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To Everyone And Everything

Standing on some dock
Staring into the sky
Silent
Dark clouds floating
Empty faces trailing
With empty eyes
White teeth
Grinding and chewing
Grinding and chewing

It’s not your fault I’m like this
You did everything you could do
I have nothing but love for you
I have nothing but stale air for you
Thick
Timeless
And hey
Your hair looked nice the other day
I forgot to tell you
On the moon
On fire

I feel myself growing in the middle of night
It’s uncomfortable
I sit up and take a sip of whiskey
It’s still uncomfortable
I smoke a cigarette
Uncomfortable
I trick my mind for a second into relaxing
Everything buzzing
Tossing and turning

You’re my world
You’re the good part of my day
I hope you live 1000 lives
Travel through the universe
Become a celebrated intergalactic bounty hunter
I hope you support those you love
Count on your friends
And one day have a normal sleep routine
Take your medications as prescribed
Tower over me
And live forever

The room’s silent
The blanket’s warm
The ocean distant
Everything distant
Overcast
Singing lullabies into a grand nothingness
Slowly blowing instability over the hills
Through small towns
Abandoned buildings
The forests in between
I’m here
Feeling
Listening
Tripping over my own feet
Nervously laughing
Falling down

All the lights
All the windows
All the people
Scattered with good intention
Madness
Beauty
Emptiness
Everyone and everything
You mean more to me than you’ll ever know

My little honey bunny! (❍ᴥ❍) I hope to turn this into a sticker soon when I get my scanner working. Maybe then I can finally get my butt in gear to sell stuff.

This is my fist animation that I finished, and I love it!!! XXXX33333

Do not steal/trace/copy/alter/use/repost my animation!! (Permission is required if want to use/repost)

i love you. [delete]
did you ever love me? [delete]
was i just somebody you used to make you feel better about yourself? [delete]
well, here’s me making you feel better about yourself: you’re the most amazing person i’ve ever met in my life. nobody could ever take your place. i love you more than words can say. [delete]
yeah, you fucked me over, but i still think you’re great. i don’t know if that says more about me or more about you. i don’t know if that makes me pathetic or kindhearted. i always saw the good in you. [delete]
i know i didn’t always act like you were important to me. i’m sorry for that. i’m sorry i didn’t shove it down your throat every day, tell you that you were worth everything to me; i’m sorry i held your mistakes against you so much. i’m sorry i didn’t realize you were struggling too. [delete]
you’re still the first person i want to tell anything to. like did you hear who our ex-friend is hooking up with? did you see that facebook status? did you see that car crash on route 29? did you know there are more microbes on your body than people on earth? [delete]
i know i said leave but i really meant i’ll be waiting for you to come back. my friends say it’s not permanent; i can go back whenever i want to. i know i can but i left for a reason. it hurts so much that you don’t want me. [delete]
i keep thinking i can convince you to choose me. who wouldn’t want someone who loves them this much? i want to shower you with compliments just so you realize what you lost. [delete]
but i also want you to know you’re special. i want you to know somebody loves you, even if they’re far away. i want you to know how you lifted my spirits by just existing. [delete]
but then i think: where’s my “i love you”? where’s my “thank you for existing”? where’s my “you’re special” and “i appreciate you” and “you’re important to me”? why am i always the one trying to make this work? why don’t you value me? [delete]
you told me you’d always answer my text messages, probably even in your sleep. i can’t believe someone so goddamn beautiful could do such ugly things. [delete]
—  delete delete delete

Afraid to sit in a park and just
sit there– as if the world will glare at me
The absurd idea of putting my
phone away and sitting as those
who sat before me–
Listening to birds,
smelling flowers, noticing a stranger’s
limp and wondering where
the injury came from–
As if these observations are boring,
unimportant, a waste of time, silly–
As if somehow, staring at my phone
and reading about a stranger
on the news or scrolling through
pictures of birds is more acceptable.

#Work Doodles Part 5. Oh boy. Someone better answer the grumpy Asian kid or things are not gonna be pretty. (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7)