Last year my friend did an internship abroad in Japan, and though I knew it’d be unlikely, I asked her to keep an eye out for Death Note merch for me, because that’s unfortunately who I still am in this year of our lord 2017.

So fast forward to a year later, and here is Deputy Director Yagami, still in his box, in a place of pride on the bookshelf in the middle of my living room. He was the only Death Note anything she could find and he was 200 yen in a thrift store. He cracks me up every time I look at him in his mint condition box and he’s one of my favourite things that I own

Imagine, being Bella’s older sister, and you and Carlisle fall in love - Part Five

So much for being a mini-series, huh? Why do you all have to be so amazing and awesome?

Fandom: Twilight

Pairing: Carlisle x Reader


Things will be different, indeed. It seems that my undeniable attraction to Carlisle was not as unnoticable as I thought, because Alice seems to keep giving me a knowing smile, while Rosalie seems to look at me with worry, fear, and slight sympathy, while Esme seems to find every chance to throw me to the wolves, so to speak. “Emma?” I look up from my book, sitting beside Emmett on the couch as he plays a videogame on the tv.

“Yes, Esme?” I ask quietly, standing as she hurries over to me.

“Would you go deliver this to Carlisle?” She hands me a heavy stack of paper. “I would, but I’m running late for a meeting with a customer.”

“Oh, um, well I-”

“Thank you, you’re the best.” She smiles at me, before rushing towards the door. “He needs them ASAP, they’re from the hospital.” She says, before ducking outside as I stand there, gaping as I look down at the pile of heavy papers in my hands.

“Um… Alice?” I call as she wanders past, she smirks at me, shaking her head.

“Nope. Esme gave them to you- you get to deliver them.” With that, she walks out of the room, I look to the other, but they all seem to look away, causing me to sigh as I hang my head, before straightening my shoulders, and walking towards the office, where I pause outside the door, hand poised to knock. The door opens, causing Carlisle to look at me in mild surprise as I stand there, helplessly.

“Yes, Emma?” He asks.

“I-I have-” My hands wobble, causing the paper stack to go falling to the floor as I reach out, trying to steady it, only to jump back as I miss each one, so as to not step on them. “I’m sorry!” I cry, dropping to my knees to start stacking the papers again, only Carlisle is already there, slowly stacking them as well. “I didn’t mean to- they were just so heavy.”

“That’s quite alright, Emma.” Carlisle answers, giving me a heart stopping grin as I blink, before I start stacking with more haist. “Are you feeling alright? Your ears are a bit red.”

“I-I’m fine. It’s nothing.” I lie, feeling my blush become more prominent, as I slowly stand, stacks of paper in my hands, just as he too stands with stacks in his hands.

“Will you set those on my desk?” He asks, causing me to nod, shuffling past him in my house slippers, setting the papers on the desk, I rake my fingers through my mahogany curls, turning back to the door as Carlisle captures my arm in his cold hand, causing me to look back at him. “Are you sure, you’re okay?” His ocher eyes trail over my face, worry clear in them. “You have been avoiding me for a few days. Have I done something?”

“W-What? I haven’t been avoiding you!” The lie is bitter on my tongue. “I’ve just been… preoccupied with something, that’s all! You’d never believe how much- actually, scratch that, you might.” I let out a nervous laugh, my blue eyes flicking to the floor, opting for the second truth that’s been bothering me from a few days ago.

“Is something troubling you?” He asks, his hand moves from my wrist, to my shoulder, drawing my attention to his face once more.

“My internship in Japan.” I sigh, looking down once more.

“What about it?” He asks.

“It’s been terminated.” I answer, tilting my head back to look up at the ceiling. “I, apparently, took too much time away from the hospital, and so the doctor I had gotten an internship from, terminated it.”

“You were interning at a hospital?” I nod. “Did you want to become a doctor?” Carlisle asks.

“It was all I’ve wanted, for years.” I answer, looking at him. “Now, all I will be doing, is going to Japan, to pack up my apartment, and then I have to find someplace to stay- I can’t afford my apartment without the internship.” I explain.

“Where are you moving to?” He asks.

“I don’t know. I moved to Japan, immediately from the time I graduated high school.” I explain, causing him to frown. “I don’t want to move in with my mother, but I might have to. I honestly will miss Forks.”

“Can’t you move in with your father?” Carlisle’s sudden question causes me surprise.

“Carlisle, I shared a room with Bella, staying there. I doubt he wants me to stay in her room.” I explain, causing him to nod.

“What about staying here?” I look at him in confusion.

“What?” I ask.

“What about moving in, here? Edward and Bella will have their own home, when they get back from their Honeymoon, you may move into Edward’s room.” Carlisle offers, causing me to gape at him.

“I-Carlisle- I would… I mean, would you mind?” I ask, feeling as though my heart is about to beat out of my chest.

“Not at all. I wouldn’t have offered, if I had minded.” He answers, causing me to smile up at me.

“I would… greatly appreciate it.” I answer, causing him to nod happily.

“Alright, I’ll go with you, when you go to Japan, and help you with your belongings.” He states.

“No, Carlisle! I couldn’t ask you to do that- I mean, you have to work at the hospital, and…” He chuckles.

“I’m on vacation for a few months. So that I might change Bella.” Carlisle explains, causing me to nod.

“Alright. In a week or so, we’ll go.” I nod, causing him to reach down, grasping my hand.

“It’s all going to be alright.” He promises, I smile at him, before ducking out, before pausing, and turning back to him.

“Thank you, Carlisle.” I murmur, causing him to nod.

“No problem.”


[Update : I got my internship but I still need money urgently !! //// ] 


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The last photos of Ise-city :)

These are miscellaneous photos of different places :D
I took the first photo on my way back from the Kawasaki district :)

The flower arrangement was at the Ryokan I stayed in :)
They took a lot of care to make the Ryokan look nice and to make guests feel at home :3

The next 6 photos are from the Ryokan as well :)
They had a nice, small garden which was very enjoyable to look at throughout the day :3

The building itself was quite interesting too and I was told that it had been built in 1908 and has been kept by the same family ever since (^-^)
I think this is very nice and I prefer this kind of hotel, Ryokan or Minshuku to big hotels and hotel chains :)
While the surrounding neighbourhood didn’t offer too many green spots the inside of the Ryokan offered a very enjoyable view of green plants that contrasted nicely with the wood of the building (o^-^o)
I enjoyed coming back there after spending the day walking around town and taking photos. It was refreshing to sit and watch the garden while reading a book, writing a postcard or writing a mail to my relatives :)

Another nice thing was the Suikinkutsu within the garden :3
It was very relaxing to hear it while looking at the garden :)
I didn’t know such a thing existed and they were kind enough to show it to me and I have been very happy to learn of its existence and it one of those things I wish to put into the house I’m dreaming of (o^-^o)

I hope I can go there again (*´ω`*)

The name of the Ryokan is Hoshidekan (No, I don’t get any benefits for mentioning them :)
I just feel that it would be weird to write about the Ryokan without mentioning its name (^-^)

I like bicycles and I enjoyed looking at bicycles in Japan :)

I also like old brick industrial buildings :D
I was surprised to find one of these and I like how it has a Japanese style roof but a European style brick structure :3
This building was close to my favourite spot for eating Bentou :D
It is close to the river flowing through the Kawasaki district and close to the Supermarket that I used to buy my Bentou at :)
There are more buildings like this one in Ise :)

Stuff I did this weekend ((((((((((っ・ω・)っ

I went to a old-timer vehicle show that took place in a small town close by :)
It was nice and I had some enjoyable tech talk with other motorcyclists :D
I even saw a Ariel square four in pristine condition which is like seeing a unicorn :o

I finished resawing more oak for more handplanes I’m going to make in the future (^-^;) I screwed up steam bending wood :D <=I will improve my molding device and try again :)
And I had a scarp piece of oak that I’m using to make another hammer with

Here is the beginning of a not so happy part so feel free to stop reading :)
I wish you a great week and sweet dreams (^-^)/

I feel sad for saying this but I think I need to give up on finding an internship in Japan (-_-) I’m running out of time. So right now I need to focus on finding an internship in Germany…. It might not sound that bad but for me this leaves a bitter taste.
I tried really hard and while I was prepared for failure I cannot deny that I hoped that it would work out and enable me to move to Japan.
It is not the first time I try to move to Japan either. I tried to go to Japan as an exchange student but this is next to impossible if your university doesn’t have a partner university in Japan and if you need to take care of everything by yourself (I wrote inquiries to about 80 universities and colleges in Japan asking for the topics of courses and about the procedures necessary to be admitted to the university). Most courses would have been very interesting but most were not accepted by my university which would meant that I have had to repeat those courses after returning to Germany.
So this feels like trying to win an uphill battle. 

I’m seriously considering to stop studying and to just move to Japan and to apply for jobs from there as it seems to be next to impossible to find employment as a foreigner who is not actually living in Japan.
I know this would be a shame to do as I’m currently in the last semester during which I need to attend classes (the next semester would consist of a 3 month internship and another 3 month to write my bachelor’s thesis).
On the other hand I won’t be able to obtain a working holiday visa after graduating during April next year. 
I’m not happy about this situation and to be honest I dislike studying or rather the way I need to study. I like learning new things and to understand something or to master a certain skill but I had to neglect many things I would have liked to learn to finish repetitive homework.
It would be wrong to say that I didn’t learn anything new but I’m often asking myself what I’m doing there.
I wish I had a project I could work on and apply the knowledge that I gained on and to hone my skill this way but I cannot afford to do this at home.
One of my big weak points is that I’m getting underestimated quite often. I just don’t look like what I’m and that I’m not good at advertising for myself.

My hope was that I could go to Japan to conduct the internship and use this chance to speak Japanese and English but due to the amount of work that I have to do for university my Japanese is stagnating and this only serves to make me feel like I’m stuck and not being able to continue on my way.
After studying for some time now I feel like it serves to close more doors than it does open…

All I can do right now is press on and try again and again.

Sorry for being so negative but this has been troubling me for a while now (-_-)
I’ve just reached my personal deadline for my applications to Japan and this sparked a lot of thoughts.

Sorry for my ramblings and whining (>_<;)

I wish everyone a great new week and that you feel like things are making progress (^-^)/


More photos from the Geku in Ise city (๑´•.̫ • `๑)

I like these tiny shrines that are set on gravel :3
I kind of expected a tiny deity to peak out from behind the house at any moment :D

I like those classic Japanese lanterns :3
One day I’m going to make one myself but right now I have other things to worry about (^-^;)

I think these photos capture the essence of the Geku complex quite well (^-^)
It really feels like a place that is not directly touched by humans and like the buildings grew just grew there :3

The last 3 photos are from a shrine that doesn’t directly belong to the Geku :)
I passed it on my way to the Naiku (the place Amaterasu Oomikami is enshrined in :) 
I enjoyed exploring these hidden places in Japan and this shrine was very nice.
It was full of tine porcelain Inari (fox gods or fox messengers :)
Foxes are symbols of fertility, mystic figures and messengers for the gods in Japanese folklore :) 
One of my favourite features of Japanese shrines are the Torii and I like how the form of Torii varies from region to region and sometimes even between shrines :3
Japan really has a very diverse and rich culture (^-^)

You might recognise 2 of these photos from an earlier article :)
I decided to publish them again in this post because they kind of belong to it

Things about me :)
I’m currently very busy learning for exams and writing letters of application to companies in Japan so I cannot do too much in my workshop (^-^;)
I hope so much that I can secure an internship at a company in Japan :)
The problem is that I need to write my bachelor’s thesis during the internship or else my graduation would get delayed (>_<:) but most companies I applied to were not willing to support a bachelor’s thesis during a 6 month internship (-_-)
I need to write 3 exams next week and another one during the following week :)
Today I started dimensioning the Dai for a Japanese jointer plane that I want to build ans I started making a Japanese spokeshave but since I didn’t spend too much time at my workshop I didn’t make too much progress on both (^-^;)

I wish everyone a great week and good nights with sweet dreams (^-^)/


I received a Uchinuki Nomi \(^-^)/
I’m sorry but I don’t think there is a western counterpart to this kind of tool so I cannot provide you with an accurate translation :|

It is used to squish the wood at the end of a mortise :)
This way you can reduce the risk of breaking or cutting through the end of your mortise and exposing the tenon. Since I didn’t have one while making my toolbox I just used a piece of brass :)

I needed to straighten it, to redefine the sides and to fix the wobbly handle :D
Since the “blade” is not hardened it is enough to file it and it took me about 10 minutes to straighten and reshape the blade :)
I think the handle didn’t belong to this tool and was just putt on the blade by the seller who wanted to make it more attractive to potential bidders :D 
Fortunately they didn’t use Epoxy on it and I just tapped it off of the blade and put some oak shavings on the tang, drove it back into the handle. Since the tang is not square on these I needed to add slim pieces of wood to the sides to fix the sideways wobble :)
All in all I spent about 30 minutes on it and now I’m quite happy with my purchase (^-^)

I started fixing my Shakuri Kanna as well :)
The blades are awesome but the body twisted pretty badly and because I straightened it it lost too much thickness and became too narrow to be used :|
I glued on some oak veneer but I might need to add another layer…

This is another case where a milled block twisted so baldy that it required a lot of work to get into a usable condition :D
Riven blocks are much more stable but hard to come by if you are on a tight budget :D

Last week was very busy so all I did was resawing some wood and selecting wood (^-^;)
I made a 3D CAD model of my toolbox as well but I’m not sure whether I’ll make any drawings of it since it takes some time to do so but if anyone would like to see actual drawings of the parts and the final assembly just leave a comment and I will try to make it happen :) <=It might take a while because I need to work on assignments as well ;)

I received another rejected for one of my applications which means I won’t be able to take an internship in Japan (-_-) This makes me kind of sad. I tried very hard but it feels like engineering is just the wrong subject to study if you want to move to Japan…
Anyway my mind is made up after I graduate I will move to Japan and apply for a job while being there :)

I want to go to a oldtimer vehicle exhibition this weekend so I’m not sure how much progress I’m going to make on my woodworking projects (^-^;)

I wish everyone a great weekend and success (^-^)/