incomplete project

(August 2015)

You may have seen a crop of this before - if you frequent the page of my blog or see me on picarto. I had planned a lot more into this, but never got past the base shadows… still pretty darn cute though. 

“Get back here Ryo! No going out of the cave!”

(I was browsing through old art folder of incomplete projects and found @jackthevulture‘s weird seamen. So return of the baby pool noodle, animation form!)

when you collaborate with folks who are marginalized, when you use your connections/privilege in order to “give them a voice” i feel that it is SO important to also just fairly compensate them for their work. i hear a lot about getting people to speak on certain things and i fall into that trap of just suggesting someone be brought in to “contribute” and the insidious connotation of that is that visibility is enough..and i feel like it probably isn’t. pay people instead of treating visibility like its own reward imo!! or let them know exactly why you can’t afford to if not, and consider a project incomplete until you can fairly bring diverse voices into range on a topic. 

My thing is just allowing people, especially in my age-group, to find out who they are. We put everything on social media, and it’s cool, but we allow a lot of opinions about ourselves when we haven’t fully developed as human beings yet. I change all the time! And it’s hard when people nitpick an incomplete project. Like, how are you going to grade me on my first draft?

It’s a Squirrel Thing

Perhaps you’re familiar with that INTP stereotype about the inability of an INTP to keep a sustained passionate interest in anything. The stereotype is not without cause, I assure you. I have immense trouble keeping focused for a long time.

Oh, I’ll start strong. There’s a huge pile of projects that I’ve started in my life, but they’re only started. I suppose it makes the few things I’ve actually followed through to completion more special, but sometimes having that many incomplete projects lying around to accuse me of my innate laziness, lack of initiative, and overall epic procrastination skills is just a little bit depressing.

We aren’t total squirrels, though. I really do have a passion–writing–which has stuck with me since I was a little girl. Despite the fact that I’m always starting stuff that has no hope of a future doesn’t mean that I don’t have something solid in my life.

The INTP is known for vacillating, for drifting, for remaining unattached. We have many interests, and we go through many phases. People grow weary with our leaps from one subject to another, from one project to another, from one all-consuming study to another. It’s hard for them to understand that this is how we thrive. We must be consumed for three days by an intense desire to learn Chinese silk painting techniques, even though as soon as the three days are up we’ll never touch the subject again.

And yet, despite these phases, there’s going to be something that we always return to. We’re not quite the mad scientists that we seem to be. Yes, we’re ridiculous, but there’s a spark of sanity within us that’s going to surprise everyone someday.

Well, at least it will when we get around to it.

Incomplete. (August 2015)

One of my many all-nighter plunges that never get worked on again, ever. What better way to start than with MALACHITE after today though!! Holy shit I am so hyped asfjksfg

How the Different Houses Handle Big Projects
  • Gryffindor: Procrastinate, procrastinate, procrastinate, and then write the whole thing the night before it's due or even at breakfast that morning. Bitterly complain about it the whole time, but get it done, usually surprisingly well for something that was written the night before based on information from one page of a chapter in the only book left in the library that had anything to say on the subject.
  • Slytherin: All or nothing. Either do the entire thing the day it's assigned so they can move on with their lives or push it off to the last minute, occasionally not doing it at all. Either way they can usually pull off a respectable or even good grade. When the project is incomplete, they can usually spin a sympathetic story to get extra time from the professor. When that doesn't work, they accept the consequences of their actions.
  • Ravenclaw: Do the work in small amounts throughout the entire duration of the project. Take frequent breaks. Obsess over the smallest details. Rewrite a sentence five or six times. Some procrastinate on the projects that hold no interest for them. Significant difference in the quality of the projects they enjoy and the ones they don't. Easily get angry at themselves when they don't meet their own high expectations.
  • Hufflepuff: Stress about it. Check all sources three or four times. Use two more sources than were needed. Check with the professor to make sure they were doing the project correctly. Have their friends proofread the final project. Make sure it's neat and legible. Accepts the grade they are given, no matter what, and resolves to always strive to improve.
Despite understanding exactly what I want and knowing how to achieve this, piles of books rest in the corner and in aimless stacks about the room. A simple enough solution remains, but I never encounter the steps. I know to document wall measurements, to search for boards or shelves in this approximate length, to secure them into place, but measuring, shopping, and installing never appear on a list of my completed tasks. Dragging the focal point of the room down and cluttering my mind, the books sit closely against their brethren, seeking safety and warmth. This incomplete project neglects them once again as they huddle in the land of abandonment – the rug we lay our feet on, the ground we banish the remains of dust from an above shelf to, before sweeping them away in disposal – as if books, bound treasures of words and wisdom, are not deemed as worthy as the garbage we guide to a proper resting place.
—  Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #107 // Grazia Curcuru
Fic Masterpost

Just for reference, in case anyone’s interested:

Red vs. Blue:

  • Reconnaissance – The story that started it all.
  • After the Recon – My most popular and reviewed fic. Basically shenanigans and nonsense by the Reds, Blues and rest of the crew.
  • After the Recon II – Shenanigans continue, but the plot thickens. A serious twist or two thrown in.
  • After the Recon III – Finally, the answers you waited for… most of them, anyway.
  • AtR Bonus Material – Well what do we have here? Just gotta find out, I suppose.
  • Before the Recon – My second most popular work. All the backstory you could ever hope for. Set in Project Freelancer. Incomplete, but that may change…

Zombies, Run!:

Geologists for world leadership …

A few Earth Scientists who have risen to high office in governments across the globe. The usual career path for such folk seems to start with a background in law, the military or business, but there are some prime examples of rock-bashers who have put away their hammer for other challenges. Thomas Jefferson had a keen interest in Earth Sciences, and took his fossil collection to the White House when elected president, but Herbert Hoover, 31st president of the United States, was the first card-carrying geologist elected into office in USA. He had graduated from Stanford with a degree in geology and lectured on mining there and at Columbia as well as working as geologist in the Western Australian goldfields.

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