<b>Mor:</b> *eating breakfast*<p/><b>Rhys:</b> Mor, did you see Feyre today? She looked so pretty. Her eyes are so beautiful.<p/><b>Mor:</b> Yes, she looked very nice to-<p/><b>Rhys:</b> nICE?? MOR YOu DON'T GET IT. IT'S LIKE STarING AT THE sUN.<p/><b>Mor:</b> *nodding absently as she eats her protein bar* yes Rhys<p/></p>
I lie in the dark counting your heartbeats. I imagine our life together. I imagine the words I will say when we get married. The thought of trying to put together enough sentences to describe the depth of my love brings tears to my eyes. My love is blind faith, miraculous and divine. Hearing you breathe beside me at night, that is my religion. You said you wanted to grow old with me and I held it in my lungs, trying not to let it escape so that I could let it saturate in my veins. You are not the best parts of me. You are the most beautiful parts of the person I want to become. You are the love story I have been trying to write my entire life.
“They had you wrapped up like a present yesterday. Like you were his reward.”
Remember Feyre’s response? “So?”
Remember how angry Rhys was at the response? I can agree with him.
Because Feyre was so sick that she honestly didn’t care that Tamlin practically owned her. She didn’t care that she was his goddamn REWARD, as if he had done some heroic thing. As if he hadn’t sat and watched while Feyre faced trials and was dying in the dungeons. She hated herself so much and was so reliant on Tamlin and Ianthe that Tamlin could’ve hit her and raped her and done whatever else to her, and she probably would have fought back the first few times, but would stop fighting after a while.
So some people say there’s nothing wrong with her response. I say that EVERYTHING was wrong with her response.
And you know what? Here’s another reason I love Rhysand: he brought back that fight in her. Even the first time she came to the Night Court, she fought him because she loathed him. She gained her power back slowly because he helped her realize she never lost it in the first place. And when she grew to like him, that fight didn’t fade. In fact, it thrived. She healed because Rhys helped her understand she was sick. And when she wasn’t sick anymore, and was able to see that she’d been wrong, he stayed with her. Bonded with her. Loved her. Tamlin hated the fight in Feyre and wanted to stop it; Rhys embraced that flame and fanned it to make it grow.
And you know what? If Feyre looked back now and remembered saying “So?” in response to Rhys’ observation, I’m sure she’d be horrified about it.
Her strength is the most imspiring thing in the whole ACOTAR series to me. Yes, the whole “Court of Dreams” thing is wonderful, and having friends as amazing as the Inner Circle is cool, too, but nothing is as awesome (and I mean “awesome” in the old way, not the new) as seeing Feyre overcome her demons, love herself, and become such a strong figure. I aspire to be like her one day. So thank you, Sarah J. Maas, because you did more for me through your stories than most ever would’ve bothered to in real life.
“The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don’t have any.” - Alice Walker
They say to count your blessings
You are all I count,
Your every feature,
Your every quality,
All that makes you who you are,
All that you give me,
All of what you do for me,
The happiness you planted in my heart,
The smile you fixed on my face,
The puzzle pieces you put together,
The times you picked me up when I was down,
The unforgettable days you gave me,
The beautiful memories I will forever keep,
All the love that I needed,
All the care that I was missing,
Your precence makes my world better,
The new home you gave me, which are your arms,
Everytime you put me to bed,
Every beautiful flower you handed me,
Beautiful music that makes me feel closer to you, music that tells us the things we don’t know how to say to each other,
All the advice no one else gave me,
All the motivation I needed to become a better person,
The way you bring out the best in me,
The very best friend that I have ever had in my entire life span,
The greatest lover I have shared my life and my self with,
Knowing my heart is in good hands,
I love you for all of you, all that you do.
I am blessed in a million other ways, for having you.
I don’t care if I get blacklisted for this because I feel that all ARMYs should read this. (This was Namjoon in the chat today. They’re in a layover in New York on their way to Chile).
This is why I love him. This is why I’m gonna be forever alone. He knows just what to say to us. He knows just how uplift us and make sure we keep going forward. Whether it’s in school, work, or even be criticized for being an ARMY.
This is Kim Namjoon. This is our leader. One of the best humans to exist in this world.
Sometimes I doubt if I could be anything for you
can’t stomach these feelings
that are floating around for you
I’ve tried many ways to rid of this love
I have in my heart for you
only because you can’t seem to feel the same too
I’ve been writing poems about you for two years now
hopeless in love and all I can feel is foolish
can’t even talk to you the same just to mask the fact
that I’m in love with you, but I know my eyes are 101 loveproof
I see couples together all around me
and my mind betrays me for a moment and I’m consumed
with thoughts of the possibility that we could be
and you loving me could finally become true
You catch my eye, but I look down and pretend it didn’t happen
the way your dimples deepen give me the impression
that you could be feeling me
But then I see you hugged up with your girlfriend
and the thought of you liking me turns into a fantasy
I secretly catch you staring at me closely or from afar
have me wondering whether you find me beautiful
or if you’re simply just dozing off
I’m just lost––but, probably not I’m not the type to drop jaws
just the type to make you laugh
our relationship remaining platonic
and all you’ll have of me are friendly, wholesome thoughts
Where in my right mind did I come up
with the notion that you might love me more than a best friend?
But that bit of hope keeps me thinking:
is that really how everything will end?
I have no idea, but only time will tell
and though I think I don’t deserve it
I’m blessed that the Lord has left you in my life still
Although I know you can’t just be best friends
with someone you’re in love with
I hope that it’ll just be a matter of time
that you will be mine