imagination

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Mingering Mike. Isolation, Frustrations, Get’tin To The Roots of All Evils, Boogie Down At The WhiteHouse, The Two Sides of Mingering Mike, Minger’s Gold Supersonic Greatest Hits, Ghetto Prince Joseph War, You Know Only What They Tell You, Joseph War & Friend: As High As The Sky, Grooving With Mike. Washington D.C. 1970-1975. 

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When you read about Nikola Tesla it’s truly amazing the things he envisioned, and was able to create. He was limited by technology else I think the world would be a tad different right now. Look him up, he was an innovator in every sense of the word.


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7.27.2015

I want to live a full life. And my greatest fear is that I will be stuck/trapped somewhere doing something I don’t like for my whole life… never being fulfilled. That is the problem. I am too afraid to begin because I am afraid of what I’ve projected into the unknown. To be quite honest any life would do for me; I have no preference on how this will go. All I wish for is fulfillment. I know that I could be fulfilled doing anything because I find beauty in everything I do. The problem with me isn’t that I don’t know what I desire, the problem is that I hold the fear (the belief) that I cannot achieve it.

People tell me all the time to remember back when I was little and whatever I loved to do as a child is what I should pursue as an adult… that’s the thing! I wanted to be: a doctor, a surgeon, an actress, a dancer, a singer, a director, an artist, a masseuse, a chef, a comedian, a poet, a writer, a performer in a circus, a midwife, a scientist, an Egyptologist, a marine biologist, an explorer, a student, a teacher, a lover, a fighter… I was interested in everything! And trust me, I’m not over exaggerating.

The problem wasn’t that I didn’t have desire, because I had/have SOOO much of it. The problem is me setting expectations… and of course when they’re not met I become disappointed and depressed. I remember signing up for ballet classes and when I got there it wasn’t even a dance studio. It was just a room with mirrors. There were no ballet bars, or tutus, or windows… just florescent buzzing lights. The teacher was impatient and cold. I remember telling myself to just stick it through this class and that I never have to come back again. But I got so upset I ended up leaving the room to go to the bathroom and ended up sitting in the bathroom for the whole class… the teacher didn’t even notice I was gone.

My life has been what feels like a series of disappointments; one after the other. I live in this beautiful world inside my head but when I come outside and try to accomplish something the dancing sugarplum fairies seem more inviting than the harsh reality. So I end up just giving up and going back to where I’m happy and safe; inside my head. This world wasn’t originally made to be an escape goat. It was just who I was… but as time went on my vivid imagination was like a comforting special stuffed bear or a warm cup of milk.

I never wanted to escape reality. Since the age of five, I remember feeling so heartbroken when all I had left was my imagination. I remember feeling that there had to be more to life than this. So I kept hopeful. But every time I greeted a new opportunity with a smile, my smile was violently slapped off my face. As time went on I stopped reaching my hands out to new opportunities. I just sat and watched as they passed me by. I used to see the world as a series of decisions I could make at every second. The world was full of endless possibilities and most importantly, I saw it was full of magic.

I lost the ability to see the magic in reality. I can still see it from afar but only because I keep myself at a distance. If I were to jump into it I would be filled with terror; every beautiful flower would seem like it was a cruel and sick joke. I want to believe in the magic I believed in whole-heartedly as a child. I want to trust myself. I want to jump. I want to live!!! I’m just so scared.

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