in my white dress

Postulant Mary Annette, reporting for duty. :)

While the below garb is not the usual postulant look for my House (grey dress, white face, white lips, basic eyebrows and eyelashes), I got permission from the House to do a few fun things for a special fundraiser last night that had an apocaplypse theme. So I went with a black corset, grungy eye make up, purple lipstick (the sister hosting the event’s favorite color), some dark nails, and combat boots. I look forward to later days when I can go hog wild with the make up on such themed nights. After all, I was a theatre student and I love cosplay. ;) So I see a lot of fun looks in my future. Also, my name will make so much more sense when I can do the “look” I have devised for it. “Ain’t no strings on me!”

Also: I learned last night that a corset is a surprisingly handy place to stick a cell phone.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.