in defense of loving him

  • Me: I think it would be really good if Tony died in Avengers 4. It would give a good contrast/callback to his worst fear in AOU, it would allow for Peter to take over as 'the people's hero' archetype with Spiderman, give motivation for future films, and honestly, it would Let Tony Rest.
  • Some anti: lol tony stank deserves to DIE I hope they KILL OFF tony soon
  • Me: anyway like I said I hope tony stark lives forever and outlasts all the other avengers and then imports himself into a computer so he can never die and becomes an Omnipotent God™

When people question why we love Tony Stark, I think for some reason they question why we love this guy. (pictured above) I think they ask why we love the show off, the gambler, the asshole persona that Tony wears in the public eye. 

I don’t love that guy, I love Tony Stark, the guy underneath all that. The guy who has panic attacks that look a lot like mine. The guy who loves his best friend. The guy who takes on all the blame in the world. The guy who uses self depreciating humor as a coping mechanism.

This guy, who does his very best to save everyone he can despite his own struggling mental health. He is my hero, and my fave. 

This guy, this civilian. He makes mistakes, his PTSD pushes him to protect himself, and the planet, and sometimes he moves to quickly. Sometimes bad things happen.

But he is trying constantly to make up for his mistakes, and the sins of those around him. Constantly working to protect his planet and his friends. He’s working through panic attacks, and PTSD to be the best person he can be. 

That is why I love Tony Stark. That is why he’s my hero.

I. Those of us born by water are never afraid enough of drowning. Bruises used to trophy my knees from my death-defying tree climb jumps. Growing up, my backyard was a forest of blackberry bushes. I learned early nothing sweet will come to you unthorned.

II. At twelve your body becomes a currency. So Jenny and I sat down and cut up all our clothes into nothing. That year I failed math class but knew the exact number of calories in a carrot stick. I learned early being desired goes hand in hand with hunger.

III. The last time I tried to scream I felt my father climbing up through my throat and into my mouth.

IV. There is a certain kind of girl who reads Lolita at fourteen and finds religion. I painted my eyes black and sucked barroom cherries to red my tongue. There was a boy who promised Judas really did love Jesus. I learned early every kiss and betrayal are up for interpretation.

V. I think he must have conferenced with my nightmares on exactly how to hurt me.

VI. He never broke my heart. He only turned it into a compass that always points me back to him.

—  Clementine von Radics, In Defense of Loving Him (after Megan Falley)

raphael likes getting his nails and hair done, shopping for suits, ties and belts, probably throwing on some expensive makeup, making fancy glasses of chilled blood because Presentation, being touched by simon, touching simon, warm coffee houses with soft lighting, AB+ blood, reading from the massive bookshelves at the hotel, sitting in his fancy gold armchair, protecting his family, being sarcastic af, talking to elaine lewis, casual conversations with simon, sharing clothes with him, praying, having simon around in general and training him, speaking his native language.

he is so much more than the cold bitter mask he wears. he’s not perfect but he’s not a dark fuck prince either.

This is what a blessing looks like. 

Krasivaya-Chapter 7

Summary: You and Bucky Barnes have been friends for years. You are deeply, completely, in love with the super soldier, but he sees you as nothing more than a little sister. What happens when Bucky starts to date in earnest?

Powers: Think Jean from X-Men with Immortality and Logan’s healing powers

Pairings: Bucky x Reader, Bucky x OFC

Warnings: Smut, Angst, Self-Esteem issues, Depression?, Anxiety.

Translations

Zabud’ ob etom- Leave it alone

mne malo- I am not enough

Kak eto ispravit-How do i fix it?

song:Evanescence-My immortal

A/N:Hello loves, I want to apologize for the tags being dooshes, hopefully it’s sorted out now, but thank you all for being so patient with me. and as always thank you to @tilltheendwilliwrite for being an amazing beta, and helping when the writers block sets in. xox

Stepping out of your room, armored thickly against the people you love, you stride into the kitchen. The entire team is assembled, fighting over breakfast as usual. You ignore it, wanting to get down to the gym as fast as possible, but not wanting a lecture on nutrition from Steve you whip up a makeshift breakfast.

“Mornin, baby girl,” Steve greets, making a grab at you.

You avoid his grasp.

He recoils as if stung. “(Y/N)?” he questions, eyes wide and searching.

You ignore the look of hurt on his face as you try and squeeze between Sam and Tony. “Move up please, T,” you murmur.

He shuffles over quickly as Melissa snickers and comments, “Can’t even get her fat ass into a chair.”

The entire room falls silent as all eyes snap to her. There’s a ringing in your ears, Mortification and anger simmering underneath the surface.

“Rein in your bitch, Barnes, before I do it for you!” Nat snaps at him. She whirls on Melissa. “I will rip you to pieces if you speak to her again, even look at her again!” she snarls, eyes burning with rage.

You always seem to ruin the simplest of things. Not even breakfast was safe from the ugliness you brought with you. “Sestra,” you whisper, “Zabud’ ob etom.”

She turns to face you, disbelief written plainly on her face. “Why do you do that? Why do you brush off every insult they seem to throw at you?” she all but screams, rising to slam her hands down on the table, leaning over it, as close to you as she can get without climbing over it..

Rising from your chair, breakfast forgotten in the wake of your rapidly plummeting stomach, you shrug. “Mne malo,” you state firmly, completely missing the heartbreak on Bucky’s face.

Head down, avoiding all eye contact, you escape to the gym. Maybe beating the hell out of something for the next few hours would fill the void which just kept growing in your soul.

Bucky’s POV

He’s dumbfounded. Floundering.

“What did she say?” Steve asks nervously, his eyes boring into Bucky’s.

“She said she’s not enough,” he answers simply, staring into his plate. He knew he’d hurt you. He knew distancing himself from you so he didn’t have to see you with Steve was a stupid move. He regretted it. It had guilt gnawing at him.

Melissa snorts a laugh beside him, not even trying to hide it.

He explodes into action, jerking to his feet so fast, his chair goes over backwards with a crash. “Get the fuck out!”

“Baby?” she squeaks, paling at the sudden anger directed towards her

“Get. The. Fuck. Out! You aren’t welcome here anymore. What the fuck is wrong with you talkin’ to other people like that?” grinding his teeth together “This is done. We’re over”

Nat is beside him in an instant. “You heard him. Get out before I make you. Or better yet, stay. I’d really like to make you leave.” She smiles her widow smile, the one which has the others flinching.

Melissa rises to her full height, her eyes darting between himself and Nat, before they settle on him. “You’re gonna regret this, James.”

He snorts in derision. “I don think so, lady. Leave.”

She glares at everyone before stalking out, slamming every door she can gets her hands on as she goes.

He groans out loud. Fuck he’s a mess. What the hell was he playing at? Jesus, Barnes, he thinks. Guess you could take the words out of his head, but the monster still remained.

“You have to fix this, Bucky,” Natalia says as she quirks a brow. “You’re paired with (Y/N) on a two week mission. Neither of you can afford to be distracted.”

Rubbing his flesh hand across his eyes he murmurs, “Kak eto ispravit’?”

Natasha smirks and shrugs. “You’re a big boy, Barnes. Figure it out.”

He turns to face the rest of the team, ashamed of his behaviour, of the woman he’d allowed into his life, the woman who’d helped drive this wedge between himself and everyone else. He doesn’t even know where to start in his apology, but he knows who he needs to speak to first.

Wanda pipes up quietly, “She’s in the gym.”

He nods once, determined to make you understand what a colossal ass hat he was.

Your POV

You were working yourself hard, sweat pouring down your back, and hairline. You had a mission. You had people to protect. An evil mad scientist to destroy. You needed to get your shit together. It was an undercover op for which you had yet to find out whom your partner would be. Hopefully Steve.

It would be a desperately needed respite from the tension in the compound. You needed the time to clear your head. To build up your defenses against him. To mourn the loss of friendship and love without having his new relationship shoved in your face every time you entered a room.

You hear the footsteps. You know that gait, have scrutinized it for years. Sighing you begin unwrapping your hands. “What do you want, Barnes?” You swear you can hear him swallow.

“I came to apologize. I was such a dick… I don know how to explain it, doll.”

You freeze, the hope flaring in your chest unwelcome.

“I’m your mission partner, doll, and we need ta clear the air.”

You fight the urge to scoff. Of course he wouldn’t want to apologize because he wanted to be a friend or a lover, he just didn’t want to compromise the mission. Was this some sort of sick joke? You were going to murder Maria.

Taking a calming breath, you nod once. “Apology accepted. It won’t affect the mission.” Trying to sound businesslike, when all you really want to do is crawl into a ball or into him, is harder than you thought it would be.

His brow furrows in confusion, an expression that had always been way too adorable for his own good. “Wha? No.. I meant..”

Forcing a smile to your face, you address him before he can speak “Truly, James, it’s fine. I’m fine. I’ll be as professional as I can. None of our personal issues will feature.” Laughing lightly you forge on, “I’m just sorry you have to be stuck on a mission with me for two weeks.” Looking everywhere but at him, you clear your throat. “I need a change of scenery. I’ll see you later.” You make to move past him, needing to get away before you shatter into shards at his feet.

“Krasivaya..” he whispers, hand outstretched.

You tense, a wave of emotion tearing through you, causing you to falter slightly as you stride forward. You pretend you hadn’t heard him, knowing full well you aren’t fooling him, but you don’t have the emotional capacity to deal with a guilty Bucky Barnes right now.

It’s gone balls up, the damage is irreparable.

And it was all… your… fault.

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Why I’m so nuts for YOI

YOI flipped my switch in a big way, in a head-over-heels way, in a Victor-dancing-with-Yuri-at-the-GPF-banquet-and-realizing-this-was-it way, and I’ve been thinking lately about why it is that I love it SO much. There are so many reasons. A million reasons. A gazillion reasons under the cut because I’m not as cruel to stick this much text at once into your dash.

Keep reading

Being Jasper Cullen’s Mate:

Your name: submit What is this?

- Jasper loving you with all his being most passionately and unconditionally. 

“I love you so much, (Y/N).”

“As I, you, Jasper. For eternity.”

- Jasper being thankful for having you to distract him away from his blood thirst. 

- Jasper always knowing of the emotions you feel, almost immediately.

- Jasper soothing you by using his gift when you are angry, irritated, vexed or unhappy, even though he has been told numerous times not to do so.

- Jasper rushing to your side to aid you when you experience severe episodes of depression and anxiety (or any other mental conditions).

- Jasper reassuring you with a sweet smile that he’ll always be by your side to comfort you.

- Jasper always showering you with compliments when your self-esteem is low.

- Jasper being incredibly protective of you, sometimes a little too much and you have to remind him to cool it down as you are still capable of handling yourself.

- Jasper’s Major coming out when you get hurt and he (as the Major) goes wild.

- Jasper easily getting jealously angry of any man who so dares to lay a finger on you. No one touches his mate!

- Jasper constantly looking over to you, checking to make sure you are alright when you, both, are in school.

- Jasper’s eyes always fascinating you as you get lost in them.

- Jasper’s unbelievably sexy, Texan drawl turning you on more than ever, especially when he calls you ‘sugar’ or ‘darlin’’.

- Jasper knowing this and smirking when he feels the lust and arousal coming from you.

- Jasper’s smirk making you go crazy but at the same time, you also want to slap it off of his face for being too distracting.

“(Y/N), did you hear a single word I said?”

- “Maybe…no…I…why does it even matter, Jasper?”

“Because I’m asking you to go to prom with me. Your first prom.”

“Oh. Sorry I got…I was thinking of something else. Ask me again, will you?”

- Jasper also being too distracting when you are trying to study but you are too busy day-dreaming of him.

- Jasper being annoyed yet proud that you beat him in the history exams.

- Jasper arguing with you about topics in philosophy and you, both, get irritated when you hardly agree on anything. And Carlisle having to tell you to break it off.

- Jasper and you reading Shakespearean novels as if you are the characters. His favourite would be Mark Antony and Cleopatra as he regards you as his own queen.

- Jasper introducing you to classical, folk and jazz music. You play him songs by Lana Del Rey, Marina and The Diamonds and Halsey and you are surprised when he says he likes them.

- Jasper and you slow dancing to your own silent music.

- Jasper wrapping his strong arms around your waist, humming softly in your ear.

- Jasper running his fingers through your hair as he kisses you softly. 

- Jasper continuously contemplating whether it’d be a good idea for you to become a vampire.

- Jasper finally agreeing to turn you into a vampire as he sees that he can’t go by another day without you by his side.


When You Become A Vampire:

- You wake up one last time to see Jasper standing beside you to make sure you wouldn’t lose control.

- You getting used to the heightened sense of hearing.

- You possessing the ability to heal as your own supernatural power. 

- You seeing Jasper’s face and body filled with scars. But instead of getting a defensive reaction, they make you fall in love with him even more.

“You aren’t scared of me?”

“No, love. If anything, you are more handsome.”

“Well, I’m flattered that you think so.”

- “Don’t get cocky on me, Hale.”

- You and Jasper having even more incredible make-out sessions than you did before, which lead to other things that include: loud noises, things breaking, screaming, groaning, clawing and lots of moaning. 

- You going on hunts with Jasper as he patiently teaches you how to get used to the ‘vegetarian’ diet.

- You and Jasper racing through the forest because you are so in love with your vampire speed.

- You getting extra protective of Jasper, especially when the Volturi are around.

- You threatening anyone who thinks of hurting Jasper, specifically Jane.

- You laying with Jasper in a meadow of flowers, staring at the skies.

“You and I will last for eternity, my love. As we make the ancient lovers stir in their graves at the awakening of our own beautiful forever. ”

lmao but the amis grew up in the same town right? so grantaire had this ridiculously fucked up crush on enj in 3rd grade and still being in that insulting-your-crush-is-flirting phase he would pick fights w him ALL THE TIME and once he even flat out walked up to enj and slapped hIS BLUE BUBBLEGUM AND RAINBOW SPRINKLES ICE CREAM CONE OUT OF HIS HAND WTF (it was on a school party night so there’s a very beautiful printed pic of the moment too. Enj’s older brother took it. Years later R scanned the pic and made it his fb profile photo with the caption “didn’t they tell you that i was a savage” smfh r)
So the years went by and R grew and read more and became this super artsy boy with adorable hair, a successful art tumblr, ink-stained fingers and a caustic sense of humour while enj became fucking homosexual as fuck he was so over the fuckin moon for R in high school it was a lil embarrassing ay yo enj i feel u tho and so???? he kept getting red in the face and VERY aggressively defensive whenever R addressed him and OFC R was still In Love™ like enj was his first crush and that never faded and????? also Enj kept becoming prettier??? and R kept becoming gayer lmaO but he kept it under wraps bc CLASSIC GRANTAIRE he didn’t think it was even a possibility and that it was insulting towards enj to even deign to hope so he was SUAVE ASF and excruciatingly casual which only served enj’s thirst more HAHAhahahxfnjcocis but anyway fast forward after college grantaire proposes with a blue bubblegum and rainbow sprinkles ice cream cone and fcK me Up bahorel FILMED A 15 MINUTE SEGMENT OF THEIR ENGAGEMENT PARTY A LA SHIA LABEOUF JUST FILMING HIS FACE W TEARS STREAMING DOWN IT i love him