2/10 of Don’t ever stop being you
you sat on the floor while sipping tea, Jimmy sat next to you drinking a strong cup of coffee just staring at the wall of darkness. “So did you like the song?”
“I didn’t like it Jimmy.”
“Really?” you could hear the sadness in his voice
“Yea, I loved it.” He listened to him giggle lightly at the response.“So you and Maggie…”
“Gosh [Y/N], what is it with you asking about Mag and I?”
“I just wanna know who my best friend is sexually involved with.”
“I’m your best friend?”
“So you and Maggie, are you two…”
“Yea, we are.” He whispered
“Oh ok. Well I’m tired so goodnight.” you placed your mug in his sink and walked towards the door.
“Where ya going?”
“Ethel’s, need a bed don’t I?
"I told you.” he started but you were already gone, tears welling up in your eyes.
I knocked on Eve’s door, she had a bed you could use. When you knocked though you didn’t expect Dell to fall on top of you as he fled from the trailer. He quickly jumped up and ran off, while Eve walked out the door to scream at him but noticed your aching body.
“Oh [y/n]! Are you ok?”
“No.” she helped you up into her trailer and handed you some ice for your ribs.
“What are you doing here? I thought Jimmy…”
“He asked me to spend the night, then told me he was dating Maggie, so I left and came here to ask if I could sleep over.”
“Bet you didn’t expect Dell to fall on ya huh?”
“No” you painfully laughed
“Come on, I’ll get you to Ethel. She’ll help fix ya up.”
“He What?!” Ethel exclaimed when Eve told her what Dell did, “Oh sweetie no wonder you are hurting.”
All the girls, except Maggie and Elsa, had gathered into her trailer, Eve had ice on her hand, you with ice on your ribs, and some with rage in their eyes. They were scheming a plan, one you didn’t even listen to until you heard the familiar voice, “I’ll talk to him.”
you looked up to see the concerned face of Jimmy inches away from your body, “I thought you were going to Ma’s?”
“I didn’t wanna disturb her, so I went to Eve’s, I knew she had a bed I could stay in.”
“Now look at ya, you’re hurt.” Sympathy fill his eyes as he touched your hand with the ice in it.
“Jimmy, if I didn’t wake up to her knocking, things might have went a lot different.” Eve said quickly, causing Jimmy to look from you to her.
“Eve, I’m glad you’re ok. Just let me talk to him first before ya’ll kill him.”
He then placed a hand on your back and under your legs and lifted you off the seat. you didn’t fight it even though you knew you should have, instead you leaned my head on his shoulder and let him take you to his trailer. He sat you on the couch and rearranged the pillow before lifting you again and placing on the bed. He just sat next to you and talked to you all night, until you passed out on his shoulder.
you woke up with your head on Jimmy’s shoulder, you could feel his arm around your shoulder and the other on your thigh, his head also resting on yours. you were sore, but what else did you expect after having a strong man land on you last night. you didn’t move much, scared you’d wake Jimmy up so you just sat and enjoyed the moment.
“You up?” you heard him whisper moments later
“Yea, you wanna go back to sleep?”
“Only if you lay next to me Maggie.”
Tears formed in your eyes as you moved your head away from his shoulder. He then opened his eyes confused, but then looked more panicked when he saw who was in his bed. you just got up and walked out after that, and rushed as fast as your sore body would take you, and found yourself at Desiree’s door.
“Dess, you up?” you yelled as I knocked
“I’m coming, I’m coming.” She yelled on the other side, swinging the door open and seeing your watery eyes she pulled me in.
“Your ribs still hurting?” She sat you down at the booth and started towards the freezer.
“No Dess, I’m fine. Jimmy… called me Maggie this morning.”
“Why would he do that?"
"Well see after he carried me back to the trailer we sat up talking and I fell asleep, woke up leaning my head on his shoulder, and he had one arm around my shoulder, and the other on my leg, his head resting on mine. I must have woken him up when I moved and when I asked him if he wanted to go back to sleep…” The tears started to fall at this point, “He said ‘Only if you lay next to me Maggie.’”
She was silent as she got up to now sit next to me, she hugged you as you cried in her shoulder.There was no denying it now, I really did have a crush on Jimmy, and it really hurt to see him happy with Maggie. you couldn’t mess that up though for him, he was also your best friend, you whimpered to Dess, “What have I gotten myself into?”
“Well Honey, you have fallen for an amazing man, who doesn’t see who he should really be with.” she patted your hair, “Now do you need to be getting to work?”
you picked up your landline in the kitchen and dialed Maria’s number, Dess had driven me home in the car and dropped you off here, you told her you’d call Maria for a ride to work so she could get going. She hugged you before driving back to the show, and told you I’d be ok.
“Hello?” you heard a chipper voice say on the other end
“Mars, you gonna drive me to work or what?” you jokingly said
“Be there in five.” She hung up, causing you to race for your uniform.
“You what?!?” Maria exclaimed after you told her of last night
“I told you Mars. I spent the night and left this morning, after he called me the name of the girl he’s fucking.”
“Oh don’t look now, here comes one now.” you looked up as Eve opened the door and took a seat at the counter.
“Hows the hand?” you asked getting her a slice of pie and cup of tea
“Good, hows the ribs?”
“Listen, Elsa told me to come get you, she wants you to perform tonight and the show.”
“I guess Desiree told her about what happened and they have a plan for you to get back, now come on, we all know you can sing. She wants you mid show, this one time. Remember the girl’s song?”
you couldn’t help the memory creeping into your head, of the first night they performed it. Jimmy took you to the show, as you both stood and watched the boys crowd around the stage, you couldn’t help but smile at how good Dot and Bette were. That’s when Jimmy took your hand and led you outside, after telling Dell he was making sure you got to the bathroom ok in the rain. you two danced… in the rain, until it was his turn to go on.That’s when Dess and Ethel saw it your eyes that you really liked him, but they never questioned you on it.
“She wants you to perform it.” Eve said, pulling you back to reality, “She had me and Paul put the flyers out this morning advertising you.”
“Well let’s go I guess.” you smiled as you raced from the diner and into the truck that Paul was driving.
“What are you doing here?” Jimmy asked, “I went to the diner and Maria told me you left with Eve.”
“You are looking at the mid show performer tonight.” Elsa snapped, her german accent made it sound harsher than she meant it. “Now go away until the show tonight.”
“Yes Elsa.” he said looking at you with hurt in his eyes, time to hurt him back a bit.
“He out there?” Ethel asked, she didn’t mind us doing this, she was more upset about the name slip then anything
“Yes Ethel, he is leaning on his pole as usual.” Paul spoke up as she finished your hair.
Elsa had lent me her one of her old dresses for the show, very shiny and form fitting, while Ethel put your hair in an updo and you applied your own makeup. It was almost time, you could hear Dess stepping across the stage as you hurried to the mic, everyone else was in place, but you.
“Now I know you all came to see the freaks tonight, but we have a treat for you all, she is very near and dear to our hearts, from the town of Jupiter I am pleased to present our heart throb.”
you heard the curtain open and the light hit you as the band started to play. you looked at Jimmy, who shot you a quick smile before you started to sing, the boys already crowding around the stage.
“I’ve been a Bad, bad girl,
I fell in love with a delicate mannnn,
and it’s a sad, sad world,
When a boy will break a girl just because he can,
Oh help me but don’t tell me to deny it,
I’ve gotta cleanse myself of all these lies,
till he’s good enough for me”
your eyes shifted to the man on the pole, who now could see why you were performing, why you were singing, and boy did he look hurt. His eyes shifted towards Elsa, who just glanced at him and smiled, then turned her attention back to me, smiling even bigger when she saw me smile.
“I’ve gotta a lot to lose and I’m betting high even though I’m gonna lose,
So before I do just tell me why you did ohh ohh ohh,
All you need is a good defense,
Cause you’re just a criminal,
and you need to be redeemed by the one you sinned against,
Because you’re all I ever knew love,
yeahhh what you need is a good defense,
Cause you’re just a criminal,
and you need to be redeemed by the one you sinned against,
Because you’re all I ever knew of Love-ove-ove-ove -love”
As the music ended you looked up at Jimmy again, flashing a smile as the crowd hollered, the curtain closed as you squealed with glee, Eve picked you up in an embrace as the rest came out of the back to congratulate you. you were rushed to the backstage area, where Ma Petite stood with a huge bouquet of lilies and other flowers.
“For you [Y/N].” She said behind the flowers.
“Oh guys you didn’t.” you took them from her as Dess throw an arm over your shoulder, “Like I said darling, near and dear to our hearts.”
She kissed your cheek before the rest of the troop rushed you to Elsa’s tent to change, however Elsa stopped us at the door.
“Wait, [y/n], how well do you know my introduction song?” She asked
“By heart Miss Elsa.”
“Good, you’re our closer too.”
“Go get 'em darling.”
you watched her walk away, and looked at your friends in shock, “Did she just…”
“Come on let’s get you on that rocket.” Eve said, pulling you towards the rocket.
“Just sit there the whole time.” Paul instructed as he helped you on, “The dress will make it hell to get off so when we pull you off I’m sure Eve can lift you off.”
“Knock them dead.” Ethel said as the band filled on stage, the crowd already going crazy.
As you was dragged center stage on the rocket, I looked for one face, but never saw it.