Dawn, what were you playing at?

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