I'm Sorry. (Harry Styles) #4
The next day, for some known reason, I was excited to go back to school, which rarely happens. I was happy. Really happy. I could spit rainbows and give bear hugs to anyone and everyone. Choosing my school outfit for the day, I took a shower first and then brushed my teeth. After putting my clothes on and brushing my hair into a high messy bun, I put on some lip gloss and some eyeliner, and then I painted my nails. I was crappy at painting my nails, but this time they actually looked okay. So I just left them that way and grabbed my backpack, heading downstairs where mom, dad and Keith were already having breakfast. Since I wanted to get to school early, I just took my pancake, grabbed it like a taco, poured myself some apple juice, kissed both of my parents goodbye, ruffled Keith’s hair, and made my way out the door, not before hearing my dad say, “Someone’s in a good mood this morning”
I was, I truly was. You don’t know how happy and relieved I am that Harry and I were talking again. After they left the house, I gave him my new number, since he had the old one, back when I used to have a crappy phone. I got a new one only a few months ago, and my number changed. I didn’t really expected him to text me, but he did. Thirty minutes later after he left. And we kept texting until I got sleepy and told him I was going to bed. When we said goodnight to each other, I found it hard to go to sleep, because I still couldn’t believe Harry was speaking to me. Was looking at me in the eye. Was smiling at me. Was being goofy with me. I missed all of that and I’m glad I’m getting it back slowly.
Hopping out of my car, I checked the parking lot and looked for Harry’s car. I know, I seemed like a stalker, but I just wanted to see him again. And to hug him.
Finally, I spotted it, and I smiled automatically while I made my way inside. I saw my friends sitting on our usual spot, which was under a tree that was located a few feet away from the library. We chose the spot because we like to read, a lot. Comics, YA books, Manga, Horror novels, you name it. The librarian knew this, and she let us borrow a few books every now and then so we could read them, because she trusts that we’ll give them back. We’re actually planning to start a Library/Reading Club. We know we’re not the most popular kids in school, but we do know that there are a lot of students that love to read like us.
“Hey there, Candy Cane” Emily smiled as she saw me approaching them.
I smiled even bigger. “Hey there, Honey Bunny”
“Someone seems happy to be at school” Joseph said, smirking.
“Oh, you know… It’s Friday, so I’m feeling good” I shrugged.
“Right,” Louis rolled his eyes. “You wanna know what I think? I think our friend Henley here had sex”
My eyes widened. “LOUIS!!”
“What?,” he raised his hands in defense. “I was just guessing!”
“Well stop it, you’re horrible at guessing!” I said, glaring at him.
“I know!,” Ray said, raising his hand like a little kid. “I think Henley and Harry were talking”
I couldn’t stop the smile that formed in my face, again. “Ray guessed it, then” Ray said, looking proud.
“Oh, I get it,” Niall interfered. “So Henley ditched us for Harry last night?”
“No, no, I didn’t ‘ditch you’, guys,” I shook my head. “Mom simply prepared dinner for Anne and her family, they came over, they stayed for a while, I thought it was gonna be horrible, but… Harry ended up being amazing”
“And you say you’re not in love with him” Amy muttered quietly.
“What was that?”
“Hey guys, let’s change the subject,” Valerie said, a book in her hands. “I really, really, really, really wanna go out tonight”
“Yeah, let’s go to the movies, since we couldn’t go yesterday,” Emily said, smirking at me. “So Henley, you tell your mom that Emily said no guests tonight”
I rolled my eyes. “Sure, whatever”
“Umm… I can’t go out tonight” Amy said.
We all looked at her. “Uh, yeah you can” Louis said.
“No, It’s just that… there’s a new episode of Sherlock tonight and I don’t wanna miss it”
Niall, Louis and Joseph groaned. “You’ve gotta be kidding me” Niall said.
“Leave her alone, jerks,” I said. “Amy, I’ll record it tonight. You can come over to my house and we’ll watch it together”
“Sounds good!” She said, grinning.
“No way, a slumber party?,” Emily asked. “Then, I’ll go too!”
“Me three, I’m not gonna stay behind, you bitches!” Valerie added.
I chuckled. “Alright, but I gotta ask mom”
Whilst they nodded, Ray nudged me in the ribs, making me jump. I was extremely ticklish. “Look who’s walking around here” he said.
When I looked to where he was discreetly pointing at, I saw Harry, and my heart started to beat faster. He was surrounded by his usual group of friends, and they were all talking and laughing as they walked. Between laughs, his eyes landed on our direction. My heart started to beat even more faster than before. Not able to control my excitement, I smiled big and waved at him. Of course, I expected him to wave back… but he didn’t. He just stared at us for like 2 seconds and then he just looked away, joining the others in the conversation. Feeling my stomach drop, in a bad way, I slowly lowered my hand, my smile vanishing. The others saw it, as well. I heard Emily gasp. I saw Valerie giving him a glare, even though he was almost out of sight. “Oh my God,” Louis muttered. “What a fucking bitch”
“I thought you were on speaking terms?” Emily said, looking at me.
“Yeah… I did too”
“You know what we should do?,” Joseph said. “We should put some mud inside his backpack”
“Or maybe we could throw some of the school’s lunch on his head,” Niall suggested. “I heard we’re having mashed potatoes with vegetables, meat loaf, and apple sauce today”
“Or maybe we could just throw him from a cliff, nobody has to know!” Amy said.
“Alright, stop it!,” I said, all of them quieting down. Staring at them, I said, “If you wanna put something inside his backpack, put a dead fish in it. If you wanna throw some food at him, I suggest oatmeal. And if you wanna throw him from a high place, I suggest the Everest”
Valerie placed an arm around my shoulders. “Just forget about him, Henley. If he doesn’t wanna be friends with us, then he’s missing it”
“Yeah, we’re like so cool” Ray said in a dumb girl’s accent.
“Oh my God, yeah, like, totally!” Amy said, mocking the same accent.
“Yeah, like, literally, I can’t” Emily kept going.
“Like, did you see his shirt?,” Niall said. “Like, so not cool. Hashtag, loser!”
“Oh em Gee, like, he was so not fetch!,” Louis said. “And, like, where’s my Starbucks drink?”
And then, we just started to laugh, hard. I felt better by the time the bell rang, because I still had real friends who care about each other and never turn their backs on anyone.
On lunchtime, I decided to head to the library and do some homework the History teacher assigned, just so I didn’t have to do it when I got home. Since Valerie was in an Art Club meeting, Joseph and Ray were in a Robotics Club meeting as well, Niall and Louis were having lunch, and Amy went off to use a library computer, I came here, where there was almost no one around. So I didn’t waste any time on finishing this homework.
Man, did I hate History class. I had to answer some questions with a book the treacher gave us. A really heavy book. And I was already getting really bored and tired by answering the questions, but I didn’t want to get stuck in my room doing this shit. There were 30 questions, thank you very much.
“Hey” a voice said as the person approached my table.
Confused as to why someone was talking to me, I slowly looked up, staring at Harry as he stood there smiling. “Uh…” Why was he talking to me now? “Hi?”
“What are you doing?” He asked, taking a seat in front of me.
I gave him a blank look. “Harry, what are you doing here?”
He shrugged. “I came to talk to you. Is there a problem with that?”
“I…” Why didn’t I know how to answer him? “Y-you were… Harry when I waved at you, you ignored me, as if you didn’t know me. And now you’re here because you wanna talk to me?”
“Well yeah,” he said. “I mean, I’m sorry I ignored you, I wanted to go say hi to you and the others, I did! But I was just…”
He didn’t even have to finish the sentence. It had already hit me. “Oh,” was all I said, my blood starting to boil. I gripped my pencil harder. “I get it. So, you didn’t say hi to us because you were with your FRIENDS!”
His eyes grew wide. “No! Henley, It’s not like that!”
“Oh, I think it is,” I said, laughing bitterly. “You wanna be friends with us, but you don’t wanna ruin your popular football player reputation! You don’t want the whole school to know that you’re friends with The Losers! That’s it, isn’t it?”
“You don’t want your stupid little friends to laugh at you and kick you off the team, and you don’t wanna go back to being unknown! Wow, Harry, that is just great!”
“You don’t get it,” he said. “The guys, they’re… they can be pretty hard on people. I just didn’t want them to be hard on you guys and start insulting you”
I shook my head, feeling disgust towards him. “You can cut it with the bullshit, Harry, they’re not here”
“I’m not lying, okay? Look, Henley, I’m sorry. I know I’m not being a good friend right now” he said, running a hand through his hair.
“You’re not,” I said, standing up and picking up my stuff. “But, you know what? I’ll make it easier for you. You don’t want to be seen talking to us? Then don’t talk to us at all”
“For God’s sake, Henley, why are you being so difficult?!” He almost shouted as I walked past him.
I turned back to him, glaring at him. “I’m not. You’re just being a dumbass”
And before I could leave, I heard him say some really hurtful words. “Fine! It’s not like I need you, anyways!”
I didn’t look back at him. I stood still for a moment, but I regained some little strength and pushed the door open, not even waiting for Amy to finish. I knew something for sure…
It was official that Harry was one of the biggest assholes in the school.