in a very zen way

Zen Wisteria vs. the World

anonymous asked:

what's your favorite thing about zen? 👀

I can’t pick one, but here are the two main things that sparked my interest:
- I find his contradictions very endearing and humane. He’s strong and inspiring but also a lot more ridiculous and goofy than he realizes. He can be aggressive, petty and naggy, but he can definitely be an insightful, emotionally intelligent adult too. He comes off as cocky, but he obivously has a fragile ego.
- He has made some brave choices when he could just bow his head and live a more comfortable (albeit unsatisfying) life. He decided to take risks and he put incredible effort into improving his skills and working towards his goal without the privilege of his family’s emotional/economic support. He worked several jobs during school and lived alone since a young age. He failed, got fired, failed again… he’s driven and passionate and relentless - that’s the definition of “talent”, imho.
I have quit for much less. He’s fictional, but I’ve met people in real life who are just like him (and promptly forgot it’s possible to be like them because taking full responsibility for my success AND failures is so, so scary!).
Zen came in as an eye-opener, a powerful reminder when I really needed one.

I rarely crush on/lust after fictional characters, but to sum it all up Zen is just the perfect blend of inspiring, silly and believable. I have chosen to mostly celebrate the naughty aspect of my interest for Zen here, but that interest is definitely borne of the traits I described above :3

DRAMA! MORE DRAMA, I say! Lol, because there isn’t enough drama on those fics, right?

Breaking up and bumping to each other months later


  • You felt like the only way to know things about him was through the tabloids
  • He was so caught up in work you were living basically a manager-client relationship rather than soon to be engaged.
  • So you quit your role as his manager, and as his girlfriend.
  • Zen wanted to make you think this through and convince you to give him a second chance, but… the new manager that the actors’ agency assigned him booked him for a several gigs out of the country.
  •  So yeah… he just got the whole point of it and realized you might be right, unfortunately.
  • But he kept hearing about you, yeah, you were blooming as a manager for several artists in the country and he was so proud.
  • So as a good manager, you were attending at the wedding of this TV star you were working for.
  • You stayed for the party, but your plan was to stay just a little and then get out. Seeing the happy couple made you think that it could be you and Zen…
  • “Would you give me the honor of this dance?” you heard a familiar voice whispering in your ear and shivered. After all those months, your body reacted to the very same way when he was around.
  • “Hyun….? Zen… what are you doing here?” “I got invited too, I worked with her at a musical a few years ago.” “I see…how are you?” “Feeling a little pathetic for attending a wedding by myself, to be honest.” “Tell me about it.”
  • “I could, or I could dance with you and then we won’t be two alone people at a wedding.” “Then what would we be?”
  • “A couple trying to start over. So… shall we?” you looked at his hand, then at the beautiful smile you’ve been missing so much… and stood up. “We shall.”


  • His insecurities turned him into a jealous grumpy dick
  • You couldn’t stand all his tantrums everytime you were friendly with Zen or even with his best friend Seven.
  • So you left, saying you were doing this because you loved him and you couldn’t help but think it was your fault he was turning into something so destructive.
  • He cried, begged for you to stay and give him a second chance, he would even apologize to Zen and Seven, just like he said he would do and never did all the times you fought.
  • He was becoming destructive, wasn’t he? Yeah, he would never forgive himself if he ever hurt you. And he wouldn’t if you stay away.
  • The first two months were hell, and it was so hard not to call you or even go to the same places you usually go just so he would pretend to bump into you, because that would be exactly one of the reasons why you left him.
  • But life goes on. He started dedicating more to college and a few weeks later, even going out with his colleagues.
  • That night, he went out with Seven and Zen to a karaoke bar, he wasn’t going to sing and felt it was kinda lame to go there, but Zen and Seven coaxed him into going.
  • And he wanted to kill them when he spotted you walking into the bar with some girlfriends. But… it was so good to see you.
  • “That’s your chance, dude! Show her how much you’ve changed!” Zen encouraged him. “Yeah, dude! It’s showtime!” Seven beamed and started a chant “Go, Yoosung, go!” quickly, all the bar was singing “Go, Yoosung, go!” the whole bar, including you.
  • So he went to the stage. “I… uhm… dedicate this song to a very special lady I… love very much. I also dedicate to my good friends who helped me changing to be a better man for her.”
  • Then it was his time to start a chant of “Go, MC, go!” trying to convince you to sing a duet with him. And so you went. You also went to his place that night.


  • Honestly, sometimes you would even doubt you were on a relationship
  • You could see you were business partners and roommates, but lovers? It didn’t look like.
  • You realized that after telling her you should split the relationship and the partnership up, and the only thing she asked you was “What about the café?”
  • It would be fine without you, she would be fine without you.
  • You were half right, the café was fine after a few months, she wasn’t.
  • But the fear of being rejected kept her refraining from trying to contact you. She overcame so much before, she can overcome a break up… right?
  • You were at Starbucks with a friend, the place brought you some nostalgia when you remembered you would come here with her and make a very weird name up for them to write and call you.
  • You smiled, it was the first smile you let out that it didn’t feel fake for months.
  • So you decided to play this little game once more.
  •  “Miss Piggy!” the barista calls, and you mindlessly reach for your cup, only to feel another hand holding it.
  • You look to find her staring at you. “J-Jaehee, hi!” “You must be mistaking me from someone else, I’m Miss Piggy, see?” you both chuckle, and just by that simple phrase you notice a glimpse of the playful sweet Jaehee you fell in love with.
  • “Ah yes… I’m sorry, Miss Piggy.” She laughs, ahh, you missed that laugh… “Can I make it up to you with a Muppets movie marathon at my place?”


  • You tried to be patient, but he could be… pushy.
  • He wanted you to move in with him, you weren’t exactly comfortable with the idea yet, so he would get passive aggressive and make you feel bad, even when you knew you were right for not rushing things.
  • You loved him, so it hurt to give him an ultimatum, and it hurt even more when he ignored it, saying he wasn’t going to stop taking this relationship seriously.
  • So you left, because you clearly had different points of view on what “taking seriously” means.
  • He pretended he was fine, and he was pretty convincing, Years of pretending everything is fine made him an expert.
  • But he wasn’t, and Elizabeth was dealing with a very clingy owner for the last few months.
  • Being a cat mom, he knew cats demand their own space, but he was so afraid of losing her like he lost you…
  • Being a cat, she didn’t know any of this, so running away was her first instinct. He was desperate when noticed she was gone, this was too much, he lost the loves of his life and he was the one to blame!
  • Jumin was freaking out when he got a call from you. “Jumin… why is Elizabeth standin at my door?”
  • Ah yes… your apartment, the one you didn’t want to move out from not even after he insisted a lot  and made a whole scene, questioning you if you weren’t taking the engagement seriously. God… he was acting so pushy, right? “It seems like she remembered the way. She likes in here.” “Well, yeah, it’s a nice place.”
  •  “Of course it is, you live in here, I would run to where you are at anytime like she did.” Was this… an apology on Jumin Han style? “Well, yeah, so… why don’t you come in?”


  • Guess what? He started pushing you away again.
  • His brother was having episodes, he was feeling guilty and taking it out on you, just like he promised he wouldn’t do ever again.
  • And you wanted to stay and help, but what do you do when someone doesn’t want your help? Worse, when someone calls your attempts of helping “useless”?
  • Since it was useless, he wouldn’t miss you.
  • And he pretended he wasn’t, but even his brother noticed how the atmosphere in the bunker was way less lighter without you around.
  • Saeran was missing the brother he got used to see when he was with you, and Saeyoung was desperately missing you.
  • But how many times will you guys do this? No, at one point you’ll get tired of taking him back, so… he’ll save the trouble and not look for you, because he knows you will forgive him. And he doesn’t deserve your forgiveness, he doesn’t deserve you.
  • Time has passed, Saeran got a little better and could stay alone in the house while Saeyoung would take his babies on a drive. He was basically obsessed over the babies ever since… you know.
  • He was so distracted, thinking about… you know, when he felt a crash, he hit on somebody’s car. “Shit! I’m sorry, I…” “Saeyoung?” you asked when he got out of the car. Oh… he hit your car.
  • “I called the tow truck, they will take some time to come.” He explained after talking on the phone. “Ahh, great! Like this day couldn’t be any more perfect!” you groaned in sarcasm.
  • “Why? What happened?” he asks, you scoff “Like if you cared.” He grabs your hand and looks at you “I care so much about you you wouldn’t even imagine.” So you guys start talking, you vent, then he vents and opens up, like you always wanted him to.
  • “So is your brother better now? Are you sure it’s fine to leave him alone?” “I texted him I was going to get late and that I met you, he replied: ‘Go for it or I’ll punch you’ so… yep, he’s fine.” Well, you’ll go for it you definitely don’t want him to get punched…

anonymous asked:

This is not a prompt and I know you usually don't do asks... but! just in case: the finale is really messing up with my mind. The idea that she talks to him every day and he probably doesn't know she is alive is too much for me. What worries me the most is the idea of Bellamy getting romantic with somebody in the ark, given where the storyline is going do you think it's a possibility? How do you see things panning out?

In general, you’re right, I don’t do much speculation of this type, and I’m afraid I’m not going to start now. But here are some things that I consider to be important and good:

  • That was not a finale you write unless you care very, very deeply, about the relationship between Bellamy and Clarke. 
  • Clarke doesn’t really have a non-Bellamy love interest other than Niylah, and Niylah hasn’t ever really been treated like a love interest so much as a FWB. Obviously it’s possible they could leave her single or give her a new love interest from a number of places, but I think the lack of an extant obvious person is probably a good thing, in terms of Bellarke.
  • I also think their being separated makes it much more likely that the show is, if nothing else, considering making Bellarke canon. If they were together, they’d have to deal with their relationship in the Ark, with the following possible outcomes:
    • They get together during the time jump (unsatisfying)
    • They do not get together during the time jump and their relationship is at its current level for six years, and then they get together once they get back to Earth (bizarre and probably also unsatisfying)
    • They do not get together over the time jump because they are not interested in a romantic relationship and enter S5 as Firmly Just Friends (ugh)
    • They do not get together over the time jump because they have a Huge Falling Out and have to learn to be friends again on Earth (probably the most interesting of these but also like wtf why)
  • So being separated basically allows the writers to delay making a decision about whether or not they will be canon, whereas I think that leaving them together would have necessitated making that choice, and necessitated it in ways that would not be promising for the ship. I like the time jump, and as much as the sadness both of them are doubtless feeling during their separation hurts me, I much prefer it to the alternative, from both a story and shipping perspective.
  • Our cliffhanger was literally Clarke calling Bellamy EVERY DAY because she misses him so much and Bellamy being in actual mourning, so there is every reason to believe we are getting a fucking EPIC reunion.

On a broader note, I come from the old way of fandom, and from the old way of slash fandom, especially, where we never really expected our ships to become canon, and just sort of assumed every important conversation involving our OTP would end with some variation on “no homo,” so I get that my perspective on this is probably different from some people’s. Will I be frustrated if Bellamy and Clarke don’t mash their mouths together at some point? Yes, I totally will. I desperately want them to mash their mouths together, and I do think it’s pretty possible that they will. But my shipping of things has never really taken becoming canon as a very important factor in how much I enjoy them, so I am much more likely to think of all the reasons it might not happen to keep my expectations low than try to reassure myself that canonization is coming. So I’m not a good resource for that kind of reassurance.

But that also means what I mostly think about is all the things that will make me happy aside from actual face-mashing, and that finale was basically non-stop Bellamy and Clarke love each other so much, holy shit, with every indication that S5 will continue with that. And that is 900% what I’m about.


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anonymous asked:

RFA + V and Saeran if they were datinf an MC was the type of person who casually says "I love you" to their friends but they mean it platonically? Bonus points if they say I love you direcrly to another RFA member/V/Saeran.

A/N: im pretty sure y'all have noticed but I’m the same way ^^;;; I CANT HELP IT AAAAAAAAAAA ~Admin 404


           -He does it too!!

           -He just really loves everyone!!! except v fucking rip

           -But it does bother him a little bit when you do it

           -You’re the first person he’s truly loved in this way!!! So deep down….he kind of…only wants to hear you say it to him?

           -But NEVER makes a big deal about it! Because! FRIENDSHIP!

           -Except he does get a little protective when you say it to V

           -Because he says it back?? He gets the V is the same type of person who loves everyone but?? Don’t say it to his MC

           -Deep down he knows it’s just platonic, but V is….V

           - slight yandere yoosung?

           -Pouts whenever it happens and you have to kiss his nose so he focuses on being flustered rather than jealous


           -500% all for expressing his love for you

           -Which means he’s 500% all for you expressing your love for him



           -Says he’s not jealous

           -Is completely jealous

           -When you tell any of the members that you love them, he’s practically sliding in front of you

           -“But…you love me most, right?”

           - no shit, sherlock

           -Not ashamed to show he’s jealous, you’re often held against his chest as he gets very animated in his arguments over you


           -She doesn’t really… care?

           -She just thinks it’s something you say, she doesn’t think you actually mean it

           -Of course, that just depends on the situation

           -But usually, she’s aware that you say it when you’re really happy with the person!

           -Don’t worry MC, she knows when you say it to her, you absolutely mean it

           -Actually thinks it’s absolutely adorable!!!!!!

           -Loves that you care so deeply for others, and wishes she could match your passion

           -Lowkey uses the fact that you say it to others as an excuse to do it too

           -When you tell Zen you love him, she pops up and agrees



           -Stop that

           -He’s very bad at expressing  emotion so he can’t really understand how you can freely say those words?

           -It took a lot of thought and understanding of himself to tell you that he loves you, but you….say it….to everyone?

           -Does that mean you don’t love him as much as he loves you?


           -You have to explain that you just love your friends in a different way!!! So you do love them! Just not how you love him

           -After a while, he learns to love that you’re so loving to everyone! You’re so warm and inviting!

           -Hates when you say it to Zen though

           -Zen is a nuisance in his eyes and he hates how he gets flirty and thinks he can say it back to you

           -Immediately pulls you into a passionate kiss or holds you incredibly close, you’re his MC, he won’t let Zen send his flirty-germs your way


           -He’s very insecure about himself so

           -That means he’s very insecure about why you love him

           -He’s usually okay when you tell others that you love them

           -He could tell from the very beginning that you were the type of warm, kind-hearted person to love everyone until they do you wrong

           -Tries to say he doesn’t tell everyone he loves them but you have screenshots of him telling Yoosung and Zen that he loves them

           - and possibly a video of him saying it while drunk, that he doesn’t know about yet

           -Once, when the two of you and Yoosung were hanging out, you told Yoosung that you loved him, and you totally meant it platonically, and he knew that!

           -But Yoosung is easily flustered, so he turned bright red before saying it back

           -Saeyoung immediately gets an unamused look on his face

           -He surrounds you with his hoodie, shielding you from Yoosung while he keeps the unamused look on his face, he even attempts to walk the both of you away but you kept tripping due to the fact that yoU COULDN’T SEE, SAEYOUNG, MOVE YOUR HOODIE


           -He’s the same way!!

           -Just wants everyone to know how much he loves them!!

           -Has absolutely no problem with you doing it

           -Lowkey prefers that you do it

           -Because that means he’s not the only one doing it!



           -Never jealous! Like, ever! They say it back to you and he’s just like, “Hey same”

           -The two of you are literally rays of sunshine omg so cute

           -Y'all just go love everyone, it’s okay, you guys do you <3



           -WHAT ABOUT ME, MC

           -Took him A L O T of time and courage to tell you he loves you

           -What the fuck MC

           -He’s seen how bubbly you are with others, so he just kind of assumed you’re the type to tell everyone just how you feel

           -Gets a little insecure each time it happens, and you have to reinsure him that it’s okay!! You love him in a way you couldn’t love anyone else



           -LET GO OF HIS MC, IDIOT BROTHER. He’ll pull you away and hold you completely against him, shooting a h u g e death glare at his brother

           -You have to shower him in affection! Lots of kisses will take his jealousy away..after a while

anonymous asked:

Can I request RFA+Saeran with a MC that refuses caresses because she feels disgusted with herself? Body and personality. I know this is kind of sad but I hope you can do it. Can you focus on Yoosung more please? Thank you.

Of course!! Thank you for requesting, anon~ I hope that you are feeling okay with yourself :( I know generalized positivity doesn’t help everyone *I’m not too big on it, myself!* But I hope that you do not stress too much over yourself..I often feel this way too, but, I always try to make myself feel better with something! Like reading or writing or drawing or..anything! 
I hope my headcanons are able to help you feel more at ease..not just with yourself, but with any stress you may be experiencing..Have a good day, nonnie!

*Again, taking the Keep Reading off for now to see how people like it! If it starts to bother anyone, then please let me know! I will try my hardest to cater towards everyone..!*

***Very long post*** Apologies for any typos!!

*Important for whoever is reading!*
So, I decided to try something new. I’m aware that not all people would handle this situation the same way, so I tried to do different personalities? For instance, you are more blunt in Zen’s headcanons, very scared and upset in Jumin’s, a bit flustered and panicky in Yoosung’s, and so forth. I did this so that I could cater to different personalities, as, like I said, not everyone would be afraid but not everyone would be straightforward when handling it! 
This may be something I continue to do in the future, but, for now, thank you for reading~ I hope you enjoy the headcanons..!


  • Yoosung’s taken notice so far of all the times he tries to touch you for prolonged periods of time
  • He’s a touchy person! He can’t help it. But he sees all the times you shy away from him; you lean in the other direction, you shift uncomfortably, you find an excuse to get up and walk away, or you just flat out shake your head and pull away from him.
  • He always tries to say something, but stops himself. 
  • But there is one morning where he decides to speak up.
  • He goes to hold you, putting his hands on your waist just to nuzzle into your neck, but again, you yank away from him, turning away to finish making your coffee. 
  • You hear him sigh, and you wish you could just..let him be physically affectionate but it really isn’t that easy
  • It’s not as simple as a “I love you for who you are” or “Your body is perfect to me”
  • It’s like anxiety; any type of “logical” explanation that someone could give you..It just..doesn’t work. These feelings don’t just go away magically when certain words are spoken. You wish they did, but..they don’t.
  • “MC.” He says it with a slightly disappointed tone. But he isn’t disappointed. He’s scared. Do you not like him anymore? Does he not..touch right? Is he just not physically attractive to you? 
  • No, no..Please..It isn’t that..I wish I could tell you..
  • “Hm..?” There’s no avoiding this now. You know it.
  • “Why…why don’t you let me touch you..? I just..want to hug you..y-y’know? And..A-Am I not good enough? I-I-I can do better if that’s what you want, I-! I..I-I’m sorry I’m not like Zen..”
  • You want to cry, honestly. “No, no! That’s…no..It isn’t you, Yoosung, I promise..” The tears prickle and sting at your eyes. “It’s…I just..I don’t like myself, okay? I know you..might..but..I just don’t like the way my body is, I don’t like..anything about myself, my weight, my height, my voice, my..face all around, I just..don’t..”
  • He looks a little horrified
  • Oh no.
  • “But..I do..”
  • “But I don’t!!” You don’t want to snap, but you kind of can’t help it. “Yoosung, I..I don’t…Even if you do, it’s more difficult on my end..”
  • “But..” Yoosung is literally at a complete loss for words. He’s starting to have an inner breakdown because he feels like he should know how to handle this. But..he doesn’t. If you won’t take his word for it, and he isn’t allowed to touch..then…how..? He’ll try once more.
  • “Y..Y’know..I..I-I don’t..really like myself either..I’m not tall or..or muscular like Zen..I’m like Jumin or..really smart like Jaehee and Seven..I just sit around and play video games all day..It’s kind of the same thing..But..I let you..I let you love me..because I trust me love you, MC..”


  • Zen is very confident in not only the way he looks, but who he is in general.
  • This does not help you.
  • And Zen is…extremely physically affectionate. Not only that, but he’s just a little oblivious to the fact that you’re insecure
  • It isn’t that he doesn’t pay attention! He really does, he just doesn’t always notice that you behave a little differently when he touches you. 
  • Sometimes you try to avoid it a little, but other times you just let him do things like hug you and cuddle you despite the fact that it makes you uncomfortable
  • ^^This is something you’re terrified to tell him about because you’ll know he’ll be upset. Not with you, but with himself for having hands on you when you didn’t really want it. Even though he didn’t know, it’s still going to make him feel like a jerk
  • You’re waiting for him backstage at a rehearsal, and when you hear the director tell everyone to wrap it up, you know he’ll be back there to greet you soon.
  • Sure enough, there he is.
  • “Jagiya ~ How was I?? Good, right??” He goes straight for your waist, pulling you towards him and kissing your head. You purse your lips as you start to walk with him towards his makeup trailer. 
  • You get there and you sit on the bed, as you normally do. Things are going as usual. But Zen walks over again, resting his hand on your thigh and starting to speak, ready to tell you about something, whether it be annoyance with a co-star or anything like that.
  • But you stop him, grabbing his wrist and gently moving his hand away. “Zen..I..really gotta get this out to you. I’m not gonna beat around the bush about it anymore, I just..I don’t like being touched, alright?” You make sure to keep a soft tone. You aren’t mad at him, at all, and you want him to know that. “I know you’re confident about yourself, and it’s cute, it is! Me though..not so much..I’m just trying to sort some things out so if we a little calmer with all the touching, that would be..better..right now?”
  • He’s silent at first, staring at you wish a surprised expression. “O-Oh! Yeah, that’s okay! Gosh..I was really scared that you were gonna yell at me for something..” He laughs. “Yeah ~ That’s alright, babe..Jeez..You should have told me sooner! I wouldn’t have been mad! I mean..I don’t really think you have anything wrong with you-”
  • “Zennnn…” You raise an eyebrow at him.
  • “Okay, okay! Sorry, sorry…~ Ease up on the touching..If it’s for you, then I can do that ~” 


  • Jaehee can usually tell right away when something’s up. 
  • However, you always have a way to dismiss it when she asks.
  • “MC..Is something wrong?”
    “No! I’m okay~” 
  • She trusts your word so that she doesn’t pester you.
  • However..Lately, things have been a little different. Jaehee is not a person who’s that big on physical affection, as it is, so it’s a little harder for her to notice when she hasn’t seen signs. Since she isn’t a big toucher, you don’t get very uncomfortable in front of her.
  • She’s tried a few times, though, and can..kind of guess, actually.
  • But she always tries to leave it alone. She’s torn between “That’s her/his personal business..” and “But I love her/him..So should I ask..?”
  • She’s still getting used to the fact that she doesn’t have to always be so formal and professional with the person she loves, so this is a battle inside her mind.
  • She brings it up casually over dinner though.
  • “MC?”
  • You look up, and she speaks again. “May I ask you something?”
  • “Of course..”
  • “Are you..uncomfortable with being touched?” 
  • You don’t answer for a moment, mainly because you’re caught off guard, so she clears her throat as she blushes with embarrassment. “S-Sorry..That..wasn’t very appropriate to ask..Carry on..”
  • “No, it’s okay, Jaehee..Um..yes..I just..well, I don’t that makes sense. makes me really..uncomfortable..if anyone touches me..Does that..sound stupid?”
  • “Of course not..” She smiles. “I’m glad you told me, MC..I will refrain from touching you too much, then, until you begin to feel better about yourself. I love how you are..But, I won’t force that onto you..If anything at all that I can do to help you gain a better perception of yourself, then please..tell me..”
  • (Usually Jaehee is the most difficult to write for me. I feel like I’m not good with how I write her reactions and personality, but, this time, she was surprisingly easy? I feel like she would handle this situation really calmly..)


  • Jumin can be awfully touchy at times. In public, he likes to have his arm around your waist. At home, he likes to sit on the couch with you and have you close. Jumin always likes to be physically attached to you in some way shape or form.
  • However
  • He’s also extremely good at reading people
  • You tend to move away in a subtle manner when he gets touchy, but, it doesn’t matter. You can be as subtle as possible and Jumin always notices. Which is why, when you do this, he doesn’t try again at that time.
  • He doesn’t suspect that it’s a deeper issue than him simply catching you at the wrong moments. Not for quite some time, anyway. But when it becomes a constant happening, he starts to get a little bit suspicious that there’s more than what he knows.
  • He has no clue what it could be, but he knows there’s something. 
  • He calls you over to the company building one day. He’s going to ask you about it in his office. He would wait until he gets home, but, frankly, he doesn’t feel like doing so. 
  • He doesn’t expect you to show up to his office in tears with the receptionist from the lobby. He immediately stands up.
  • “What happened??” 
  • The receptionist speaks for you. “Two of the guards demanded to search her/him,” she says, “I recognized her/him as your spouse and stopped them as soon as I could.”
  • The receptionist can tell he’s confused, but he looks more angry than anything. He confirms this when he says: “I want their names, positions, and I want them in my office before they clock out tonight.”
  • “Yes, Mr. Han.” She leaves the office, and Jumin shuts the door with a sigh, moving to hold you. This only makes it worse though, and you gasp and pull away.
  • “I-I don’t like people touching me..They had their hands all over me a-and I don’t…I don’t like it, I’m uncomfortable with the way my body is and on top of that, I don’t..I don’ them and I don’t know what I did, why did they touch me..?” 
  • So that’s it. Anyone would be uncomfortable to just be searched randomly for no reason at all, but, he catches the phrase “I’m uncomfortable with the way my body is” and locks it into his mind. To avoid worsening the situation, he simply puts his hand at the back of your head, bringing you as close as he can. He’ll bring it up later, but now is not the time. “I’m not sure. But you shouldn’t worry. They won’t work here for much longer..” 


  • Seven’s had his fair share of times where he’s insecure, and you know that. But Seven’s never worried about you touching him, never worried about being himself around you, or anything like that,’s a little different.
  • Seven’s been working on his emotions though. Over the course of your relationship, he’s been doing amazing with telling you whenever he feels down about something.
  • After weeks of trying to convince yourself to repay it, you finally get the courage to do so.
  • “S..Saeyoung..Can to you about something?” 
  • He spins around in his office chair to face you. “Hmmmmmmm?”
  • You approach him, a little nervously. Well, no, scratch that; very nervously. “There’s…something I’ve been meaning to tell you…and I really need to..get it off my chest..Because, you haven’t..been hiding your feelings from me so I think it’s only fair..So..Is that okay with you?” He nods, listening closely for the words that follow. “Okay..well..I’m not who I am right now..I don’t know how I’ll get past it, but, my body and..overall personality just aren’t exactly..sitting right with me, y’know? I just don’t want you to feel like it’s your fault if I’m not really okay with..being touched or..felt on or..anything like that. It isn’t you! I just..” You sigh. “I just need a little time to get right with myself before I start to feel better know, cuddling or..feeling..You’re not..mad are you..?”
  • He hums, smiling as he shakes his head. “No~ You should know that..! 707 will remember ~ Hmm..No cuddling yet..? I can do that, I think. Can I hold your hand?” 
  • You start to grin as you nod. “Yes..I think that’s doable.”
  • “Can IIIII..touch your hair..? Too much..?”
  • “Hmmm..Maybe..It might be okay.”
  • “Annnd…Kisses..? Are those okay?” You give him a nod, and he gives you one back. “I’ll remember that..Then, can you come hold my hand, now..?”


  • “Wait..that doesn’t…bother you..?”
  • Saeran is the last person you would expect to be..okay with the ‘not a lot of touching’ rule. But, here he is, shrugging as you ask him the question.
  • You’re a little bit baffled by his calm response. Now, Saeran isn’t someone who’s always trying to get into your pants or constantly needing to touch you.
  • He does, however, often like to hug you and just stand there for a while. Sometimes he likes to wrap his arms around you and rest his head on your shoulder. It’s little things for Saeran. 
  • “Nah..not’s your body, who am I to tell you I should be able to touch it..?” He shrugs once more. “I don’t care.” He looks at you, rubbing the back of his neck. “Well, like..I do care..I just mean that I’m about it..Not that big of a deal..I’ll just..kiss your nose..or something, I don’t fuckin’ know..” He’s getting more flustered by the second, and you can’t help but laugh.
  • “..Okay..” It’s quiet, and you’re left smiling at your lap with a quiet sigh. “Thank you..for that..I really thought you would be mad about it..”
  • “Mad..?” He shakes his head. “I don’t get mad about shit like that..I have this thing called respect..’M not gonna force myself onto you like an asshole..I think I’ll do fine..I don’t like when other people touch you anyway..”
  • “Hmm..then we’re at an agreement, don’t you think?”
  • “Yeh.” You giggle again at his short response, getting up and kissing his nose.
  • “Do you want ice cream, Saeran..?” You call out to him as you walk towards the kitchen. You’re in a..really good mood now..His reaction was..everything you could have hoped it would be.
  • His face now darkened with blush, he growls a little under his breath, annoyed at himself for said blushing. “Y..Yeah..”
(Zen x Mc)

 I´m writing a smut scenario in front of my little sister,in the middle of the living room because some dude broke my window then to burst in my house and then he chased me when I was running to my brother´s room but GUES what! …he really was being pursued by a gang? AND NOW people are repairing my window.

Long story short, I´m writing the last part of the “series”

Requested by @silentdreamsofthedead

Part 1 Seven: Here

PART 2 Jumin: Here

1 YEAR  anniversary

You had to do something spacial and you figure out that you will:

  • Start with a little something something  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°).
  • Make a nice dinner.
  • Then a beer in the roof and see the beautiful view with a little
  • Do little a something something in the roof ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)…
  • Maybe a dance?
  • A message?
  • Finish with a little something something  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°).

In general, you wanted to release “the beast”.

Well…the Idea is that you had a plan.You texted Zen a saying to come early from rehearsals.Everything was prepared and you wait and wait and wait…but he wasn´t coming…

Zen open the main door of the apartment.He kinda knew that you were doing something special today (he knew that yesterday [because now is 12:45 am]  was his anniversary of a 1-year relationship with you.

First, he left his keys on the coffee table and with the sound that the keys made, you woke up and slowly got up from the cozy bed.

When you were sitting on the bed you saw your boyfriend enter to the room with a big smile.

-You made a death glare because WHAT WAS HE THINKING? why did he think that just with his beautiful smile he can repair what he did?

-“Hey mc, I-…” he saw what you were wearing “that´s mine?” he said with a naughty look.

-“Yeah but, will go change” You made your statement and then you got out of the bed making your way to the bathroom. But before opening the door you fell as two bear arms were wrapping around your body.You could feel how your whole body was melting when whispers,his arms were so strong to not let you go from him but very soft to the touch.

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Your naked ass felt the bump that was growing in Zen´s pants and in that moment you wanted to-to … NO NO NO! HE ALWAYS Gets AWAY WITH EVERY STUPID THING THAT HE DOES.You are weak.You were always weak when he touches you like that and now you are really angry.

-“Don´t change…you are perfect like this, princess,” Zen whispers in your ear in a very seductive way.

-”Where were you?” In this moment you felt like better actor a than Zen because you respond in a very cold way when in reality you were so hot inside.

-“Sorry babe…” he kisses you on naked “But …” now he kiss you on the shoulder “I…” finally he kisses you in your ear and he is slowly  lowering his hand from your stomach to between your legs “Ohh…you are not wearing underwear,w ell that makes it easier”

-“Zen!” you took his arms way from you and then facing him you say “Stop! I want to talk because you can’t just forget our first anniversary, then broke your promise of coming early to our house and the getaway and then still get rewarded!”

-Zen walk to a plastic bag and pulled a Book.

-“What´s that?”

-“this is the unlimited edition of [Insert your favorite book/movie/camera/etc]” he hangs it to you.

-“How did you get it!” you said with excitement and censure

-“I took a day off and stand for 8hrs. a  line.I should have told you but that would be ruined the surprise…” He said

-“Sorry, Zen…this is…” You were interrupted by Zen´s harm hug

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-“Don´t be sorry…I love you and I will do everything for you…plus you look really cute when you are angry”

-“I love you too Hyun” with tears of happiness you said

-“Soooooooo…in what were we ?” He said with a smirk

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I couldn't write something more hard.I´m sure that you little fucker are not satisfied so I promise that I will do something naughty or request something. 

Originally posted by shierquiorra-blog

Special Agent 606, Out.If you want to request here are the rules: HERE/Masterlist: Here

ruleofexception  asked:

"Quick, what's the meaning of life?"

“Quick,” Zen said, “What’s the meaning of life?”

Obi hummed, legs up against the back of the couch, head arched back against the cushion. He had the perfect vantage point to see the way Zen’s knee jiggled in frustration beneath the table. “Pancakes,” he decided. “Exactly how you like them.”

Zen’s leg went still. “How I like them?”

“Sure,” Obi grinned, stretching his arms backward so that his knuckles hit the nasty carpet. The lounge was pretty quiet this time of night – just him and Zen, finishing up homework. “That’s the whole thing, you see. Pancakes exactly how you like them. For you, that’s – what? How do you like your pancakes?”

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miyakokurono  asked:

Can I request hc for Zen as a dad, as well as Zen x MC with their daughter (who is named Destiny)family outing/life hc? Thank you~

That sounds really sweet ^^ since I have most experience with small children I wrote it like she is 5 years old I hope that okay -its the cutest age anyway-

  • Zen is the kind of father who is super overprotective over his daughter
  • He will tell her all the time to be careful of men you have to calm him down “She is only 5 years old Zen.”
  • Also treats her like a princess no matter what and the girl will abuse that when ever she can
  • You often have to deal with both of them pouting at you when the girl is not getting what she wants.
  • Zen actually is pouting more then her sometimes
  • When he is too busy with work you team up against him to get him to take a day of -its super effective-
  • Zen was born to tell children bedtime stories but he often overdoes it and makes a play out of every fairytale ever.
  • It ever makes the girl pass out but it ever takes like 2 hours.
  • You let him though since he has way to much fun.
  • On the weekends when Zen sleeps a bit longer your daughter often comes and joins you two in bed -what sometimes is a bit annoying when you have other plans-
  • Zen loves to cuddle the both of you when your daughter had enough of it and runs off to play you see his heart breaking every time
  • You have to make up for it by cuddling him instead what is just as good to him.
  • Since the girl is super cute and comes after Zen she gets a kindergarten love and Zen pretty much dies – in a very dramatic way-
  • You have to be their and mentally support him you have to tell him that all they do is play house together and sometimes hold hands.
  • Zen is in tears still but he gets over it once he hears that his daughter wants to marry him once she is grown up.
  • She wants to become a singer when she grows up but that is fully fine with Zen he loves her singing.
  • You know she will probably change her mind at some point but you let them have their fun -like last week she wanted to become a fairy princess-.
  • Zen has a million pictures of her and shows them to everyone – his favourite one shows her in a fairy costume  and you are also dressed like fairy queen-
  • Loves to treat both of his princesses as much as possible.
  • Zen makes up for the lag of time he has with family trips when ever he can.
  • He loves bringing your daughter to amusement parks and the Zoo but since he also loves to get away from everything once a while you go for a trip in the woods or to a mountain.
  • Zen loves to go hiking even when he has to carry the child after a while , actually he enjoys doing that a lot.
  • Zen just really loves his family so much he is fully happy that he gets so much love from both of you.
  • Totally supports the idea of more children -gets your daughter on board for it too-

Take a look at my Masterlist my requests are open so drop by !

THE CUSP SIGNS - Pisces/Aries

Also known as ‘SCARIES.  Because the prospect of all this is terrifying.

It’s a hard enough life for someone caught between the worlds of the Fish and the Ram.  It’s also really hard for everyone else.

Aries, the sign that always says “I got this, guys!” joins powers with Pisces, the sensitive, connected soul who always questions what she is doing (or, all too often, is crying about it).

The result?  You have a person who thinks too hard about actions when they should just be doing things.  Other times, they disobey their better conscience out of pure impulse.  

Even more so than the average Pisces and Aries, COMBINED, you have someone who really has NO IDEA WHAT THE FUCK THEY’RE DOING.

When they do get their shit together, you get two words: business hippie.  This sign wears Birkenstocks with their business suits, or they skip the shoes altogether.  Shoes or no shoes (or sometimes no shirt) they are probably finding a very creative, intuitive, Zen way to argue with you about what they like to call “your wrongness.”  

Either that, or they have found a perverted way to combine Machiavelli with the tenets of Buddhism to explain why it was totally OK that they didn’t buy you Christmas presents this year.

Wait– why are you nodding and saying that’s OK?  He really convinced you?  That’s your fucking dad.


anonymous asked:

Could I request the RFA finding out that MC's stepfather is verbally abusive and their mother doesn't do anything to stop him? Sorry, I'm having a bad day and my stepfather is an ass. If you're not comfortable writing it, I completely understand. Thank you :)

I’m so sorry. If you ever need to talk, don’t even hesitate messaging me.

In other news I’m watching EXO vines while writing this and I’m laughing my ass off.


  • He had already met your mother, and knew about your real father, so expected good things of your step-father - after all your mother was lovely and she deserved someone just as kind.
  • When the both of you went to your mother’s for dinner, he seemed nice.
  • But when your mother slightly overcooked something, he started shouting out of nowhere.
  • Of course Zen took the situation into his own hands and tried to separate the two of them.
  • Your mother kept saying that everything was fine, but he wasn’t going to let this slide.
  • “How dare you treat such a beautiful mother, daughter, friend, wife this way!”
  • You were very proud of Zen, you knew that you found a keeper.

Jumin Han:

  • Over the years, despite generally not feeling romantic connections with them, he’d developed a huge respect for women.
  • I mean giving birth, periods, makeup, the abuse they face, he felt really sorry for them.
  • He knew to treat you like a queen, and so he presumed that your mother and yourself were treated the same way by your step father.
  • But this wasn’t it at all.
  • He knew that you were to visit your family that evening, and to see you walk in crying was completely unexpected.
  • “Shh.. Shh.. Please just tell me what’s wrong.”
  • When you said that your step-father had been cursing to the both of you, he felt so ashamed.
  • And when you said that your mother was too scared to leave him, he flipped his shit.
  • “What’s his name? Address? I’m going to sue him.”
  • “For what?”
  • “Mistreating my angel and her beautiful mother.”
  • “Jumin I don’t think you can do that.”

Jaehee Kang:

  • Honestly when your mother called and you could hear abuse being thrown in the background, Jaehee was so upset.
  • She’d want to speak to Jumin, and see what he could do to stop it.
  • It clearly put you, and your mother, in pain, so she would do anything to make the both of you happy.
  • She’d comfort you a lot, and offer for your mother to stay with the both of you if she were to leave him.
  • Honestly she’s such a mom it’s a beautiful thing.


  • He really wouldn’t know what to do.
  • He’d see your step-father shout, and just not speak for the rest of the night.
  • A few days later, he’d be brave and speak to your mother on the phone while she was at work.
  • And he’d try his hardest to persuade her to leave him.
  • Even thought your mother would keep refusing, no reason given, he’d still try his best.
  • He’d hate for your family to be unhappy.


  • He would totally confront the father about this.
  • “Woah, woah there mate what did you just say?”
  • And he’d just make it his goal to embarrass your step-father in front of everYONE.
  • “So a little birdy told me that you were yelling at your wife the other day :’)”
  • And your step-father would just refuse all of this.
  • And he’d just laugh at his efforts.
  • He would just drag his reputation through the dirt.
  • And you would both love watching him with a face full of shame.