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Before the Storm: Knowing the Odds

Fandom: Life is Strange: Before the Storm

Pairing: Steph Gingrich / Samantha Myers

Tags: angst, fluff, coming out

Words: 2,733


“Oh, hey. I wanted to ask you something.”

Steph wanted to keep her cool, but now that the moment of truth was here, she could just feel her mouth go dry. She didn’t want to have this conversation - but she needed to.

Chloe slowed, then dropped back onto the bench next to her. With the tiniest shrug, she replied, “Shoot.”

Steph had been practicing the script since yesterday, and she already knew it by heart. It came out even though she couldn’t focus on the words themselves at this point; “I’ve been planning to make a move on Rachel, but not if you two were together.”

Chloe didn’t reply immediately, as typical. She just sort of sat there, her eyes shifting around as she thought without quite making eye contact. It was always like she had some internal monologue going on, and although they hadn’t talked much, Steph had already learned to just wait. Not everyone practiced these conversations - it was almost nice that Chloe took the time to take people seriously.

Finally, Chloe re-established eye contact and asked, “Make a move?” It was so flat that it didn’t feel like a question.
She wanted an explanation? Fine.

Steph allowed herself a glance up at the sky, a space to make the words appear in her head, then asked, “So, are you?”

“Uh.”

That’s not a no.

“I mean, that’s Rachel’s business - or maybe yours and Rachel’s business - but if you feel comfortable telling me…”

Steph wasn’t sure what answer she could get at this point that would make her happy. Chloe had said yesterday that the two of them weren’t even friends, and yet … Steph couldn’t get that feeling out from under her skin that something was different. It started before the photo - the one from the concert, the first time she had ever actually seen Rachel and Chloe together - but it stayed with her like an itch.

“What? No - we’ve just hung out the once. I think you’re good.”

Steph would act all coy, try and hide her smile for a moment, but then Chloe would even encourage her - “Be brave, make a move. I hope it works out for you.”

Of course, that’s not how it went at all.

Chloe took a breath, and then, “I’m … I don’t know.” She wouldn’t look at Steph again. “It’s … it’s confusing.”

Steph wanted that to be a good sign, but even the tiniest thing was glaringly obvious - whatever images Chloe was replaying in her mind, whatever ‘it’ seemed to refer to that Chloe couldn’t seem to keep back a smile from. That was enough. It was as much as she needed to hear.

Steph let out a sigh, mixed relief and agitation. “Yeah … I can imagine.”
Being around Rachel is confusing, but it’s never bad.

Steph knew the odds. She knew that about six in one hundred women in their generation identified as bi or lesbian, and in a class of 90 students (slight majority girls), that meant 3 were likely to be gay. She’d done the math long ago, and that’s why she had noticed when Rachel had started to watch Chloe from afar, when she had started to ask questions about the weird, gangly loner who had never bothered to say a full sentence to her until she’d wanted a DVD. If Rachel and Chloe ever got together, she’d be the odd man out, and that? that was just the math.
That sucked, but queer girls can’t afford to burn bridges about this stuff.

Steph leaned forward and said, “You ever want to talk to me, Chloe, you know you can, right?”

Chloe smiled more as she stood up, but it looked like that was the point she was done. “I’ll see you later, Steph.”

“Have fun storming the castle,” Steph replied, resigned. Defeated. Exhausted.

Chloe gave a little wave as she swaggered off, and Steph deflated down into her knees. It was over. It was done. She had lost, and that was just the roll of the dice. She’d put herself out there, she’d done everything right, and Rachel had made her choice, and a part of her was glad for her.

But most of her really wasn’t.

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Cold New World

Summary: She glances down at her watch; 16:49. “Alright, I gotta go. Bellamy and Murphy should be back soon and I need to be there in case something happened.” she swallows again, not even wanting to think that something bad has happened to one of the six people she has in her life now. She stands up but doesn’t walk away. “Happy Unity Day, I guess…” she finishes and places the radio on the desk where she found it.

Or, AU where the adventure squad was left behind on Earth while the Sky People went up on the Ark. Oh and after Praimfaya, the planet is a snowball…

Chapter: 1/?  [AO3]

Note: S/o to @jasperjoordan​ for beta-ing this bad boy! Thanks girl <3

“Hey mom, it’s me again. Clarke, reaching out from the bunker. It’s been 730 days since Praimfaya, 2 years and still no sign of you” she sighs and leans back on the chair, “Raven says it must be your end that has a problem, our comm system works just fine. She also says that you should have built a radio by now and that if-” she stops herself.

The truth is, she’s the only one who still believes they are alive up there, that they made it. The rest just feel guilty for being the reason their family and friends died on their way to what was left of the Ark in the sky. They believe that they had one job, they failed and now they are stuck on a dying planet.

“Anyway” Clarke continues, “I still believe you’re up there, maybe struggling to survive but alive.” She pauses and lets the hand that holds the radio fall in her lap. “Raven has this idea… That if they manage to climb on a mountain top, get as close to you as possible, we might get a signal or some kind of sign from you. Find out if you made it or not…” she swallows. “The truth is- I’m sacred. Bellamy said that it hasn’t snowed for a week now, the longest we’ve gone without snow and the ice has started melting somewhat. But I still go out of my mind every time they head out to scavenge for technology. How are they gonna make it to a mountain top without the needed equipment?” she laughs for a moment, “Well Raven says she can equip them but I know she’s lying, that Bellamy made her lie to me so I don’t worry.” A tear falls on her cheek, “And the thing is… they want to do this for me, mom. I’m the only one who believes that you’re alive, they want to try everything– for me.” She quickly wipes her tears away and takes a deep breath. “I don’t know what to do, mom. I miss you so much…”

She glances down at her watch; 16:49. “Alright, I gotta go. Bellamy and Murphy should be back soon and I need to be there in case something happened.” she swallows again, not even wanting to think that something bad has happened to one of the six people she has in her life now. She stands up but doesn’t walk away. “Happy Unity Day, I guess…” she finishes and places the radio on the desk where she found it.

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I believe that Rachel thinks that no one’s deserve Chloe because she is too good for them and they treat her like nothing so… In this scene and their dialogues are no longer part of the script is like Rachel is telling Chloe that if she agrees to come with her then she’s all her no matter what and even death won’t separate them. And in the final choice in LIS if you save Chloe and sacrifice the town for her then this all stop because you proved that Chloe is worth more than anything or anyone and that’s what Rachel wants. A good reason for her to finally let go chloe and for herself to finally at peace.