been inside you. I know what a weak, duty-bound, pleasureless dullard
Like many of you, this line has been lingering in my mind since the
episode. ‘Dullard’ didn’t really bug me, though - that’s just Lucifer being Lucifer. I kept specifically focusing on “duty-bound” and
“pleasureless,” because it just sounded familiar… specifically
in that order.
don’t know why it took so long to hit me. (It finally did hit me
while enjoying some wine in a bath earlier tonight, after several
days of some pretty hard days at work. This is only tangentially
relevant. It’s also funny to me because I only started doing the
whole “wine and bath” thing about a month ago. Late bloomer.)
before pleasure” is an old idiom that has a ton of different forms
in dozens of languages. The one we probably hear the most in the
English language is “business before pleasure” or “work before
pleasure,” but they all come down to the same thing:
your work before you have fun.
got me to thinking that Lucifer, while often an ass, is often right.
He’s got this messed up, awful version of the truth that’s only from
his twisted point of view, but that’s what he does – he rips
band-aids off and pours salt in the wounds (although on a much
grander scale because he is literally THE DEVIL). And when it comes
to Cas, yeah - he’s kind of right.
has been bound by duty for as long as we’ve known him, and
we’ve never seen him go out and do something that would actually
bring him joy. (The closest we probably got was “crazy Cas” and
his bee-ventures in S7, but I’m not even sure if that was truly
bringing him joy or if that was just one long mushroom trip for him.)
We might have occasionally seen him smile, or happy, but it’s never
really been something he’s sought out. He always has a job to do
S4, he had a duty to heaven.
S5, he had a duty to stop the apocalypse which he helped bring about
due to his duty to heaven.
S6, he had a duty to stop the civil war in heaven, which was brought
about by the apocalypse-that-wasn’t, which he helped stop.
S7, he had a duty to help stop the Leviathans, which he helped bring
about in his efforts to stop the civil war in heaven.
S8, he had a duty to repair the damage he had caused on heaven and
earth in his efforts to stop the civil war in heaven.
S9, he had a duty to help get his brothers and sisters back home
after they fell as a result of his efforts to repair the damage he
had caused to heaven.
S10, it… gets a little widespread, but nonetheless: he had a duty
to hunt his ‘rogue’ brothers and sisters down. In the process of
hunting the rogue angels, one of his sisters opened his eyes to the
damage they cause by taking human vessels, and he then had a duty to
his vessel’s family, making sure they were okay and cared for. While
he was trying to ensure they were okay, Dean, influenced by the Mark
of Cain, made the situation worse, and Cas’s focus shifted 100% to
saving Dean from himself.
S11, he had a duty to help stop the Darkness, which he helped bring
about in his efforts to save Dean.
S12, his duty is now to stop Lucifer, whom he helped bring about in
his effort to stop the Darkness.
Cas, there is always something. He always feels responsible
for something. But at the same time, he is taking that
responsibility as a “duty” because he feels personally
responsible for nearly everything he’s attempted to fix.
here’s my question: can Cas fix the Lucifer problem with a
consequence-free solution? Or is there going to continue to be a
next thing, and another next thing, and another?
when Cas has succeeded in putting Lucifer away (however that winds up
happening), will he finally get to have some fun?
Duty before pleasure.
Or - my greatest wish - could this actually just be a wonderful line of foreshadowing?
The Mary Jane Watson of the original Spider-Man films gets a hell of a lot of flak. She’s usually labelled a ‘no-personality damsel in distress’, before then being called some variation of 'a clingy, whiny, self-centered two-timer’. Quite aside from the fact that her detractors accuse her of having no personality before immediately going on to describe her personality (well, a small part of it), they’ve somehow managed to miss why she’s 'clingy, whiny and self-centered’:
Because she was abused!
This isn’t a minor detail, either: it’s very clearly shown that MJ’s abusive father affected her self-esteem massively. In a scene between Peter and MJ in Spider-Man 3, she’s upset - really upset - because of a mildly critical review. Like, really mildly critical. Peter can’t understand why. “That’s a critic, that’s just something you’ll have to get used to.” But MJ can’t understand why he can’t understand. “I look at these words and it’s like my father wrote them.” She’s been told her whole life she’s worthless, why should it stop now? It’s an overreaction, but it makes perfect sense.
Know what else makes perfect sense? MJ’s tangled relationships with men, especially Peter and Harry. She dates Harry straight out of high school, and hey, I love Harry, I really do - but he wants a say in how she dresses, for God’s sake. He loves her but (probably due to coming from a loveless household himself) he’s a terrible boyfriend. And MJ’s doesn’t even quite trust him to accept her- she’s sensitive about the social divide between them, between 'trash’ and people like the Osborns, but she sticks around anyway, because, like I said, Harry loves her, he thinks she’s beautiful, and he’s rich and good-looking and if someone like that (or John Jameson, another rich and successful young man) wants her how worthless can she be? MJ wants a man in her life, she wants to prove her father wrong, prove she is loveable - if one man lets her down, maybe another one won’t. As soon as Harry fails her she turns to Peter; as soon as Peter fails her a movie or two later she turns back to the now more grown-up Harry. And before you ask, yes, I’ve lost count of the amount of times she’s called 'slut’ or 'skank’ for this by fandom, whereas the boys get away with virtually every instance of unpleasant behaviour towards her.
I’m not saying MJ is a saint, mind. Actually, that’s pretty much the point: she isn’t. Leaving John Jameson at the altar with a note was really quite cruel; when she lost her job she should have told Peter about it; she should also have had a proper conversation with him about the Gwen situation; and she shouldn’t have prejudged Gwen herself (a totally innocent party throughout all of Spider-Man 3) so harshly. MJ fucks up, you know, she really does - but that’s okay. The movies don’t judge her for her sex life, her rough patches, her frequent need for reassurance, or her ambition. When Norman behaves in a downright misogynist way to her (remember him leering at her chest mere minutes before he calls her a gold-digger? She’s nineteen at most at that point. I think he deserved that stab in the dick) we aren’t meant to think he’s right, we’re meant to think he's horrible. Yet I’ve seen an unnerving amount of people agree with him. Which is absolutely endemic of a wider problem, but anyway - back to MJ as a person -
There’s more than one kind of female character, and I am absolutely, absolutely here for the flawed, messed up, not-really-all-that-kickass ones. MJ’s clingy because she wants to be loved, she’s 'whiny’ (sigh) because people treat or have treated her actually really badly, and she’s self-centered because you know what abusers try to do? Deny their victims a sense of self. Almost every part of MJ’s life is trying to prove her father wrong, trying to fight back against her abuser by succeeding in life and loving others (and herself) the best that she can, and I think that makes her easily as good a role model as Spider-Man. The movies themselves seem to agree with me. How about you?
Summary: Jess finds out about Sam and Dean and has a surprising reaction.
Word Count: 3650
Warnings: smut, Wincest, threesome, anal sex
A/N: Hope y’all enjoy this one! I’m only gonna tag @justanothersaltandburn because I don’t know who all is into the poly stuff, lol. XOXO
Jessica Moore is a goddamn gift.
Sam knows that from the second he’s introduced to her at that party. She rolls her eyes at Brady’s failed attempt at subtlety when they’re introduced, and smiles at Sam, sweet and sexy. Sam thinks he’s already a little in love.
It is very sweet, surprised me by not being horrible, and makes me further wonder about his choices in music. On which topic, btw, some amazing sleuthingwork has been done! I feel like all of this gives us soooome sense of what he plays for his teammates when it’s his turn at the speakers, haha.
My birthday gift to @delightfullyambiguous, who is a goddamned delight and who hopefully forgives me for being a day late. Stupid work.
Bernie isn’t fussy, in the grand scheme of things.
The wine can be red or white. Pasta doesn’t have to be perfectly al dente. She’ll buy whatever shampoo happens to be nearest to hand when dashing into Boots. And when she’s dead on her feet an overpriced Costa coffee will do the trick just as well as the vending machine cappuccino with the saddest suggestion of foam, the one that calls to mind a cup where the Fairy liquid wasn’t rinsed out properly.
In theatre, yes, she’s more demanding. After so many years of battling sand and missing equipment, here in Holby she likes her surgical trays to be complete and the scalpels to be as immaculate as they are sharp. She irons her scrubs though half of the staff don’t bother, settling for however they come back from the cleaners, but Bernie is trained in sharp creases and pressing a bunch of cotton trousers at the end of a long week has become an outlet for the stresses of bureaucracy and playing nice.
Sharing an office with Serena has been an exercise in compromise. The initial competition that working life forces all women into, the peaceful détente of working together, it’s all been punctuated by Serena’s merry insistence on providing tea at regular intervals, as though they’re in a public school dormitory surviving on tea, toast, and copies of classics that never quite get read.