being physically sick when you have mental illness is so odd because i am positive, always, that people will treat me the same way. i assume i’m not bad, because others have been worse, i tell very few people, i apologize for the inconvenience. i say of diagnosed illnesses: i’m faking it. it’s not bad. i don’t want to be annoying.
and it is strange to me. i get tired quickly because my lungs aren’t working - people go out of their way to help me, let me sit down, tell me not to worry. i get tired because my brain isn’t working - people ask why i’m being difficult, why i can’t just drink a coffee.
i cough and i wheeze and people fawn over me. they offer me cough drops, they pull tissues from sleeves. when i stop eating and showering i’m being selfish, i’m lazy. i apologize for not wanting to go to the party, i’m on antibiotics and can’t drink; i’m told they’ll miss me, i get people staying home with me. i apologize for not wanting to go to the party, i’m spiraling and drinking wouldn’t be good for me; i’m told to relax and stop taking things seriously.
i show up to work wheezing. my lungs sound like a door creaking. i am shooed home, told to take off all the time i need. i never tell my boss i have ocd and am sometimes late for counting. admitting this seems personal, embarrassing. when i am having a bad day, i show up to work and people ask why i’m being so distant. so annoying. they drop their voice when they say depression but bring me green tea to help my breathing.
people ask if i’m feeling better. they fuss over me. they ask if they can bring soup, do anything.
people ignore it. they ask if i’m over it yet. they tell me it’s a phase, it’s passing. they say they were sad once, it’s not serious, and i should stop making everything about me.
i don’t let people take care of me. i don’t know how. i don’t trust them. in my life, when i am bad, they leave. when my body is failing, i assume the same thing.
i’m sorry i’m difficult. i just don’t understand people trying.
you have got to be alert and on top of things because straight cis men are the most irresponsible vectors of disease a careless god ever created. they are so disgusting and indifferent.
know about stis. know about bv, yeast infections, that thing that looks like a skin tag, the greenish ooze coming out of his dick, that funny smell–know what healthy genitals look and smell and feel like and don’t be afraid to assess your situation and turn him down if you want to and feel like you can.
you have to know this stuff because most men don’t know what’s up down there and if it isn’t actively hurting them they do not give a FUCK what it will do to you or anyone else as long as they get off.
you have to know this stuff because even tho it’s their responsibility, they’ll shirk it to the grave. don’t let their indifference affect you!
Cymothoa exigua is a parasite that is also know by the name the ‘Tongue-eating louse’. It is an isopod with the unique identifiable feature of being the only known parasite that functionally replaces a host’s organ. The louse enters the fish’s body through the gills, attaches to fish’s tongue and extracts blood, causing it to shrivel and eventually fall off. Once this has been achieved the louse attaches to the remaining stub and acts as a replacement tongue, receiving nutrients by feeding on the fish’s blood and mucus. While the majority of fish found with these parasite’s are underweight, there is no evidence that this parasite causes a significant amount of harm to its host.
These parasites, while aesthetically disturbing, are also not harmful to humans. While a person has brought a lawsuit against a supermarket chain after finding cymothoa exigua in fish they had eaten, the legal case was dropped. This was a result of there being no evidence that these parasites were in any way unhealthy for humans, they are not poisonous and can be incorporated into a healthy diet.
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