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Hello everyone!! It’s my first follow forever and I just want to say thank you for all the support I’ve gotten since I began writing! Everything from your messages and asks, to your likes and reblogs mean the the world to me, and I want to thank you for helping me reach my goals! Again, THANK YOU!

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519: Outlaw

I don’t want to talk about the Gor books.  I don’t think I need to talk about them – there’s plenty to mock in Outlaw without going into its source material.  Anyway, if I were going to talk about them I’d have to read them, and everything I’ve ever heard about them tells me that I definitely don’t want to do that.  They sound like a Fifty Shades of Grey for basement-dwelling misogynist nerd stereotypes.

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This is the face of the Insta fandom (Maddie stans in particular). They insult, fatshame, make racist comment all with the excuse “oh Nia stans are annoying” they say all of this is taken “out of context” but which context makes it okay to be a racist?? The “annoying stan” they keep talking about is Niadefender I have seen her blog and basicly the reason they hate her is because she had the nerve to compare The legend and godess Maddie Ziegeler to the poor proletarian Nia. I don’t agree with everything she says but never have I ever seen her post anything to unleash this type of hate on Nia. I don’t care who you have beef with how is Nia part of this? Did she make the account? Does she know the owner? No! If any of those idiots see this I want them to send me a message personaly that explains how Nia deserves this because you don’t like 1 or more of her stans. She is not their mother she doesn’t have any controle over them. If you come up with some dumb excuse like “I don’t like her dancing” you can start explaining how you hate every single person in the world who’s dancing you don’t like and deserves to be personally attacked. And If you your excuse is “it’s my opinion"my opinion is that you and your blog can go fuck yourself.

anonymous asked:

How about Hanzo branding tattooing fem!SO. Maybe after the SO escapes and he wants to take extra precautions to keep her his. If you feeling it it can be noncon too but you probably have a bunch of noncon request so I don't mind if you don't make it noncon.(I love your blog btw)

Hanzo: 

It wasn’t the first time you had been able to escape from his grasp but Hanzo was determined to make it the last time. 

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I want Zeno to mess with Mizari’s mind using his devotion to Kouren. Like, “Okay, kid, you can have a piece of me. You’ll gain everything I have. However, do you really want it? If you only want this to protect her, you will succeed, if only for so long as she lives. Then she’ll die. And you’ll remain here, in a world without your master forever and ever. You’ll have no reason to live, yet you won’t be able to die. No matter how hard you try. You won’t be able to be with her in heaven.”

Cas told Kelly that the her baby had shown her the future, and he smiled happily, hopefully. When he said this, the camera panned out to the Winchesters laying on the ground. So that means that the future looks bright and positive for Sam and Dean. And maybe for Claire, Jody, Alex, Donna, Mary…BUT I don’t think Cas will be part of it. He looked resigned but still content. Everything he has ever wanted since his relationship with the Winchesters grew closer is for them to be safe and happy and live a normal life. And for them to live a normal life, the supernatural has to disappear and Cas IS a supernatural creature.

I don’t know about you guys, but I don’t think out favorite angel will have a happy ending on earth with the Winchesters. Unless he chooses to become human (which I’m not so sure he would according to what Misha said at seacon about cas not fitting in and feeling like a weirdo). Maybe the gates of heaven will close forever and Cas will choose to stay there OR he’ll be killed off at the end of the series.

anonymous asked:

Maybe Zayn was just trying to brighten Ayesha's day by seeing the support from other people?! Money isn't everything and this fandom should know that by now I'm sure Louis paid for his mom to have the best treatments and unfortunately that wasn't enough. So maybe Zayn just wanted her to see how there were people around the world who cared. I would miss him terribly but if he ever decides that he wants to get out of the spotlight i wouldn't blame him this is too much!😔

I know! Andi wonder if all of those people hating on him have stopped and at least read what its on the gofundme description, it literally says a friend of hers paid for her travelling and accommodation where she has her treatment, do people not wonder maybe who’s friend that was?? Also it says that even if the money raised didn’t help her it was going to go to someone else who needed it too. I just don’t understand how this sweet gesture that zayn had towards a friend of his family can be used as a reason to hate on him. I just lost all hope in the people in the fandom and I’m so tired of seeing people call him all types of ugly when they glorify Louis or the other boys for the same. Like trying to save someone’s life or getting awareness for things such like cancer isn’t a fucking competition on who can do it and who can’t jfc

5 things that make me happy

Tagged by @dandelionandbuttercup and @ilonavic, thank you both very much! :3

Ok..that’s kinda hard to answer…

1. Friends, in real life and here on Tumblr :3 looking at you @annarieta

2. The Witcher :3 whenever someone mentions The Witcher I am getting soo happy :’D witcher is love, witcher is life…lol

3. Potop/ Ogniem i Mieczem..BEST FILMS EVER MADE!

Originally posted by smugglersshootfirst

I mean just look at precious Bohun! :3

4. Drawing..even tho I hate it, I love it with every piece of my heart and I want to get better at it

5. Freedom. Just the feeling that I’m free from everything makes me happy

I tag these people. @lithialetheia, @ferelden-doglord, @annarieta and @vaporeox even tho I’m sure that she won’t do it

you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to, of course ^^

anonymous asked:

I truly hope that Harry and his band have the time of their lives on tour. I hope it's everything he'd ever hoped it would be and more. I hope they drink, and get rowdy when they're out to dinner as a group. I hope Harry belly-laughs on stage every night. I hope he tells stupid jokes and that he laughs harder at himself than anyone else does. I seriously want him to enjoy this whole experience so much and that idea makes the fact that I may not get a ticket okay with me. He really deserves it.

He will….artists generally love playing small intimate venues as much as the fans do

anonymous asked:

I feel like if i let myself stim and be overwhelmed and just be disabled i wouldn't have survived what happened. It never stopped. Something new was always happening. But i feel more autistic than ever and i just wish i could have freely been disabled as a kid.

I am really glad that you said this because this right here is such a huge, huge, thing!

I get that parents want us to fit in with society, because that shit is hard, but the simple truth is we are disabled, and it is just as unrealistic to force us to be “normal” as it is to make us believe that we can overcome everything having to do with our disability.

If I had been allowed to be disabled, I would not have been undiagnosed for 35 years. Instead, I was blamed for my bad behavior. Nothing good came of it. I would have been much more successful in life if I had been given the opportunity to be the person I am now.

I think, ultimately, a lot of us would be more successful.

I’m sorry that you had to experience that as a child, and I am glad that you have finally been able to find yourself. 

Go gather your things (Part 2)

Originally posted by kristinamn

GIF not mine

Jackson Wittemore x Reader

Warnings : language

A/N : if this sequel disappoints you it’s not my fault .

Part 1

     I was stupid to do that . Stupid to let her go , to banish her , I knew from the very first time when she told me that she loves me that I don’t worth her but still I wanted to give it a try and it worked , it was the greatest time of my life but I was stupid enough to destroy everything . Acting childish and hurting her more than ever . And now I suffer even more because she is not here with me anymore , I don’t have her to support me , to give me strength , to love me even if I don’t worth it .

     I see her everyday , she’s with that boy whom she helped in the day when I broke up with her . At first I thought that she’s with him , that they are together but then he found himself a boyfriend and I realized how mistaken I was , now I regret everything , every single word in which I accused her of cheating on me , but more I regret the last words that she heard from me .

     ’Go gather your things .’ I said it as if she was some cheap whore and she just finished her work so I’m banishing her .

     I want so much to talk to her but I don’t think that she will accept me back. She is just unforgiving most of the time and I don’t even know if she is in her good mood or if I can get to her heart again but I’ll try to play it cool.


     Literature class starts and I’m more nervous than anytime . (Y/N) haves this class with me and I see her coming into the class , she looks for an empty place but the only one is next to me , her eyes meet mine and I’m paralyzed when I see so much hate and hurt in her eyes . Her body trembles and I can see a few tears dancing on her eyes , still she tries to be strong , and then she asks one of our class mates to change places . The boy accepts and I look at her furrowing my brows but she doesn’t answers me with nothing but a hurt glare .   

     I know that I broke her and this hurts me and it makes me hate myself more . I know that I’m an idiot but I’ll try to make it up to her because she is my world and if she doesn’t wants to be happy with me , I’ll let her free to be happy with someone else .


     “ Roy , come here !” I order as I see the boy going to his locker . He turns around and looks at me , his eyes full with anger .

     “ What do you want ?” he spats looking at me as if he hates me with all his heart .

     “ I need your help .” I confess , he looks at me shocked as if I just said that I’m actually a girl .

     “ I listen .” he says and I sigh in relief .

     “ I want to make it up to (Y/N) . Maybe you don’t believe me but I know that I was a dick and I want her back . I know how mistaken I was but I just want her back to me . If she doesn’t wants I’ll let her go but I just need to apologize .

     “ And how do you want to do that ?” he asks , curious about me wanting his friend back .

     “ I’ll see that . Just tell her to go meet you at the library after school .” 

     “ Okay , man . But if you hurt her again I swear that I’m going to kill you .” 


     I wait there for her . My hands are sweaty and I’m nervous . I don’t even know how she will react . I hear the door opening and I turn around to see her but she’s not surprised . I’m confused and she sees it .

     “ Roy told me that you want to speak with me . So what do you want ?” she says coldly trying to be the brave one but I know that she is really hurt and I can see that all that she wants is to leave this place already . I try to approach her but she lifts up her hand and tells me to stop right where I am but I don’t listen to her . i missed her to much so I walk until I am in front of her , and my hands wrap around her middle . I pull her in my arms and she sighs leaning in my touch .

     “ I’m sorry , I’m so sorry for being a dick and for saying all those things for not trusting you and for acting as if you’re like any other girl …” my voice breaks . (Y/N) pulls away and looks me in the eyes before her soft lips meet mine . We don’t rush and I don’t try to open her mouth .I kiss her slowly until I leave my mark on her , until she feels my love again , until we are one again.

anonymous asked:

Im sorry to bother you but you always say v nice things to people and I need to hear a Nice thing. Im currently 17 and I've never had my first kiss nor have I been in a relationship before and Im v afraid that there's no girl in the world that's ever gonna want to kiss me or love me in general and just ,, I need some reassuring that it's okay and not Weird. Because sometimes I forget.

hey pal!!!! sit down & listen up: i got u (ง •̀_•́)ง first of all this pal right here?? me?? 22 & nvr been kissed or dated. so u know ur not alone in that

listen ur 17 & everything is Big & Important bc that’s what ur emotions n ur brain tell u, everything feels super urgent & vital & all that but listen pal, u have so much time to do everything, to learn to grow to read books n see places n get a job n start a dozen hobbies n love people & they don’t tell u that when ur 17. we see all these movies where it ends in romance & sex & so much of everything is sexualised & hyper sexualised at the expense of emotions, at the expense of relationships outside of romantic, & the result of it is so much messed up shit including but not limited to ppl thinking that if they aren’t loved by a sexual partner that they’re worthless & it just isn’t true.

idk what the world has in store for u pal, idk when ur gonna be kissed or dated, but i think the most important things are 1) try not to dwell on it. make ur life full & warm & safe & happy all on ur own. make having a partner smth to bring u joy in addition to this, have someone to Share ur life with, not to make ur life about. & 2) make sure that when u get the opportunity to kiss someone, it’s definitely what u want. im Not saying u can’t kiss ppl just for fun, so long as u both know it’s just for fun, i just wanna say like don’t go letting someone kiss u bc u want to finally be kissed. it might not be true for everyone but i think it’s smth that should be rly nice & safe & enjoyable bc u want to connect w someone else, not bc u want to tick smth off on a bucket list yknow.

there are so many experiences that make up someone’s life & being kissed & going on dates are definitely supposed to be good & fun ones!!!! but there are others & they’re not worth less just bc they’re not romantic. ur not weird, ur great. love u pal 💕💕💕

anonymous asked:

The narcissism and victim complex of Scots is astounding. You think England secretly plotted to have you attempt to be a colonial power? Jesus Christ you lot really do have an explanation for everything bad Scotland has ever done. No True Scotsman indeed ;)

I think that England benefited from the financial weakening of Scotland. It’s one of many theories historians have. It’s not like there’s some conspiracy theory that England orchestrated the whole scheme intending to use it to take over Scotland, just that some historians suspect that there was some political opportunism at play. Like do you want to have an actual debate with me about Scottish history or do you just want to wine about what a narcissist I am?

Soft boys in flower crowns, this must be heaven (ᅌᴗᅌ✿) 

(Please, do not repost)

  • fanfic writer: *writing* Oh wow, they are going to love this. This is by far my best work!
  • fic: *witty lines* *perfect love making* *fluffy enough to kill us all* *a dash of angst, a smidgen of hurt/comfort*
  • fanfic writer: Oh man. This is it. This will be my legacy! *sweats into fic* *bleeds into fic* *cries into fic* *spends days perfecting the grammar and verbage and sex scenes* *has 15 betas look over it*
  • fanfic writer: Okay. It is finally time to release my baby on the world. Here you go fandom. You're welcome.
  • fandom: Ha, cute. *like* *kudos*
  • fanfic writer: :/
  • * * *
  • same fanfic writer: *writing* Whatever. This is shit, I don't even care right now. A singing squirrel? Sure, let's do it. Haha, cheesy lines that make no sense, sure. Grammatical errors out the wazoo? Why not. No one's going to read this piece of crap anyway, I literally wrote it on a scrap of 1 ply toilet paper with a broken yellow crayon.
  • fanfic writer: LOL *post*
  • fandom: OMG THIS IS THE BEST THING YOU HAVE EVER GRANTED US WITH, WHERE HAS THIS BEEN ALL MY LIFE, OMG, I NEED A SEQUEL IMMEDIATELY, PLEASE. WHAT THE. I'M NOT EVEN WORTHY. *kudosrebloglikereccomment*
  • fanfic writer: *sigh*
Renaissance Faire - Race and Culture

This month hosts The Renaissance Pleasure Faire in Los Angeles. For those of you who have never been to a Ren Faire, one of the key aspects of it is costume and dressing up. 

When I was in High School and would go with my High School friends, I was always a little jealous of the costumes that they would wear. All of my friends in High School you see, were white. The costumes that they would wear always looked right on them and somehow, wrong on me. 

One year, I took things into my own hands and decided to dress as a Chinese Peasant. I got a Rice Paddy hat from our local chinatown and a pretty drab and easy top and pants (I super wish I could find these photos for you guys)  

The effect worked, a lot of people noticed my costume and laughed at my little joke.

Still, I would look at my friends in their beautiful dresses and flower crowns and envy that they could easily slip into this land of make believe and I still felt a little bit like an outsider. 

I don’t believe that anyone particularly made me feel this way, it was just something that made me aware of my race when usually it’s something I don’t necessarily think about. 

So, I went and decided to just wear the ‘wrong’ feeling costumes anyways, it was all pretend and I could do anything I wanted. 

But this year, I decided to do something different. I did some research and found out that during the Elizabethan period, the Ming dynasty would have been in power. I did some research online and found myself a Ming Dynasty costume. 

It was everything I had ever wanted. I felt pretty, but also I felt like I belonged. I felt like I was able to share my culture and what was beautiful about that time period with people who didn’t know. A lot of people stopped me to ask about my costume! I wish I had known a little bit more about accurate construction or really, anything about the Ming Dynasty, but I still felt right in it. 

There are lots of cultures that existed during the Elizabethan era and I encourage any People of Color to share that when they go to a Renaissance festival next time! I would love to see more costumes, maybe Armenian or Turkish or Mongolian! 

Next year I want to take this as a starting point and try to incorporate more elements of fantasy. There are lots of Chinese dramas that take period costumes and throw some fun fantasy elements into it. Here are some cool examples:

Advice For The Moon Signs

*Use Moon*

Aries Moon: Slow down.
what or who are you running from? Whatever it is will find a way to catch up to you, face it now and save yourself the trouble.

Taurus Moon: Stop letting your past define your present.
You say that you don’t want yourself to be the person who wronged you, but yet you become more and more like them everyday. Find a way to come to terms with the past, and move on with your future.

Gemini Moon: Let go.
Let go of whatever is holding you back or down, you may think you need it or them, but you don’t. Stop holding back and biting your tongue, release these pent-up emotions before they control you completely

Cancer Moon: Assess yourself.
You spent an awful amount of time making others assess themselves but have you ever asked yourself ‘Do you like who you’ve become?’ Take that statement whichever way you like, but I hope you learn something positive from it.

Leo Moon: Stop pretending.
Stop pretending that you’re fine, stop bottling everything up, and stop lying to yourself. You keep letting your ego get in the way of feeling at peace.

Virgo Moon: Stop faking it.
Maybe you don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings, or maybe you don’t want to hurt yourself. But this layer of superficiality has found its way to the surface, and so far it’s not looking pretty. Stop pulling the band aid off gently because nobody is buying this bs.

Libra Moon: Take a deep breath.
Whatever it is, you did it. It’s over with and you succeeded. Take some time to admire and reflect on your work, but stop worrying so much and move onto a new project.

Scorpio Moon: Leave.
Leave whatever it is that’s weighing you down, behind. Lord knows it’s beyond the point of repair and if you stay you’re only going to wear yourself down.

Sagittarius Moon: Fix it.
Stop dwelling and start taking action. Whatever mess this is, and whether or not you made, just fix it. You’ll feel better, and even if you can’t completely glue the pieces back together at least you can say you tried.

Capricorn Moon: Enough with the selfishness.
Have you forgotten where you came from and who your friends are? Because it sure looks like it. Keep acting like this and you’ll end up with nothing.

Aquarius Moon: Your feelings are valid, but so are others.
You keep tricking yourself into blocking out your own emotions, therefore you’re neglecting others as well. It’s not healthy for yourself, and for those you care about. They’re beginning to lose hope in you, show them you’re there and that you care. Actions will always speak louder than words.

Pisces Moon: Forgive yourself.
Whatever you did, it can’t be nearly as bad as you’re making it out to be. Allow these emotions in, so they can be freed. Once they’ve been let out, you’ll find the peace you need to move forward.

The Most “Moon” Things My Friends Have Ever Said

Thought this would be pretty fun & silly lol

Aries moon: I want to stop playing. Not because I’m losing, but because this game is fucking dumb”.

Taurus moon: I’m just looking to get wine-mom drunk tonight.”

Gemini moon: “Sometimes I stay up really late and enter random chat rooms for fun. They tell me their fetishes and everything…”

Cancer moon: “I feel like I really care about everyone but no one cares about me.”

Leo moon: “I skipped class because they don’t deserve my presence.”

Virgo moon: “Yeah, it’s that modern art shit that’s just a potato chip crumb on a plate. Genius.”

Libra moon: “There’s no hot people at this party, what’s the point?”

Scorpio moon: “Crime shows bore me, I always know who did it within like 5 minutes.”

Sagittarius moon: “I dropped 2 tabs of acid yesterday and became the best artist of all time.”

Capricorn moon: “Fuck you, I could beat Gordon Ramsay in a cook-off any day.”

Aquarius moon: “The state of our country right now…no actually, the state of our WORLD right now terrifies me.”

Pisces moon: “I don’t care that it’s just a game, you can’t leave those dogs in such small cages like that!”

-Admin L