internal narrative

Here’s to the girl who’s far from perfect. The one who’s confident yet completely insecure at the same time. Here’s to the girl who cares just a little too much. She loves with all of her heart yet pretends to have no emotions. She has her bad days and her really bad days, but most days are good and she’s thankful for that. She loves her family and friends, and she’s learning to love herself too. This girl is so extremely passionate, more than it even comes across. It is often her strength and her downfall. She wants to be swept off her feet, but will never be taken advantage of. She’s strong, but vulnerable in ways some will never know. She’s opinionated and a perfectionist and her mind is filled with the most beautifully outrageous dreams. So here’s to the girl who’s still trying to figure things out. The one who people might not know as well as they think they do.
—  Kiannah Joylinn (i’m in love with this. by far one of the most personal things i’ve ever written)

for real there’s nothing worse than seeing actual teenagers trot out the “your brain isn’t fully developed until you’re 25!” bullshit. that is a view of brain development that falls somewhere in the spectrum between “way oversimplified” and “just plain wrong”. it gets pushed and repeated because it helps prop up social norms that include robbing young people of autonomy and consent, regulating them out of the public sphere, and silencing their voices on important issues. and my heart just breaks to see teens internalizing this narrative of “you’re inherently stupid and untrustworthy because your brain is programmed to be shitty for another 10 years”. it’s like some kind of mass stockholm syndrome. young people please love yourselves and realize you do not have to wait until your mid-20s to be a whole and real person with the right to be taken seriously.

I’m going through YOI withdrawal, and since I didn’t do this originally for eps 1 - 9, I figured I might as well fill my empty Wednesdays from now on doing this until I reach ep 9…so, without further ado:

Scenes I loved in episode 7 of Yuri on Ice (aka the episode that broke Tumblr, Twitter, the Internet, etc and saved 2016):

Still adorable.

Damn that blanket.

I don’t know what is cuter about Guang Hong’s internal narrative for his free skate: the fact that he rescues his beloved “ally” Leo or that Georgi is the villain. It’s probably a tie.

I CAN’T EVEN….

Baby Chris is super adorable. I guess in a way, Victor gave him his life and love by motivating him.

Adult Chris is still adorable to me but just in a naughtier way. Although I do wish the music he chose for his FS was more sexy. I never thought it matched him or his outfit.

I was so happy Phitchit got first place at the China Cup. I would’ve been TOTALLY fine if he got bronze during the Grand Prix Final. I love him.

I SHATTERED.

Although Victor’s reaction did give me a chuckle.

Seriously, no matter how many times I rewatch this scene, I still get emotional. A distraught Yuuri just kills me.

Thank God for Georgi for providing a moment of levity. Again, I know he was totally seriously heartbroken and I completely feel for him, but I still couldn’t stop laughing at his entire FS. I’m sorry, Georgi. I hope his new girlfriend is nicer to him.

Such a tiny gesture and yet packed with so much meaning for them. Ugh, these two…my heart.

I love every single moment of Yuuri’s FS performance this time, from his inner dialogue to…

…both Victor and Yurio and just about everyone else’s reaction to it. Again, gets me all happy weepy every time.

As if there could be any doubt that I would love this moment. I mean, if seeing my OTP sitting together to share a meal and some laughter is enough to keep me happy for a year, something like this…I’m still surprised my brain didn’t just short circuit and break apart right then and there. I would normally expect something like this to happen in a show like Yuri on Ice as much as I would expect the same to occur in shows like Kuroko no Basuke or Haikyuu or Prince of Tennis…in that I would NEVER expect it to EVER happen since YOI is a sports anime first and foremost. So to say this shook me to my core in the best possible way would be an accurate assessment of my reaction when I first watched the episode. 

That look between them…I think I love it almost as much as I love The Kiss. I would’ve loved it more if they kissed again right here, but that much happiness in such quick succession would have definitely melted my brain into a worthless pile of goo. 

Yuuri had to have felt that glare all the way in China. I’m so happy Otabek came (back) into his life to burn some of that seething anger away.

For International Women’s Day, I want to tell you a little story that I just wrote my art history paper on. 


This is Judith Slaying Holofernes by Artemisia Gentileschi. It depicts the violence of two women decapitating Holofernes’ head (one of the general’s of the King Nebuchadnezzar’s army). Gentileschi is known for painting scenes during the 17th century Baroque movement that illustrated violence towards men. This is because whenever she was 18, she claimed to have been raped by one of her father’s colleagues at the university she studied art at. When she spoke out against him, the man went through trial but was never punished for his actions. Judith Slaying Holofernes is a story portrayed in the bible. At the time, the Assyrian army was about to destroy the town of Bethulia. Judith had snuck into his tent late at night with her maidservant, seduced him, got him drunk, and decapitated his head when he passed out. The next day, she had hung his head on the gates to the city showing that the entire Assyrian army couldn’t go further because of their dead general. Because of this action, Judith was seen as the city’s heroine. Gentileschi’s characteristics in this painting are shown to be very forceful and violent. She is telling this story out of anger through her experiences with men. To the audience, it shows that women (even religious ones) can be a lot more than what men can expect from them, and nothing is stopping them to get justice. And if you don’t think that is not just the most badass thing you’ve heard all day then I don’t know what is. 

anonymous asked:

What is your pet peeve?

Shit like this:

Come on, I don’t burn everything.

…But I did burn his entire front yard. And four or five cop cars. And the cops. And a bit inside his house.

I probably traumatized his parents, but fuck them, they were assholes. Cat was cute, though.

Assuming the Mantle

You are fast asleep. Dreaming. Then the alarm on your phone goes off. You wake and look around you. Then, like a computer program, you load the “who I am file”. Your internal narrative. You load your troubles, your faults, your fears and your assessment of your immediate future. Now, you have assumed the mantle of self. You have transformed from sleeping consciousness to waking consciousness. They are both you but both very different. 

In 12 hours you go back to sleep and again become sleeping consciousness. It is a mistake to think that sleep is just a period where the brain is “off”. The brain is very much “on” it is just on in a manner which is inaccessible to your waking consciousness. Your nighttime dreams fade quickly when you wake. Yet, they remain in your brain. Your waking self is denied access to them. This way you are less likely to confuse dreams with reality. 

If you could change this internal narrative by hypnosis you would in essence be reprogrammed and would be somebody else.

My favourite argument against bi!Dean is ‘BUT DEAN SAID HE WAS STRAIGHT’, because I just get to laugh a knowing little laugh & think to myself ‘Yeah, so did I. even believed it at the time, too

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Anathema tease their new album titled The Optimist - out on June 9th via Kscope…

The idea for The Optimist was born from the front cover artwork of the band’s 2001 album A Fine Day To Exit Daniel Cavanagh explains “I suppose you might say the album is semi-autobiographical because this time we used a surrogate,” he says, of the character that is The Optimist “We put sound, feelings and crucially, our own hopes and fears into another person and made him the subject of the songs then weaving my own internal monologue into the narrative of The Optimist. It was John’s idea to write a narrative, so I took A Fine Day To Exit as the starting point”. Vincent elaborates further on the earlier album’s artwork influence “The guy who disappeared – you never knew what happened to him, did he start a new life? Did he succumb to his fate? It was never explained. The opening track title is the exact coordinates for Silver Strand beach in San Diego – the last known location of The Optimist – shown on the cover of A Fine Day to Exit.

We all have an internal narrative. This is the story of who we are. We seem to reload it every morning. It says here are our fears, this is what we are worried about, these are our problems and this is where we think we are going. When a person has amnesia this doesn’t mean they forgot everything. They can still walk, ride a bike, dress, read and write. No, it is not memory they lost but their internal narrative.

The Angel of Narrative Cliche (S12E01 episode coda)

There are some things that just offend Gabriel’s sense of good writing. Torturing Sam once, three times, maybe fifty or so, fine, but by now? That’s just old hat.
Also, he was far more creative than this. Just for the record.


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A narrative is a story; a dominant narrative is history. For example, Nancy Huston argues that a dominant narrative is an indispensable part of a war effort. The plot includes ‘the good guys’ fighting 'the bad guys’ for valorous reasons, and. after overcoming extreme hardship and personal suffering, winning 'the good fight’. Huston explains that 'war imitates war narrative imitates war’. In other words, stories of war both make war possible and serve as models for war, while wars provide material for more war stories. The 'moral’ of a war story is, of course, winning the war that the story has justified. In war stories, then, 'the actual number of victims—and a fortiori their innocence and guilt, and secondary considerations; what counts is the capacity to kill their triumphal narrative of the enemy’.  The omission of real suffering in war discourse permits neglect of real suffering in war. Physical violence and linguistic narrative are thus inseparable, and must be understood as distinct parts of the war instead of as 'the war’ and 'the story about the war’ as if they were discrete. 'What we say’ and 'what we do’ in international politics are inseparable.
—  Laura Sjoberg, Gender, Justice, and The Wars in Iraq: A Feminist Reformulation of Just War Theory

I was being kind of facetious when I described Sophie’s approach to stereotypical female role pigeonholes as “who says you have to pick one?”, but really - a lot of Sophie’s shtick as a grifter is that she makes tropes work for her.  A lot of Sophie’s short-term single episode personas are real “types,” tailored to the situation, and I don’t think that’s her using shortcuts or anything.   I think it’s a deliberate strategy.  People are less likely to question things that fit smoothly in their internal narratives.

like, watch me be extra salty about this

you can rationalize that monster scene all you want - and you might even make a very compelling argument. but the thing people take issue with isn’t with NATASHA for saying that she’s a monster (which is an understandable reaction to trauma like that) but with WHEDON for writing that line the way he did, without bruce even saying a throwaway ‘you’re not a monster’, for equating being forcibly violated by other people resulting in an inability to breed with killing thousands of people and saying, essentially, that because she couldn’t have children that means she cares less about killing people in the field, as if a woman’s empathy is intrinsically tied with her fertility 

but ultimately people are pissed that he took what should have been a backstory that STOOD ON ITS OWN and used it to have her prop up bruce’s storyline and saying some elopement bullshit, it’s an external critique of the AUTHOR not an internal critique of the narrative what the hell part of this is hard to get

also its incredibly ridiculous that they’d make her kill someone but the graduation ceremony is sterilization. like can you imagine if hydra’s most evil deed was to give bucky a vasectomy like who are you even kidding

i will say this: you can think something worked internally – was narratively cohesive and consistent and even rewarding as a resolution to a character’s story – and still look at the big picture, the 2016 death tally, the 20 years of television history…

…and be fucking tired. these aren’t mutually exclusive feelings, but the big picture makes it very hard to be okay with the small.

“How to Spot ‘Trauma’ Fakers:

1) they have any sort of knowledge of how mental health works

2) they have any self awareness

3) they have an internal narrative of their experience that you, the mental health professional, don’t have complete control over

4) they act like *you* should listen to *them*”