Sending out love to every single babe who follows me, who doesn’t follow, who’s loud, who’s quiet, who continues to push boundaries and kick major ass in life. you’re all beautiful, you matter and i’m proud of you. ♀#internationalwomensday
“While Outlander is a brilliant period show, Claire represents so many qualities of a 20th-century modern-day woman, someone who is forging her own path, fighting for what she believes, and doing so with integrity,” Balfe said in a statement to press Monday. Elaborating exclusively to Vanity Fair, she added, “Right now it’s a very important time to stand up and voice our beliefs and reiterate that we are 50 percent of the population … that we have a voice and we need to use it. Even though Claire is a woman from the 40s, I think that she does have a resonance today. We need to stand up for our b e l i e f s and our r i g h t s , and I think she embodies that kind of spirit.”
“…getting to play Claire was an absolute dream. She is strong-willed and, not perfect, but a survivor and a fighter, and I think that is such a great place to go to in your work every day—to play someone who has such resilience. It can only make you feel better about everything in your life. I feel very grateful to be able to go to work every day and play her.”
~ Caitriona Balfe on Why Outlander’s Caitriona Balfe Hopes Women Take a Cue from Claire Fraser, Vanity Fair
i work at a daycare/day camp thing with six and seven year olds
-*points to my ring* are you married?
me: how to i explain that i am 16 and im dating a piece of shit
-“are you a boy or a girl?”
me: what makes you think im a boy or a girl?
kid: you have short hair!
me: girls can have short hair!
me internally: gender is an illusion my children
-*kid pickpockets the radio from my coworkers pocket and presses the button* “can we order pizza?”
-me: our craft today is making snakes out of paper!
kid: CAN MINE BE POISONOUS
other kid: can it bite me i want to go home
other other kid: i got bit by a python once
other other other kid: yeah sure craig
-i herd the kids outside and they all hang out by the door waiting to go inside. when i ask them why they say that its hot out. its only 84 degrees
-me, to my coworker: oh i get off in ten minutes
ten minutes later: “REY IS LEAVING EVERYONE TACKLE HER OR HIM” (they didn’t believe me when i told them i was a ‘girl’ so now use “her or him” when referring to me. i dont correct them because they are on the right track)
(there’s so mucb jally and lgbt!johnny it’s not even funny omg)
- johnny would probably listen to bands like imagine dragons, artic monkeys, some of twenty one pilot’s older music, and the hardrock dally likes
- he also managed to talk ponyboy into reading to him, which wasn’t hard because pony loves to read to him anyway
- this boy always has a pair of earbuds on him even if he isn’t listening to them
- it helps him whenever he has to block out his parents
- which is a lot
- but he’s careful not to listen to his music too loud. he doesn’t want to go deaf and especially not before he’s 20
- mostly because ponyboy and darry always nag him about it
- and johnny’s never really understood why it wasn’t socially acceptable for men to wear makeup or wear dresses or skirts?? he just doesn’t get it
- johnny also keeps a hair tie on his wrist for when he gets too anxious and needs something to fiddle with
- two-bit once had to take it away from him because he was scared johnny’d cut off his circulation to his hand
- and his hands are always shaking
- so johnny’s always fidgeting with something to try and hide it
- but it doesn’t matter who you are
- his hands are shaking
- and, okay, one night he’s with dally and they’re driving. they weren’t talking. they were letting dally’s radio fill the silence.
- johnny was cool with it
- and dally was Focused™ on driving
- and johnny’s just watching dally drive and dally runs his hand through his hair and, internally, johnny just kinda goes,“oh. oh shit.”
- mkay he realizes that he may have a small crush on dallas winston
- which he hadn’t really considered before
- and he quickly decides that it shouldn’t matter who you love if it doesn’t harm you or the other person in a negative way
- so johnny realizes that he could fall in love with anyone
- at first, it kinda scares him but he ends up researching all night about this
- turns out, he’s pansexual
- the first person he comes out to is ponyboy, who actually knew what the term meant (probably because this boy never gets off tumblr smh)
- pony accepts
- he comes out to two-bit next. then soda, steve, and darry. he had to explain what it meant, but they accepted.
- he comes out to dally last. not because he didn’t want him to know, but because johnny was scared he’d ask who made him realize that. johnny wasn’t ready to tell him that.
- so one night they’re driving again and the sun is setting and dally looks like he’s made out of gold
- johnny loves it
- dally ofc doesn’t notice or let on to johnny staring
- johnny looks back to the road in front of them
- “i’m pansexual.”
- “you’re what?”
- “i could fall in love with anyone, dal.”
- “even a guy?”
- “even a guy.”
- johnny can feel dally staring at him
- he’s terrified to look up at dally but he does
- dally’s face is totally blank
- “whatever makes you happy, kid.”
- johnny can’t figure out how dally feels about it
- a small part of johnny is scared that dally’s angry
- but dally offers him a cigarette and johnny knows he’s at least not angry
- they don’t talk. just smoke in peace. the radio fills the silence
- which allows johnny’s mind to wander
- his parents would disown him
- so he never comes out to them
- he cries when lgbt+ get equal marriage rights. first, it’s out of elation because he is so happy. but then he goes home and hears his parents bashing the lgbt+ community
- he doesn’t even get through the door when he hears them
- and he goes back to the curtises
- he’s a mess
- he’s trying really hard not to cry but he can’t
- he can’t do it
- he was apart of that community and they were people, too
- ponyboy gets him to calm down after an hour
- he stays with the curtises for a week after that night
- johnny was a lot quieter after that, if that was even possible
- it worried dallas the most, though
- “c'mon, johnny, man, you haven’t said five words all day!”
- “i’m fine, dal.”
- it went on like that for a month, driving dally insane
- so, when dally runs out of ideas, he turns to the oldest curtis brother for help
- dally and darry have always been close,, okay
- and darry honestly saw this coming. he was just waiting for dallas to figure this out himself
- so darry isn’t surprised when dallas comes to him and all he’s talking about is johnny
- darry can tell dally’s been drinking by the way he slurrs his words and how he can hardly stand up
- “dar, what’s wrong with johnny? why won’t he talk to me?”
- darry, being the genius he is, starts to play a little mind game with dallas
- “why does it matter, dal?”
- “‘cause he’s my friend, dar.“
- “you’re friends with sodapop and you don’t care if you go a few days without talking to him.”
- “well johnny’s different, man!”
- “why’s johnny different? why do you care if you don’t talk for a few days?”
- “‘cause i want him happy! and ‘cause he doesn’t act like i’m an asshole!”
- “why does it matter what johnny thinks of you?“
- “i don’t know, man! he just..he makes me want to be less of an ass.”
- “so johnny makes you better?”
- darry watched as a drunk, crooked smile found its way across the younger boy‘s face. it made darry smile, too.
- “yeah, man. i love the little dude.”
- “yeah, just like a brother to you, right?” darry knew this wasn’t how dallas loved johnny, but he needed dally to say it himself.
- darry knew he gotten through to dallas when his eyebrows scrunched up.
- “no, man. i love him the way i loved sylvia. i wanna—” dallas then went on to describe all of the very raunchy ways he wanted to see johnny cade, and it made darry want to rip his ear drums out (he did not need those visuals of his friends), but he had gotten through to dallas.
- “dal—” darry cut dallas off mid-sentence,“why don’t you go find johnny and tell him yourself?”
- dallas’ drunk smile faltered.“no, man. what if he doesn’t feel the same, man?”
- “you’ll never know unless you try.”
- “dammit, darry. he’d be in the lot, right?”
- and like that, dally was gone. darry quickly sent johnny a text to give him a heads up about what was about to happen and to be in the lot.
i felt like this was a good place to stop. should i write more outsiders headcannons??