“I found myself in Wonderland; get back on my feet again.”
You guys, I have some musical auditions coming up, and I have been preparing and working vocally, physically, and mentally for it. This has been a season where I’ve dealt with quite a bit of vocal rejection. That’s not meant to be like “oh poor me, poor me;” but as a singer who’s been trying and trying to make her musical career happen, it can be very disheartening when things don’t work out, especially when you surrounded by family, friends, teachers, professionals and unprofessionals who all have said and continue to say “you have what it takes! You can totally do this! I love your voice! You should sing this or that! They’d pick you up in a heartbeat!” It’s empowering and humbling to hear, but can really be a letdown when nothing happens after you follow other people’s advice in addition to pursuing your advice and heart’s desires. I know that it doesn’t mean I’m a bad singer, it just means the timing is different and I have yet to walk through the correct open door 😊 It’s good to deal with those moments, I know, because they train you and help you prepare for the future. Alas, it can still be difficult sometimes.
This past year, I’ve really been dealing with some insecurity and confidence issues, and I’m trying to overcome those hurdles, because fear does nothing but hold you back from reaching your greatest potential. It’s been frustrating, because I haven’t dealt with this kind of fear since I was 7; a lot of changes have happened, and most of them are good. But with those changes, there have also been new fears triggered that used to never bother me. I guess that’s to be expected when one deals with different levels of chemical and hormonal imbalances.
Therefore, I’m choosing to run head first into my fears and remind myself everyday when I wake up, that God gave me this gift for a reason, and that it will NOT and should NOT go to waste. I will not let it! Screw you fear and insecurities!!!
Anyway, If you guys wouldn’t mind, I would really appreciate any prayers, positive thoughts, and good vibes that you can spare.
I’m auditioning for the role of Mary Poppins in the “Mary Poppins” musical in March, and auditioning at the Palm Beach Opera house in April.
Some of you have known me and followed me for a while, and I can’t tell you how much I appreciate your guys’ love, support, and encouragement. It really blesses me and brings me peace and inspires my confidence. Thank you to my friends and followers, old and new, for your love. I hope you guys have a wonderfully blessed week, and if you ever need a friend to talk to, to rant to, to encourage you, to pray with you for anything, to comfort you, etc. my blog is ALWAYS open to you guys.
Love you all my darlings 🌹❤️🎶❄