so things are a bit crazy in chez ofgeo right now, new job and springtime and travel things coming up, and ALSO sometimes i do this thing where i experience a kind of cognizant dissonance about like ~my internet persona~ versus ~who i actually am as a person.~ they’re similar enough that it can be confusing, except of course that Internet Me doesn’t have any of the messy, crooked aspects of Off-Internet Me. this is not a bad thing. humans are messy! i don’t mind being messy. i just think that it’s important to be … aware of what your mess is? aware that there is a mess? and that you can’t, like, engage in the ~performance of You~ with … like, yourself. i know me better than that. THERE’S NO FOOLIN’ THESE EAGLE EYES, LADY. I SEE THROUGH UR LIES.
anyway, sometimes i catch myself being like “haha i’m soooooo cool because x people follow this blog and ask my advice about things and tell me i’m pretty all the time,” and while those things are great, and i appreciate every last one of you, they’re also, you know, skewed, because of the Internet Me vs Off-Internet Me Conundrum, which i have so far not fully figured out how to navigate.
like, “i told everybody to be kind, which means i am a good person,” i say, as i don’t consider my friends’ feelings while making plans. NO, SILLY RABBIT. THAT’S NOT HOW THAT WORKS, and also, trix are for kids, etc.
so THE POINT OF THIS MISSIVE IS: i’m just gonna take a couple weeks to like, step back from the tumblr for a wee bit. i’ll still be on twitter, because i’m ultimately a product of my generation and social media is how i make sure the whole world knows my Very Important Thoughts That I’m Having Right Now About Bagels, or whatever, but probably this blog will be pretty quiet. i have some stuff in the queue, but i’m not sure when that’ll run out.
I LOVE YOU BEAUTIFUL MOONBEAMS! remember it’s okay to have flaws, and it’s good to try to recognize them.
HAPPY EARLY APRIL.