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Į̦̪ ̭j͢ư̝̺s̷̱̳̺̦ͅt̯͕̝̩͈̘̜ ̙̮̺̮w͍̻̼̘͎an̖̹̗͈͠ṭ̻͟ ̬͖̮̲̻̲̗t͈͍͎h̦̳̬̹͖̣e͇̻̩̣̰̕m͕ ͖̘͔t͎͉͈̱̺o͕̪̺̼̫ ̰͍ĺ̬o̻̟̯v̙̞̳̜̮̹͜e̳ ͖̪̞̭͢m̨̭̞̬̻̮̱̼e̶͈e̩̬̗͕̥̭͝e̹̦̹̪͢e̫͉͇ḙ̬̹̹̻̥e̴̜̜̬e̱͚͞e͙̭̫̱͟ͅ

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First, it’s not another person. It’s still me… I can control myself then but it’s not easy. Were you ever drunk? Drugs? Almost same thing. (At least Jazz told me this when I talked to her about it)
I also can trigger the transformation myself… but why would I? 1. It hurts (I technically rip my skin of my body…) 2. There is no need to… and maybe never will, hopefully. (There was one in the past but… )

SO let me explain a typical situation my body decides to transform: Imagine a very very dirstressed me. Anxiety overload, if you get me. Then some kind of stupid brain part of mine thinks I must defend myself and my body kinda forces the transformation. Sometimes I can stop it halfway…

But I am really just telling you what Jazz said, so… dunno.

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How come everyone calls my ghost form Phantom? Because it’s a phantom of me…? Did Jazz tell you? This is going on for a while now… well I guess she told you.

I go to school only sometimes… well whenever Jazz drags me there. Twice a week maybe. I don’t know how she handles the excuse notes… I guess she writes them herself. But I don’t know.

And no… yes? I don’t know… Almost… uhm…

anonymous asked:

Have you ever thought that killing yourself won't make things better? I mean, you're kind of... already dead

I never actually thought about killing myself, anon. I am not… allowed. It would be too dangerous.

Besides that… I don’t want to join the ones staring at me at night.