internet why have you betrayed me

Tagged by @keishota ♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ) ☆゚.*・。゚

a - age: 26 (aka your mom)

b - biggest fear: Loneliness, yeah it’s a costant fear.

c - current time: 03:25 am and I really should be sleeping!

d - drink you last had: Beer.. omg the shame (*´▽`*)

e - every day starts with: hahaha it starts with some good mates (it’s kinda a tea that every Argentinian can not live without, mate is life!! can’t start our daily routine without it )

f - favorite song: Hard to decide!! : Oblivion

g - ghosts, are they real: unff, I’ve had a few experiences. I don’t know if they are actually ghosts, but maybe something like energy left behind by the ones who are not living . (when I was 13 and my brother 10 yrs old we used to hear the voice of an adult man sobbing through the walls of our shared room… I will never forget that)

h - hometown: “Reconquista”, a town in the north of the province of Santa Fe, in Argentina ^^ 

i - in love with: I whish to be in love one day maybe!!! hahaha!

j - jealous of: naah, I get jealous of other amazing artists very often tbh! don’t hate me! , but being jealous is what motivates me to practice and improve.

k - killed someone: (I would kill cockroaches if only I wasn’t so afraid of them)

l - last time you cried: Recently I’ve discovered that I’ve been betrayed by someone who I considered a good friend of mine irl… it had me crying a lot. It’s the worst feeling…

m - middle name: uugggh !! ok… Beatriz \_(シ)_/

n - number of siblings: 1, my younger brother ^w^

o - one wish: I whish I was creative enough to create my own stories and characters…

p - person you last called/texted: my cousin, via whatsapp 

q - questions you’re always asked: “You look young! How old are you?”, “do you have a boyfriend? why not!?”

r - reasons to smile: My dogs, friends and Kind people from the internet (so kind and funny, whenever real life is too much to take I come online and there’s always going to be a smile on my face, for sure!)

s - song last sang: Idea of You.

t - time you woke up: 9 am (because I didn’t have to work today, otherwhise it’s always 6:30 am)

u - underwear color: aaww I blush ヘ( ̄▽ ̄*)ノ… it’s pink

v - vacation destination: umm, anywhere out of this country, maybe London<3.

w - worst habit: … I drink Beer at least 4 times a week… 

x - x-rays you’ve had: yes! a pair of my head from all sides, for the dentist.

y - your favorite food: Pizza, noodles, 

z - zodiac sign: Aries!

Time to tag: @guardiandae @virushoney @beanpots @awsmmasa @vinzha-vz @luci-fer1094 @blazemalefica and all of you guys if you want to!! <333

tomwingfields  asked:

hi! so religion-y question, i've recently gotten really into thinking about new testament stuff, especially judas. i know you've written stuff about him before and, i'm sorry that this is weird and out of the blue of me to ask, i was just wondering if you had an idea as to why judas betrayed jesus? i think about it all the time and like, it haunts me. i just don't understand how he could do that/why he would do that. thank you so much!

Well, I should say first that I feel pretty strongly that questions of this depth demand actual in-person discussion with someone. The internet just falls short at this level. Somehow it just feels like, in contemplating the humanity of Judas, we’d need to be humans talking to each other, flesh and blood, interrupting each other, being human, to really burrow down to the core stuff. Having said that – I mean – there’s a lot in this q, key q. Do you read Judas as an independent actor with free will? Then choose door A, which talks about his intent. Never get to the bottom of door A, why a person betrays his friend, especially his friend whom he knows to be God. But Jesus knows ahead of time that it’s going to happen, so whither free will? If God can know the future then free will takes a hit, I think C.S. Lewis tries to do stuff with the idea of God seeing time differently but I can’t reconcile free will with the ability to tell the future. Seems v. either/or to me. That’d bring us to “Judas betrayed Jesus because either a) it was his destiny or b) it was God’s plan,” I don’t think these necessarily amount to the same answer but they share a ballpark, neither one satisfies though because in the absence of free will how can a person be rewarded or punished for anything? Nothing wrong with old Judas if he was just doing basically what God made him to do.

But if we go back to door A, I mean, there’s a sense in which we should have special shrines for Judas and the centurions and the Sanhedrin, because you can’t get the crucifixion without them, and if you’re buying into the whole scheme then you have to have the crucifixion, so anybody who makes it possible is kind of a saint in my reading – Jesus can’t just one day say “ok, I’m done ministering and I’m going home, everybody’s saved from here on out” – somebody has to betray him, somebody has to kill him so he can be resurrected. Maybe, in his moment of darkness, Judas senses this - that his friend must be betrayed, that someone has to do something terrible? The text does not support this reading, but it’s worth kicking around a little. 

If we step outside the story further I think we have to honestly say that the weaknesses of the whole tapestry are best seen in these questions. Why must Jesus be killed and resurrected? Why must we petition a resurrected Christ for for forgiveness? Why isn’t His incarnation enough? My friend Perry has talked a little to me about not needing the resurrection at all, about being Christian without believing in the resurrection, about the incarnation being enough, but I don’t know enough about those ideas to say anything about them – they feel like something worth exploring, though. Doing away with the resurrection would fuck up the entire liturgical year, but what can you do. I feel like, and this would take that talk I mentioned earlier to really bear out but I mean it, the answer is in that old 50s (60s) tune: “Everybody plays the fool sometimes.” Like, the word “plays” is important here, there’re other religious traditions in which people attack God or His Representative because that is the part they have to play for God to be magnified/realized/amused. These traditions are worth some pretty serious consideration if considering this kinda thing is a thing you enjoy. 

Shorter and probably better answer: I think the point of Judas is to make us think about Judas and ask ourselves where and when we are Judas. Everybody in the whole story is us, sometimes. One of the people who is us sometimes is a person who betrayed his friend to death for money. Who’s Judas? One of us. But an easy answer won’t lead us to the sort of reflection we need, hence the complexity of Judas’s choice. 

anonymous asked:

Bloody hell, you get into A LOT of drama, mate. How in the world do you do that.

Can I tell you a story? It’s nice and dramatical, that post reminds me so much of it {I’ll try and keep it short}:

Ok so when I was like 16 I was on IMVU dating this girl named Nikki. Australian girl with a sister Chloe and a brother Jason. The 3 of them shared her account. I think Jason was 18 so he and the 2 girls lived together, no parents.

At some point I “cheated” on her so Jason gets on and tells me that Nikki is in the hospital because she has carved “I hate you” into her forearm and he found her bleeding out on the floor. Word gets around and everyone comes running to tell me about how much of a horrible person I am. Nikki is placed on suicide watch but gets online about 2 hours later.

For those who don’t know, suicide watch is minimum 24 hours.

We break up and stuff, at this point everyone in our circle hates me. Jason would often get online to go off on me and shit, Chloe is telling me how hurt she is…etc. Eventually we get back together and Nikki convinces people to forgive me. 

Some time passes and I break up with her cause she’s rarely online and I’ve started getting close with a girl I RPed with. We decide to remain friends until one day I was in a room with my RP family {Drunk off my ass} and I didn’t notice
Nikki come in. I’m sat there talking about the new girl with them, and Nikki gets all hurt and leaves. I feel like shit.

This is where everything gets fucking insane.

She avoids me now and ofc everyone hates me to the point where I can’t even go into rooms with them anymore. If she comes into a room I’m already in the owner will boot me out. Jason keeps inviting me to bitch me out everyday…Basically, I was just bitched at everyday or avoided by everyone until one day she’s in a room with my friends and I decide to pop in anyway.

Sometimes when you enter a room you’ll see what they had just typed up, they were all talking normal until she saw me. Nikki tells the owner not to boot me. The next thing she puts in is something like “Oh it’s you.. jsyk Nikki is in the hospital, this is Jason. She slit her wrist and tried to kill herself AGAIN because of you.” A second later he’s like “Omg she’s having a seizure, the doctors say she’s going into cardiac arrest!” For like half hour dude sits there narrating this chicks death until he’s like “That’s it…they couldn’t save her. She’s dead…I better go.”

The room goes quiet and I’m like “Y’all know that was bullshit right?” And they all yell at me “DYLAN PLEASE JUST STFU THAT WAS MY BEST FRIEND SHE WAS LIKE MY SISTER!!” or “This isn’t the time Dylan like jeez you’re being an asshole already?” I leave the room.

Stay with me, it get’s better.

Jason has now changed her default picture and all her information to say RIP Nikki and started a forum with that title so everyone can go pour their hearts out. Everyone in our circle of friends is grieving and blaming me. This goes on for about a month and I’m the only one steady saying “This is bullshit”. Jason has taken over the account and constantly makes posts to keep everything updated on him and Chloe until one day he says that Nikki has come home! He said that when they went to go check the body to confirm that it was Nikki that it was actually just someone who looked like her and they couldn’t tell the difference because they had taken out Nikki’s piercings. Jason says that he was “so scared to just see his sister walk through the door like that”, she had taken a cab home and was looking very confused when he started crying and shit. The people at the hospital had gotten her chart mixed up, Nikki is alive! It’s a miracle!

FINALLY everyone else begins to get skeptical of the situation and start to pick the story apart. Someone goes on FB {I didn’t have one at the time} and notices that Nikki’s most recent default is actually a guy. When they look closer they notice that every single picture on this FB was a different person {generic emo kids} and the same applied to Chloe and Jason’s accounts. It finally dawns on these people that Nikki, Jason, and Chloe are the same person. They realize that the story was 100% a lie, that Nikki had actually lied about everything, and they start making posts and stuff about it and lowkey trying to catch her in lies when they spoke to her. {”So they just let you leave the hospital and go home in a cab without contacting your family or anything? Lol I would SUE the fuck out of them if I were you!”}. People feel betrayed cause their like “Her name probably isn’t even Nikki, who is this person?! Why would she lie about this!?”

When Nikki realizes that more and more people are getting suspicious she vanishes from the internet. Everyone comes and apologizes to me and tries to say “I knew all along she was full of shit but I didn’t wanna question it just in case”… Pffft, liars. 

 Anyhoo, now I refer to her as “my ex that rose from the dead” and get to have a nice laugh about it sometimes. It’s funny, people still try to deny that they fell for the shit lol. It was honestly hell having all my friends turn on me like that, constantly yelling at me, but holy fuck was it great when people finally realized.

-Billy {Sorry, I did try and keep this short >_<}