I’ve known for a while that I have pcos but it’s been flaring up particularly bad recently and it’s just such a frustrating ailment to have and no one really knows/cares about it. Doctors will say oh just go on the pill and do some exercise you’ll be fine. It sucks.
Not only does it have bigger health risks like increased risk of heart disease, ovarian cancer and infertility but it makes you feel like crap. Most of the side effects seem superficial but can you imagine growing up in a world that constantly pushes the ridiculous, rigid expectation of femininity and beauty on all young women, and have to go through easy weight gain, increased acne (all over your body) and oily skin, dandruff, excessive hair growth all over your body, hair thinning from your head, irregular periods and severe cramping, and commonly pcos is the cause of depression and anxiety. And then being someone who has not just a couple but all of these symptoms.
And it’s not just experiencing these things but also being judged for them, when they are things completely out of your control. To be ashamed for having this genetic disorder, but then unjustified in your upset because it’s just not something people talk or know that much about. Is it really that bad are you just obsessed with your looks, other people have it so much worse than you. Researching and finding out that preventative measures only go so far and will mean having to cut things out of your lifestyle that you love and it just feels unfair.
I will never really feel beautiful or feminine or comfortable because of this thing and the stigma attached to its symptoms and it just really, really sucks.