in praise of a dream

SATISFIED: Lams version

Alright, this is what I’m talkin bout! Give it up, for the Best Man, John Laurens!

A toast to the groom!
(to the groom, to the groom, to the groom)
To the bride!
(to the bride, to the bride, to the bride)
From your best friend
(Laurens, Laurens, Laurens)
Who is always by your side
(by your side, by your side)
To your union and the hope that you provide
(you provide, you provide)
May you always (always)
Be satisfied (rewind)

I remember that night, I just might
I remember that night, I just might
I remember that night, I remember that

I remember that night, I just might
Regret that night for the rest of my days
I remember us soldier boys
Drinking and toasting ourselves to our future praise
I remember that pub light candlelight
Like a dream that you can’t quite place
But Alexander, I’ll never forget the first time I saw your face

I have never been the same
Intelligent eyes and a witty ass nickname
And when you said “Hi” I forgot my dang name
Set my heart aflame, ev'ry part aflame
This is not a game…

You strike me as a man who has never been satisfied

I’m sure I don’t know what you mean, you forget yourself

You’re like me, I’ve never been satisfied

Is that right?

I have never been satisfied

My name’s John Laurens

Alexander Hamilton

Where are you from?

Unimportant, though I can already tell I like you a lot.
Just you wait, just you wait…

So so so
So this is what it feels like to match thoughts
With someone at your level! What the hell is the catch? It’s
The feeling of freedom, of joy and pride
Maybe with him I won’t have to hide? You see him right?
The conversation lasted over two drinks, maybe three drinks
Ev'rything we said in total agreement, it’s
A dream and it’s a bit of a dance
A bit of a posture, it’s a bit of a stance
He flirts with me in his notes, and I give him the chance
I tell him bout my plans, do you see his face tho?
Dumbstruck, listening at the edge of his seat.
He’s fallen hard, you can tell by the knowable seam in his pants
Handsome, boy, does he know it!
Peach fuzz, and he can’t even grow it!
I wanna take him far away from this place
Then I’ve gotta leave to fight, leading my men at a quick pace
Then I get a note that leaves tears on my face he is


And I know she is


And her eyes are just


And I realize three fundamental truths at the exact same time
I’m a man in a world in which
My only job is to keep my title rich
My father has no other sons so I’m the one
Who’ll lead the black battalion the one
Cause I’m the oldest and the wittiest and the slavery in
Our new nation is insidious
And Alexander is penniless
Ha! That doesn’t mean I want him any less
(Doesn’t mean I want him any less)
(Doesn’t mean I want him any less)
(Doesn’t mean I want him any less)

He tells me he likes me a lot, that confuses the shit outta me
I’d have to be green to not see what he means
I don’t reply
Now there’s Eliza
Now that’s his bride
Nice going, Laurens, he was right
You will never be satisfied
(I will never be satisfied)
(I will never be satisfied)

I know my best friend like I know my own mind
You will never find anyone as trusting or as kind
If I tell him that I love him he would toss her to the side
He’d be mine
She would say, “I’m fine”
But she’d be lying

But when I fantasize at night
It’s Alexander’s eyes
As I romanticize what might have been
If I hadn’t left
so quickly
At least my dear Eliza’s his wife
At least I keep his letters in my life…

to the groom!
(to the groom, to the groom, to the groom)
To the bride!
(to the bride, to the bride, to the bride)
From your best friend
(Laurens, Laurens, Laurens)
Who is always by your side
(by your side, by your side)
To your union and the hope that you provide
(you provide, you provide)
May you always
Be satisfied

And I know
She’ll be happy as his bride
And I know
He will never be satisfied
I will never be satisfied

sometimes i wake up and realize that there really was a game where there is a badass father/daughter duo where they are both hot assassins and the father not only encouraged her lifestyle but helped train her?? and the game itself was marketed with emily on the cover. trailers with /her/. not corvo. that she is a respected woman in a relationship with a nb person and is also friends with a disabled bi woman of color and this is all wrapped up in the most perfect game in the world where the developers are great people that listen to player feedback? that admit that they did some shitty things in the first game that are problematic. and that this company and game is real and it deserves our praise and worship. dishonored. its the dream.

  • Reita: Happy birthday Ruuukiiiii!
  • let’s booze it up ! ! everyone, make some noise!
  • Aoi: do you remember?
  • those days we were both riding a bicycle in the freezing cold and talked about our dreams.
  • do you remember?
  • the day you praised me for the first song I wrote.
  • do you remember?
  • the day I opened the mustard and it gushed out on your nose.
  • there are so many memories but I just wanted to tell you this.
  • happy birthday 🎂

It’s so frustrating when people are like “why dont you like it when girls pretend? They’re being pro gay!” Like lol hunny, a straight person told me “maybe youre the real homophobe.” We hate it because our lives are more than your erotic fanfiction. We are not being properly represented when you are shipping two straight boys together for “a sinful, taboo relationship.” We’re not going to sing your praises when you’re shipping kpop stars for your fangirl yaoi dreams, fetishizing peoples cultures and ethnicity for your ships. We are real people, with real feelings, stop shipping us, stop telling us one of us has to be the masculine one and the other has to be the feminine one. That even while you’re being so “progressive” youre still tying us down to a heterosexual relationship. Stop, just stop.

In my dreams

In my dreams im pretending
im writing sonnets
praising the stars in your eyes
then i wake up
and see you glowing like a golden angel
next to me
and happiness gets hold of me.
Lion hugs are all i need in the morning.
Thank you for loving me unconditionally.
One day may my dreams come true
so i can wink with medusa eyes at the Pulitzer prize :)
before im getting too battered
to give a flying duck about stars prizes or sonnets.

I love you more than my scribblings can describe.

2016 a.k.a Bangtan’s year


  • We followed the journey of our youth which gave us happiness after the sadness ->  The Most Beautiful Moment in Life: Young Forever
  • We matured a lot, found new questions and we were able to see the member’s new side too -> WINGS
  • and finally RUN the single arrived to Japan too, sharing the memories with other language too ~

Variety shows:  this year our boys got more chances to shine and show everybody else their colourful personalities, their brain, and how they have fun not just among themselves :) 

  • Vhope’s Star king’s appearance :D
  • Run BTS was still going on guys….yepp yepp in the beginning of the year :D
  • Jihope played interns and made pants for charity work ~ ( which sold out really quickly and on a good price)
  • for chuseok special Seokjin showed his cooking skills and although he couldn’t participate for long because of his shcedule he still earnt so many praising words
  • Same Bed, Different Dreams Hobi occured :D 
  • Taehyung and Minjae Bromance broadcast ~ 
  • Jungkook and Minho Bromance [ shy kookie was so cute]
  • Star King with Hobi, Jimin, Namjoon ( ahw I can’t forget when Jimin got so shy ><)
  • Running Man: finally their dream came true :D
  • Flower Crew with Jungkook
  • after problematic man Namjoon appeared at a new show, New Boy with older actors, mcs, singers and showed his clumsy adorable side 
  • the whole team appeared at the SHOW 360 and caused so many funny moments :D + showed their cheesy acting skills in the short films which were made for this show hahah :D
  • Cultwo show [well its a radio program hmm.] but savage Jungkook with Jimin’s pepper…I mean…yeah….
  • ISAC twice with many medals ^^ and the throne for running is still theirs :D
  • and not lastly BON VOYAGE for the 3rd  anniversary~ just thinking about it my smile spreads ^^

The world is not small ^^ 

  • Concerts (+ fanmeetings): Japan, Abu Dhabi, France, Los Angeles, New York, Taiwan, Korea, Taipei, Macau, Nanjing,Osaka, Nagoya, Beijing, Manila, Bangkok, Tokyo  
  • Tour: EPILOGUE!
  • Pyeongchang Winter Olympics Concert


  • Puma
  • Smart
  • BBQ chicken

Meaningful dates:

  • 8th of March:  BTS 1000 Days Debut 
  • 7th-8th of May: Epilogue concert Olympic Hall
  • 13rd of June: Anniversary with Bts festa
  • 12th of November: 3rd Muster
  • 12th of December: Hwarang first ep.

Meaningful numbers: 

Bangtan has

  • 4 million followers on Twitter
  • 3 million [ almost 4] followers on V app
  • and  400,000 members on fancafe


  • Melon:  Top 10 artist + Album of the year 
  • Melon popularity awards  17th and 24th of October
  • Mama: Best dance performance male group + Artist fo the year -> DAESANG!!!
  • Golden Disk Awards: Disk Bonsang
  • Seoul Music awards: Bonsang 
  •  Gaon Chart K-Pop awards:  K-Pop World Hallyu Star Award
  • Korean Popular Culture & Arts Awards :  Cultural Minister Award
  • Asia Artist Awards :  Best Icon Award, Singer +  Best Artist Award, Male Singer
  • PKCI Awards:  Best Male Artist/Group
  • UK Charts Awards:  Global Artist Of The Year
  • PopCrush Fan Choice Awards :  Best Album +  Best Group +  Best K-Pop Act +  Best Music Video +  Most Loyal Fanbase
  • SBS PopAsia Awards :  Best Song
  • KBS World Radio :  Best Boy Group

               RUn [ in the beginning of the year]:1 win / FIRE: 3 win   // BST: 6 win

And I still didn’t mention how many records they broke~

“I remember that night, I just might regret that night for the rest of my days.
I remember those soldier boys tripping over themselves to win our praise.
I remember that dreamlike candlelight like a dream that you can’t quite place,
but Alexander, I’ll never forget the first time I saw your face.
I have never been the same, Intelligent eyes in a hunger-pang frame,
And when you said “Hi,” I forgot my dang name, set my heart aflame, ev’ry part aflame”

I’m addicted to Hamilton alright. I told my friend I’m gonna spent the whole week on drawing characters from the show in this style so here’s Angelica. I think the next one will be Eliza but who knows *shrugs*

Also, today’s her birthday, so happy birthday to her, right.

Alex Eliza Mariah

John Laurens version of satisfied

A friend reminded me how cool it would have been to have John singing/rapping a version of satisfied at Eliza and Alex’s wedding.

So I wrote it. She wrote the first fundamental truth and the first rap paragraph so shout out to becca.


okay okay okay! Everyone settle down! Everyone put your hands together, for the best man, John laurens!

A toast the groom!
To the bride!
From your best man
Who’s always gonna hide
All my feelings
In the hope I won’t get tired
Of trying
To look satisfied


I remember that night I just might regret that night for the rest of my days,
I remember me and the other boys tripping over ourselves to win the ladies’ praise,
I remember that dreamlike candlelight like a dream that you can’t quite place,
But Alexander, I’ll never forget the time I let you slip away

I have never been the same,
It was end of my life when she took his last name
And when he said hi he felt just the same
But in my brain, I was feeling pain
This is not a game

You strike me, a man you would never throw away his shot
I’m sure I don’t know what you mean, you have lost the plot
Your like me, and I like you a lot
Are you on pot?
Laurens I like you a lot
My name is John laurens
Alexander Hamilton
Where’s your family from?
Im an orphan, but there’s a million things I haven’t done, but just you wait just you wait

So so so this is what it feels like to match wits with someone with a passion what the hell is the catch?
It’s the feeling of fear of blurting it out
Saying my feelings by running my mouth
I feel like a mouse
The conversation lasted for two drinks maybe three drinks
Everything we said was in total agreement
He’s a bit of a dream is a bit of a hunk
And I’ve got no self esteem and I’m gonna get drunk
Im usually a flirt, but today I just shrunk
I asked about his family, did you hear his answer?
he says he’s an orphan, he thought I would flunk, he penniless, but he’s my piece of junk

Handsome, boy does he know it!
Is he straight? I wish he would show it!
I want to tell him i think he’s great
Is saying I’m a gay a risk I can take?

And I’m so helpless

Oh no! I am helpless

Do my eyes say helpless?

Then I realise three fundamental truths at the exact same time

Angelica, John is talking to me,
But I’m about to change your life!
If you insist, then lead the way.

Number 1!

I’m a boy where my job in this world is to marry someone who’s a girl,
My fathers homophobic so the thought of me being gay would make him sick,
So I’m the oldest and an abolitionist and my role in the war could make me the straightest,
And Alexander says he like women
Ha! That doesn’t mean I can’t win

Elizabeth schuyler, it’s pleasure to meet you
Another sister?

Number 2!

He’s after her because she’s a schuyler sister, that elevates his status I,
guess dating me was be social suicide,
even though he’s bi,
Now he’s married to Eliza
Now she’s his bride
Nice going John my dad was right, I don’t deserve my pride.

Thank you for all your service
If it takes fighting a war for us to meet it would have been worth it
what is he doing?

Number 3!

I love that man and it will blow my own mind
I have never met a man who is as brave that I could find
If I tell him that I love him
Eliza would be fried
He’d be mine
She would say I’m fine
She’d be lying

But when I fantasise in the trench
It’s Alexander’s eyes
As I romanticise what might have been If was a bigger size
And that told him the sexuality, just said it out right
I need to keep his eyes in my life

To the groom!
To the bride!
From your best man
Who’s always gonna hide
All my feelings
In the hope I won’t get tired
Of trying
To look satisfied

And i know, she’ll be happy as his bride
I don’t know if he will ever be satisfied
I won’t ever be satisfied


No hate please xoxo

naehja  asked:

How is the personnality of Darkness!Dream? His relatonship with his brother?

Darkness!Dream is still Dream–he’s just consumed by hopelessness. After so much time spent in such a drastically different environment (aka Nightmare’s castle), Dream has turned emotionless and… well, his relationship with Nightmare has turned into something unpleasant, as Dream does everything in his power to just please him. Dream would originally let his morals get in the way, but… those vanish with time. Bunched with praise for doing terrible things, Dream turns into one of Nightmare’s playthings.

As for how Nightmare sees the situation? Does he see his brother as another pawn? Or does he still care for him, even if it takes time…? I guess that’s up to however someone decides to interpret it.


Yummy Prosciutto! Praise be to Prosciutto! 
Final settlement:
- the group from The Gray Garden was kicked out the door so they went to the school to play with high school girls
 - the group from The Flame World and The Pitch Black World never came back. Let Lord Prosciutto have mercy on their souls
- the group from the sea was talking with Wadanohara for an hour because she was too nice to tell them to leave.

(I’m sorry, I have no excuse. Also it took more time than I thought)

Day 4 - Your favorite arc in the manga, and why

Most definitely the Dream arc.  How can I even begin to sing the praises of the Dream arc?  Here are only 5 reasons (there could have been so many more) why this arc is my favorite.

1. There is a fucking unicorn in it.  Not just a unicorn, an alicorn–which is the hybrid between a pegasus and unicorn, and therefore infinitely better than both.

2. Everybody is a princess, just as the goddess Naoko intended.  I mean, why the heck not, right?  Be soldiers, be princesses, be everything.  

3. Outers family domestic bliss.  Is there anything in the world more perfect than the loneliest soldiers being utterly happy together?

4. Moon kitties!  Human moon kitties!

5. Mamoru and the Golden Crystal and Elysian and deep connections to Earth and and and!

So there you go, five reasons why this is absolutely my favorite arc.

Don't you know?

*Part of Milarepa’s song as translated from Mila Gurbum by Erik Pema Kunsang, 2001.

Fortunate and noble people,
Don’t you know that the things of this life are beguiling?
Don’t you know that enjoyments are magical displays?
Don’t you know that samsara is in fact nirvana?

Don’t you know that pleasures are just a dream?
Don’t you know that that praise and blame are just echoes?
Don’t you know that perceptions are just your mind?
Don’t you know that your mind is the Buddha?

Don’t you know that the Buddha is dharmakaya?
Don’t you know that dharmakaya is your innate nature?
When you realize this, all that you experience is included within mind.

Day and night, look into this mind.
When looking into this mind, it is not a thing to be seen.
Let be in this state of not seeing.
I do not feel that Mahamudra’s nature
Can in any way be matched.
So, I remain in the state of nonclinging mind.

Meditation and postmeditation are indivisible,
So I no longer have meditation stages.
Whatever is experienced is empty in essence,
So there is nothing for mindfulness to hold or lose.

I have tasted the flavor of nonarising,
And likewise realized its practice.
The training in karma mudra,
The practice of the nadis, pranas, and bindus,
Reciting mantras and visualizing the deity,
Contemplating the four Brahma abodes, and so forth—
These are all ways to enter this Supreme Vehicle.

Even if you were to meditate on them specifically,
It will not suffice to give up desire and anger.
Perceptions are your own mind,
So understand that this mind is empty.

When you no longer part from the experience of realization,
The keeping of discipline, making offerings, and so forth
Are all contained within that.