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I found it funny and terrible. And yeah, heartbreaking.” she laughed bitterly. “How can I keep on saying yes, even if I wanted to say no. How I keep on believing in so many lies even if all I wanted was to know every little bit of the truth. Maybe because I know it would hurt me so bad. To see things far from what I wanted them to be. To hear the words that would bring me back to every pain I’m always avoiding—to feel. It hurts like hell. And I am so tired of pretending that it was okay.” she looked down and finally said, “And if I continue this, it would just tear me in the end. I just realized that I deserve to say no.” she sighed showing that she’s exhausted, then she softly said, “And this time, I’ll choose to say no.
—  ma.c.a // Silently Breaking
if he walks out on you because he’s not happy, then sweetheart that’s entirely his own problem. it was never about what you did or didn’t do, it wasn’t about the arguments or the struggles you have with letting somebody new in. it was about him not being able to love the best parts of you, he couldn’t find the courage to love someone so rare and genuine. but he also didn’t deserve to. he wasn’t happy because of himself, and that’s not something to ever blame yourself for.
—  advice from me to you. - a.l.m

I am teaching myself how to take up space. How to not apologise constantly for the way I live and breathe. How an apology isn’t something I am supposed to say before I speak in a conversation. How  I’m so sorry, isn’t something I have to say before I just allow myself the basic right of speaking about anything.

I am teaching myself that I am allowed to exist on this planet without thinking of myself as a burden. How to not apologise for things that are out of my control. How to understand when people are trying to manipulate me into thinking the worst of myself and most of all how to stop thinking the very worst of myself as I deserve better than that from myself.


I am teaching myself that humans can exist without assuming the very worst about themselves and how the people around them perceive them. How to not apologise when someone bumps into me and I immidiately assume it is my fault. How to not apologise when I ask a question because I think others will think I am stupid. How to love myself for these flawed bits of me no one has ever wanted to love before.


I am teaching myself that all the lies my abusers told me about myself were so very wrong. How I am allowed to make mistakes. How as long as I apologise and amend things, anything is fixable if I still have love in my heart for the other person. How not everything that has ever gone wrong in every relationship is my fault.


I am finally learning how to take up space as a human being. It’s taken a long, long road to get here. And I still have a very long way to go before I am done understanding that it is my job to take up space, that I am not just an afterthought or a secondary character in this gift of life I have been given. That who I am is not an apology, that who I am is not wrong.

—  Nikita Gill, On Learning How To Take Up Space
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.
—  Pablo Neruda
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You are
the kindest person
I have ever known,
not because of your words
or what you’ve done
but because you always
used to bring out
the best me
I could be.
—  // –
j.d.m.
two things that caught my attention in the teaser

[Watch it here if you haven’t yet! tumblr wont let me link it in text akfsldjsakejf]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AwHB1xzk_Pg

  • CAGES. WHY CAGES. ARE THOSE CAGES??? WHY CAGES-
  • did anyone hear the organ playing right at the very end. hmmm. where’s the only other place we’ve seen an organ- OH RIGHT.

and this last thing wasn’t something I caught, but it was mentioned by my friend dream. Boris is on the table behind Alice.

It’s hard to make out, but you can see his lower body and legs.That’s the same rope he was tied down with in the ‘Angel Ending’ cutscene

So we’ve got Cages, Alice ominously looking out into the void at said cages, Organ playing, Boris tied down… This is way more telling than the Chapter 3 ‘in development’ trailer.