06/04/17 • Dead beauty
Don’t accept flowers from people you’re not certain of having a future with. You will end up pinned down by the memories of a possibility that never was. You will be haunted by the beauty of the flowers pressed between thick books, as if hiding from the reality of a past you cannot even face ahead.
Don’t accept flowers from people you’re not capable of enduring for a lifetime.
To the boy whom I wrote this for, I hope you don’t read this. I do not want to let you know that I held such thoughts about you. You were definitely good, but being good will never be enough for a person who does not want to accept flowers anymore. I hope you get to love yourself, and get yourself a better person than I was.
I was looking for some journals—which are in the photos—in my bookshelf and then I remembered having pressed flowers between the pages of my Merriam-Webster dictionary. The words above are true for me and I was looking for a healthy way to post this and tell people what I have recently learned, without letting the giver know about my thoughts—he deserves better than this.
Anyway, can we now focus on the blank journals I found? They’re very pretty and I can’t wait to write beautiful things on them.✨