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i feel so lost
i feel so alone
like time is gone
and i’m all
on my own
—  t.m.

But then sometimes
we miss the memories
not the people.

Sometimes we want
the feelings back,
but not with
the same person.

—  ma.c.a // Change of Tides
seriously, fuck you
for making me think
that i wasn’t good enough
when the problem was
i was more than enough
just so enough that
you couldn’t handle it
—  you never deserved me 
Her mother told her she could grow up to be anything she wanted be, so she grew up to become the strongest of the strong, the strangest of the strange, the wildest of the wild, the wolf leading wolves.
—  Nikita Gill, For The Red Riding Hood Who Was The Wolf

And it was one

of the hardest decisions

that I’ve made.


To walk away

from someone

I knew I can

always fight for.


Yet the truth is,

love was always

hard if it’s

one sided.

Even if it’s exactly

what you thought

you’re looking for.

And I’ll always
wonder about
what’s swirling
in your mind—
what’s blooming
in your heart,
but I’ll always
be terrified
of not being
able to find
my name
written inside
any of them.
—  ma.c.a // Please, Say Who I Am

Meeting you was like a breath of fresh air in a time that I was drowning.

You came to me unexpectedly and took the water out of my lungs allowing me to breathe again.

Although you had frayed edges and dangerous ways, you intrigued me like no other.

You were broken too, but I was there for you in times of need.

You engulfed me in your words and held me close by

But in the end, I was just another cigarette to you -

You threw me away with ease and lit up the next one.

j.n

Drunk text me. Let me know that when you’re at your most vulnerable, I’m the one on your mind. Call me at three in the morning when you’ve had a nightmare. I’ll come running to hold you. Show up at my door, no flowers, no gifts, and when I ask you why, tell me that you just wanted to see me. Hold my hand. Kiss my nose. Dance with me in the middle of the street. Tell me how much I matter to you, and when I roll my eyes, tell me again. Write me a letter. Sing me a song. Cuddle with me. Please, I just want to know how you feel.

Excerpt from a book I’ll never write

“it doesn’t matter if it was a relationship or a friendship. when it ends, your heart breaks.”


- Day 26

And no matter
how hard it goes,
may you found
inner peace
even if
you are
surrounded
by a world
full of chaos.
—  ma.c.a // Silence
she tried to escape everything
but it didn’t matter how hard she tried
she stayed a shadow of her past
it’s still written on her skin
—  t.m.
appreciate those people that still try to be funny and make you laugh while they’re going through some shit and are sad themselves

My eyes
will always
search for you.

Even in the
darkest night,
even around
millions of
shining stars.

—  ma.c.a // Lost Love

“I’m so tired of loving you in my sleep and waking up alone.”

–a special kind of hell